What the.... 72 poptarts @ 200calories\tart is 14,400 calories, dog. Feeling fat is one way of looking at that, I suppose. You should join a poptart eating contest.
Um I'll confess to sometimes voting Republican to hasten the collapse of the country
I have subscribed *edit* on youtube ever since she did her first workout video and still today i have not work out or gone to the gym because of her, i just stare at her fine ass and boobs.
I've killed a lot of people. Some girls in the apartment uptown uh, some homeless people maybe 5 or 10 um an NYU girl I met in Central Park. I left her in a parking lot behind some donut shop. I killed Bethany, my old girlfriend, with a nail gun, and some man uh some old faggot with a dog last week. I killed another girl with a chainsaw, I had to, she almost got away and uh someone else there I can't remember maybe a model, but she's dead too. I don't want to leave anything out here. I guess I've killed maybe 20 people, maybe 40. I have tapes of a lot of it, uh some of the girls have seen the tapes. I even, um... I ate some of their brains, and I tried to cook a little. Tonight I, uh, I just had to kill a LOT of people. And I'm not sure I'm gonna get away with it this time. I guess I'll uh, I mean, ah, I guess I'm a pretty uh, I mean I guess I'm a pretty sick guy.
On January 31 2011 13:01 Tony Campolo wrote: I've killed a lot of people. Some girls in the apartment uptown uh, some homeless people maybe 5 or 10 um an NYU girl I met in Central Park. I left her in a parking lot behind some donut shop. I killed Bethany, my old girlfriend, with a nail gun, and some man uh some old faggot with a dog last week. I killed another girl with a chainsaw, I had to, she almost got away and uh someone else there I can't remember maybe a model, but she's dead too. I don't want to leave anything out here. I guess I've killed maybe 20 people, maybe 40. I have tapes of a lot of it, uh some of the girls have seen the tapes. I even, um... I ate some of their brains, and I tried to cook a little. Tonight I, uh, I just had to kill a LOT of people. And I'm not sure I'm gonna get away with it this time. I guess I'll uh, I mean, ah, I guess I'm a pretty uh, I mean I guess I'm a pretty sick guy.
On January 31 2011 13:01 Tony Campolo wrote: I've killed a lot of people. Some girls in the apartment uptown uh, some homeless people maybe 5 or 10 um an NYU girl I met in Central Park. I left her in a parking lot behind some donut shop. I killed Bethany, my old girlfriend, with a nail gun, and some man uh some old faggot with a dog last week. I killed another girl with a chainsaw, I had to, she almost got away and uh someone else there I can't remember maybe a model, but she's dead too. I don't want to leave anything out here. I guess I've killed maybe 20 people, maybe 40. I have tapes of a lot of it, uh some of the girls have seen the tapes. I even, um... I ate some of their brains, and I tried to cook a little. Tonight I, uh, I just had to kill a LOT of people. And I'm not sure I'm gonna get away with it this time. I guess I'll uh, I mean, ah, I guess I'm a pretty uh, I mean I guess I'm a pretty sick guy.
On January 31 2011 13:01 Tony Campolo wrote: I've killed a lot of people. Some girls in the apartment uptown uh, some homeless people maybe 5 or 10 um an NYU girl I met in Central Park. I left her in a parking lot behind some donut shop. I killed Bethany, my old girlfriend, with a nail gun, and some man uh some old faggot with a dog last week. I killed another girl with a chainsaw, I had to, she almost got away and uh someone else there I can't remember maybe a model, but she's dead too. I don't want to leave anything out here. I guess I've killed maybe 20 people, maybe 40. I have tapes of a lot of it, uh some of the girls have seen the tapes. I even, um... I ate some of their brains, and I tried to cook a little. Tonight I, uh, I just had to kill a LOT of people. And I'm not sure I'm gonna get away with it this time. I guess I'll uh, I mean, ah, I guess I'm a pretty uh, I mean I guess I'm a pretty sick guy.
I'm Bi-Curious, I have a girlfriend that I've been dating for a year that i want to break up with to go out with another of my friends, I'm a horrible shit of a person with no shred of a soul and who doesn't ever post on TL (even though i stalk the forums >_<) I suffer depression problems, think about suicide everyday, my comp can't play SC2 (20fps on all low settings) Life's a bitch.
Something has been taken from deep inside of me. Wounds so deep they never go away. Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past, bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have. All of the helplessness inside I just hide, pretending I don't feel misplaced. I wanna run away and never say goodbye.
