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It's time to say goodbye. - Page 8
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When i was a teenager,and wow just kicked in grabbing most of the playing pool from Wc3,i was just entering the gaming world or Warcraft-The Frozen Throne.I started in a moderate way,enjoying the game,but my competitive pulse got the best of me,and suddenly,without realizing,after one year inside the game i was top 500 europe in 1v1.I was in an ESL team back then,and had the honor to play with players like sk.Deadman and others.I worshipped 4k,mostly grubby,even tho i was an undead player.
I was spending 8-12 hours a day playing the game,watching replays,training and laddering.Sleeping at school,losing one year and being like a zombie,with only the dream to become a pro player.I was a kid back then,and about the time i hit 16,i realized the road was way too big for me,considering the fact that i had an education to achieve,and eventually university.And mostly,even tho i was good at it,i was just a kid playing computer games all day to the rest of the world.
At the age of 18 i started playing online poker,Texas Hold'em,riding the big boom which the game brought to the whole world.It was the year before my last one in high school,and again i reached a point where i was grinding NL100/NL200 cash game,playing 18 tables on 2 monitors for 8-10 hours a day.I had a sponsor,and never given one single euro into the game from my own pocket,so i can say without arrogance that i was a sponsored online poker player back then.
Even tho i was able to financially sustain myself from age 18-early 20,making an average well above my high school teachers,the rest of my life was a big big mess.I was constantly underachieving in my studies,my family was supporting me and yet,there was no balance in my life.At the age of 20,last year,i stopped playing holdem,because i was stagnant at my level,and i realized that everybody needs perspective in his own life.And that perspective was non existant,even if i were able to make it big in Wc3/Poker,still,i would've been on shaky grounds,with basically no plan B in my life.
Last part of my story regards Sc2.I started playing it last year,and reached immediatly High diamond.After 1 month,i finally broke the masters barrier,and i felt like the progamer dream could live on on a different form.And again,i faced the reality of my final year of high school.Playing Sc2 or losing another year of school.After seeing me being shattered 2 times,you can imagine what i chose.And i can say with no doubt that i made the right call.
Right now im 21,nearly 22.Im at the second year of university,studying Statistics and Information management.I have an internship going on,and next summer i will get a month of stage in a company which works on statistical analisys.These days im working on my cv to a big company which offers Erasmus programs,and with the right turn of event,i will eventually make it.I will be on my second year of university with 3 working experiences on my back,before even getting my degrees.In my country(Italy),students get that kind of experience only 1-2 years after they finish university.And i' counting to never stop,because i want to gather as much oppostunities as i get.
That been said,i hope my story,even in a small way,can make you feel a little better about yourself.Not because of the story itself,but because there is a big concept behind it:Winners never quit;quitters never win.,only on a different perspective.
Winners will always win,whatever they do,and quitters will always quit,whatever they do.My goal has become global,and not local anymore as it was in the past years.
Therefore,i will struggle for the rest of my life to be a winner in everything i do,because trust me,a winner will always find his best field to win.And every winner can tell you,that even if he chose the field,there's the big truth where the field itself chose him.
If you are a winner,you will win.End of story.Maybe progaming was not your field,that's all.
I wish you all the best in the future and I hope that you don't blame yourself too much about your "Stupid decision".
GLHF at the Uni!