Since I live away from all my friends and family now, I have been feeling extremely alone and vulnerable. Everyone who I have met on my floor in my res is big into sports (which I'm not really into) or weed (which I'm definently not into). There isn't a single other gamer, not even a hardcore WoW player that I could talk to about our passion. As I'm writing this, the rest of my floor is off at some welcome party that the university is throwing, which I was in no mood to go to. Instead, I'm crying in my bed on TL.net. I feel cut off from my world, it feels like I'm in some twilight zone where my life and passion is frowned upon by a bunch of people that I'm supposed to live with and be friends with for the next year.
It doesn't help that for the past half year or so my parents have been saying how much I will love university, and how many friends I will make and such. To be honest, it makes it twice as worse. It feels like I'm being a bad son by sitting in this room typing this right now instead of socializing with these people. It's like I keep imagining that when they come to pick me up in November for Thanksgiving, I will love being at home so much that I won't want to go home at all, and that I'll have a breakdown like this again.
Sorry for even posting this, I just feel like someone on TL.net will have something to say that will make me feel somewhat better. Thanks for listening.