I feel the need to apologize a head of time. This will be no short blog. This will be long and detailed. It will include stuff I feel the need to say; stuff that I really want to say. So if you are not the kind of person who likes to read that sort of stuff or you are easily bored, you may not want to read this. To anyone else who decides to read this. Thank you. Without further prolonging, here goes!...
Today I decided to do a lot of inner reflecting. What brought this about you might be curious? Many things over the year, but sometimes the smallest things make you think in more ways then you are aware are possible. I had just finished watching a Korean Drama about some high school kids and their dreams. However, like every other drama, this is not just their dreams... Its how will they accomplish them? How will they over come whats going on in their life? How will they get to their goals? Will they give up because of the hardships? All of this on top of the typical romance story. What makes this one so much more different? Honestly, I am not sure I can say that there is truly anything that makes it different. Well except that I can relate to this one a lot more than any other Korean Drama I have ever watched.
In this drama, this is so much wisdom that is shared. Some things that I have learned over time in my life, but never thought about it in the ways the drama presented them in. After I finished the, I was crying. The drama was very moving and made me think very long and hard. It reminded me that I had one of my best friends ask "What is your dream?", "What do you want?". At those times I couldn't say what I want. My answer was to say I was content. That I was sort of happy with the way things are. However the more and more I think on it, I must ask - Is being ok or content really enough? Why can't a person truly be happy? Even if that means one must endure the bad or sad ones. I think I'd rather be happy then just content. So I decided I want to reflect on that drama and things in my life. So that is what this blog is about.
There was a part in this drama where they said "When you hate or don't learn to let go of grudges you end up living in your own hell eventually". The drama later shows this. From the first time I heard that, it hit home. Its something must of us dont think about. To surround ourselves with the negativity only promotes more negativity, is what it truly is. I know this from self experience. I can not hate another person. It is against my beliefs, however I have learned to hold grudges. Then I learned the kind of hell it puts you through as a person. The torture you go through, from comparing yourself with that person. The torture of always trying to keep up with them. To be as good as them or better. Its so tiring and it truly does become a living hell after sometime. You eventually get so caught up in it that it becomes all you seem to drink and breathe. The moment you can make peace though, the moment you can let go, the minute you can just forget it all...You will become so much more happy. Like a great weight has been lifted off you. I remember having this on going competition with a person I worked with. They thought everything they did was right. That they could say whatever they wanted to me and treat me badly. It got so much worse. It got to the point of us yelling at each other. That person eventually went around telling lies about me. From that point on, I became bitter about that person. They claimed I said things I never did. That bitterness drove me crazy. It made me want to always out do them, to prove how much better I was at things then them. We eventually became rivals and couldn't even stand to speak to each other in a civil manner. After a few months, I don't know what over came me, but I was able to let it all go. Maybe it was the fact that we never spoke? Maybe it was cause that person quit? The reason, I am still unsure about but, most thankful for. Eventually that person and I ended up working together again. Now we are friends. Those differences are behind us. Yes, I remember them. Yes, I am still a bit annoyed by them. However, never again will I let such feelings happen. Never will I let myself be blinded by such again. Nor allow myself to live in a "hell of my own making". This was something so interesting to see displayed in a Korean drama.
The next thing they talk about is dreams... This subject spans so much over the drama that I am not exactly sure where to begin. The first part is about how one of the main characters learn "In this world, there is no such thing as a silly dream". While another is "The one who has no dream, no goal, no ambition will go no where in life". These are both very true. I use to think some of my dreams and goals were silly. Eventually I gave up on some of them. After seeing this drama, I realize now why it is that the dreams of children are some of the most precious. Those children make dreams and hold onto them. They are willing to work hard for them and not give up on them. Even to the extent that some of make dreams as children and eventually work so hard that they come true later on in our life. How silly am I to be learning such lessons only now? I feel that all these things were things I should have realized earlier. So to answer old questions that I could not answer before... Hmm, that is hard.
