She talked to me when I was feeling at the bottom. She hurt me and I had to forgive her so I had to love her more. Now I'm thinking about her and wallowing in the pain of missing her because I can't handle the depression of being without her.
I had to hurt somebody else who likes me, because I cant risk dragging them into this and hurting them more.
Normally, I'd go and play hours of basketball during this excorcise the stress, but I've had muscular injuries for the past week and I can barely walk normally at the moment.
I've been avoiding depressive mindsets but it's hard when I don't know what to do, what to think or how to distract myself.
Thanks for reading my very short girl blog.
<3 Much love. I tried to waste as little of your time as possible, i hope you apprecciate that
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I'm embarrased by my past actions and even more ashamed of my present thoughts and future endeavors to clear my name.
Dude, the universe is so big, and every problem anyone on this planet ever had, is completely meaningless.
Make the best out of your life and don't look back. There are 3,5 billion other women out there, and quite a few of them will suit you better than this one ever could.
"The way of life can be free and beautiful. But we have lost the way. " - Charlie Chaplin
On August 19 2012 03:03 Xiron wrote: Dude, the universe is so big, and every problem anyone on this planet ever had, is completely meaningless.
Make the best out of your life and don't look back. There are 3,5 billion other women out there, and quite a few of them will suit you better than this one ever could.
It never really seems meaningless. I said goodbye to a friend yesterday. Quite sad. But internships end sometime. I was happy to have one final hug.
As large as this cosmos is, the only part that ever seems to matter to me is this small part I live in.
Stay strong OP. Things will get better.
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Blazinghand United States. August 19 2012 03:29. Posts 12831
Hope you feel better, man. These things happen to us all.
As an aside, Very Short Girl Blog is a grammatically ambiguous title, in the same way that "Very Green Donut Bag" would be-- it's unclear whether the donuts are green or the bag is.
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On August 19 2012 03:03 Xiron wrote: Dude, the universe is so big, and every problem anyone on this planet ever had, is completely meaningless.
Make the best out of your life and don't look back. There are 3,5 billion other women out there, and quite a few of them will suit you better than this one ever could.
How does that make it meaningless? Just because there's so much to the universe, it doesn't mean the sadness of lost love has no worth and no value.
On August 19 2012 03:29 Blazinghand wrote: Hope you feel better, man. These things happen to us all.
As an aside, Very Short Girl Blog is a grammatically ambiguous title, in the same way that "Very Green Donut Bag" would be-- it's unclear whether the donuts are green or the bag is.
aahahaha
That's a beautiful paragraph in multiple ways. Thanks a lot, for the encouraging reply and for the hillarious comment.
Even when I think I'm a cunt, this community never seems to fail to amaze and inspire me
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felisconcolori United States. August 19 2012 04:02. Posts 2620
Came looking for a girl blog about someone "fun-sized". Was disappointed.
However, remember this - there is always someone else out there. Staying fixated on her is not a good idea - because she doesn't care. You can love someone a very great deal. They can even love you back a little. But that doesn't mean it's going to work out, and at the end of the day, the person who's happiness matters more than ANYONE else in the world has to be YOU. Make yourself happy, whenever and however (legally) you can first. Then worry about other people.
Do I mean, be a dick? Uncaring? Selfish? No. I mean don't make the happiness of others more important than your own happiness - that way leads to much pain. Weigh the pros and cons. Then, take a slow, calm breath, and realize that if she's willing to make you hurt to make her feel better, she can fuck off. You can do better.
(Yeah, it's hard. Very hard. But you can't let someone else dictate how you feel. You don't have to forgive and forget. In fact, don't forget. That's how you learn. But move on. Go browse wikipedia or something. Or ladder!)
Opteron- "fyeah prime." Yes, I email sponsors... to thank them. Don't post drunk, kids.
However, i can't ladder lol due to the stutters caused by patch 1.5 and how the game's remained unplayable for weeks or months for people without solid state drives, I've decided I'm finished with Blizzard games :/
Browsing wikpedia though haha, very good I feel like I've already read half of wikipedia <3
Lol, but thanks a lot for the response, I promise I've considered it deeply.
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i still feel that it's -your- choice if you'll want to be stuck on her or not, and where you go from there can depend on how you were and how you acted in the past. i say this because in my opinion, the sensations of detesting someone (or what they've done around you) and simply missing them really aren't far apart.
i have someone who shares this sort of attachment with me, yet we can sometimes treat each other as complete strangers. at the best when we're caring for each other as much as we'd like, they are the happiest moments, and they are the moments to cause a sort of depression for me once i realize that they aren't coming back soon.
from my experience, missing someone comes from a gutter feeling that's full of complex regrets. you should know though, that you are able to make someone happy with you without all the stress, and without all the problems that you've received in your relationships. it's always possible for you to make somebody's day (a good one) just from being yourself. even if you make adjustments to who you are and even if you don't, i'm certain that someone out there would be delighted to have someone like you in their life.
after weighing through all of your crappy emotions i think you'll end up feeling much better, but more uncertain. would you like to move at a slower crawl?---or would you like to start on a new set of ideals for your next partner?
