|
Grief. It's a journey some has to take on earlier than expected. Yet it had to be shared to let some of my weights off my chest (AND I'M THE ONE ALIVE, RIGHT?!). TL embraced me last time and God I hope it will this time. But back to grief and earlier journeys -> so it was unfortunately for my case and quite a sloppy update rate on my blogposts, right, but my last and only blogpost here was: http://www.teamliquid.net/blogs/viewblog.php?id=350726 - about my father's passing.
He died in july 2011, six feet under in august from 2011 and onwards. I haven't had the courage or the spine to show up at his grave until now, until at the end of this month, when I for my first time will see... my own dads letters on a tombstone.
I had to write this off, and I know TL is a wonderful community, so I thought hey, why not share my heartbreaking blogposts and ruin someone else's day on the run? Cheers.
|
oh, man, stay strong! gl in everything in ur life
|
Stay strong and remember the good times you had with you father, like watching MLG and stuff.
<3
|
Loosing your mother or father must be very tough. im lucky and still have both in life. I feel sorry for you that he passed away you're still quite young (in my eyes) even though age has nothing to do with greif. Hope you find a way to handle the feelings of ur father and his passing.
|
On October 06 2013 00:15 HappyZerGling wrote: oh, man, stay strong! gl in everything in ur life
The same to you man <3
|
Don't be so hard on yourself. It's difficult enough for anyone to acknowledge the fact that their parents are going to die at some point, let alone look it in the face. You have no need to apologise for or downplay your actions at all.
|
On October 06 2013 00:32 Saechiis wrote: Don't be so hard on yourself. It's difficult enough for anyone to acknowledge the fact that their parents are going to die at some point, let alone look it in the face. You have no need to apologise for or downplay your actions at all.
It's easy to be hard on myself, with his last words about him wishing me the best & I'd take care and the last thing I said to my father was "We'll have plenty more of time to see each other when I get home". See, he made sure, to always say farewell and I get it - he knew it, from his deathsentence to 6 feet under. But I couldn't understand. Didn't want to understand. I NEVER WANTED TO SAY FAREWELL.
|
My own dad is also in a pretty bad spot, and I'd also not be able to say him goodbye. Nothing but respect for you <3
|
My father died over 10 years ago. I visited his grave over the summer. Even after ten years, it's still not easy. You just get better at dealing with it as time goes on.
|
On October 06 2013 03:44 Fildun wrote: My own dad is also in a pretty bad spot, and I'd also not be able to say him goodbye. Nothing but respect for you <3
I regret that to myself *every day* for making that mistake. I have to live with that. Make sure to always say a proper goodbye to your father - even though how tough it is.
|
i went trough something similar when my graddad died the family has been in the church for the ceremony. there was also his open coffin and all ppl went there to say goodbye. i didnt go there because i wanted to keep his face in memory when he was alive. so i skipped to see him at the open coffin and waited until the funeral was over to go to his grave and tombstone. had some similar thoughts like you: why didnt i talked more with him and such
but still, since i havent seen his lifeless body i feel a bit better about this situation. maybe you find peace as well when you have been there.
|
On October 06 2013 03:56 Impervious wrote: My father died over 10 years ago. I visited his grave over the summer. Even after ten years, it's still not easy. You just get better at dealing with it as time goes on. Really? For me it's 10 years ago now too but I don't really find it tough or anything when I visit his grave. The sadness never goes away though...
|
On October 06 2013 06:56 RvB wrote:Show nested quote +On October 06 2013 03:56 Impervious wrote: My father died over 10 years ago. I visited his grave over the summer. Even after ten years, it's still not easy. You just get better at dealing with it as time goes on. Really? For me it's 10 years ago now too but I don't really find it tough or anything when I visit his grave. The sadness never goes away though... I currently live 500km from where his ashes are buried, so I don't get the chance to go very often.
|
|
|
|