On January 31 2011 13:53 LunarC wrote: Something has been taken from deep inside of me. Wounds so deep they never go away. Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past, bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have. All of the helplessness inside I just hide, pretending I don't feel misplaced. I wanna run away and never say goodbye.
ur confession is you like to copy lyrics from linkin park songs??
I watched a documentary called Earthlings and I enjoyed watching the animals pain and screams but I don't know why exactly, it makes me sick to like it because otherwise I'm a really good person.
I have a few knives sitting on the side of my desk in preparation to slash my wrists if the FBI ever come to my house. I've never really done anything wrong but I just have terrible paranoia that makes every waking day a living nightmare that induces panic and anxiety at the easiest whim.
On January 31 2011 09:03 pr0jekt wrote: I think I'm into guys.
Just out of curiosity, what makes you think this?
I've had sex with both genders (albeit very limited), and I'll tell you that they're definitely different experiences. If you seriously think you're into men (and I presume you are also a man of majority age), there's nothing wrong with the feelings you're having. If you're feeling a bit uncertain about your own preference, try not to see it as something you need to hide. If you feel you can 'out' yourself to friends and/or family without significant repercussions, you will feel like a new person, with a new sense of freedom.
Bah, I have one terrible confession that I've tried to give voice to in the past, but there never seems to be a way to say it without somebody giving me the evil eye, so I'll keep it to myself.
As for something else, though, I've always kind of wanted to see what it would be like to get shot and have sometimes wish for it. Not in a way that would cause death or disabling, but enough to see if anyone would visit in the hospital, I suppose.
I don't care about the commercials with kids dying of aids in Africa, but I can't watch the commercial about animals being mistreated without getting bummed out.
The last 4 girls I've gone out on town with (after getting numbers etc.) in the pas 3 months all already had boyfriends and weren't interested in something on the side, FML
On February 04 2011 06:31 bITt.mAN wrote: The last 4 girls I've gone out on town with (after getting numbers etc.) in the pas 3 months all already had boyfriends and weren't interested in something on the side, FML
I'm one of those SC2 noobs here at TL even though I've played Brood War since it came out in the 90's and probably could've learned 3 instruments, gotten 2 more majors and learned a third language in the time I've spent playing it (and worst part about it is I still suck relatively speaking).
On February 04 2011 14:32 Kiriya.Kite wrote: I haven't played SC2 since September and im still surfing TL forums and watching tournament and reading strategies @_@
Many people on this site haven't played/watched starcraft for years and are still here . Reading strategies when you don't play does seem unorthodox however :o
Whenever I do anything that takes skill, like a sport or game or school or even working out negative things always pop in my head when I screw up. Like you suck, you're a loser, you're wasting your time, you're weak, etc. Then I just get really down on myself and quit. Been this way my whole life.
On February 11 2011 12:43 Hidden_MotiveS wrote: I've been depressed for the last few weeks.
There are only two things that I think could be contributing to this:
I'm not accomplishing everything that I want to: getting a job for the summer, being more efficient and doing my work
I don't have a girlfriend
I need someone to talk to. I need to find someone to talk to before I become so unmotivated that I don't even want to deal with that.
Im right there with you got dumped 3 weeks back out of the blue over facebook from a 6 month relationship been super up and down. Since were confessing things, I havent brushed out of conditioned (yes ive shampooed every day) my hair in the past 3-4 weeks and its now getting dreaded, dunno if im going to chop it all off or get dreads.
Also when im single Im generally a lot less happy even if the relationship is miserable or im with a terrible insensitive bitch of a girlfriend.
I browse these threads and 4chan regularly. Not because I find them particularly entertaining, but for the same reason people watch jersey shore. Makes me feel good about myself.
On February 04 2011 12:27 theinfamousone wrote: I'm one of those SC2 noobs here at TL even though I've played Brood War since it came out in the 90's and probably could've learned 3 instruments, gotten 2 more majors and learned a third language in the time I've spent playing it (and worst part about it is I still suck relatively speaking).
Ive got a similar story here..played Starcraft and BW like forever (only vs AI) and now Sc2, i dont really spend my non work time on anything else, watch reps, vids of pro gamers, listen to sc2 podcasts yada yada and I still suck at Silver 13 1vs1..U think I shd be diamond atleast by now!
