| mizU United States. May 07 2012 23:54. Posts 9978 | Profile Blog # |
| you're still awesome and i still lub u |
| | if happy ever afters did exist <3 @watamizu_ |
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| mordek United States. May 08 2012 04:10. Posts 3311 | Profile Blog # |
| Takes big ones to drop out and do the touring thing. That's some serious commitment, props. |
| | It is vanity to love what passes quickly and not to look ahead where eternal joy abides. |
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| Zergneedsfood United States. May 08 2012 05:34. Posts 5352 | Profile Blog # |
Boes you're awesome! <3 forever and ever
I hear you're coming to Anaheim? I want to see youuuu! |
| | ／人◕ ‿‿ ◕人＼ Make a contract with me and join TLADT | wala x kjh x l10f <3 | poldu so modestuu uguu~ |
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 Lip the Pencilboy Italy. May 08 2012 06:17. Posts 392 | Profile Blog # |
dafuq dude? you re crazy handsome!what u want more?
+ Show Spoiler +as unappropriate as it may seem, lip the spaghettienglishboy just wanted to randomly point that out :D |
| | "Ieri ho bevuto troppo, stasera bevo solo Birra!" - DEBO IS MY PERSONAL SC2-HERO |
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| KvltMan Sweden. May 08 2012 07:14. Posts 1522 | Profile Blog # |
| Jazz-hop, man. That's where it's at. Good read, as always- |
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| OptimusTom United States. May 08 2012 07:45. Posts 151 | Profile # |
I always thought you did a really good job with your music in school. I dunno dude, if you want it, go after it. Don't let anything get in your way.
I went from random kid in a school of 1.2k+ to that kid in a band, to the nothing kid again, to top radio DJ, to nothing, to aspiring LoL shoutcaster. It is what YOU make of it, not what others make of you. |
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 boesthius United States. May 08 2012 07:50. Posts 9794 | Profile Blog # |
thanks for the replies guys~
@SgtSater - thanks. i don't really feel that courageous putting it out there. it is what it is, so i just have to deal~
@JWD - very true, and i think that's what i'm still trying to figure out. i thought i had an idea last year, maybe it'll still be true.
@Tiegrr - yeah, i went through the very 100% opposite of my parents route for a bit - went punk and had a mohawk and all that jazz. i hate to think i went through phases like every other teenage because i want to feel like some unique flower, but i did.
@Aphasie - i try not to either, but it's just something i have a hard time coping with. i think it's partially due to my mother raising me the way she did - be thankful for what i have always. i understand that depression is different from person to person, and that it's a "legitimate" disease; but to me it's always felt like something i could overcome easily even when i can't. that's probably the reason why i struggle with it so much - i feel like i shouldn't be concerned with it because i'm putting myself before others; which i hate externally(albeit like i said earlier in the blog i'm incredibly self-centered in my desires and dreams.)
@FW,SNM,mizu, etc <333 you too
@smix i know i know. i just don't want to bother you with my shit at this time for reason you know~
@Boblion i will kill u. jk~
@heyoka thanks, that honestly means a ton. i'm pretty sure that's the nicest thing anyone's said to me, haha.
@heyoka and boblion: basically the backstory of me going from middle of nowhere town to band - i went to one of their shows and got to be friends with the band when i was 15. i went on tour with them as a roadie, and then right after the tour their bassist left and i joined.
@Th1rdEye - i love MtB, and was more than likely listening to them while writing the blog.
@ultimatehurl - thanks mate~~ i don't regret my experiences one bit! i think i'm just in a rut of wanting to have those again in this ordinary life i live.
@paper - oh roogah i rub u
@nitereloaded - it's not something i convey very often. i like to keep myself composed and put other people's problems in front of myself. i think this also stems back to my religious upbringing - helping others first (the first shall be last and the last shall be first, so on and so forth.) couple that with a socially awkward kid and you get a boy who doesn't know how to think for himself and only for others.
@sephynim - yeah i know i know. i'm trying nim<3
@Haruhi - it's crossed my mind, but like you said you don't really know him. it's understandable you'd get that from what i wrote, though! basically it came down to having two brothers that are 7-8 years older than i am - and he was heavily involved with their upbringing. he coached them in soccer, baseball, took them fishing, all that jazz. then when i got that age, they got divorced and i never experienced that. i think maybe my resentment is from my inherent jealousy toward my brothers and that's incredibly selfish.
@mordek - thanks. it wasn't really a big issue to me as i knew i could always get my diploma when/if i was done touring; or at the least my GED. it was something i was passionate about and bless my mom's heart for trusting me enough to follow it. i don't give enough credit to my mother - as negative as i am about my childhood, she raised me right.
@ZNF - yeah i'll be in anaheim. are you actually gonna go?
@lip the pencilboy - no ur da handsomest.
@KvltMan - jazz-hop is gr9. i just love music, man.
