tonight I had a perfect case of two of them, thought I should write before I forget.
In my dream I was at home on a Sunday and I was feeling extremely bored. Then I thought tomorrow is Monday so I'd go to high school and have fun with friends. (high school was one of the best part of my life, there were many fun friends and our class was like a funhouse).
And then in the dream, I went to sleep and woke up Monday morning. I was getting ready to go to school, trying to find my uniforms, shoes etc. and then there was an inner voice saying, where do you thing you are going? you finished high school more than 10 years ago? There aren't your fun classmates anymore. You will never be in such an environment again.
Then my dream self sat and started sobbing realizing those days are long past.
I woke up in real life and went to sleep after a few mins, to see the vol2 of bad dreams.
This one was very similar to the first one. It was the first year of collage when I had a huuuuggee crush on a girl. I still think she was the most perfect girl I have ever seen and I'd marry her without a thought if she accepted. I was getting prepared to go to school as I was very excited to see her in the class. I got a book, was looking for my bag and the same inner voice happened.
where do you thing are you going? You finished college years ago. And that girl rejected you. You won't ever see her in your life again. And you won't meet someone as perfect as her ever again.
Needless to say it was a very bad experience to relive some cherished memories and then reality thrown on your face by your own self. I woke up jumping from the bad and was a hair close to start sobbing.
I don't have any excitement to go on with my life. Everything feels empty and without taste and I won't have a life as good as those memories.