Life is crazy. You never know when it will end.Or how it will go. Ive always been a go with the flow kinda guy frustrating my woman a lot. I like making people happy its one of the things I know Im good at and with the balloon thing it just cements it. I love helping people and when I really think about it its because it makes me feel good. I am selfish... I dont want to be but I am, I want attention and I want to be liked. Dont we all?
Im not very smart, I dont always think things through enough or at all. My mind goes a million miles a minute and my mouth nor my fingers can keep up. I want people to understand me and feel frustrated when I cant communicate it.I love my family and music and art and this community and all its silliness. As much as id like a world without drama if I think about it I do love the scandal the thought of being in the know ... Im such a garbage typical human... I dont want to be but I am.
I person very close to me lost someone very close to them and its really hit me hard. At least the Idea of legacy of what am I doing what have I done and just who am I. Driving long distances alone helps me think and I did that for a bit last night. I wish I had more answers I wish I could create a make everyone happy pill... I want people to think good of me when I am gone I want them to just remember me at all.
I was saving my 100th blog for something meaningful to me 10 year on this site.Ive grown up alot on this site and still have much growing to do. I wish not a single one of you any harm or bad things in your life I hope you find joy and happiness and a goal a purpose and find and succed in having people love and think of you long after your gone. I am always growing ....
If helping people makes you feel good it probably means you care about them, which means it's more something about love rather than about being selfish. I believe that's a better perspective most of the time at least. =)
But yeah, we all have some selfishness in us that we have to deal with I guess. And if you deal with it by making others happy then I think that's not bad at all! ^^
Btw, you certainly don't have to make balloons for us to justify making a blog around here, but it sure does make me happy when you do. :D
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MrZentor United States. July 12 2012 07:41. Posts 1541
Makes sense to me. The older you get the less you believe life is crazy because you become accustomed to new things popping up all the time and you realize it's been like that all along. It's like learning to drive and being focused on pressing down the clutch instead of what color the lights are. Once you get used to the clutch, you move on to the rules of the road like signs, lights, etc. What, then, is the next step after the lights and all of that have been figured out as well? You learn that any new occurrence can be classified as a type of something that you've experienced before, and the only lesson that remains is that life is crazy, sure, but only where crazy is the norm.
I rated a 5; introspection and reflection is the only way we better ourselves.
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Gonff United States. July 12 2012 08:21. Posts 634
Its not always easy to introspect, even harder to write about it.
Just remember that even ordinary seeming people can do great things. Maybe not create a make everyone happy pill, but at least you can make those around you happy through good ol' fashioned cheerful disposition!
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Probe1 United States. July 12 2012 09:10. Posts 16445
FuDDx, we will remember you man.. you're a great human being! Cheers
Btw, same here I thought about this last night when our "Comedy King" died due to being too old. He had cemented his legacy because everyone loved him due to being really funny, then I asked myself.. Was I able to make an impact to people's lives? When I did something good to them or because of my funny jokes? Man, only way to find out when you hear the eulogy.. but that's another story and I have too many plans to think that death is near
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EvilTeletubby Baltimore, USA. July 12 2012 09:28. Posts 21022
"Cause there ain't no flame that can blaze enough To trump being hated for the way you love And cry yourself to sleep and hate waking up It's a cold world y'all shame on us Live in two worlds with your eyes closed Tip toeing on a tight rope Holding on for survival Nobody to blame this is just how it goes"
This makes me like you all the more FuDD. You're a great guy I'm glad you have shared at least some of that with us here. I hope to live my life like you.
"Cause there ain't no flame that can blaze enough To trump being hated for the way you love And cry yourself to sleep and hate waking up It's a cold world y'all shame on us Live in two worlds with your eyes closed Tip toeing on a tight rope Holding on for survival Nobody to blame this is just how it goes"
That's a great brother ali song.
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On July 12 2012 06:57 FuDDx wrote: Life is crazy. You never know when it will end.Or how it will go. Ive always been a go with the flow kinda guy frustrating my woman a lot. I like making people happy its one of the things I know Im good at and with the balloon thing it just cements it. I love helping people and when I really think about it its because it makes me feel good. I am selfish... I dont want to be but I am, I want attention and I want to be liked. Dont we all?
Why's it so bad to feel good about helping people?
Im not very smart, I dont always think things through enough or at all. My mind goes a million miles a minute and my mouth nor my fingers can keep up. I want people to understand me and feel frustrated when I cant communicate it.I love my family and music and art and this community and all its silliness. As much as id like a world without drama if I think about it I do love the scandal the thought of being in the know ... Im such a garbage typical human... I dont want to be but I am.
Meh, be glad your mind is going a million miles a minute rather than two centimeters per hour like people like me
I person very close to me lost someone very close to them and its really hit me hard. At least the Idea of legacy of what am I doing what have I done and just who am I. Driving long distances alone helps me think and I did that for a bit last night. I wish I had more answers I wish I could create a make everyone happy pill... I want people to think good of me when I am gone I want them to just remember me at all.
I was saving my 100th blog for something meaningful to me 10 year on this site.Ive grown up alot on this site and still have much growing to do. I wish not a single one of you any harm or bad things in your life I hope you find joy and happiness and a goal a purpose and find and succed in having people love and think of you long after your gone. I am always growing ....
Sorry for the lack of balloons.
My best advice is to use these feelings of restlessness and wanting to break out of the norm and really experience the flush of life, its ups and downs, and make a life that is memorable to your own.
Thanks Fudd, after so long speaking to you, I think this is probably the first time I've seen anything more than a glimpse of the man behind the balloons. It's sweet to think you can be this open here.
Life is full of moments that make you take stock of yourself; if the worst you can say is that you sometimes can't be as good a man as you wish you were, I think you're doing okay.
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