My dream over the years have changed. At one point I wanted to be a singer, till I realized that I am already a singer, regardless if I get paid for it or not. Another dream was to go be a model or at least do a beauty pageant. Eventually I did this, last year (finally XD). Then there was the dream where I wanted to work for NASA. Well, eventually I gave up on that dream because of how much I let my grades slip in school. I was pushed around so much and given so much grief for the way that I looked that I never focused on school. If I "A"s, I was bullied. It got to the point where I would never even answer a question in class cause it was that bad. I even had people who would be my friend off campus, but pick on me at school. However, now I have a chance to at least go see a launch and meet the people who work at NASA. May not be exactly the same dream, but very close and is a step in the right direction..So much so that I think that will be good enough for me. Then comes my dream from high school. The dream where I wanted to be a lawyer in many different fields of law and eventually become a judge. From being a judge I would want to go for supreme court. However, that has also changed. People told me I was dreaming to much and wanting to much. I became very discouraged and sort of gave up. However, I guess that my destiny was still to work with lawyers and the law so I could see what it was like. That is what happened, I work for a lawyer as his fill in paralegal. I wanted to go to law school and do family law, but now I don't have the heart for it. It is honestly one of the most heart breaking areas of law, that I have ever heard of and studied. So I guess that brings me to the present. My dreams now? Well before when I looked back on all those, they seemed like silly dreams..Till I realized that I had some how managed to accomplish them just by believing and working towards them. Sometimes I didn't do much but just a small step lead me there. Well its funny how a small step leads you somewhere you never for saw before.
For example, 5 years ago..I moved from California to Colorado. I had lost a lot of confidence because of how I was treated in elementary and middle school. I had also become quiet and shy. Not much of one to do public speaking. However through my love for gaming, I stumbled upon an online radio station. From the moment it caught my interest, I never would have guessed where it would bring me. Over 5 years time, I have been given the chance to change into the person I always wanted to be and follow a dream that I did not even know I had. A dream that sometimes might seem silly, but to me its everything that I love. To have a dream, to be passionate about it, is one of the greatest things...when you find it and you can do it. 5 years ago, around Sept. I became an online radio host for that online radio station. During one of my first times on air I had so much dead air and said "um" and "uh" a lot. At that time I had no clue what to say or how to say it. Not to mention, my choice of words tended to come off a bit wrong sometimes. Since then I have learned so very much. Someone I knew then, had helped me pick out the name I use most commonly now. I had no clue what name I would use as an online radio host. So the name "Tesla" was suggested. I remember having to speak it a few times and even looking up the history behind it. The person said I should not be mad about the history. I am not exactly sure why he said that, but the history I found was amazing. Everything from the Tesla the scientist, The Tesla Coil, Tesla the band and so much more. The history ended up expanding. My first time on air, I had maybe 5 listeners. I remember giving that name a try and loving how it sounded. I decided I wanted to add to the history behind that name.
There was another thing that drama said that was so amazing to me. The CEO of school where these kids attend, ended up telling a story about a pool table. Once you hit that ball, all the other balls go into motion. No matter if you hit it the exact same way, the next time..Even with the same force and all....The balls will end up going their own path and that path may change. However, that path is up to them and out of your hands at that moment. This is story reminds me of something I was taught at a younger age "The domino effect". Until this drama, I had never thought about it that way. To that extent. The move was the first ball being hit. From there, it was for me to decide my path and follow it. That online radio station was like running into another ball. Do I continue on the previous course or go on the course it sends me on? That is my choosing. Since that time I have been able to mature and grow up so much into the person I am today. I have over come so much in my life. Regained back so much confidence I lost and have even become very happy. So back to what those current dreams were... I want to broadcast. Whether that is as a radio host, a commentator or even a news reporter...I have learned that is what I am most passionate about. I have discovered that I also love languages more so than I ever knew. So I dream of sharing the international language (music) with the world. Of helping make a difference here and there. Slowly but surely help make a difference so we can all live in a slightly more peaceful world. One that isn't so hurtful. It is a shame that people have to go through so much pain. Like children starving all over the country and other countries too. I want to help change that. However to do that I do need to know other languages. While being able to broadcast is fun and language is the international language...Someone has to be able to translate so that there are no misunderstandings.
It has been a long time since I decided to write down my feelings like this. To share them with anyone who wants to read. I forgot how nice it is. So I hope that we can all work together to achieve our dreams in this world. For the only silly dream, is the one you don't try to capture. That is my belief now. So everyone, lets work hard to achieve those dreams. I hope I can continue along my own path of achieving my own dreams and making a difference in this world. Thank you again for reading this very long blog. Sorry that I had so much to say, but these are my thoughts among paper. So I hope that something here, may have helped you, even just a little. With that, thank you all once more and please take care of your dreams and don't give up. They are something that are irreplaceable!
