Well, I have an idea: my friends are scattered around the planet, the girl I love is thousands of miles away from me, unemployed because I have no work experience (but I'm volunteering, so hopefully that'll change), my parents are insane, it's raining, 180 dollars blew out of my hands this morning into traffic...and whatever else I can think of while I write the rest of this.
Been having dark thoughts (the usual kind, along with running away to Mexico/Canada), but nothing too serious. I'm 19 years old and for as long as I can remember this depression bug has bit me off and on, but it's worse now than it ever was.
I find it hard to get out of bed in the morning (unless it's for classes, I like college ((no, really I do, not sarcasm)), and I eat maybe one meal a day because I just don't get hungry. If I had a job I liked (hello Theatre House Manager, call me back!) I'd jump out of bed, but I don't.
Most of all though I worry about being a dissapointment to my family. I grew up in a one parent household (and that one parent was off the rocker) but I did pretty well in school, avoided drugs/alcohol. I know they're proud of me, but still, I'd rather die than dissapoint.
That's always the way I've thought: be great or die. Perhaps I need to adjust my world view.
Anyway, try to cheer me up, or give me something I can relate to.
Thanks.
"Never forget the Cheer Cannon." (MLG Orlando, 2011) IdrA / HuK / INcontroL, On November 17 2011 07:41 iNcontroL wrote:[i]The pleasure was all mine[/i] / BoxeR / Ret / Stephano ("Napoleon") / Machine / Artosis: I am not a doctor. (Dreamhack Winter 2011)
Blazinghand United States. September 24 2011 04:29. Posts 12203
If there's one thing I do to really just start laughing and never be able to stop, it's to go over some of the posts of my 3rd-favorite poster on Teamliquid, the immortal baller. You should take a look and have some laughs.
When you stare into the iCCup, the iCCup stares back.
reneg United States. September 24 2011 04:32. Posts 677
hrm, something you could always try is to go running, or exercise. Do something to be active, get the endorphins flowing, and that'll just generally elevate your state of being
That, OR, you could go to reddit, and click the funny subreddit, and just look at a dozen memes and laugh at some of them (some of them are hilarious)
or you could go to youtube and watch weird al: Amish paradise:
Edit: Weird al sure does look a lot like stephen colbert......
That's always the way I've thought: be great or die. Perhaps I need to adjust my world view.
Probably a good idea considering you manage to let 180 bucks fly into traffic haha jk. But seriously, that's a dumb philosophy. Don't make unrealistic expectations of yourself and then feel like a loser when you predictably fail to meet them. Maybe we have different ideas of what "Great" means, but to me when someone is great it's someone everyone is looking at, someone who's at the top of a hill made of bodies that they beat to get where they are. It's better to just try to be an important part in the lives of people around you, unless you've got some miraculous skill or drive to do something specific (you didn't mention anything so I assume you just have a really vague idea that you want to be great and don't know how).
As for what can make you feel better... the usual: get a hobby, be more active, maybe join a club at your school and meet people... stop feeling sorry for yourself... hahaha
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Blazinghand United States. September 24 2011 04:39. Posts 12203
On September 24 2011 04:34 Thrill wrote: Wait what? 180 dollars blew out of your hands?
man don't go REMINDING him of that! shit happens!
here read this to forget what Thrill wrote about
Baller wrote: baller's guide to getting a girlfriend 1. dont have a girlfriend, its not ur fault its always the girls 2. brother has 2 girlfriends, gives u one 3. take credit 4. write guide on TL
When you stare into the iCCup, the iCCup stares back.
jeeeeohn United States. September 24 2011 04:48. Posts 860
Baller wrote: baller's guide to getting a girlfriend 1. dont have a girlfriend, its not ur fault its always the girls 2. brother has 2 girlfriends, gives u one 3. take credit 4. write guide on TL
Haha, it's fine. It was a freak accident. It's rainy and windy here and when I started to move the money to my wallet a gust just took it into the street right as traffic started coming through. I was like: What. The. Fuck.
And yeah, baller is pretty amazing. Thanks for sharing that.
That's always the way I've thought: be great or die. Perhaps I need to adjust my world view.
Probably a good idea considering you manage to let 180 bucks fly into traffic haha jk. But seriously, that's a dumb philosophy. Don't make unrealistic expectations of yourself and then feel like a loser when you predictably fail to meet them. Maybe we have different ideas of what "Great" means, but to me when someone is great it's someone everyone is looking at, someone who's at the top of a hill made of bodies that they beat to get where they are. It's better to just try to be an important part in the lives of people around you, unless you've got some miraculous skill or drive to do something specific (you didn't mention anything so I assume you just have a really vague idea that you want to be great and don't know how).
