OMG my 2000th post, I’m super excited! I just want to thank my fingers who have carried me this far, without them I probably couldn’t have done it…well actually at the moment I’m writing this, its not my 2000th post because I write them before hand, but I’m sure I will be that excited when I finally do reach that point and YAY! I didn’t get banned through these 1000 posts! (though I’m still face palming from that unichan incident...T_T…I wish I could go back in time) I had so many things I want to say in this blog, so it’s probably going to be very long, if ur looking for the girl blog, its down at the bottom.
Part 1: Broodwar
First things first…Broodwar…my love…ended…well professional Broodwar ended (not counting that dual tourney stuff…) but not for me, I still want to play! I actually started to practice about 3 months ago, getting back into the game. I originally had picked zerg when I got the game than switched to terran a choice influenced by Boxer, Nada, Iloveov Idra and Flash, especially Idra his replays were much more available than the others lol.
I mainly played terran, but I hated re-rallying my raxes and ports or facs it was annoying as hell as I didn’t have the apm back then. For those who didn’t play broodwar, I’m sure u already know that we didn’t have MBS(multi building selection) so we couldn’t just ctrl-click (or double click) on a building get all of them than rally them somewhere. Instead u had to set screen hotkeys, (I would use F2 for where my units would be rallied to and F3 for my production buildings) so it went like this F3, click on rax, F2 right click on ground, F3 and repeat till ur done with all of them. It’s a bitch if u have shit apm, want to attack? Better rally, what to stop attacking? gotta re-rally, oh defending an expansion and u don’t have enough units? time to re-rally, its one of things I think is the hardest for low apm players like me to use.
One of the biggest things I learnt from copying build orders(the ones that was correlated to food and nothing else) was: “its dumb” why? Because at the super high level, players are macroing at a near-perfect levels and everything is so close, no one is really making mistakes so u can’t rely on getting an advantage just by playing well and praying the other guy screws up. Instead u cut corners in ur build orders, adjusting it to suit the situation, knowing which risks u can take and cant, all of this depends on what your opponent is doing.
The build order u copied is probably right, u probably got all the things right BUT it was for that one situation where the progamer adjusted it to suit what HE was seeing in HIS game. Ever played vs the protoss AI and done a one rax expand u probably copied the build from flash all the way up to like 70 food, guess what? u DIE horribly, the ai comes in with a million zealots and ur like WTF this isn’t what Stork did! Sure ur build might work like 80% of the time and u get a good back and forth game out of it, but sometimes u just die, instantly because u were following a piece of paper.
I learnt this is the super hard way and I was super stubborn about it, need to lose like 100 games before I told myself “LEARN TO SCOUT AND ADJUST” before I just sent the scout in, and moved it around thinking “oh yeah, just like the pros do and LOOK how long I’m keeping it alive in their base” what I didn’t do was click on the buildings to find what was what, I didn’t check around the whole base and missed stuff hidden in corners, I put so much attention into keeping the scout alive that I ignored the true purpose of the scout, the scout was ALSO USELESS as I never adjusted my build, seeing 2 gates no core well my piece of paper says to go 14 CC better follow the piece paper. This one embarrassing game was when I was playing on destination I walled off at the ramp and start my cc behind the wall I focused so much on keeping my scv away from his zealot in his base, that I didn’t prepare for the 3 gates mass zealots, I should have noticed; wait why is the scv alive for so long where is the dragoon? It acrossed my mind but it was blocked out by the next thing on my “list” to move the rax to the low ground to reduce the entrance into my natural….what happened next? 12 zealots streamed into my base and killed me, there was nothing I could do, my scv still alive in his main…a fat load of good that did.
After that game I threw out build orders, I only kept structures of build orders like number of production facilities what the goal was where I was gonna take my 4th 5th bases and if there where any things I need to really watch out for like dt tech, mutas ect and how i should deal/prepare for them. I felt i was actually improving after that lesson I was winning games more often and I didn’t die to stupid things like 2 hatch mass zergling (which killed me quite a lot before ) I learned to love Broodwar more and more, through these small lessons. =)
Sadly I eventually stopped playing because I felt I hit a peak in my own gameplay(where i couldnt go anywhere) and I just wanted to watch my favorite players. I did watch every game from 2008 to 2010, thanks to the Broodwar VODS section on Teamliquid, i still have them on my harddrive . I watched the day9 dailies listened to his podcasts I loved the way he explained the games, it still is one of my favorite things to listen/watch.
