To one ex, I need to be more assertive and go after what I really want, to another I am a selfish prick who never thinks about her needs.
To one group of friends I am charismatic and outgoing always up for anything, to another I am an introverted hermit who needs to get out more.
To some I am the king of the nerds and they love it! To others I am an immature boy who needs to grow up and adopt adult things.
To many I am abrasive and loud, to a cherished few I am comforting, compassionate and "the only one who really listens."
To some I am still young and I have my whole life ahead of me, to others I am the old man who thinks in archaic ways.
Who the hell am I? Who is right, who is wrong? The more important question is, why should I or anyone else care?!
What part of me is an act, what part of me is real, what bit of what I say was a bit of sarcastic bantering and what was sincere and heartfelt? Do I even know? How the hell could anyone else?
Which part of my personality is best? More socially acceptable? Sexier? More interesting? Is there any part of me that could exist without the others?
I have no idea, and the real point is if I don't know neither can anyone else.
At some point, there comes a time where you really do need to just stop giving a shit. It's tiring, it's an inefficient use of time and frankly, no one ever knows what the fuck they are talking about. Everyone wants to give you a piece of advice here and there about what you "should really try" not having a clue that the last person before them that said that same thing told me the exact opposite. That person that was offended by one simple joke doesn't realize that her friend laughed at it but then hid her reaction when she saw her. One guy doesn't realize how dumb his profound life view sounded but no one wanted to say it to him because they didn't want to hurt his feelings.
As I approach my 30s the one lesson I've really taken away from life is that everyone really is making this all up as they go along. No one is right, everyone is right. The best thing I think in my humble, probably wrong, opinion is: everyone should just try being honest with themselves. If everyone could do that, perhaps there'd be that much less bullshit that we all have to sift through. But perhaps that's just me being arrogant again, yet another trait that people disagree on about me.
Who the hell knows?