On February 04 2011 06:09 IPA wrote: I'm a misanthrope and 94% of these posts push me deeper in. That's my confession.
Go to misanthropy on wikipedia, scroll down to "see also", shit brix.
Haha, that's amazing! Well, and if you want to go from general annoynce of the human kind to complete misathropy, play League of Legends. Most garbage community I've ever experienced lol.
On February 04 2011 14:32 Kiriya.Kite wrote: I haven't played SC2 since September and im still surfing TL forums and watching tournament and reading strategies @_@
i did that for a good while before jumping into broodwar, back in 06
On January 31 2011 09:03 pr0jekt wrote: I think I'm into guys.
i was watching americas net top model s15 and when they had to dress up as guys i inadvertantly said "wow" coz i thought one of them looked hot -_____________-;
i have banged 27 girls in my 22 years. 6 of wich have been long time relationships. i have cheated on everyone of those girls, except one. that one, is the only girl i have ever loved in my entire life.
yep. i've been there. i had the one girl. for about 2 years. then i lost her.
On February 04 2011 14:32 Kiriya.Kite wrote: I haven't played SC2 since September and im still surfing TL forums and watching tournament and reading strategies @_@
There are also old guys who watch Football games, read up on Football news, and read football strategies... though they haven't touched a football in years haha
Just food for thought ;D
I think I got a guy fired at my work because on a really frustrating day, he had called me to drop something of and it sounded like he was yelling. So I joked about him yelling at me. Next thing I know, the boss is down there yelling him out saying that he needs to pack up his stuff by the end of the month. I feel bad about it every time I think about it =\
On February 12 2011 05:03 M155_G33k wrote: I think I got a guy fired at my work because on a really frustrating day, he had called me to drop something of and it sounded like he was yelling. So I joked about him yelling at me. Next thing I know, the boss is down there yelling him out saying that he needs to pack up his stuff by the end of the month. I feel bad about it every time I think about it =\
Eh, boss probably overheard him or he's gotten complaints about dudes yelling before.
I got a dude fired because he played metalcore in his cube all day. Suggested to him to get headphones or keep it really quiet. Didn't change a thing, so I straight up told his manager a week later. I mean I could hear it with my office door shut, kinda sucks when I have client meetings. Come to think of it I'm sure lots more were wanting to complain but nobody had the balls to do it. I almost feel bad for him since I'm a metal head too, but asking alexandria, bmth, parkway drive and the likes are not metal anyways. He's a bright dude but needs to learn basic office etiquette. He did some other questionable things I just picked the most obvious one.
On February 15 2011 00:40 Iplaythings wrote: I dont give a damn about valentines day
after having read over five entire threads addressing valentines day, it was only this post that made me realize it's today. don't really care either, i even wrote an exam five hours ago.
I ride the train every day, and every single day someone farts and it stinks, sometimes multiple times per trip. Whenever this happens i raise my voice and tell people to stop farting, sometimes i even sort of shout it out (though not aggresively ). I was once asked to leave the train because of this.
Probably the most embarassing moment of my life. I guess i'm lucky
The only time I am not working / school / sleeping I spend playing video games, I don't eat much, what I do eat is probably not healthy or something you shouldn't live off of... and I am confessing this because I end everyday with looking at what I could have accomplished instead :/
I am constantly making promises saying stuff like "I'll do better in school." and then the next day I fall a sleep in school. I simply have no drive unless it comes to gaming.
if say im in a lift with someone and that person gets out leaving me alone in the lift, i like to make funny faces to that person after the door closes. werid but eh. gets me tickled
I've been asked whether I mastrabute three times and lied saying I don't each time. I don't have a religious family, so I suppose I was just ashamed because of US culture or maybe my own misinformed view, anyways.
I was asked once by a sc online friend when I was young who called me a liar saying everybody does it and another time by a friend in high school who also called me a liar saying he knows I do it even pointing to another friend saying he does it too. The only time anyone ever believed me was in middle school when a girl asked me whether I mastrubate out of the blue to which I replied "no", this confused me until I saw her go back to her guy friend and say "see not everybody does it."
People bore me. They just do. I barely bother to reply to texts, any schools/placed i've been for long periods of time once I leave I almost never speak to any of them ever again. Same goes for games i've played in the past and people i've known in them.
I seem to be liked (I tend to get somewhat popular if I put an effort into hanging around people), but I don't feel I get as much out of other people as they do of me. Long list of people i've thrown by the wayside without a moments regret.
