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I can't tell how much hours I sat in the table writing and deleting this announcement.
First I have to apologize.
First regarding the investigation,
according to info from them the cell phone number I got wasn't made using real name and without real evidence there seem to be little that cn be done.
While investigating this problem myself I heard lot of stories:
"Sonic, you can't catch them. There's no way those who got the money will report themselves and no broker goes around saying he is broker. Everyone - hyung (T/N = someone) you know, friend, cousins - could become one.. how naive..." etc.
Someone was curious why I made this public which killed my public income and someone is saying why I am doing such things when I could have made millions by joining forces with Toto agency myself.
Naturally I like earning money... but I don't want to betray someone just so I could eat twenty thousand won lunch when five thousand won ($4.65) food is plenty enough. So I wanted to continue investigating and solve this problem no matter how much stories I hear.
What I felt when doing this is that broker have quite a deep root. I am not doing this league behind protection of big orgnization and the players are uncontrated individuals, so brokers are far more easier to approach.
After growing league this much, and having gotten so much opportunity with sponsorships even this moment... such opportunities even being given to the players who adamantly stayed with BW... I wondered if I should continue with shadow of such fundemental problem.
I felt bare... and knew what to do and conclusion I drew after agonizing thinking was that I as individual can do nothing.
No matter how good opportunity is, no matter becomes of carrier I built up, I am convinced it is ridiculous for me to continue the league for my profit or sake of preservation.
I think those who love BW would eventully be disappointed more by burying this situation.
I do not own broadcast which have twenty or something official staff.
I admit common criticism such as "you suck at commentary/observing"; this is broadcast where commentary, observer, music, recording, feedback control, announcement, and schedule gets all done by me.
While I want to become someone who can satisfy everyone it's reality such thing is difficult.
The fact that I make this announcement is in no way saying there is those who play BW, BJ (TN: word for those who stream in Afreeca).
I hope no one who get this news choose to blame and be skeptical of Brood War and players itself.
This strlegue was closed because I realized that it is impossible for me to stop future possible matchfixing, and that me as individual is impossible to grow the league any further.
It was not easy. All time, effort, and money spent to reach this sitution... even when everyone called me crazy I invested all this truly as crazy person. So I am saying like crazy individual... I am abandoning everything I began even before becoming adult. I am not telling everyone to support me... but I hope nobody tries to make me feel more bad... please...
I don't know what to broadcast now, but I'll begin from very beginning.
Cooling off my head for a week then visitng you with new content.
I sincerely apologize for fans who truly love BW.
Sonic league will disappear, but BJ Sonic will not go away and disappoint you more.
8th or 9th... it is no longer possible, and SSL I began will be forgotten, but support from everyone will forever remain in my heart.
There will be no BW content anymore. Rarely when I want to play BW, I'll stream my personal playing, entertainig you despite I might get some criticisms.
I cried a lot after pulling curtains on Afreeca BW content I started with Sonic Starlecture. It feels like I, who can't drink, drunk enough to barf for entire week.
Can't think anything. Don't want to think anything nor meet someone, think about someone, do anything.
I once again apologize to everyone I met thorugh starleague.
I adamantly stuck with BW content from age of 19 to 25. I am afraid about starting afresh, giving up all the sponsors I had, but I'll approach this with a mindset I had when I was new.
While nothing may happen for awhile, justice will triumph and everything will eventually be revealed...
Thanks for everyone who filled cold lecture hall at the last 7th SSL finals.
Sorry for not having flamboyant and dramatic end.
From Monday I'll come back with entertaining broadcast.. Thanks.
Sonic broadcast will no longer make any starleague nor any leagues.