Then came the rumors of BW ending…at first I was like pppfftt NOT GONNA HAPPEN! This game has been everything to me, I literally grew up with it, everyday I played it or watch it or did something with it. Maybe one day i was sad because a girl I liked, rejected me? No problem bw was waiting for me when I got home, fucked up a test? Don’t worry about it, just relax and watch some proleague. It even affected how I slept, if one of my heros had lost I couldn’t fall asleep and I was grumpy the next morning, or BISU WON? WHOOO! and i would sleep like a baby, it meant so much to me there was no way it could end!...
Than on the 4th of August one day before my birthday this year, the last OSL was being played, even while watching I couldn’t accept it, no way someone would let this die! WHY WHY THIS GAME, and it wasn’t even because no one was playing it, it wasn’t because no one loved it, it wasn’t because there was no passion left…every fiber in my body told me this isn’t the way bw should end, this isn’t the way ANY game should end. But it did and I cried, I normally don’t cry I hold it back (at the most my eyes might get watery) but that day I did cry and I was angry, frustrated, super pissed but not at sc2, but at myself I had never attend an OSL, MSL, proleague match, I had never really met any of the pros, I had no signatures, no pieces of clothing from them and I never would…hopefully some of these dreams will come true later in life but for the bw OSL, MSL and proleague they will be forever gone for me.
I felt this was really perfect to describe broodwar, all credits to Valaki
On August 04 2012 22:27 valaki wrote: BW is like a piano or a violin. For the most people who've never heard of it, it's just a game made a long time ago. If amateurs were try to play with it for the first time, the result would be the same as a child playing on a piano for the first time. Mashing buttons left and right while making not so beautiful tunes. I'm sure many of you experienced it. Either while playing at LANs with your friends, or your first few games after buying it from a store. You, I and everyone were noobs, and frankly, Bw isn't beautiful at this level, it's ugly. It's fun for a while, but that's it. Just like when someone plays on a piano for the first time ever. It's fun to mash buttons, but it gets boring quickly.
Someone somewhere didn't accept this and recognized the piano's potential. That's why we have world class pianists playing godly melodies today. The learning curve is steep as hell, and there aren't many youngsters willing to sacrifice this much for very little gain. But they are there, young and old. Many people are trying to learn how to play on the piano, because they've heard that it can be beautiful if played right. They devote time in it, with absolutely no hope for any financial gain. They're doing it, because they love it.
Now what happens if I replace piano with BW in the previous paragraph? I think it would be similar how a BW fan would describe BW to a total newcomer. Fortunate for the piano, it's much easier to hear than to see. People are often fascinated when hearing a beautiful tune, despite not knowing much about music itself. This is sadly, not the case with Starcraft. Well, not entirely. You need to learn to see, in order to appreciate BW (and any form of visual art, like paintings, theater play and such). Not many people are willing to do that. But you guys who're reading this were probably done this. You are able to see how beautiful BW is when played right. And the fact, that many people in Korea in their 40's and 50's were also able to do this means something.
Today is a sad day. I think back then the samurais in Japan felt the same when the government banned carrying and walking around with katanas in Japan. Bigger, better weapons came, and the katana had to go. They devoted their whole life to master the sword and it meant nothing from that point. But hey, that didn't stop people from owning katanas and being a samurai at their home or at the dojos. I think the same thing is happening with BW. It was never meant to be big, but dedicated people made it somewhat big. Sadly, for people who matter, it's not big enough or it's in the way. So it's need to go from the mainstream. But hey, samurais did not die out for hundreds of years, why should progamers die out? Sure, they won't be as refined as they were, but I'm sure there will be people in 10 years from now on who'll be on A/B level. Because they love this game. And with this, BW won't die out as long as people play with it.
I WANT TO PLAY BROODWAR! 3 months ago I had picked Zerg as my race, and practiced it hardcore I don’t know why other than the love of having my fingers glide over my keyboard once more. Than I heard about the TSL (no not the Teamliquid one lol) maybe ThSL would be clearer lol, the Torenhire Star League. I started watching the matchs and Kiante was casting it (he’s Australian =D) (does anyone remember zaMMal calling Kiante out for a bw match but it sadly didn’t happen well I did some fan art on it, with how I thought it was gonna go down, yeah rekrul was there too + Show Spoiler +
Anyway I wanted to keep practicing and maybe play in one of these small tournaments, I’m not A or even C player but I love broodwar, and hopefully I’ll get a chance to play in one of these tournaments on teamliquid, plus it’s a great way to make new friends =D BROOD WAR HWAITING! Will love u forever!
