I self destruct myself, self sabotaged. As I said, I have no self esteem, I hate myself, so having regret is the punishment I need to keep the cycle of self hate and low self esteem. I also have the staircase wit syndrome, which leads to more regrets.
I'm trying to break the cycle, but I have been like this for so long, that I ultimately relapse, over the most minor things, or the most major ones, I think I'm broken beyond repair.
It gets lonely living with regrets, and no one great has an addiction to regret.
If you feed on regret, you'll be miserable your whole life, and you won't ever achieve anything.