Futbol soccer ^^

so long story short I dated a girl for over 2 years and we broke up like 2 years ago and I had the hardest time getting over her and I always wanted her back and she always told me she was over me etc and she didnt want anything to do with me etc.

I dated many girls during this past 2 years but none became anything serious or I never really like any for real, maybe because I was always thinking about my ex and comparing all the girls that I went out with to her and etc.

Last time I talked to that ex was in march of this year and again telling her I wanted her back ._. and again she just told me she only wanted to be friends.


Well 3 months ago I started a new relationship, one in which i am truly happy and I get along with this girl so good and for the first time in 2 years I am truly happy and I think i might even love her. I finally never think about the other ex and dont miss her etc.

But NOW my ex all the sudden calls me and tells me she misses me ( after 2 years) lol and that she wishes we never broke up and that all the feelings are coming back and what not. we even live in a different country now and she said she is coming to the us in x mas just to try to see me . and Im like NOO wtf I dont want to see you haha dont come over here lol

The catchy thing is I am best friends with her brother and he lives here close to me. so she is arriving here in the US on the 16th to stay with her brother.

now I think what a bitch all the times I wanted her back etc and she said no, and now when she sees that i am finally happy without her she misses me and wants me back what a selfish whore.

Now I know Im going to have to see her, well because her brother is like part of my family my parents really consider him family and shit, and we have a big big x-mas party and obv my parents invited him. since she is going to be here with him she is also coming..so I know this is in some way good for my new relationship because well I havent seen her in a year or so and I need to really know im over her and that just happens when you see the girl. but you never know I am worried that the feeling my come back when I see her to hunt me, fuck hopefuly tha wont happen.

but anyways, what a bitch

hey recently I got very addicted to this application and I have topped all my friends that have it and I need a bit of a challenge... anyone here plays it? I need more friends and competition for this :D

top scores:

tetris solo ( 2 mins) 17568
tetris sprint: 1:32:18
marathon: 678711

ok i ahd a set of problems on a basic physics class and im stock in one help

problem reads:

A crane lifts a 2000-kg mass upwards. if the tension in the cable is 20,000 N, what is the acceleration of the block?

what I did is use
a= f/m = 20000N/2000 kg = 10m/s square

but the answer says its 0.2m/secs square

I know that if I divided 2000N by 500 and get 400 and then 400N / 2000kg gives me 0.2m/sec square but i dont get why at all lol can someone plz explain this to me

my actions, if you read my blog before I had an entry sometime ago asking if I should tell on some dude that hit a car while we were leaving a party.. well anyways I ended up telling on him sometime ago and nothing really ever happened until now.

I get home from the bar today and I find this Message on my aim,

[04:46] dude who hit the car: hey juan remember how u told john that i hit his car??? well me n red a good friends now and i told him how u slept with his gf while they were dating and boooooyyyy does he wanna whoop your ass haha sorry dude but i guess were even now

so mm Im like oh shat drama coming to my life, so who knows whats going to happen now,
I gave some thought to it maybe I can just call her and agree on denying everything as he has no prove plus we can use that he is bitter that I told on him and wanted to try to get back to me somehow, and this would be the thing I wouldve done in the past 100% of the time without thinking about it too much but now I feel like i really dont want to coward out and lie but actually man up and accept the consequences. If I get my ass beat oh well, its not like it would be the 1st time I lost a fight shit you win some and you lose some.
The thing is that I really dont feel like fighting because I am not really hurt or mad so I dont have that feeling on wanting to beat someone's ass you know what I am saying? so I would be just kinda defending myself if I do fight, but fighting like without a cause ( for me) wont make me like fight hard with heart. Because I really dont want anything to do with her anyways, she was just a booty call to me and nothing more.
Backing down is not really an option, if the dude calling me out I m sure going to show my face and man up about it.

Saying sorry and apologizing? I dont know because actually i am not sorry about anything, because I was single at the time it happened and I am not friends or was ever friends with the chicks Bf I just knew who he was. So it would be more hypocritical that in the case he confronted me about it I would say sorry man etc?

So is a sticky situation that I knew it was going to happen someday, it just couldnt be underground for ever you know? but as I sit here thinking what would be the best way to handle this Im a bit confused. I called the girl and left her a message to give her a heads up and Im probably going to talk to her tomorrow about it. mostly knowing her I think shes probably going to tell me to deny it and back her story up but who knows. They dated for like 2 years and recently broke up like last month so I Really dont know how she feels.