Great blog, I had some similar feelings and reflections after finishing the Jdramas, Great Teacher Onizuka and My Boss, My Hero. Some of the stuff I thought and felt sounded corny as fuck, but when it really boiled down to it, these dramas really helped me realise some stuff that I had forgotten or just straight up never saw before.
@ Navane: I hope that one day you will have dreams that you can live in during the day then.
@ Suc: Dream High ~ Here is the 5 minute trailer I gave someone on facebook about it: ~ It doesn't look like much but its truly amazing in my opinion.
@ Andro: I know that is one of your dreams. I am sure you will do well. Please don't give up. I am sure that one day you can be one of the best. I think you have that potential. So good luck and "Andro fighting!" ^_^
We desire our ambitions because they have some positive value. But you have to be willing to put in the effort, and may have to give up other things with positive value. If you have to give up more than you gain, the dream isn't worth it.
Say I wanted to be a cowboy when I was young. If I wanted to, I could move to Oklahoma, sell my belongings, give up friends/career, and live with smelly cows for the rest of my life. It might be cool, but honestly not that cool. If you had to sacrifice everything else you cared about to be in NASA (including people disliking/bullying you), then maybe you don't want it that much.
People end up making decisions that reflect their values more than they think. Friends are a value, low stress is a value. If you value being there for friends over your career, your decisions will lead that way.
My mother ended up being a professor, which went against her generation/culture of women being good housewives. But she ended up having to endure various criticisms, not meet a lot of expectations of being a parent/wife, and had to move away from the family to find a academic job. Was it worth it? She's not always sure, it would certainly not be for a lot of other women of her generation.
Holding on to hatred may be tiring, but for some people pride/a sense of justice is more important. But there's only so much you can care about one other person that you dislike.
Very odd that people would bully you for getting good grades.
I realised that you have fallen victim to hypocrisy when i figured out that you were refering to a korean drama (and to the likes of dream high, the worst of all the awful kdramas).
"When you hate or don't learn to let go of grudges you end up living in your own hell eventually".
Koreans are the type of people that never forget and forgive. The savior incident is a good example. Some TLers might still respect him but in korea, people wish he was dead even though he got what he deserved. And also, if you didn't know, this drama was just a ruse to put idols into acting in an attempt to exploit their popularity. Bottom line; don't take morals from kdramas or anything mainstream in korea. Sure if its interesting, i think its good to watch but don't take it seriously.
If only I could release my hatreds and grudges so easily as some people can... I can vouch for the whole personal hell part. I've held onto age-old hatreds for 10+ years now. Hatreds of people I haven't seen for 10+ years and will surely never see again. It's not an easy thing; to stop hating, to let go.
This was one of the worst blogs I've ever read. I can't comment on all the wisdom shared in the particular kdrama since I haven't watched it, but if you feed on kdramas for insight I can totally imagine a blog like this would be the result. It's like that guy on tlnet who posted a youtube video about his sister crying to sentimental kdrama tv-shows, except you take it a step further by miserably trying to connect it with reality. You attach values to things as if they're black and white. Negativity is bad, having dreams is good, world peace is good. The maturity you mention, I can't trace a sentence of it in this blog. You wouldn't last one day in a third world country with your delusional attitude and yet you still have the guts to talk about saving starving children by learning another language. What a petty excuse.
You can try to glorify and rid you of your guilt however you want, but your lack of direction still remains. Why don't you try to face yourself instead of trying to project your fake and condescending dreams of happiness toward others?
Epiphany like inspirations can come from anywhere. TV is a world where reality makes sense because of the rules set in place. Real life is too fucked up for any one person to try to "fix" so you can either be a kind person or a dick.
On April 09 2011 21:58 igotmyown wrote: We desire our ambitions because they have some positive value. But you have to be willing to put in the effort, and may have to give up other things with positive value. If you have to give up more than you gain, the dream isn't worth it.
Say I wanted to be a cowboy when I was young. If I wanted to, I could move to Oklahoma, sell my belongings, give up friends/career, and live with smelly cows for the rest of my life. It might be cool, but honestly not that cool. If you had to sacrifice everything else you cared about to be in NASA (including people disliking/bullying you), then maybe you don't want it that much.