@Tom - thanks, i loved it but it just isn't for me. i'm a musical performer - i play shows i don't write classical pieces(as much as i love them). and that means a lot, i think i'm just trying to find my place again. |
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 TuElite Canada. May 08 2012 08:09. Posts 2123 | Profile Blog # |
| Wow that music, I love your blogs for it, so great! 5/5 Everything was really good, thanks for sharing it! Last edit: 2012-05-08 08:09:41 |
| | Always Smile - Jung Nicole - Follow Nicole on Twitter @_911007 and me @TuElite |
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| AnachronisticAnarchy United States. May 08 2012 09:09. Posts 2289 | Profile Blog # |
Aren't you in your twenties/early thirties or something?
That's pretty young. You still have plenty of time to forge your own path in life. Don't feel sad about not being able to do something when you're in your physical and mental peak, just go out there and fucking do it.
To repeat: find something to do and go fucking do it.Last edit: 2012-05-08 09:10:11 |
| | "How are you?" "I am fine, because it is not normal to scream in pain." |
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| Pull United States. May 08 2012 10:27. Posts 281 | Profile # |
| Boes is the chicken to my noodles. In our apartment he was the life of the party. And in life, he is the Boss of Protoss, the best friend to all, and the person we can all trust to be there. Boes, you're the best! Don't forget it. No matter what anyone says to you, no matter what you say to yourself you are truly the best. We love you man. Carry out your dreams and live them to their fullest. Boes Fighting! |
| | Co-Creator of the FRB Grand Tournament...Check out my epic commentaries at YouTube.com/pullsc and twitch.tv/pullsc ESPORTS FIGHTING! |
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 Rekrul Korea (South). May 08 2012 12:19. Posts 16550 | Profile Blog # |
boesthius has unreal heart
whenever ur bored and dark just think about all that manner sippin and observation of nut lows that will happen at mlg ! |
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| -orb- United States. May 08 2012 16:46. Posts 5664 | Profile Blog # |
| Boes I think I love you more and more every day |
| 'life of lively to live to life of full life thx to shield battery'
how sad that sc2 has no shield battery :( | |
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| BrTarolg United Kingdom. May 08 2012 17:08. Posts 2496 | Profile Blog # |
I spent years being depressed because i kept thinking that there must be something wrong with me, that it was selfish assholish for me to be that way, and at every turn society would tell me to fuck off
Really, its OK to be depressed, and you're a cool guy. I was never depressed around my parents because they were the only ones to tell me that i was OK, and that i wasn't this terrible person that people kept telling me i was
I always felt like "wow, i've got all this stuff and i'm unhappy, i must be a bad person" and i would beat myself up over it. It took people to tell me that its OK to be unhappy and its OK to be depressed and that doesn't make me a bad person in order for me to recover
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Nowadays i live pretty much the same way i used to, i'm an absolute hermit, i have very few if almost no friends at all, my personality is extremely introverted and awkward, and i spend most of my time just doing my own thing
But now that i know its OK to do that, and i don't listen to the pressure of people around me telling me that i "have to" get out or i "should" do this, or that i "must" listen to the pressures of society, i'm a lot happier about it
It's only because people come up to me and say "man you got issues" or "there's something wrong with you" and they tell you that over and over again you begin to believe it. I'm cool just the way i am thanks
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| Quesadilla Korea (South). May 08 2012 17:14. Posts 1714 | Profile Blog # |
| metalcore + homebrew in a month + dat fa$hion |
| | Make a lot of friends. Wear good clothes. Drink good beer. Love a nice girl. |
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| Zergneedsfood United States. May 09 2012 00:34. Posts 5352 | Profile Blog # |
| Boes, I think I will be going. My friends might be playing in the LoL tournament there, so yeah. |
| | ／人◕ ‿‿ ◕人＼ Make a contract with me and join TLADT | wala x kjh x l10f <3 | poldu so modestuu uguu~ |
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| Pull United States. May 09 2012 08:49. Posts 281 | Profile # |
On May 08 2012 12:19 Rekrul wrote:
boesthius has unreal heart
whenever ur bored and dark just think about all that manner sippin and observation of nut lows that will happen at mlg !
I'm so jelly...now that I actually drink I'd have a much better time xD |
| | Co-Creator of the FRB Grand Tournament...Check out my epic commentaries at YouTube.com/pullsc and twitch.tv/pullsc ESPORTS FIGHTING! |
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| FastEddieV United States. May 10 2012 16:50. Posts 608 | Profile Blog # |
| Boes es #1 even when he plays Vlad solo top, always like playing LoL with you dude. And you rock those invisible sock / oxfords pretty well. |
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| MooMooMugi United States. May 13 2012 11:36. Posts 4463 | Profile Blog # |
| Everytime I learn more and more about your life the more I <3 you Boes |
| | www.twitch.tv/moomoomugi |LoL & SC2 IGN both my username| Just livin' the baylife|FREE 0123456789 |
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| [UoN]Sentinel United States. May 13 2012 11:50. Posts 2599 | Profile Blog # |
| So between that blog and this one, I don't get exactly why did the band break up? |
| | One day I'll get around to writing my 17-minute epic. Also, exploring heavy metal. || Seize the day! |
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| RoosterSamurai United States. June 09 2012 00:16. Posts 2101 | Profile Blog # |
| Amazing LoL player, even more amazing person. Why don't we hang out any more? lol |
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