I been sober for 7 days now.

being sober is boring.

I scored 668,888 in facebook tetris, thats how boring being sober is

I want a drink or get high or something fuck

ok long story short, my cousin started taking summer classes this summer, after he graduated with a bachelors like 2 years ago. I guess you need some back up info on him, when he was younger he played soccer professionally in colombia in a team called Millonarios, and play colombia national team under 17. He moved to the US to continue his studies and for security reasons. He stopped exercising and went from being 100 pounds in 1999 to 310 pounds today.

He had to write a paper for a psychology class he had about something that was keeping him from progression in his life and he was too lazy to write it and asked my sister to write it for him.

Here it is, I found it funny becuase he kinda got mad but then he laughed about it. Also i found myself identified with it, so i dont know I will share it with you guys




Running Head: I WILL START TOMORROW




I will start tomorrow: An Analysis of My Procrastination Habit
Jersain U. Cruz
Indian River Community College












Abstract
Procrastination is a type of behavior which is characterized by delaying actions or tasks to a later time. In this paper I attempt to analyze my procrastination habit following a Cognitive Behavioral approach.



















My alarm clock goes off and according to my daily planner I have to exercise and study for my Psychology test. It is now five thirty in the afternoon and I have spent the whole day watching a marathon of a show I do not even like. Exercise and study will have to be re scheduled for tomorrow.

My best friend was telling me the other day how now she gets up thirty minutes earlier to exercise. I told her that I had created this amazing work out routine based on my previous training as a soccer player. The exercise plan is basically getting up and biking five miles to the local pool, swimming for an hour, coming back home biking, and then in the afternoon biking again to the beach and doing interval training in the sand for an hour….and of course biking back home. She told me I was setting myself up for failure, but I assure her I was going to stick to it. This is of course, probably the hundredth time she has listened to my exercise plans that never get to be practiced. For the last two years I have created all kinds of approaches and goal setting strategies to exercise, I have said I am going to learn several languages, and have developed several ways to take my company to the next level. Sadly most of these ideas only stay in my head and never get to be executed.

Procrastination (2008) in Wikipedia, The Free Encyclopedia is defined as a type of behavior which is characterized by deferment of actions or tasks to a later time. I am now back to school to pursue graduate studies in Physical Therapy and I know that I cannot afford to pursue this endeavor the same way I approached things in my college years. If I had the opportunity to seek professional help for my procrastination habit I would look for a therapist who follows a cognitive approach since I think becoming aware of the reason of my habit and being able to change my mentality is something I can achieve with this type therapy.

In the article Time Management and organization, Dombeck (1995) said that procrastination can best be understood by identifying the emotions associated with or underlying the behavior. Procrastination is an attempt to cope with emotional reactions of fear or failure, anger, dislike of the work, and seeking pleasure. King (1998) took this statement further saying that if the therapy begins with the notion that procrastination is not the basic “problem” but rather an attempted “cure” for these feelings and emotions then it is obvious that most procrastinators will have to focus on the real problems, underlying fears, attitudes and irrational ideas, in order to overcome the procrastinating behavior. After accepting this idea, the next step is to figure out what type of procrastination style the patient displays. From this point, each procrastinator must deal with his/her own unique emotions, skills, thoughts, and unconscious motives.

Dombeck (1995) described two fundamental kinds of procrastinators: one tense and the other relaxed. The tense type often feels both an intense pressure to succeed and a fear of failure. This type of procrastinator fees overwhelmed by pressures, is unrealistic about time, is uncertain about goals, is dissatisfied with accomplishments, is indecisive, blames others or circumstances for failures, lacks confidence and is sometimes perfectionist. Thus, the underlying fears are of failing, lacking ability, being imperfect, and falling short of overly demanding goals. This type thinks his/ her worth is determined by what he/she does. Thus, this kind of procrastinator will get over-stressed and over-worked until he/she escapes the pressure temporarily by trying to relax but any enjoyment gives rise to guilt and more apprehension.
On the other hand, the relaxed, pleasure seeking procrastinator seems, at first, to be less complicated, but careful observation of their thoughts and emotions suggests differently. This type is said to be much more common among college students than the tense-afraid type. These procrastinators may be addicted to people or preoccupied with meeting their more basic emotional needs such as attention and approval by peers, love, or self-esteem. For some students these other needs make studying almost impossible. In addition to emotional needs, the relaxed procrastinator’s thoughts may push him/her away from his work or studies. To such a person the gain is not worth the pain, especially since the necessary work is seen by them as so distasteful or boring that they just cannot do it (Dombeck, 1995).

