I posted two of these on accident when I wasn't finished but this is the real post. My bad.
In all my posts, I'll be honest with myself, they were small posts that publicized my stream and my playing ability (or lack thereof). I viewed my blog on TL as a sort of way to get people to watch my stream and that was it. I did not think to ever post anything about my personal life because I felt like this wasn't the place. I've come to the conclusion that I was wrong and that this community is a discombobulated family in which everyone hates their second cousins but still loves the immediate family. So I figured it would make an actual serious post entitled "Things I Never Saw Coming" about events in my life that I dreamed of as a kid, or didn't, and now they are actually happening when I never thought they would.
Be warned, probably most of you will NOGAF, but what's the worse that could happen? I could get a one star post. Right on bro.
Growing up I never really had any dreams. I wanted to be a NASCAR driver and own a Lamborghini (which this dream still exists to keep me sane) but that was it. To keep a long story short my Dad thought I was useless so I was told that constantly so I believed it and never really excelled in school. Never put any effort it and came out a 3.0 student at best. I thought I would just get a job as a teacher, work at Best Buy for the rest of my life, or go be a police officer. I was content with these jobs (no offense to anyone but these do not fit for me) and figured it could be worse.
That was about a year ago I thought of all that. One year ago I thought I was going to join the Police Academy this coming fall and go be a police officer or go get my teaching degree after my Criminal Justice degree. It wasn't until around December that something hit me in the head, and no it wasn't my girlfriend although I wouldn't be surprised if she snuck into my room while I was asleep because I do tend to laugh in my sleep, and I started to get straight A's and had a drive to go to Law School. I picked up a couple LSAT books, which is the entry exam into Law School, and started studying. This came out of nowhere like Stephano reinventing Zergs. I never thought I would go be a lawyer, never thought I had a drive to go to Law School, and never thought I would even remotely think about thinking about law school. I said that right, didn't I?
I am 2 weeks away from one of the most important dates in my life in taking the LSAT. I feel under prepared since I have been working 35-45 hour work weeks but I am motivated and excited non the less. You may ask, "Bondja, why are you working that many hours when you have a big test coming up. That seems like careless thing to do and you will probably get a lower score you fool!" This is where the second thing I never saw coming comes into play.
The second thing I never (at least this soon) saw coming - Getting engaged.
Yup, getting married. I always dreamed of getting married because I've always wanted to. I blame being raised by my 3 older sisters and mother. I want kids and I want a lot of them. Must be the catholic roots in me but I love kids! This is a very exciting thing for me because I've been dating the love of my life for almost 2 years and I've known her for 3 years.
I went through a very hard time in my life when I was 18-20. I use to be heavily involved in my church and was a leader in all youth activities, praise band, etc. When I went to college I tried to be somebody I wasn't and in that I lost my two best friends and God in the process. That's a long story cut short, you are welcome. I tried being the party goer, the person who is always with the girl (which I will add even when I was super drunk I was still too nervous to talk to the ladies) and the person who everyone loves. That was not who I was but I contended that is who I wanted to be. I failed. I failed hard and I regret it. It's very embarrassing to think of all that I became and all that I lost to the point that it hurts to this day.
Now, Bondja, where the hell are you going with this? I'm working on it. This was all while I was at Missouri State University and I transferred out to the school I go to now. I was placed in a room with the RA who was a die hard Christian and long story short I got back on the right path. The main point of where I was going with this was to say that I went to my lowest and came back and that everything was put together in place for me perfectly and I am so lucky and blessed to be dating the love of my life. The moment I met her I knew that she was the one and I even said that to my friend. I'm only 22 but I know that this is the best decision I will ever make.
I recently just purchased a ring that has a .75 CT stone, and a 1.30 total weight in CT. I know how I'm going to ask her but I'm still working out the kinks. She doesn't like a lot of attention, which is the opposite of me, so I figured I would setup a professional photo shoot for Christmas Cards and ask her while we are taking pictures. I get two birds with one stone this way, save the date cards AND engagement pictures. I'm a freakin' genius sometimes. I've never been happier in my life.
The third thing I never saw coming - Ticonderoga pencils.
Literally, the best pencils in this world. I never thought I would actually have a preference for a #2 pencil but I do. If you don't believe me here's a link of Will Ferrell talking about them - at 1:50.
I always tell people I'm Livin' the dream because I am. I'm young, handsome (if you like beards), I have the love of my life, a steady job, getting a great education, and have friends. I might work myself to sleep every Saturday afternoon and I might not have a lot of free time but how could I not be living the dream? I don't know how to really end this post since it's been so serious/real.
Hoopa!
Last edit: 2012-05-31 07:31:11
MysteryMeat1 United States. May 31 2012 08:25. Posts 1227
I'm planning on proposing after the test but before law school. I won't have time to plan a wedding and I don't want to wait till I'm out of law school 3-4 years down the road to get married. We've, meaning she and I, have talked about it before and we would both want to get married before. It's basically a yes but now I have to go pay off a diamond first. And thank you! I really appreciate it.
It is the eraser! It is such a clean erase that sometimes I don't even notice I wrote anything down.
Congratulations! hope the wedding goes well and you do well on the LSAT test. But this
When I went to college I tried to be somebody I wasn't and in that I lost my two best friends and God in the process. That's a long story cut short, you are welcome. I tried being the party goer, the person who is always with the girl (which I will add even when I was super drunk I was still too nervous to talk to the ladies) and the person who everyone loves. That was not who I was but I contended that is who I wanted to be. I failed. I failed hard and I regret it. It's very embarrassing to think of all that I became and all that I lost to the point that it hurts to this day.