The thing u’ve all been waiting for [GIRL BLOG] Now before I begin it u need to know this picture, a lot of the story uses this. BUS ROUTE [NOT TO SCALE] Okay now from the start: This year was my first year of uni, I had to take a completely new route to get there. I would walk from my House to the bus stop get on and take it all the way to  where I would get off, get onto a tram(if u don’t know what a tram is + Show Spoiler +
) ride it for about 20mins and done I’m at uni.
Now my timetable for uni is retarded…every week it changes its never the same which got me into the habit of going to uni everyday at 7:30(leaving home at 7:30) as the earliest classes started at 9:00, I could just get there hop on a comp in the library and browse TL till whatever class I had that day started. (obviously if I had no classes or one class that day at like 3:00 or something I wouldn’t leave home at 7:30) So this meant I was catching the bus everyday at the same time, and it turns out its around this time high school students need to get to school. At first I didn’t notice her, she was just another person who needed to get some where. Then one day (after about a week into the first semester) I realized wait theres actually a really cute girl on this bus, HOW DID I NOT SEE THIS BEFORE? lol, so lets just call her QT (yes I chose it because it sounds like cutie )
So like every guy would to a pretty girl, I started to pay more attention to her. But there was something concerning me about liking her, the fact that I didn’t know her age which some of u are thinking its pretty easy to tell a 10 year from a 18 year old, but firstly she wasn’t 10, 100% sure of that, but the combination of being a short girl, Asian and having a petite body meant I couldn’t tell if she was 12-15ish (CAN NOT DATE) or something like 16-17ish (CAN DATE) Was she just a short girl? Or maybe she hasn’t had her growth spurt. IMO there are 3 (well 4 but not including the last one) stages of Asian girls and within each stage their appearance basically doesn’t change at all So something like 5-10 (5> doesn’t count babies kinda all look the same) looks like this girl + Show Spoiler [5-10] +
and for me the time it changes from one stage to another is like instantaneous (…please no plastic surgery comments)
So qt atm is in stage 2 but the problem with stage 2 is while she might look the same…her age is the perfect inbetween zone of being a pedo-viable(10) or normal(17) which kinda sucks, cause I don’t wanna be like “oh hey baby how old are you?” cause if she responds like this Qt: I’m 12 I gotta do this 0_0 *Shock walking away*(yes there is some irony there)
Also besides that point, u don’t really ask girls or women about their age, just impolite So I worked out shes gotta be in high school because she doesn’t look like a uni student (age wise, not appearance to intelligence) and she certainly isn’t in primary school. So most schools in my state have compulsory uniforms, and yet she wasn’t wearing one, theres only one high school I know of that doesn’t require the students to wear one: University High school (yeah I don’t know why its named like that its not a hybrid university-high school its just named that) now previously I didn’t know where uni-high was I only knew about because I had some friends from there. So I google it and lol its right next to my uni about 8-10 mins walking distance.
But yet she takes a completely different route to get to her school, she follows the [Red line]. My route is [Black]. So after a while of riding the bus together she also notices me (maybe cause I’ve been sneaking glances at her every chance I get lol) and than everytime I get on the bus my eyes fall on to her, and she always looks up and smiles, also when she gets off at her stop she looks back at me (im sitting behind her most of the times) and smiles again before she leaves. My first reaction was “OMG SHE LIKES ME <3” and than being a shy nerd kicked in, and I couldn’t bring myself to talk to her. So it continues for like a month, than one day she didn’t get off at her stop she just continued with me and got off at my stop  where we both got off, I let her go out of the bus first like a gentleman and she smiled even more brightly (<3 melting) we got on to the tram and she sat infront of me, tho she kept glancing out the window like checking where the tram was at, than she got off at  making me wonder why not just continue she’ll end up at school anyway, she didn’t need to get off. So that night I google maps again and find out that where she got off there would another tram line connecting it back to where she originally took the tram (where the red and blue line meet for the first time) So that’s what the blue line is, the route she took that day. The following day she continues to get on the tram with me, however due the amount of people on the tram that day we couldn’t sit together but she found a spot pretty close where we both could still see each other, and she didn’t end up getting off at  she just continued down and eventually I reached my stop and got off. From that day, shes continued to use the [Orange] line.
So my theory was that she somehow found out (maybe google maps ) she could not get off at  and continue with the [blue] line and still make it to school, and than she found out the [orange] line was better(better in the way, that she gets see me for longer) than blue. Ofc the problem with that is that, I’m assuming she likes me, but I went with it due to what I think her smiles mean.
