I've had time to cool my emotions and talk to a lot of people about what happened between me and nightend, and I realize that what I did was very wrong. I disappointed the people watching the stream, my fans, nightends fans, Dreamhack, the casters, ESPORTS itself. My actions are detrimental to our lovely sport, and if other people would have the same kind of attitude, then nobody would even bother to watch SC2.
I have recently gone through a lot of stuff, changes in my life and even though it's no excuse I am not ashamed to admit that I have probably been through one of the most emotional weeks of my life. All I really wanted was to play good starcraft as a way to escape from everything that has been going on in my head. There was nothing I wanted more than to advance to the ro12, and after failing that mission after losing game 1, I literally broke down. I sat there in my chair almost crying, and sadness took over me completely. Because of that I didn't bring what I should have brought to the 2nd game of the BO3 series. I want to apologize. I really feel bad about what happened, and even though I can't change what happened I can promise you it will never happen again. In 10 years of playing SC1/SC2 tournaments I have never thrown a game or acted like I did against nightend. But it is what it is, it happened and I can't change it. I can only ask for forgiveness and move forward after this and I'll try my best to do a better job at competing. To my team, my peers, and the people watching, I'm sorry.
I also hate the fact that im taking attention away from all the great sc2 games, so please cheer for the remaining players.