Cognitive behavioral therapy can help a person who struggles with procrastination understand the causes of the problem, and learn skills to break through the habit. This includes developing skills to set concrete, specific, and realistic goals, to break tasks down into small manageable pieces, to make dates with others to do things together, and to establish incentives to carry out agreed-upon tasks. Overcoming procrastination has to be a gradual process and the treatment differs depending on the procrastination style of the patient (Knaus, 2002)
For the tense procrastinator, Fiore (2006), recommended a program that aims to reduce the fear of failing by helping the patent recognize his/her worth is not totally determined by an assignment at work or by a term paper grade, having alternate plans B and C for succeeding, in case plan A does not work, and using self-talk and self forgiveness techniques. Cognitive therapists suggest this type of procrastinator to keep a journal in which they record in detail their thoughts and feelings associated with studying. This helps them see how their fears, excuses, competing needs, and habits divert attention from studying. Based on this insight they can change procrastinating ways of thinking to productive ways.

Dombeck (1995) declared that the relaxed procrastinator will not feel much pressure to change, unless he/she is confronted with reality by some event such as failing a class or by serious thoughts about where his/her life is headed. This type of procrastinator shows a deep dislike for the chores they are avoiding. He suggested that these procrastinators create these feelings by telling themselves the tasks are awful, unfair, or by putting themselves down by setting impossible goals. Then they procrastinate to avoid their own self-created emotional dislike of the job at hand. Cognitive Therapy helps relaxed procrastinators to see clearly how pleasure seeking may, in the long run, lead to unhappiness and show them that procrastination occurs because they are able to trick themselves into believing it is okay to have fun now and put off our work.

Relaxed procrastinators according to Knaus (2002) need to identify and control three kinds of common diversions they use to avoid the tasks that need to be done. The first diversion is called action cop-outs. This is basically doing something that is not a priority. Examples of this diversion include watching TV, eating, playing, sleeping, or even cleaning. Once the procrastinator is engrossed in the diversion, they block out the anxiety, self-doubts, anger, or boredom associated with the work they are putting off but should be doing. The second type of diversion is called mental excuses, which include thoughts such as “I will do it tomorrow” or “I do my best work late at night, I will do it then”. The third type of diversions is emotional diversions. Taking drugs, listening to music, reading novels, and even getting involved in friendships, love, flirtations, or religion could, at times, serve as an escape from unpleasant but important tasks. When felt tempted to procrastinate the patient should use this temptation as a signal to become an objective self-observer, and use a procrastination log to gather information. The procrastination log is a valuable tool to help identify the perceiving, thinking, emotion, diversions, and action paths the patient follows as he /she procrastinate. This awareness exercise provides information to identify the “where,” “what,” and “how” of procrastination.

After identifying the causes of the procrastination the patient should follow a method to set realistic, attainable goals. Fiore (2006) suggests a unique scheduling system that includes fixed hours (classes, meetings, meals, etc.) and play time. Rewards are given if the patient starts a project and can concentrate on it for 30 minutes. The idea is to build the habit of frequently getting to work and to build the desire to work and to learn the habit of getting started on a task early. Practice starting studying several times every day for an exam next week is an example of his technique. As with exercising, getting in control of starting and making it a routine are the secrets.
After doing this research for this paper I can identify myself as a relaxed procrastinator. I can recognize that most of the thoughts that have held me back from exercising, studying, and working harder are mental diversions I have created and somehow believed in. I am aware now that my idea that only by exercising the same way I did when I practice soccer is the only way I can lose weight is just a mental excuse I have created to not follow a more realistic exercise routine. I am also aware of the pleasure seeking activities I engage in order to avoid important tasks. I will like to learn more about the techniques to overcome this habit and will be definitely using the other methods mentioned in this paper.





















