Finished HS? Time for Closure(girl blog)

Hey everyone, long time lurker of TL here.

Usually in my day by day, I'm just your average lurker with nothing to say but today its 3 am in the morning and I can't sleep. The reason for that is because there's these feelings I have for this girl.
That's right, fellow TLers, this is a girl blog. Usually you'll hear of how TLers succeed or fail in the trials by fire of love. Each of us believe our story to be unique, special in our different celebrated ways to incur the emotions of our fellow beloved internet kin.

Tonight, I too wish to share my story.

This is the story of a boy who attempted closure on an emotion he had, and it goes back 2 years.
It starts with the usual 'boy falls in love with girl' stuff with the oh-so spicy twist he's too much of a fucking chicken to let his feelings be known. Instead, he runs around and does foolish things to deny such feelings.

Indeed, he spins the greatest lie ever told on the only person who would believe it; himself.

Since grades were important to him and friends are better than actual drama, he decided to suppress his feelings. He did so with great care, and succeeded at keeping his emotions at bay for a time. In that time, all felt well. Marks were at an all time high and he was friends with everyone.But slowly and surely, the lingering wisp of her image encroached his mind. He knew it was only a matter of time before his facade would shatter. And so, he did what only a normal person would do; he told the truth.

Just kidding.
He actually made another facade, and changed his social mask every so often to continue the lie to himself. This continued until one day, the boy's trusted friend told him "Bro, you've essentially created your own Doublethink. You feel so fake to other people."

This was when he realized his solution did not only fail, but became a trap. A prison of paradox he weaved so carefully to cover his feelings.

Before anyone says, "Wait Kyo, you're telling me you just fucked around and now you're QQing over it? The fuck bro, man up! Also stop with the pretentious bullshit, I'm sick and tired of reading between the lines."

I get it. I'll get to the juicy bits. The boy decided from his friend's advice he would take risks in his last summer before university, a final redemption. The first thing was cleaning up the attitude, trying to actually be happy rather than pretending. Being sincere, not mimicking sincerity. And finally, admitting to love rather than denying.

The problem that lies is how to tackle this.
I understand that this boy's dilemma comes from his initial half-heartedness but the situation has grown ever more precarious for him. By this I mean someone else, who the boy respects, admires, envies, loves and shares secrets to, has fallen in love with her as well. To make matters worse, the amore is mutual. The Girl also knows the boy likes him, but clearly loves the Someone though they are not in a publicly declared relationship.

So what now?
Two people this boy loves, respects and adores now love each other. Can he even share his emotions anymore? Or does he simply take the safe route, that is to say, do nothing what so ever?
By committing to the first, he risks damaging his relationship with the girl he loved, along with the impressions of his fellow friends.Despite the relationship not being publicly declared, it is implied. Such is the punishment for disturbing the status quo. However, he may reach a state of relief from the confession.
The other is the act of committing nothing, the safe route of non-action which leaves the status quo in effect. The resultant non-action would lead to the maintenance of the illusion of friendship. Through this illusion, the boy can continue to believe his friends and the girl he loved will have the same relationships with him. Unfortunately, he may also continue to have such emotions and can not deal with them appropriately.

So, I ask of TL, what would you do for as the Boy? Is this a Morton's fork, or a false dilemma?
I do not feel sane enough to answer these questions anymore.

Last edit: 2012-07-07 22:15:34

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mizU United States. July 07 2012 16:21. Posts 10012

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The first person into third person confuses me.

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Kyokai Canada. July 07 2012 16:34. Posts 19

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I'm both a narrator and 3rd person character. It's probably confusing because the sudden switch and contradiction where I can seem omniscient while not being it.

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SigmaoctanusIV United States. July 07 2012 16:49. Posts 2431

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I have to ask are you a female member of the SGI?

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FractalsOnFire Australia. July 07 2012 17:24. Posts 1300

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All i read was whine, whine, whine, under a wishy washy prose. No, writing like that does not mean you are more intelligent or sophisticated. Nor does it make the story more compelling. All it tells me is that you're probably more insecure than even you think you are.