Wonder sometimes if i'm losing my humanity, but I don't particularly care. And i'm not depressed, i'm actually quite happy. Don't know if im unique or not but I know i'm pretty strange.
2 days from writing this I'll be on a birthday party out of town, and I'll confess my feeling to a girl I really like, and I think she feels the same way, so I guess it's a good time to find out if we can be more than friends. I hope all goes well and my friends don't get me to drunk to the point that I forget talking to her and doing stupid shit in stead, like running around the street naked lol.
On February 25 2011 02:37 Vore210 wrote: People bore me. They just do. I barely bother to reply to texts, any schools/placed i've been for long periods of time once I leave I almost never speak to any of them ever again. Same goes for games i've played in the past and people i've known in them.
I seem to be liked (I tend to get somewhat popular if I put an effort into hanging around people), but I don't feel I get as much out of other people as they do of me. Long list of people i've thrown by the wayside without a moments regret.
Wonder sometimes if i'm losing my humanity, but I don't particularly care. And i'm not depressed, i'm actually quite happy. Don't know if im unique or not but I know i'm pretty strange.
I'm kinda like you in a way. I almost never call any of the people I've went to school or did other activities with. I'm just too lazy/uninterested in seeing them except for 2-3 people, and I've never given a fuck about the other people I've spent a few years hanging-out with, and it doesn't bother me one bit. Same about the liked part, and I if this comforts you I don't think you're losing your humanity, because I at least don't feel this way.
On February 25 2011 02:37 Vore210 wrote: People bore me. They just do. I barely bother to reply to texts, any schools/placed i've been for long periods of time once I leave I almost never speak to any of them ever again. Same goes for games i've played in the past and people i've known in them.
I seem to be liked (I tend to get somewhat popular if I put an effort into hanging around people), but I don't feel I get as much out of other people as they do of me. Long list of people i've thrown by the wayside without a moments regret.
Wonder sometimes if i'm losing my humanity, but I don't particularly care. And i'm not depressed, i'm actually quite happy. Don't know if im unique or not but I know i'm pretty strange.
I like Friday by Rebecca Black. I rolled Terran because I heard it was OP. I wiped progress raids in TBC because I wasn't top DPS. I refer to mentally disabled people as "loonies" that Reside in the local "Loony Bin". One time, I went down to my local pub to have a meal. A bunch of the loonies were there, feasting on chicken, and chips. They were very loud, and at that very moment, I waved down the manager and complained. They were told to leave, I felt nothing.
i have not had sex in 1 year, as a consequence im stuck masturbating in my mothers basement. + Show Spoiler +
hopefully this one gets a few lulz out there hahaha, p.s. i just watched 34 episodes str8 of big bang theory. and i now feel like howard. haahahahahaha
On March 08 2011 00:37 Lanaia wrote: Once again I dreamt about Tasteless and Day9, but moreso Tasteless.
I really hope it stops soon.
Also, I'd really like to actually learn how to play SC2. I'm so curious about it!
I also had a dream, however it was about me, my best friend, tasteless, and artosis going into space and planting various flags on each planet of the inner rim on the solar system. Weird, but it was actually really awesome.
On February 12 2011 02:32 ganjazerg wrote: i have banged 27 girls in my 22 years. 6 of wich have been long time relationships. i have cheated on everyone of those girls, except one. that one, is the only girl i have ever loved in my entire life.
yep. i've been there. i had the one girl. for about 2 years. then i lost her.
This is bragging on this forum.
Confession: I'm gonna stop drinking for at least a month given I just enjoy it too much. Today I was in a uni trip and woke up in a random place w/o a shoe (made my mind about quitting beforehand though, and decided today was gonna be "get reallllly drunk" day)
On March 08 2011 00:37 Lanaia wrote: Once again I dreamt about Tasteless and Day9, but moreso Tasteless.
I really hope it stops soon.
Also, I'd really like to actually learn how to play SC2. I'm so curious about it!
I also had a dream, however it was about me, my best friend, tasteless, and artosis going into space and planting various flags on each planet of the inner rim on the solar system. Weird, but it was actually really awesome.
That sounds very awesome. I'm kind of jealous of your dream.
On February 16 2011 15:57 Twistacles wrote: If I spent all the time I waste on these forums and watching stream onto starcraft, I'd be a progamer by now.