References
Dombeck, Mark (2006). Time Management and Organization. Psychological Self Tools. Retrieved 10:00, May 20, 2008, from http://www.mentalhelp.net/poc/view_doc.php?type=doc&id=9770&cn=353
Fiore, Neil A (2006). The Now Habit: A Strategic Program for Overcoming Procrastination and Enjoying Guilt- Free Play. New York: Penguin Group
King, Margaret (1998). The Procrastination Syndrome: Signs, Symptoms, and Treatment. #372 from Innovative Leader Volume 7, Number 11. Retrieved 10:30, May 18, 2008, from
http://www.winstonbrill.com/bril001/html/article_index/articles/351- 400/article372_body.html
Knaus, Bill (2002). Beat Procrastination Now! The Procrastination Workbook. REBT Network. Retrieved 03:07, May 18, 2008, from http://www.rebtnetwork.org/essays/pro1.html
Procrastination. (2008, May 26). In Wikipedia, The Free Encyclopedia.
Retrieved 03:07, May 18, 2008, from http://en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=Procrastination&oldid=215154351

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Well, its been almost two weeks since I decided to change a few things in my life, here are some updates.

Last week went somewhat well, I found out that quiting smoking cigs is really more easy that I though, I did pretty good only needed them after I ate and how i handle that was chewing tons of gum. So yeah that went pretty well, and I do feel kinda better now that I dont smoke =)

I started playing soccer again, Im really happy about that, last monday ( not this week but the week before) I went nd played from 10 30 to 12 30 straight. The next day I woke up and holy shit I felt so sore, I could not move it was really hard to even get out of bed, I hadn't felt that sored in a while, pretty much that whole week I couldnt exercise at all after that cus I was so sored. ( I know Im a chump)

Whats been really hard is the drinking. Usually to give you an Idea, I was used to drink beer everyday around 10 through out the whole day, like when having lunch, or watching tv, or just because I was thirsty. I knew this contributed a lot to my fatness so that had to change that. I tryed to change beer to water, and it so hard, water sucks, and I tryed to stay "sober" during the week. Well I got drunk wends night for a friends birthday, the weekend came and I got drunk friday, saturday, and Sunday. So yeah well out of 7 days in the week I got drunk 4, which is an improvent from like almost everyday lol. I really planned only on drinking 1 day of the weekend but then my friend from college ende dup coming home and she took me out and paid for my drinks so it was kinda hard to avoid lol.

Here are some pics from sat night





yeager bombs


I really wasnt that drunk, just a bad pic


we ran up like a 400 dollar tap and my friend i guess was friend with the bartender so she only paid 50 bucks and I tiped him. So that was kinda cool.


and Sunday I wasnt really planning on going out, cause I had a hangover, but this dude called me and told me they were going out to dinner to Carrabas for some chicks bday, and I though damn that chick is pretty hot and single so I saw an opportunity to throw some game on her.

pic of chick:




After dinner we went to some dudes house to play beer pong and hang out, I though I was doing ok with her, then some dude showed up and she totally blew me off and started flirting with him bad, So i was like it fuck it, just get drunk , and played beer pong. an then I left around like 2 am

and this takes me to the DILEMA, when we left the dude who picked me up and was driving, backed up without looking and hit another dudes car, no body seen it, but me because I was passanger. He went like fuck fuck, we are leaving now and just left without saying anything, just hit and ran. At the time I was drunk so i didnt really care I said " you do what you got to do bro". I havent seen him since.
Well today he called me and left me a message saying " dude that dudes car I hit called me and asked me about it, i denyed it all and said I didnt see or do shit, if he calls you back me up and dont say shit alright late". and it got me thinking. I dont really care for him, hes a fucking jew scumbag, who I only really hanged out with because he was friend with that girl, and he offer to pick me up. Well i guess i should give you some background on this dude. + Show Spoiler +

Well I wasnt planning on updating everyday, but I will update but I will let you guys know how day 1 went and then do like once a week or something

I woke up at 10 am -_- which isnt too bad, the plan was no later than 9 but I guess 1 hour doesnt hurt too much. I will try to make it 9 everyday tho.

I got ready and got some breakfast, and went and bought the newspaper, to check out any local jobs, and got a couple numbers. I forgot I dont even have a resume, so I got started on that.