As much as i like girl blogs as the next denizen on TL, lately the quality has become stale and generic.

sc4k United Kingdom. July 07 2012 18:39. Posts 4434

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Meh I don't feel as negatively as the above guys do. Firstly you addressed the issue of sounding pretentious and also you addressed the fact that there was whining. You are just presenting us with a dilemma and asking advice. I like the way you write anyway, if you are just finishing high school it's pretty good. Pro-tip, next time, if you want people to give advice, make a poll. ~~Bitches~~ the netizens of TL love ~~poles~~ polls.

I think you probably know what the best result is here. Build up your confidence, and then gently, with some tact, tell her that you love being her friend and you would love to take her out on a romantic date (don't say you love her). If she says yes then make sure you kiss her on the cheek and contrive a way to be able to leave immediately. If she says no, say 'I just needed to get that out, you know how it is'. As long as she knows you were, and you genuinely were, being her friend NOT JUST because you thought she was attractive and you wanted her as a gf, then she won't drop you as a friend. But you have a case of classic friendzone and need to get your shit together and ask her. DO IT!

On July 07 2012 17:24 FractalsOnFire wrote:
No, writing like that does not mean you are more intelligent or sophisticated.

As much as i like girl blogs as the next denizen on TL

Yeah, might want to scale back on your literary criticism if you produce mangled English sentences like this...

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sc4k United Kingdom. July 07 2012 18:43. Posts 4434

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oops double post.

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IceBurg Australia. July 07 2012 20:54. Posts 73

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Heres how it goes down:
You: "I like you, and I want to take you out on a date" *feels massive relief*
Her: It doesnt matter what she says
If you dont tell her, you'll always question what could have been

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FFGenerations July 07 2012 21:30. Posts 2639

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just start being attractive to her
when she starts being attracted to you
you can do whatever
if you dont do this then whats the point in telling her anything? it will fail miserably

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Kyokai Canada. July 07 2012 22:11. Posts 19

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On July 07 2012 18:39 sc4k wrote:
Meh I don't feel as negatively as the above guys do. Firstly you addressed the issue of sounding pretentious and also you addressed the fact that there was whining. You are just presenting us with a dilemma and asking advice. I like the way you write anyway, if you are just finishing high school it's pretty good. Pro-tip, next time, if you want people to give advice, make a poll. ~~Bitches~~ the netizens of TL love ~~poles~~ polls.

I think you probably know what the best result is here. Build up your confidence, and then gently, with some tact, tell her that you love being her friend and you would love to take her out on a romantic date (don't say you love her). If she says yes then make sure you kiss her on the cheek and contrive a way to be able to leave immediately. If she says no, say 'I just needed to get that out, you know how it is'. As long as she knows you were, and you genuinely were, being her friend NOT JUST because you thought she was attractive and you wanted her as a gf, then she won't drop you as a friend. But you have a case of classic friendzone and need to get your shit together and ask her. DO IT!

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Yeah, might want to scale back on your literary criticism if you produce mangled English sentences like this...

Haha. You have a point there. However, there is that awkward bump that's totally unavoidable IF i say anything.
The trick here is that I know I'm definitely friendzoned for good so its more like do I do this for personal relief of mind?

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sc4k United Kingdom. July 07 2012 23:15. Posts 4434

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On July 07 2012 22:11 Kyokai wrote:

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Haha. You have a point there. However, there is that awkward bump that's totally unavoidable IF i say anything.
The trick here is that I know I'm definitely friendzoned for good so its more like do I do this for personal relief of mind?

Yes. If I were able to I would take over your brain for a while just like they do in remote pc control to sort out pc errors. I would make you ask her out. It is the medicine you need to take. If it doesn't work, as scary as it might seem, you need to start looking for girls who are attracted and attractive to you. Your current situation is not healthy for you and won't be good to maintain!!!

thoraxe United States. July 08 2012 01:00. Posts 1435

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You want to go from a 2 year friendzone to a relationship with the girl without anything about this being known to the girl in the past. Talk about a long shot buddy, especially since the girl likes some other guy and he likes her back, it's sounds kind of like you want to break up a fairytale.

edit: Oh, i'm just guessing you are in a friendzone with her, if you are not, then it's going to be more weird for her for some random guy in her class/school to tell her he likes her, she will auto deny with no second thought. What kind of relationship do you have with this girl?

edit2: you said it's for your person relief and say you care about this girl, yet you want to confuse her and stir her feelings up by telling her this after 2 years. Be Good Guy Greg and leave her be to be happy.

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superbarnie United States. July 08 2012 01:05. Posts 280