*@boesthius' FF7 nostalgia stream bomb* "we should work on a 'Final Progamer' fangame»whitera can be a protagonist---lastlie: "we save world and then defense it"
On August 19 2012 06:32 Celestia wrote: Being a girl, this "girl blogs" on TL makes me cringe, they should be called boy blogs because it's about boy problems with girls.
maybe think of it this way... (horrible example) when a balloon-maker//performer is talking about making balloons, it becomes a "balloon-blog", because that's the subject of what he's addressing.
similarly, when you're a starcraft gamer and you're speaking about protoss in your blog, it generally becomes a 'protoss blog', rather than a 'starcraft' blog.
i hope that makes sense slightly : )
*@boesthius' FF7 nostalgia stream bomb* "we should work on a 'Final Progamer' fangame»whitera can be a protagonist---lastlie: "we save world and then defense it"
On August 19 2012 06:32 Celestia wrote: Being a girl, this "girl blogs" on TL makes me cringe, they should be called boy blogs because it's about boy problems with girls.
maybe think of it this way... (horrible example) when a balloon-maker//performer is talking about making balloons, it becomes a "balloon-blog", because that's the subject of what he's addressing.
similarly, when you're a starcraft gamer and you're speaking about protoss in your blog, it generally becomes a 'protoss blog', rather than a 'starcraft' blog.
i hope that makes sense slightly : )
I get it, but traditionally a girl blog is a blog written by a girl (everyone search in google to see what I mean), its meaningless but it feels so odd.
Aerisky United States. August 19 2012 07:14. Posts 9561
Chin up OP! More days ahead of you ^^ at this point most of the advice tends to be the same, so I'll avoid cliché and just say cheer up (though that's pretty trite as well hehe).
"It has always been in my observation of human nature, that a man who has any good reason to believe in himself never flourishes himself before the faces of other people in order that they may believe in him."
I am following the advice of you guys to the best of my ability... it feels like the longer I go without contacting them, like I can feel the weight of parts of my heart being left behind.
:3 still, im doing it as hard as I can, I don't want to feel depressed like before again
<3 Thanks for every comment on my blog
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Fishgle United States. August 19 2012 07:44. Posts 1602
think of it this way OP, you're not in love with the girl anymore, you're in love with the feeling of being in love. You're merely suffering withdrawals from what you once had. Sure, right now you may be passing in and out of consciousness, in pools of your own vomit and piss, destitute on the sidewalk, but one of these days a one-eyed lady will smile and drop a wad of cash in your empty purloined guitar case and you'll once again be able to afford your drug.
In any case, that old drug just wasn't working for you anymore; time to move on to harsher, stronger stuff.
On August 19 2012 06:32 Celestia wrote: Being a girl, this "girl blogs" on TL make me cringe, they should be called boy blogs because it's about boy problems with girls.
TL does stay consistent though - you'll note the blogs about problems girls are having with boys are titled "Boy Blogs".
On August 19 2012 06:32 Celestia wrote: Being a girl, this "girl blogs" on TL make me cringe, they should be called boy blogs because it's about boy problems with girls.
TL does stay consistent though - you'll note the blogs about problems girls are having with boys are titled "Boy Blogs".
You're right, never noticed this before. I guess this is like a website thing, just like apples= bitches in some other website.
On August 19 2012 07:44 Fishgle wrote: think of it this way OP, you're not in love with the girl anymore, you're in love with the feeling of being in love. You're merely suffering withdrawals from what you once had. Sure, right now you may be passing in and out of consciousness, in pools of your own vomit and piss, destitute on the sidewalk, but one of these days a one-eyed lady will smile and drop a wad of cash in your empty purloined guitar case and you'll once again be able to afford your drug.
In any case, that old drug just wasn't working for you anymore; time to move on to harsher, stronger stuff.
PS: listen to what nanaoei & felisconcolori said. good advice, imo.
Lol, uhh I won't disagree with most of that, whatever it was meant to mean but I'm not sure I either understand or agree with the first part of that post.
I was feeling really happy, on an emotional high really when I just remembered her and saw she hadn't thought of me and practically dry heaved :/
I definately agree with and apprecciate the advice of nana and felis.
P.S: Yeah, that metaphor was terrible :D
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I'm embarrased by my past actions and even more ashamed of my present thoughts and future endeavors to clear my name.
However, i can't ladder lol due to the stutters caused by patch 1.5 and how the game's remained unplayable for weeks or months for people without solid state drives, I've decided I'm finished with Blizzard games :/
Browsing wikpedia though haha, very good I feel like I've already read half of wikipedia <3
Lol, but thanks a lot for the response, I promise I've considered it deeply.
Wow, I have an SSD and didn't realize how fortunate I am. You'll get through it, if you have the money, I'd recommend a vacation. Nothing clears the head like racing quads in the desert, or shooting tequila on the beach. <3
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