This is me. I'll bet it's the same with about 75% of TL'ers.
On March 20 2011 09:45 wishbones wrote: i have not had sex in 1 year, as a consequence im stuck masturbating in my mothers basement. + Show Spoiler +
hopefully this one gets a few lulz out there hahaha, p.s. i just watched 34 episodes str8 of big bang theory. and i now feel like howard. haahahahahaha
1 year... thats not much, for me it's been more than 3 years, though at least i don't live with my parents since more than 10 years.
On February 16 2011 16:18 crappen wrote: I can not stand lady gaga, I just get the impression she is the most ego self centered person I have ever seen.
This is true, i cant stand her and my confession is that some of my friends, consider me gay, just because i cry alot (ie. when i get into fights, or fight with teachers, i just start tearing, but i cannot stop it dont know why) but atleast that makes me good with girls, since they like some feelings, but it doesnt help me now, since i've been with my girlfriend who i like alot 1 year and 5 months untill today.
Last night I dreamt I was playing ZvZ agaisnt Julyzerg on bloodbath (bw blizzard map), at a big tournament.
He made his baneling nest right outside my base using the hatch/cancel trick, I panicked because all I had was very few zerglings because I had a shit economy cause I was all the game afraid of getting pwnt by an attack of him with godly micro. I reacted making 2 spine crawlers and hiding my lings/drones behind the mineral line, He just stood infront of me, laughing with a pedophile smirk I will never forget, He got up his chair without finishing the game or killing me, went to my booth, took my keyboard and typed ''gg" for me surrendered me and then I woke up.
On March 21 2011 03:17 Vapaach wrote: I am starting to feel like being nice also means being single.
It just means less idiot exes!
BOTH statements are 100% True. This is coming from a guy who has lived it, wrote a book about it, studies psychology and everyone around him seems to have gone trough that situation.
So stop feeling and do something about it. seriously. And you dont have to stop being nice. at all.
This may be a long one as it won't have a single confession:
1- I played a custom game against a Terran on my friend's account, 12 drone rushed him and BM'd him a lot all throughout the game and especially when he lifted off after losing all his scvs and quitted the game because I preferred a breakfast in a house full of friends with making fun of that terran to massing mutas and killing that last command center which would not result into a point gain.
2- I once hit on my friend's girlfriend. Then I learned that the girl is my friend's girlfriend (I didn't know at the first time). Then I said "fuck it, I'm hitting on her". I'm still flirting with her in every single window of opportunity, or in starcraft terminology, timing window.
3- Me and 2 of my zerg fanboy friends celebrated when BoxeR and Mvp demoted to code a.
4- Kelly has an awesome body. So does Lee Hyun Ju.
5- When I hear a K-pop girlband, I mute the stream and start jerking off.
6- When I first started watching BW pro scene, I remember watching a Canata TvT without sleeping.
7- I made fun of HuK's height so many times that I can't remember. As I don't want to be banned, I won't say what exactly I said about that. I can PM it tho.
8- I hate "foreigner-wins-autorecommend" or "boxer/nada/reach/blah blah autovote" and this may be the only thing I hate about teamliquid community.
9- I can play both BW and SC2 without insulting one or other. But I curse races a lot on sc2 and players a lot on BW (not progamers, mostly people who auto-2rax or auto-8rax on every single tvz).
10- I think that Bisu looks a lot like Justin Bieber. Still, I like SKT over KT.
11- Iccup admin that is responsible for D rank tours, astet, is my homeboy. I remember losing D tour games just because of doing some casual talk with him (I wouldn't win otherwise either).
12- I like calling myself noob shit when I do stupid shit.
13- After losing to a 4 warpgate against a diamond player (when masters didn't exist), I said that he only won because he meets the requirements of doing a 4 warpgate, which is 25 apm and even less iq. He asked me a PvZ and 4 gate him against a zerg build of my choice. I asked him to do 14 pool 13 gas into 21 expo, which was the build I did against him. I lost that game.
14- My mother asked "who that beautiful girl was" when I was watching S1 episodes of HyungJoon becomes a progamer. That "beautiful girl" is Hyung Joon himself btw.
15- I switched from DotA because I think IceFrog is worse than WoW staff at balancing. At least this is what I thought when he put Slark in game and nerfed Blade Mail in the same map. That was when I switched to Brood War. Also big ups to my big cousin who introduced me to that game when I was 10 years old.
