I hope the community can forgive me. In either case I shall seek to improve. I love this game. I love this community. I am enveloped by my passion for all things sc2. The nasl to me represents a time of great opportunity for all. Raising the bar for western esports and making the game we know and love more accessible to new fans. If my persona or humor stands to deter that growth than how selfish am I too allow that to continue? I am the person for the job. I have the ability, the passion, the time and the desire. You may think you can name better people but for now you may just have to trust me that there are no others with these factors in alignment with their abilities.
With that in mind I want to beg you to trust that I am dedicated to doing this as best as I can. It is clear that means making changes. I am a public figure to a degree that previously was never realized by myself. I am no longer the joking or "douchy" persona on a podcast, streamer, EG captain or w/e... I am the face of a movement that is important to us all. As such I am prepared to make changes. A lot of people will see me announcing these changes as some kind of "martyring" but I can assure you I seek no such emotions. I truly believe what I did was wrong and sustaining that behavior would be a continued disservice to myself, those that have entrusted me with this role and the community I love.
At heart I am a joking person. I love a good debate and I love giving people a good hard time. I make mistakes and I have stepped over boundaries many many times. I can no longer in good conscience expose this side of myself as much as I have in the past. My profession and the community that is exposed to my profession demand a more serious approach. I do not look at this as a sacrifice but a necessary change. If I was just some player trying to commentate some games I would think my persona fine for that role. But I am not. I am the commentator for a league that is seeking to expand eSports in the west. I am a "face" for a brand that means a different future.
I promise you I will not be boring. I promise this doesn't mean I stop joking around entirely. But what it does mean is I will reduce my community exposure outside of the NASL.
That change is up to you the community. I want to hear what people think. I am a cohost of the podcast "State of the Game" and I have a stream on Justin.tv where I joke around a lot. I also post actively on TL and I read all other forums (reddit as well... )
There are going to be a lot of people that think this is a blog to get my ego stroked or to announce some martyr action or w/e. To those I am sorry, there probably is no convincing you that I truly do want to improve. To the rest please let me know what I can do to improve my performance for this community.
I will be at the GDC in san francisco. We are planning a meet n greet in the Rancho area this coming week. I will be at the PDX East and I will be at MLG Dallas this coming April. I want to meet each and every one of my supporters and critics alike and look you in the eye and swear by my beating heart that I love you, this community, this game and I am sorry if anything I have said and done has lead you to believe otherwise. Help me make the NASL something we can be proud to look at and say "we did it."