People end up making decisions that reflect their values more than they think. Friends are a value, low stress is a value. If you value being there for friends over your career, your decisions will lead that way.
My mother ended up being a professor, which went against her generation/culture of women being good housewives. But she ended up having to endure various criticisms, not meet a lot of expectations of being a parent/wife, and had to move away from the family to find a academic job. Was it worth it? She's not always sure, it would certainly not be for a lot of other women of her generation.
Holding on to hatred may be tiring, but for some people pride/a sense of justice is more important. But there's only so much you can care about one other person that you dislike.
Very odd that people would bully you for getting good grades.
Ah, very good points. I guess I forgot to take that into account. I just wanted to share my feelings and thoughts. I guess my dreams have lead me towards my happiness. I would think that maybe your mother did what was best for her. Sure our dreams aren't always going to happen. Nor will they always be good. They may not even lead us to the path that we hope for, but sometimes its ment to be that way so we can end up in a much happier place. From my time in high school, I always wanted to be a lawyer and work for a lawyer. However after moving I got discouraged. I sort of gave up and ended up doing many things that I guess weren't things that made me happy. Does that change that it was still my dream? No. Does that mean that it lead me to be unhappy? Not at all. The things that happen in our live, all happen for a reason. For instance, I moved from California to the middle of no where, Colorado. I had to get my GED and for a while hold down two jobs. One of those jobs made me sick to be at. It doesnt mean that my dream lead me to go somewhere else or to give up on it. It didnt even make me unhappy. A year after living here, I had quit one of the jobs. It came around election time, where I meet a lawyer who liked the way I spoke about the passionately about the topic we were discussing that day, at the party meeting. From that day on, he offered for me to work for him. So whenever his paralegal was out, I'd be asked to come in and work. While I have found that Family law is one of the most heart breaking branches, that doesnt change the fact that I have enjoyed being able to get to the point of working for a lawyer. Doesn't change the stuff I have learned from him, because of it. I guess that is more or less why the dream makes me happy. Its not exactly that I accomplished it, but its more or less what I learned on the way to accomplishing it. Its what I have learned because of it. Not to mention, its what I have found out from working there. I found out that I actually don't want to do family law. That doesnt change that it was a dream. Doesn't change that I chased it. Nor does it change how much I love to help people. So, I guess while that is the saddest branch, I am still very thankful for the ability to learn from it.
As for the grades, it was because I didn't use slang back then. I always gave book answers and such. Was called "teacher's pet", "know it all" and various other things. It was not a great time in my life but it made me stronger in the long run.
On April 09 2011 22:31 quirinus wrote: Thank you for this blog.
I feel the same way, though my passion lies in the other way.
I am glad you enjoyed the blog. Thank you for reading it.
On April 09 2011 22:59 frodoguy wrote: I realised that you have fallen victim to hypocrisy when i figured out that you were refering to a korean drama (and to the likes of dream high, the worst of all the awful kdramas).
"When you hate or don't learn to let go of grudges you end up living in your own hell eventually".
Koreans are the type of people that never forget and forgive. The savior incident is a good example. Some TLers might still respect him but in korea, people wish he was dead even though he got what he deserved. And also, if you didn't know, this drama was just a ruse to put idols into acting in an attempt to exploit their popularity. Bottom line; don't take morals from kdramas or anything mainstream in korea. Sure if its interesting, i think its good to watch but don't take it seriously.
I guess I some of what I have written came off wrong. However I think that ANYONE is possible of forgiving and trying to be civil. I believe that ANYONE can forgive and work to make a better future. I guess saying "forgive and forget" is to much. After all, if we forget the past then we are doomed to repeat it. I am quiet aware what the actual drama is about. However the fact that you decide to not see some of the life lessons that they teach those kids, makes me a bit sad. I am not taking morals from a Korean Drama. I am saying that I can relate to some of the lessons they attempted to show and teach in there with morals I was raised on. I watched the drama for fun and because I love music. Its just funny sometimes when you see a small life lesson like that or notice something that can be used as a life lesson in today's world and yet, so many people decide to over look it and not pay attention to it just because its a tv show and not something to be taken seriously. Makes me a bit sad with were our morals stand in today's world.
On April 09 2011 23:39 SyVuS wrote: I like this!
Thank you
On April 10 2011 01:18 MiniRoman wrote: My dream has lead me away from happiness towards something different. Happiness, complacency and being content can all lead one away from their dream.
