 Milkis October 30 2011 01:00. Posts 4800 | Profile Blog # |
I'm Done.
It's kind of a hard decision to make, to cut it all off and just leave. But I've spent thinking about it over the night and honestly I can't think of what would ever motivate me to do anything within this sphere of "eSports" anymore.
I'll be honest. I never expected people to agree with my opinion on what makes something an eSport or not. I've been quite honest about how my opinion is elitist, and I fully expected disagreement over the definition. Of course, looking at some of the reactions did make me realize that yes, I should have been more careful about how I phrased it. I obviously didn't mean to "shit" on other games as a competitive game, but I could see why people would see it in that way.
But does all this mean that any of you have the right to call me retarded? an idiot? I couldn't care less about what you considered my opinion. What I care about is the comments that suddenly popped up. Apparently, suddenly, I'm a terrible translator. Everything is a fluke. There are suddenly no place in eSports for people like me.
You know, let me tell you this. I never wanted to do live translation to begin with. Deciding to help out at MLG Columbus took a pretty big decision because live translation was absolutely the last thing I wanted to do. And yet MLG looked like they needed someone so I jumped on board. I asked Lee if I absolutely had to and he said it was expected for me to. So I did it.
Call me "nervous" whenever I go on stage but it's more exhaustion than anything else considering I'm terrible at taking care of myself at MLGs because I always run around so much and I have trouble putting myself before other things that need to be done. One of the reasons why I decided not to go to Providence (and apparently, it was the correct decision) was because I looked at myself in a mirror during the event at Orlando and I looked pretty much dead. I look nervous? No, I'm fucking exhausted.
It's kind of shitty when people start criticizing you over shit like this. "OH HES SUCH A BAD TRANSLATOR HE IS ALWAYS SO NERVOUS". Or someone to say "My KR friend says X" or "X is better". Right.
And then comes the criticism of my written work. Suddenly, everything I do is shit. Everything I've done is absolute shit. And people start agreeing with it because you disagree with my opinion?
You want to know why I bothered doing anything for the community? Because I always thought the community deserved more. I never wanted to be popular nor did I want attention (although I guess I did enjoy it, but it's not something I ever wanted). It's the last thing I wanted. All I wanted to do was bring you guys good content, and I always just wanted the means to do so. I wanted to do a lot of nice things for the community because I was capable of doing it and seeing you guys appreciate the content was always good enough. Why else would I take on any of these extra works, or brainstorm a ton of new things I could do for the community? Sadly, none of these will come to fruition anymore but I guess it doesn't even matter.
I've never been so absolutely demotivated in my life. It's kind of hilarious how people can be. All over a single opinion. A single opinion that no one even bothered reading because everyone started putting words in my mouth and then attacking me personally. And then giving me lectures.
I'm done. I guess it's good riddance for all of you.
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| dbosworld United States. October 30 2011 01:01. Posts 317 | Profile Blog # |
| Don't listen to them, I think you're awesome and a great translator! Last edit: 2011-10-30 01:02:34 |
| | Former CAL-I/CPL CounterStrike Player - Halo1PC CPL/CAL Player |
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| Archas United States. October 30 2011 01:01. Posts 5731 | Profile Blog # | |
| | "there's like 3 billion something vaginas out there that you havent seen yet." - QuanticHawk |
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| Xiron Germany. October 30 2011 01:04. Posts 1161 | Profile # |
| Holy shit that was unexpected, please dont go, all those haters are fucking trolls, nothing but trash that are envious of your work and the respect you earned yourself with it. |
| | "The way of life can be free and beautiful. But we have lost the way. " - Charlie Chaplin |
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| Megaliskuu United States. October 30 2011 01:04. Posts 5033 | Profile Blog # |
So the shitty sc2 community attacks you, and you just leave TL altogether?
