Basically what it comes down to is: I need more nerd friends.
In all throughout my grade school-high school life I was what I would consider a "closet nerd."
By Closet Nerd I mean someone, who deep down is a giant fucking nerd, but as soon as he leaves the house, he leaves his nerdiness at home. The closet Nerd also sort of leads a mini-double-life. I mean By the time I graduated High school I was spending 20+ hours a week in WoW, and other Computer games.
I read all of the LotR/Harry Potter books.
But as soon as I left my house, I was a moderately cool, popular preppy kid at my jr high/high school.
(Im 24 now.. so Jr high was 12 years ago.... holy shit that made my stomach turn realizing that was half of my life ago when i was in Jr high =(...)
But back then, being a nerd was very much frowned upon and still a negative stereotype.
-Now-a-days Nerds are the new cool, thanks to hipsters are super-hero movies. Media has somehow managed to make Nerd the new-cool... but thats for a later blog... back to my history.-
I played high school sports, started on the varsity football team, had a smokin hot girlfriend, was super popular, got Homecoming court, and everything, but as soon as I got home I could be the GIANT nerd that I wanted to be, who raided Hardcore in WoW, spent 15+ hours a week in a 40 man Raids, or was grinding out Arena points.
Anyways, throughout my teenage life, I refused to be acknowledged or known as a giant nerd...because nobody wants to make out with the Nerdy kids. Nobody votes for the Nerdy kids to be homecoming prince etc.
In high school, most of my friends were other jocks/preppies along with 2 other friends who I would identify as fellow "Closet Nerds" It was very much a... at school the rule was 0 discussion of WoW, LotR, Star Wars ETC.... 0 nerd talk allowed...people were around.
But when we got home we were all members of the same guild and raided together and never slept cause we stayed up all night Raiding.
As soon as I graduated high school, I quickly lost interest in hanging out with my "cool" friends because I just really didnt have anything in common or any reason to hang out with them because outside of school our interests were different. Also at the time I had a serious girlfriend who i had been with for 3 years in high school, so all of my friends sort of fell away and I didnt mind that at all to be honest.
I stayed in contact with my 2 nerd friends, simply because we had all the same interests, and still played games together, and WoW is a great way to keep a friendship alive with RL friends who also play, because u still contact eachother daily and hang out on skype etc....
Anyways, fast forward a couple years, My girl and I broke up. One of my friends moved to Texas, and is working as a Border Patrol agent, the other is in love with his now Fiance' , his first ever girlfriend who he is now marrying. Basically all he does is hang out with her, and her friends cause she is pretty demanding, and she has endless free time = all of his goes to her. Which is fine and understandable, i was pretty similar when I had my serious relationship.
Anyways, now neither of them really play games, my friend who was interested in Esports just simply no longer has any interest because of his girlfriend and lack of free-time. All 3 of us stay in contact and anticipate another game that we can all play together and enjoy. (we are all sick of the new WoW, we grew tired of GW2 after week 2 and having max level/best gear and realizing there was no end-game/grouping....currently waiting for ESO)
But I am discovering, as I grow older, and have more freetime now that I am single... my interests grow Nerdier and Nerdier. I think its just because of my lack of concern/care about "cool" or worrying what any1 thinks cause I havent really given a shit about any1's opinion since high school.
But I have recently begun spending a lot fo my time playing Magic The Gathering online, and following DnD Podcasts, as well as writing my own Pen n Paper System/campaign which I plan to host for other TL'ers in the future.
But like... 5 years ago.. i would have NEVER touched Magic or DnD (ESPECIALLY DnD...holy shit this was like...the nerdiest shit ever to me before I began watching Rollplay -which i initially watched because i thought it would be cringe-worthy and awkward...but i actually enjoyed it and have played a 1-shot that i actually REALLY enjoyed-)
BASICALLY... holy shit this is longwinded....
My current problem = my friends with similar interests are spread across the country, or completely Without free time.... and I find myself wanting more "nerd friends" who are interested in super nerdy shit like Magic and DnD, or interested in Going to S Korea to watch a Finals In Korea (I now work fulltime and make good money, and want to go see a Code S Finals...but my only RL friend who watches Esports does not have the money to do so... but i dont really want to go by myself -.-)
But the problem with these hobbies... is that people who are into these things are usually similarly minded as I am in that...they would rather hang out at home and play video games rather than go trashed at a club...
Where do nerds meet other nerds and find other nerd friends?
Due to my refusal to acknowledge my nerd-life when I was younger.. i find myself desiring more Nerdy friends.