16- I rage and whine about balance on gosugamers.
17- Every single time I win against a 2 rax (Zerg player here), I make fun of the terran player for being unable to do the simplest thing in the game. This happens in both games.
18- I remember watching avilo's stream over ret's or haypro's.
19- HongUn and anypro are in the lowest tier of progamers in my mind.
20- After watching his game against FD, I sincerely believe that it couldn't be ThorZain and someone else played for him. The ThorZain I knew wasn't able to beat an offracing chinese player or a korean player who only used a single hero against him.
I made Tasteless and Artosis in the Sims 3. When my back was turn, occupied with my character and my boyfriend's character, they got engaged. I don't know how to feel about that.
I pretend I'm better at everything than I really am and I'm starting to believe it.
I'm starting to hate most people now and I'm not sure why.
I've noticed that I'm a very cold person, I might be a sociopath or a psychopath. I just never feel strong emotions about anything anymore(I get anry when I lose at SC2 dough :D), I used to when I was younger. I wonder is this what it means to grow up, or am I just losing my humanity, even if I am losing it I don't care at all. I also can't make new friends, I feel like everyone but my childhood friends is lying to me or is just a fake person infront of me. Despite all that I'm a very happy guy. But I'll probably never have a relationship with a girl(that doesn't scare me at all for some reason) because I can't connect with new people emotionaly, not because I'm not a sociable person, I can talk to strangers and can make my classmates laugh, I just can't let someone close to me anymore, I don't know why. That still doesn't make me feel less happy, life is awesome!
On March 21 2011 06:15 Ksyper wrote: I've noticed that I'm a very cold person, I might be a sociopath or a psychopath. I just never feel strong emotions about anything anymore(I get anry when I lose at SC2 dough :D), I used to when I was younger. I wonder is this what it means to grow up, or am I just losing my humanity, even if I am losing it I don't care at all. I also can't make new friends I feel like everyone but my childhood friends is lying to me or is just a fake person infront of me. Despite all that I'm a very happy guy. But I'll probably never have a relationship with a girl(that doesn't scare me at all for some reason) because I can't connect with new people emotionaly, not because I'm not a sociable person, I can talk to strangers and can make my classmates laugh, I just can't let someone close to me anymore, I don't know why. That still doesn't make me feel less happy, life is awesome!
as long as you're content with it, there's nothing wrong with that
I make fun of others jokingly but don't expect them to do the same towards me. I always tell myself "I'll do my homework later" but then never do it :X
On March 21 2011 06:15 Ksyper wrote: I've noticed that I'm a very cold person, I might be a sociopath or a psychopath. I just never feel strong emotions about anything anymore(I get anry when I lose at SC2 dough :D), I used to when I was younger. I wonder is this what it means to grow up, or am I just losing my humanity, even if I am losing it I don't care at all. I also can't make new friends, I feel like everyone but my childhood friends is lying to me or is just a fake person infront of me. Despite all that I'm a very happy guy. But I'll probably never have a relationship with a girl(that doesn't scare me at all for some reason) because I can't connect with new people emotionaly, not because I'm not a sociable person, I can talk to strangers and can make my classmates laugh, I just can't let someone close to me anymore, I don't know why. That still doesn't make me feel less happy, life is awesome!
you make me think of dexter the tv show
not to offend or anything, just the first few sentences make me really think of him, haha
On February 25 2011 02:37 Vore210 wrote: People bore me. They just do. I barely bother to reply to texts, any schools/placed i've been for long periods of time once I leave I almost never speak to any of them ever again. Same goes for games i've played in the past and people i've known in them.
I seem to be liked (I tend to get somewhat popular if I put an effort into hanging around people), but I don't feel I get as much out of other people as they do of me. Long list of people i've thrown by the wayside without a moments regret.
Wonder sometimes if i'm losing my humanity, but I don't particularly care. And i'm not depressed, i'm actually quite happy. Don't know if im unique or not but I know i'm pretty strange.
I feel the same way sometimes, bro.
What I would to never be caught up in other people's lives. I'd do fine with close to nobody. I think I'd be happier actually.
I find reality quite boring, and I wonder if I will ever feel different.
i feel like alot of new members with low post count post stupid crap to gain attention and feel like they are connecting with the community or they are very smart ;D (including re posters who dont use search bars)
i have a bad habit of biting my fingers. i want to stop but i can never do it. every time they heal and i get anxious (like watching a serious sc game) i start biting them and i dont even notice since my eyes are glued to the screen.