As for what can make you feel better... the usual: get a hobby, be more active, maybe join a club at your school and meet people... stop feeling sorry for yourself... hahaha
You're right, thanks!
"Never forget the Cheer Cannon." (MLG Orlando, 2011) IdrA / HuK / INcontroL, On November 17 2011 07:41 iNcontroL wrote:[i]The pleasure was all mine[/i] / BoxeR / Ret / Stephano ("Napoleon") / Machine / Artosis: I am not a doctor. (Dreamhack Winter 2011)
I can somewhat relate to you. I don't have depression issues usually but I do get crazy amounts of anxiety and anxiety attacks. I just moved into college and I just kinda freaked out that I was living alone, and no longer a kid etc... it all just kinda hit me and I'm still working through the anxiety. It may feel shitty now, and that does suck but know that it will get better over time.
Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.
jdseemoreglass United States. September 24 2011 05:22. Posts 3773
"If you want this forum to be full of half-baked philosophy discussions between pompous faggots like yourself forever, stay the course captain vanilla" - FakeSteve[TPR], 2006
Brees Marshall Islands. September 24 2011 05:50. Posts 2282
Hmm its hard to really give a brief guide on how to improve your psychological well-being, but I know from my own experiences that even though quick fixes like "just go get drunk" often doesnt get you anywhere that there are some things you could do. Ive previously studied some psychology and Im generally very interested in topics like well-being and depression. First of all, let me say this: The late teens, when you are around 17-19 years old can generally be tough, this is often because you feel kinda trapped in a way (I know I did): This was on my part because I felt like an adult then, but then again, I felt that all my life-decisions was made for me: You have to go to school where you on lower levels cant decide what lessons yourself, you're not financially independent, you have to obey you parents and so on.. The sum of it is: Statistically people will feel better about themselves once they get a little older and more independent. So thats a long-term comfort: Life will keep getting better from here.
And then some quick-tips for here and now, which might help:
- The mind and the body are actually more tied together then many think. People ofc know that then you think or feel something, that often reflects on the body (if your tired or sad, you look tired or sad). But what many doesnt know is that things also goes the other way around. So if you actually actively try straightening up and smile (even how dumb you might feel) as ofthen as you remember, it actually helps. If you would like to read more, check this out: http://scienceblogs.com/cognitivedaily/2007/11/just_smile_youll_feel_better_w.php
- If you got a really close friend or two (and believe me, its suprising how few reeeally good friends there are out there), really do share deeper emotions, problems and thoughts. Close friendly relationships is such as an important aspect of a persons life that you do well to never forget that. Remember, humans are group-animals, being accepted, liked and love from those around us is alpha and omega.
- Force yourself to care. As Aristotle and many other have pointed out, its important for people to feel that they contribute to the world around them. Really do try to care doing as much as you can as well as you can. The satisfaction of well done work and reaching a goal (and this applies for many things: jobs, homework, laddergames etc) is great.
- Dont take life too seriously! Live in the moment and do what you want to do. You have nothing to prove to anyone but yourself. Be the best of yourself that you can be, and if others dont approve, thats their tough luck. Remember, no one is as awesome and as you, and dont you forget that!
tMomiji United States. September 24 2011 06:21. Posts 1115
-hugs- I know it hurts but try to laugh about it. Be cynical. That's how I cope. I just bawled my eyes out because I got knocked down to lowest rung on BRONZE (I used to be gold!! T_T I hate Terrans! Banshees must die!) so I'm literally the worst on the ladder. When I finished crying I just burst out laughing like, "WELL considering how CRAP my life is, this rank sure is fitting!"
But that's just me. I hope you feel better.
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xsquared Canada. September 24 2011 06:26. Posts 55
I feel I can relate to this in someway. Sometimes I think too much about the monotony of life.
I like to learn new things I find interesting to keep my mind occupied with other things and music is a nice escapsim for me along with learning the guitar. But ultimately its down to the individual to go 'out there' and make the most of life.
Kipsate Netherlands. September 24 2011 06:47. Posts 18114
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Tommie China. September 24 2011 04:58. Posts 592
), really do share deeper emotions, problems and thoughts. Close friendly relationships is such as an important aspect of a persons life that you do well to never forget that. Remember, humans are group-animals, being accepted, liked and love from those around us is alpha and omega. 
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