Then I ran one mile at the park, I couldnt even finish it all without stoping damn I wa so winded and out of shape it sucked

For the 1st time on the semester, I did my hw on my own lol, some case studies from the book not bad took me like an hour or so, and I also installed the eagle point software on my computer to work on the projects myself so thats good.

Waking up so early kinda fucked me up, I been tired all day, I had to take a 30 min nap before I went to class at 5 30, class went well, i took notes ( thats a first for me lol )then we went out with the gps units but the satts werent working or something so we got to leave early.

I called my brother in law to see when they play soccer in lucky me they play tonight, so I guess I be heading there about 9 30 pm or so, im kinda exited about this I havent played in like 6 months Im probably gonna suck.

Hadnt had a cig all day, yey..really wanted one after lunch today tho, so I chewd like 4 pieces of gum instead.

So yeah this has been going good so far, Im trying to accomplish the things on my list, and stick to the plan,

oh and for those who rembebr my arm thread, here is an update on how it looks -.-... never could figured out what really happened, I guess i will never know ( fucking xanax)
oh and i also took and STD+aids test and im clean sweet


http://www.freeimagehost.eu/dlimage/c...958951e7bec1d/65318e2970271/sdcds.jpg

http://www.freeimagehost.eu/dlimage/7...86f0d95/3ca43f2970272/dfsdsdcfdsf.jpg

see http://teamliquid.net/forum/viewmessage.php?topic_id=67966 for details

well i dont even know where to start or why Im even writting this

I havent been doing shit with anything, i only go to 2 night classes a week and the rest of the time Im laying down in bed doing nothing productive, then the weekend comes and i go out and get all kinds of drunk, but then i dont even have fun doing it anymore, i just go out to have some people interaction you know? ee my old friends and shit, but the thing they are so fucked up in drugs or just live to party and drink and i used to be like that but i dont even enjoy that anymore. So I kinda feel like i dont even like my friends anymore, and the other all went away to college some years ago, and because i was so into partying in high school i never cared for grades there for i didnt get to no university and im here stock in community college, which i only started to take serius a year ago

Im getting fat, im getting a beer belly and i hate it but i dont do shit to stop it, just i think that sucks. I used to enjoy playing soccer so much and playing tennis and i dont ever do it because im so lazy or im hangover and it pisses me off.

I had a gf for like 2.5 years and I havent been able to find someone to really date date ever since we broke up almost 2 years ago, I have dated 3 chicks since then but it just doesnt click i dunno it doesnt work out or i just dont feel the same, and to make matters worst that ex sent me a messgae the other day after not talking to her for oevr a year and told me to call her, I wasnt going to, but today idk i was feeling so weird and i called her to see wtf, and it looked like she just wanted to know what i had been up 2, but just in like the friend way, like wanting to know about my life and shit and then she started to talk about her current bf and asked me if i had a gf and i wa slike wow wtf... felt weird.. now idk i kinda feel sad idk or just weird, wished i didnt call her. She seem to ave her life all figured out and she looked like she was so happy and she knew what she wanted and howm and that she just had a grat life

I decided to quit poker and quit thinking i could make money on it, im just a retarded fish that doesnt have what it takes to be winning player. Today i was so exited to play the sunday tournaments, to get bust out in some stupid mistakes. I won like 2k in MTTS but really lost like 6k if i count everything.

So I decided, my life needs to change right now, no more of this bullshit, starting tomorrow Im going to make some changes.

1-Have a regular sleep schedule, go to bed 2 am latest wake up 9 am latest.
2- Look for a part time job in something realed to my studies ( civil engineer technology)
3-Start running everyday and working out
4-stop smoking
5-study hard for my 2 classes to get As and do all the projects and stuff myself ( lol before i had my sister do everything for me)
6-Start eating right, no sodas or fast food,
7-cut down on my drinking, maybe stop drinkin beer.
8-Do something productive during the day, if Im not working yet.
9- Try to find a nice gf, and quit fucking this girl that has a bf.
10- I want to get closer to my sprituality, maybe Give religion a try, try to get closer to God or something meaningfull in life
11- Stop complaining, and start fixing.
12-start playing soccer and tennis again

SO Yeah pretty hard list, but Im gonna do my best to accomplish this. I think it will be for the better and hopefuly it will make my life happier.
If anyone is interested I will keep updated or something