This was something pointed out earlier. I guess not all dreams will lead a person to happiness. Though most times your dreams will at least lead you on a journey that you can later be thankful for and happy for.
On April 10 2011 01:49 IskatuMesk wrote: If only I could release my hatreds and grudges so easily as some people can... I can vouch for the whole personal hell part. I've held onto age-old hatreds for 10+ years now. Hatreds of people I haven't seen for 10+ years and will surely never see again. It's not an easy thing; to stop hating, to let go.
The blog wasn't that long. I enjoyed it.
Sadly it is not something easy to let go of. It has taken me years to learn to forget about how people treated me. To not let myself be bothered by that stuff. To not hold a grudge...even still today I still have some small grudges. It is an on going fight that will never end. However, if you want to over come it - then you will one day. This is something that I have learned.
On April 10 2011 10:17 Shauni wrote: This was one of the worst blogs I've ever read. I can't comment on all the wisdom shared in the particular kdrama since I haven't watched it, but if you feed on kdramas for insight I can totally imagine a blog like this would be the result. It's like that guy on tlnet who posted a youtube video about his sister crying to sentimental kdrama tv-shows, except you take it a step further by miserably trying to connect it with reality. You attach values to things as if they're black and white. Negativity is bad, having dreams is good, world peace is good. The maturity you mention, I can't trace a sentence of it in this blog. You wouldn't last one day in a third world country with your delusional attitude and yet you still have the guts to talk about saving starving children by learning another language. What a petty excuse.
You can try to glorify and rid you of your guilt however you want, but your lack of direction still remains. Why don't you try to face yourself instead of trying to project your fake and condescending dreams of happiness toward others?
My apologizes that you feel this is one of the worst blogs you ever read. As I have already stated before in an earlier response, the morals and the wisdom is stuff I have learned from my personal life. Things I was taught when growing up. Things that I had to learn from my own mistakes. I only said there were somethings in that drama that make you think about such life lessons. Makes you remember some of those silly values. I will sit here and say this now, if you do not want to be open to another person's feelings or their own thoughts and ideas...Then why do you read what they take the time to write down? There was no gun to your head telling you to read this. There was even a warning at the beginning saying it was my feelings. "To anyone who reads this,
I feel the need to apologize a head of time. This will be no short blog. This will be long and detailed. It will include stuff I feel the need to say; stuff that I really want to say. So if you are not the kind of person who likes to read that sort of stuff or you are easily bored, you may not want to read this. To anyone else who decides to read this. Thank you. Without further prolonging, here goes!..."
That is what I put before hand. Is for people like you. People who are very closed minded and would rather say everything that is wrong than see some good that people do or say. I would rather see the good then the bad. This is not saying that I ignore the bad, just that if you are having a terrible day...Count the things you are thankful for. Count the things that make you happy that you have access to. This will make the day a bit better. It will also make you a bit happier in the end to remember such basic things.
To address your next paragraph. You say I attach values to things as if they are black and white. That is not how it is. Honestly, negativity is bad. We all know that! We all know that having dreams and hopes are good. However what about the stuff in gray? This stuff comes down to how you look at it. Allow me to explain. I had a friend in middle school who couldn't see. She had to use braille and a walking stick. It was very hard on her. She even had an assistant who went to school with her every day. People didn't want to be her friend because she couldn't really see. They wanted to make fun of her for something that was out of her control. You know what? She never cared once about what they said. People like that have 2 choices. You can be down and upset, say "oh why me?" and things will get worse cause of all the negativity you surround yourself around... OR you can make the best of it and smile. She was the later of the 2. She was a very happy person. Who loved to sing. She was also very talented at singing. So you are right, I could try to attach this to black or white, but really..It was her own personal feelings, her own beliefs and her thoughts and morals that decided to assign it to either black or white. Not mine. Life is what you make of it. The maturity I mentioned is not something you can really see in a person's writing. However if you had known me 5 years ago, you would see what I am talking about. You say I wouldn't last in a 3rd world country? I like how now you are trying to say that I wouldn't be able to do something. That is for me to know my own limits. Not you. I am not delusional, I am just hopeful. I work towards my hopes and dreams. Are you the kind of person to try and steal another person's hopes and dreams? Cause that is the way you come off. I read a poem when I was younger.. Its about a builder and destroyer. So to you, this is my final question:
Wreckers or Builders:
I watched them tearing a building down, A gang of men in a busy town. With a ho-heave-ho and lusty yell, They swung a beam and a sidewall fell. I asked the foreman, "Are these men skilled, As the men you'd hire if you had to build?" He gave me a laugh and said, "No indeed! Just common labor is all I need. I can easily wreck in a day or two What builders have taken a year to do." And I tho't to myself as I went my way, Which of these two roles have I tried to play? Am I a builder who works with care, Measuring life by the rule and square? Am I shaping my deeds by a well-made plan, Patiently doing the best I can? Or am I a wrecker who walks the town, Content with the labor of tearing down?