So this continued till the first semester ended, we never said a word to each other in that time just smiles and glances. (cause I have no balls and also the age thing) So with any uni comes exams (omg I hate them) and theres a period where classes end and u have a break of about 1-2 weeks to study hardcore and than take the exam. So I didn’t see her for quite some time during that time, and after exams I took a trip with a couple of friends to Singapore! (which was awesome! Food there is sooo cheap and yummy!) She still had school during my exam weeks so she didn’t see me, as well as the break for Australian Universities is usually longer than high school breaks, so start about 2 weeks earlier than me (I was still in sg and i was missing her quite a bit I told myself I would talk to her and eventually ask her out). So theres been a really long time since we’ve seen each other, and even when I start to go back I couldn’t see her on the bus…WTF where is she, I’ve been dying to see her again and talk to her. (oh shit…I forgot to mention on days where I end uni at 3:00pm I would catch the tram back to  than get on bus and down to  where QT would get on (0_o) and I smile as she gets on and she does the same and sits close to me, not right next to me because she also seems a bit shy too) So yeah I hadn’t seen her in a week, and was on my way home on the 4:37 bus (Friday) we get to QT’s stop theres a ton of people there I couldn’t see if QT was there, and plus its way pass 3:30 (which is when she use to get on) A bunch of people get on but theres one person left at the door she gets on and looks down the bus and my eyes meet hers ITS QT...she gives me a really big smile and sits down (I have a WTF 0_o look on my face) Why is she on this bus so late, I didn’t see her in the morning, where has she been all this time)
So after the weekend passed I decided to try and catch the even more earlier bus, I get on and low and behold QT is there staring out the window (looks like shes just getting to school earlier), she looks at me but doesn’t smile and looks back out the window, i walk pass her maybe it’s a bad morning for her so I hold my plans for talking to her. Then she gets off at stop  this had me going 0_0 WTF even more, why is she getting off here now. She must be having a really bad day (or something happened that weekend) Anyway I didn’t see her going home as I ended at 12:00, so waited till the next day, I get on the early bus, look around she isn’t here……………………….
*sigh*….I get on the early bus AGAIN on Wednesday, finally shes there but she doesn’t look at me at all she’s just staring out the window i walk up to her seat and linger there for a moment, she doesn’t move and just stares out the window, so I walk past and sit behind her and as soon as we reach  she gets off as fast as possible without looking at me once…I don’t know whats going on, maybe she didn’t like me in the first place but still…she seems really pissed and I don’t know if its me or something in her life. I want to talk to her when shes in a good mood, its probably going to be the best chance I have, if shes pissed shes more likey to say no. Sigh this Monday(13/8/12) I’m gonna talk to her and see whats up, hopefully she’ll be in a good mood.
Here ends my girl blog story...for now (i'm sure to finish one way or another, but dw u dont have to wait till 3000th posts to hear it) Thankyou all for reading some of it and if all of it =D u can have an internet cookie from me, or if u ever meet me in real life ask me for a cookie.
p.s theres something missing that i was meant to put in this blog, but i've forgotten hopefully it will come back to me and i'll edit it in
edit: I"M A TANK!! <3 (not the part i was missing tho..hmm..) and someone gave a 5 star rating with the blog only being up for like 10 seconds, lol that guy/girl is pretty nice =D
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The day before christmas my true love gave to me: Teamliquid | [23:55] <Shock710> that was out of context -_-
deathgod6 United States. August 10 2012 17:07. Posts 4534
lol, you're all right, i should go talk to her though "Ghin" do u really think i should ask her to "go" some where with me? isnt that a bit sketchy, maybe i should just start with some friendly talk? and ask her out a week later or near a Friday and ask for the weekend I'll be able to report back after monday lol
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The day before christmas my true love gave to me: Teamliquid | [23:55] <Shock710> that was out of context -_-
Talk to her about whatever, the weather, where she's going, where she goes to school, other small talk bullshit, etc. You're on a bus so theres an obvious theme of you not being able to talk to her all day, so that means if it goes well, ask her if later she would like to get coffee, eat, play a game, go for a walk, or do something you find interesting, etc. Everyone has to eat so that usually ends up being a good choice. Don't think of it like a date, you're just asking her to go someplace with you to talk and have fun.
You won't be able to plan everything out all the time. The first step is to say hi. The longer you wait, the more she'll think of you as the weird guy who stares at her instead of someone she might like to know.
On August 10 2012 17:33 Ghin wrote: Instead of stalking her with an elaborate bus schedule scheme, talk to her ask her to go some place with you.
Easy advice to give, harder to actually carry out. Especially for the shy-guys out there. This is however the truth. This blog actually felt kind of ridiculous while reading. The amount of thought you put into assessing QT's age for example. You've obviously spent more than a fleeting moment thinking about it. When really you could just find out how old she is through talking to her.