Good bye I guess... |
| | aka Megalisk, TheMuTaL|BW>Everything|Add me on KR TheMuTaL.675 for practice games :) |
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| garlicface Canada. October 30 2011 01:04. Posts 3677 | Profile # |
| You can quit if you want, but don't do it because other people were mean to you. That's just something that happens no matter who is in the spotlight. |
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| kineticSYN United States. October 30 2011 01:06. Posts 853 | Profile # |
i don't know you that well, and only really know you from mlg translations and the tidbits on twitter about latest korean news
i've got nothing against you as an individual, but posts like these are actually disgusting
you care too much what the community thinks, and that's something you shouldn't do. the internet is full of trolls and haters everywhere, and once you're in any sort of spotlight it should be expected to come your way
this just screams emo/angsty/nerdrage with every single line o_o
you're better than that, man up |
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| plated.rawr Norway. October 30 2011 01:06. Posts 1391 | Profile Blog # |
Haters gonna hate. You shouldn't care, though. Their opinions about you are irrelevant. Realise that the silent (vast) majority appreciate the work you do.
That said, if doing it is a negative experience for you, then quit. Good on you, don't keep doing stuff that you don't want to. |
| | Savior broke my heart ;_; |
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 Chill Canada. October 30 2011 01:07. Posts 25260 | Profile Blog # |
my only thought reading this was "lol"
dont worry milkis, your daddy loves you. see you tomorrow. |
| | http://www.teamliquid.net/forum/viewmessage.php?topic_id=275302¤tpage=225#4490 | |
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| yesplz United States. October 30 2011 01:07. Posts 295 | Profile Blog # |
Haters gonna hate.
Learn it live it love it. |
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| Syrupjuice United States. October 30 2011 01:08. Posts 172 | Profile Blog # |
This is a very sad day, and I really hope it isn't so.
Best of luck to ya in your future endeavors, and I hope that you can find the motivation again to make the world a better place in some form or fashion. Follow your heart, think critically of all things, and don't let people's undeserved hate bring you down.
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| DrainX Sweden. October 30 2011 01:09. Posts 3132 | Profile Blog # |
| I think you are a great translator and a great figure in the community. Whenever you say something controversial, people will flame you. People are haters. Just ignore them. I hope you change your mind. The silent majority of the community appreciates all your hard work and wants you to stay. Last edit: 2011-10-30 01:09:44 |
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| tec27 United States. October 30 2011 01:09. Posts 2559 | Profile Blog # |
| I think you need to take a page out of the book of KellyMilkies, Milkis. She gets shit on all the time, but it doesn't stop her from coming back. |
| | Can you jam with the console cowboys in cyberspace? |
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| nekuodah England. October 30 2011 01:11. Posts 2373 | Profile # |
| I kinda laughed, you moan about people shitting on you then post this basically saying they have won, kinda seems like fishing for compliments/feeding trolls not sure which either way its not in your best interests, gl with w/e u do in the future. |
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| OmniEulogy Canada. October 30 2011 01:11. Posts 2190 | Profile Blog # |
I think the majority of people appreciate what you did. It's unfortunate that you don't feel up to doing it anymore  MLG will just have to find their own translator now I suppose. |
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| Lemonwalrus United States. October 30 2011 01:11. Posts 5445 | Profile Blog # |
wtf happened?
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| <Aesop> then you can just divide by esports | <boesdropSAD> i want to fuck to black metal | <Hurricane|> I like 9 year old
<TorteDeBanned> I would love to do it with 2-3 guys here~ | <Coagulation> you sound like your unhappy i nailed your GF |
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| nepeta October 30 2011 01:12. Posts 1412 | Profile Blog # |
1. No idea what you're on about, but
2. You're amazing and
3. shouldn't care so much about hating nublets. |
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| bpork United States. October 30 2011 01:12. Posts 23 | Profile # |
" I always run around so much and I have trouble putting myself before other things that need to be done"
I hear ya...take care of yourself...and thanks for your content. This lurker has appreciated it  |
| | "Our BM is never prioritized over our macro" - Destiny |
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| Dalguno United States. October 30 2011 01:13. Posts 2298 | Profile Blog # |
| Don't leave. They're just trolls, man. And it's not the majority. Getting a bit of fame like you have, there are bound to be haters. That's all it is though. The majority of us have huge respect for you. I appreciate so much what you've done. Forget them, man. |
| | "I'm gonna keep making drones cause I'm a baller, and ballers make drones." -Snute |
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| Integra Sweden. October 30 2011 01:13. Posts 4994 | Profile Blog # |
| Milkis if it makes you feel any better, I'm one of those people that just saw you as "some guy" translating Korean to English, besides your excellent skills in Korean and English I never really noticed anything special about your behavior etc. |
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