So are you the builder or the wrecker? I want to be the builder. How about you though?
I think if you wanted to be helpful, you could be. This strikes me as another situation of people talking about all the wonderful things they can do instead of actually doing them. The talking stage is so much easier. So while you may criticize Shauni for being a "wrecker", you haven't actually built anything yourself.
And for the record, I have. In third world countries. And in places like Detroit and rural Virginia. If you want to be helpful, write your name down on a piece of paper and show up when they call you. Stop thinking about all the feel good aspects or how it makes you feel, and go actually help people for the only real reason that you should be helping people. Because they need it.
EDIT: By the way, over the past 6 months I've been a useless sack of shit. But I realize my deficiencies. I don't think that counts for anything, but I don't really expect it to.
On April 10 2011 14:13 Jibba wrote: I think if you wanted to be helpful, you could be. This strikes me as another situation of people talking about all the wonderful things they can do instead of actually doing them. The talking stage is so much easier. So while you may criticize Shauni for being a "wrecker", you haven't actually built anything yourself.
And for the record, I have. In third world countries. And in places like Detroit and rural Virginia. If you want to be helpful, write your name down on a piece of paper and show up when they call you. Stop thinking about all the feel good aspects or how it makes you feel, and go actually help people for the only real reason that you should be helping people. Because they need it.
EDIT: By the way, over the past 6 months I've been a useless sack of shit. But I realize my deficiencies. I don't think that counts for anything, but I don't really expect it to.
You say that all I do is talk? I have hosted charity events. I have ran them and donated every cent to those charities to make a difference. I have gone to the hospitals and cheered up the sick people there. Performed for them, to make their day a little better. How dare you sit here and think you can say that I have "built" nothing or done nothing. All my life time I have spent the time to give back to people and do my best to help make people's lives better. So please do not sit here and say I do not do something. Do not sit here and claim that all I do is talk. There is so much more about me then just the talking, then just the stuff that I have said, you have no clue about me. I do not help people because of how it makes me feel. I help them because its the RIGHT thing to do, because they NEED the help. So once again, please do not sit here and act like you truly know me or what I have done with my life. I am not trying to come off rude to you, but I do not like you coming here and saying that all I do is talk. I have done so much with my life. I have stopped people from killing themselves and such more more than that. I know that talking is easy, thats why I dont like those who just talk. I was raised by "Actions speak louder than words" and that is the way I live my life. I simply put things into words and once again, it appears that the words were misunderstood. So my apologies.
Why does every thread you go in tend to end up with you saying the words "How dare you..." If you think someone is just trolling you then ignore them, if you don't like their opinion well recognize its someones opinion, but why do you call every single post that doesn't agree with you out and belittle them as if you're scolding them.
On April 10 2011 16:21 Zlasher wrote: Why does every thread you go in tend to end up with you saying the words "How dare you..." If you think someone is just trolling you then ignore them, if you don't like their opinion well recognize its someones opinion, but why do you call every single post that doesn't agree with you out and belittle them as if you're scolding them.
Well when someone comes into my blog and says that all I do is talk and don't actually do something, you are right..I will get defensive. I don't care if someone trolls me, I am respectful of other people's opinions...However I do not like people coming into my own blog and trying to act like they know me. That is where I draw the line. I feel that I am in my rights to be upset about this. Since this is my blog, I also have the right to rant here and complain about how I feel about things. When you attack a person, or try to act like you know what they do with their life, you better expect them to get upset. So you are right, I called out that post. I may have come off as scolding them, but that was not intended. The reason I respond to almost every post is out of a a level of respect. Not to just start an argument or fight. So please try to understand.