Is the mistake I'm scared of making sometimes (taking in mind I'm only in grade 9 and got a LONG way to post secondary education), any tips in the future to help avoid it or is it a thing that you don't realize is happening until people start telling you about it?
ticklishmusic United States. May 31 2012 11:16. Posts 3222
I prefer mechanical pencils personally- the Zebra M-301 with 2H leads. Put a good old Staedtler Eraser, and you're set for anything (except a teacher who insists you write in pen).
Congrats on getting your life together. Best wishes for your proposal! Two pieces of advice:
1) Mechanical pencils are superior, and the greatest mechanical pencil is the Twist-Erase III 0.9 mm.
2) For good LSAT tips and law school advice in general, I highly recommend Top Law Schools.com and the accompanying forums. They may be snobs, but you can learn a lot there. I took the LSAT last February, and while I ended up deciding against applying to law school, at least for the moment, I did achieve and excellent LSAT score, thanks in part to what I ahd learned there. You are probably already aware that it is the single most important factor in the admissions process, so it is absolutely worth your while to study as much as possible. I would aim for doing at least 10 practice tests aside from whatever other studying you do, but the exact approach really depends on your own strengths and weaknesses. Anyway, I'd be happy to help with that in any way that I can. PM me if you want.
Th1rdEye United States. May 31 2012 15:21. Posts 809
I'm a fair bit older than you but I went through similar phases during school. Unfortunately.. I don't really like the job I have.. even though I thought it was the best thing coming out of college - still, no regrets!
Hey man this is all great, and I found the marriage/University/God experience thing pretty relevant to me. I'm a Christian and since starting university its been tough to stay on the right path or even define what the right path is. Hope and pray all works out for you.
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bondja United States. June 03 2012 15:01. Posts 39
On May 31 2012 08:25 MysteryMeat1 wrote: Good luck on your test and marriage proprosal. Are you planning to propose before or after the test.
I'm planning to propose after the test seeing as the test in a week and one day. I still have a couple more pay checks before I pick up the ring :-)
On May 31 2012 10:55 LazyFailKid wrote: Is the mistake I'm scared of making sometimes (taking in mind I'm only in grade 9 and got a LONG way to post secondary education), any tips in the future to help avoid it or is it a thing that you don't realize is happening until people start telling you about it?
That's a hard question to answer. It's all about self awareness I would say. I remember for that year and a half I was conscious of my decisions and was determined to act a certain way. You can always control who you are and where you place yourself and I think my biggest fall down was accountability. I never once put any effort into going to church while during this time even though there was one just down the street, a 5 minute walk. Putting yourself with the right people is key and just trying to stay true to yourself. There would be times I would go a week or two just staying inside of my dorm and writing music and reading my Bible and then there would be a week or two where I would just go out and party Tuesday-Saturday. I felt like I was able to convince myself I was still "doing ok" with those intermittent weeks so I would suggest being accountable. You still have a long way off and you are still going to change between now and graduation but always try and stay true to yourself and think twice about it. Not just a, "yes it's ok" but a "what am I really doing here? What are the outcomes of what I'm about to do?"
On May 31 2012 11:26 CyDe wrote: This actually made me smile, thank you, I needed that. I hope your life continues in the way that you are planning and hoping
I'm glad I was able to CyDe! I love making people laugh, smile, and be happy because it makes me happy! Thank you for the kind words :-)
On May 31 2012 11:59 HCastorp wrote: 1) Mechanical pencils are superior, and the greatest mechanical pencil is the Twist-Erase III 0.9 mm.
2) For good LSAT tips and law school advice in general, I highly recommend Top Law Schools.com and the accompanying forums. They may be snobs, but you can learn a lot there. I took the LSAT last February, and while I ended up deciding against applying to law school, at least for the moment, I did achieve and excellent LSAT score, thanks in part to what I ahd learned there. You are probably already aware that it is the single most important factor in the admissions process, so it is absolutely worth your while to study as much as possible. I would aim for doing at least 10 practice tests aside from whatever other studying you do, but the exact approach really depends on your own strengths and weaknesses. Anyway, I'd be happy to help with that in any way that I can. PM me if you want.
1) I would but I'm not allowed to on the LSAT. I have an undying passion for mechanical pencils and, in fact, I would probably name my child after a pencil.
2) I do go to Top Law Schools.com for my needs and have learned a lot. Although I burnt myself out about a month ago going from a 168-170 score to a 161 consistently, so I decided to stop studying for 2 weeks and relearn everything. Needless to say I'm still relearning and I have a week and a day. I am freaking out but I am calm about it! I've taken about 16 LSAT tests down though but I'm going at a pace that works for me! Thank you for the comments and the advice I really do appreciate it!
On June 01 2012 06:33 TechniQ.UK wrote: Hey man this is all great, and I found the marriage/University/God experience thing pretty relevant to me. I'm a Christian and since starting university its been tough to stay on the right path or even define what the right path is. Hope and pray all works out for you.
The only advice I can give you is that you make yourself go. You do whatever you can do to keep doing what you are doing now at a University. Even if you are going to church by yourself you are still going. Make sure you get involved with a community group or a small group that will be there for you and that you can trust. I've been going United Way work as well as Habitat for the Humanity since I moved back home and I've got a small group of friends that have always been there for me that I wish I would've had when I went to MSU. I'll be praying for you as well because college is a hard time for anyone, religious or non-religious. People explore options that weren't available to them and sometimes it burns them.
Thank you all for your comments and kind words!! They mean so much to me and I really do appreciate it! I'll try to continue updating my blog with updates and what not on my life and once I get back to starcraft I'll start talking about that a little as well.
But, for now, I will leave you with this. I'm currently on 5 hours of sleep, at 1:00am. My double monitors are on, the lights are off, and I'm leaning back in my chair. My arms literally don't feel like they are attached to me and it's awkward to type. Just sayin'
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