That said I also found this blog extremely enlightening to read. It's never been age for me but I realize now I've often spent a fair deal of time dwelling on specific(often times seemingly random) characteristics or impressions concerning girls that I would be dating, talking to, or crushing on. So much so that at times I get hung up on the details i'm staring at while remaining oblivious to the many other facets unique to each girl. When you're in a committed long term relationship this very same idea can ruin things unless sorted out and discussed between partners. Likewise, when you're crushing on a girl, a detail like age can deter you from taking a risk and talking to the girl. In both instances the idea and practice of communication is paramount.
You cite her age as a reason for not talking to her
So this continued till the first semester ended, we never said a word to each other in that time just smiles and glances. (cause I have no balls and also the age thing)
Following the logic above, you would more than likely find out QT's age before it was even relevant in your interactions with her. You can be friendly toward people of all ages without being thrown in jail, yet your categorizations of asian age stages says you've thought about this one detail for longer than you probably should.
--A lot of this is simply me brainstorming. As I mentioned this blog really made me consider my perception of girls i'm attracted to. On more than one occasion I spent too much time, or weighed too much worth on assumptions or guesstimations about girls. Because of that I lost several opportunities to get to know said girls better. A kind of self defeating course to take. Let me know if anything i've said rings true with you. Maybe I personalized your words too much. For me this blog has a message. Details are innumerable and certain aspects of a woman seem to swallow my attention and curiosity. It can be enticing to consider each detail and think through them like sorting through gold. But sometimes the big picture is what you need to be looking at, if you hope to establish deeper connections with a girl. Idk let me know what you think.
As for the looking out the window, aloof demeanor following your vacation; I see this as one of three possibilities. Of course all hypothetical 1. She's now seeing someone//no longer seeking companionship 2. She's in a rough point in her life(bad day, week, etc) and internally focused on that instead of her physical surroundings 3. She may recognize you, but never gave a rats ass about getting to know you//The special connection you feel for her may not be reciprocated.
This coincides with my original thought regarding communication. Simply assuming or guessing why she didn't look at you is ultimately a fruitless thought to pursue. Find your next window of opportunity to open up the lines of communication with this girl. Worst comes to worst you suffer through an awkward moment of embarassment or blatant rejection and come out a lot stronger because you took the chance. Who knows until you try right?
Grats on 2k posts. Thanks for sharing!
"Opportunities multiply as they are seized."
Cyber_Cheese Australia. August 10 2012 19:27. Posts 3598
it's possible she doesn't think you're interested anymore. She specifically went out of her way to get off at your stop, it's been a long time, and you still didn't do anything, so... HURRY OR YOU'LL MISS IT
Also, you may or may not need to be reminded that she's human. People enjoy being challenged, so worshipping them like gods is counter-productive.
Here's the plan: 1) See her alone on the bus/tram/w.e 2) Sit next to her - No more testing the waters, she's tried an all-in, you defended it, and if you don't counter-attack to win now, you're just wasting her time and your own. (and also giving yourself unnecessary chances to lose the game) 3) TALK - i suggest opening with 'hi, I'm X' (She should reply with her name here) 'I see you here a lot, what's your stop?' when she replies high school, that's an easy lead-in for asking what year,
If she's interested, the talk will go well.
If sitting down next to her isn't possible and she isnt looking happy, tell her she's looking down, and that you seeing her smile in the mornings helps you put on a positive mindset or something. It'll cheer her up, and maybe you can swap names. I wouldn't push this one much further than that in one go, you don't just want to dump everything on her in one go when you've spent months preparing.
At any rate, if you don't approach her, it's not going to happen. You do want it to happen, right?
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The moment you lose confidence in yourself, is the moment the world loses it's confidence in you.
krndandaman Mozambique. August 10 2012 19:56. Posts 4448
no... you're overanalyzing. the girl probably doesn't think much of you at all. you're just a nice (i'd hope) person she sees alot on the bus. i've done this alot and think the smiles a girl gave would indicate interest and that we had all this tension and attraction and whatnot but it was all in my head. i went out with 1 eventually and when i asked her about it she said she just didn't think much of me and that i was a stranger when the whole time i thought we had something going on between us 2. don't be too quick and ask her out or anything. but that doesn't mean just watch from afar and 'research' her like you are doing right now. since you see her often, sit next to her one day and just initiate conversation. here i'll outline how one might go: "hi can i sit here?" 'sure' "*smile* hey my name is Shock. i feel like i see you everyday on the bus, what's your name?" 'QT *smile*' "great! glad that we aren't strangers no more ^^ so are you going to school around here? i go to the blahblah uni over there" talk talk talk
ez stuff yo just have confidence and don't think too much! be friendly and likeable!