so tomorrow/in the next few days i am finally putting together a lot of individual struggles that i have been trying to synchronise for a long time but have as yet been able to accomplish due to mental and physical weakness
1) guitar practice
2) regular gym
3) eating properly
4) stable job/income
5) clean and tidy house/room
6) quit smoking
7) no addiction to games or to watching things
8) no ejaculation to porn
9) time management
there are a few other things on the list but right now i am joyous to have these things currently in progress
1) guitar practice.
i started a month or 2 , again, and have been doing 10+ minutes per day approx. i have pretty much gotten down Coffee & TV by blur and Hotel California , using some/several barre chords. they are not good enough to record yet but my slow and steady practice has created a fantastic result so far.
2) regular gym.
i will resume regular gym, again, tomorrow. this is a pretty easy one as i have been practicing it for a long long time now. the key here is time management.
3) eating properly.
again, easy when practicing gym and time management. the issue here is just buying decent food and not slipping into fast/processed food.
4) stable job/income.
i have 2 dif jobs working 5 days a week currently. i am off work until friday due to time off for stress and then later for fractured rib. the stress from job compounds with time management to wreck pretty much everything. since i have had time off i have been able to gradually and finally reset the other things to allow this synchronisation. without time off from work i wouldnt be here, but since i had a breakdown and got time off... this needs to be improved with new/different job in the future. but currently exists in a decent state.
5) clean/tidy room.
i was putting this off for days, weeks, probably months. i just couldnt bring myself to do it nomatter what. i would tidy up but not clean properly. now i've done it.
6) quit smoking.
we will see how this progressing as usual. i am confident again. more importantly, after the 6-7 days initial quitting has gone, i usually "stop caring" and resume smoking again. but with the other things synchronised, such as gym, this should now be sustainable.
i am currently not addicted to watching anything or playing anything or browsing anything.
8) lack of energy and focus.
i am on day 5 of the reddit No Fap. this allows me to have WAY WAY more energy and focus. instead of fapping then wanting to just lie there or go back to sleep or continue fapping, it allows me to jump out of bed and get into action immediately. it makes me awake when talking to girls and doing other things.
9) time management .
this going to sleep early and waking up early. waking up early reduces the sense of stress and anxiety in completing other tasks such as gym and eating. i would rush to the gym, rush to work, not eat properly, not complete gym properly, and feel stressed out and anxious all the time, and hate on myself so much because of it.
these 9 things are all in order now and synchronising with one another to create a fantastically improved lifestyle. they synergise with one another and strengthen one another. they also allow for further developments to be made, at last.
possible further devs and additions:
1) new/different job
this will involve cutting a day or two at my current work to add a day at another workplace doing the same job, for variety/less stress and frustration/so i dont go crazy and hear voices from repetitive environment.
2) do work written course
it is retarded that i still failing to do this. even sit down for 5 minutes. but with these other things in place i should have the strength to start doing this.