When I'm sitting alone in my room, I always have my hand inside my pants if you know what I mean... I picked it up somewhere, dunno where...
Does anyone of you guys do that? or is it just me? I've never asked people, and I really wonder.
2nd:
I am so bored of school, it's unbelivible... I become suicidal every time I have a test the next day, because I'm so tired of reading!!!! I'm not tired of waking up and been in school, because I have a lot of "good friends" but just staying home reading is killing me...
i had sex with a girl in the bathroom at a karaoke place 2 nights ago, made out with 5 more girls at the dance club and then had sex with the girl's sister in the morning, less than 12 hours later at my friend's house while he was making breakfast (and then again in the bathroom at a train station).
i was drunk (even in the morning, after I had woken up)
On March 21 2011 08:34 GG_NO_RE wrote: i had sex with a girl in the bathroom at a karaoke place 2 nights ago, made out with 5 more girls at the dance club and then had sex with the girl's sister in the morning, less than 12 hours later at my friend's house while he was making breakfast (and then again in the bathroom at a train station).
i was drunk (even in the morning, after I had woken up)
On March 21 2011 08:34 GG_NO_RE wrote: i had sex with a girl in the bathroom at a karaoke place 2 nights ago, made out with 5 more girls at the dance club and then had sex with the girl's sister in the morning, less than 12 hours later at my friend's house while he was making breakfast (and then again in the bathroom at a train station).
i was drunk (even in the morning, after I had woken up)
this ain't no brag blog bro!
(congrats tho)
my confession: i went out with my ex last night, it was nothing more but two old friends hanging out ... but i lied to my current gf that i went to sleep early and left my phone silent ... not that i felt guilty or anything but i just thought it could save me from potential troubles that might or might not happen ...
Sorry if its too long. My boyfriend (ex now) talked about tsl so I figured it had something to do with sc2 so I googled it. I was unsure how to check the current streams, so I looked up the forums to see how to get to peoples profiles. I deleted the current name of the profile I was on and tried out two different names that I thought could have been his and one of them worked. I read 2/26 posts that he wrote on, one made me sure it was him because of an interest in music he has and the second was just something he has talked about even though I never believed it. I mainly looked for his profile just to see what streams he was watching just to know when I would be able to talk to him and realized there is no option like that on here. I was hallucinating and thought the number of posts were 28 and not 26 last night, but it seemed like the posts from long ago were at the top and saw nothing new. I decided to count the number of posts just because it was "28" and I only counted 26 to realized this morning it really was just 26. As I was counting the number of posts, I happened to read "one-line confessions" I clicked on it and it happened to be about me. We were together for 4 months and broke up for a little while and got back together less than a month later and were together for another 3 months or so. The day he posted on that thread was 15 days after we broke. How do you get a new girlfriend within a few days and you say she loves already? Where did she disappear to when we got back together? Although as he posted all he can ever think about his last girlfriend (me) and wakes up every morning missing me and wanting to call me and thinks of ways he could talk to me again, he said I was boring and treated him like crap. Why be with someone that is "boring"? And why be with someone that "treats you like crap"? Even though I have NEVER treated him like crap. I ended up texting him today the thing from his post and he said it was creepy that I found it. He said look at how old it is and how its about me. Sure maybe I pointed out the bad part of the whole message, but honestly he always does that so I don't see anything wrong with me doing it for the first time (pointing out only the bad part of the post). He said it's non of my business what he did while we were broken up which is true, but we got back together less than a month later and he hasn't even said a word about dating someone else. He says I don't and wouldn't know who she is which makes no sense to me because he admitted me last week that he has never had a real life girlfriend before. And there really wasn't anything I can think of that he played where he could have got an e-gf? It hurts to know that as soon as we broke up he got with someone else. He hates it when people say every girl he talks to, is his girlfriend or he is flirting with her, but after finding out his confession on that thread has made me realize it might be true.
If he ends up finding this post..well all I can say is fuck you.
I looked at trixy's post, was briefly intriqued by the word boyfriend, skimmed to see if gay or girl and then abandoned any attempt to traverse the block of words.
A more serious conffession, i cant see myself ever getting a serious job and worry that i may end up homeless later on in life.
On April 28 2011 07:07 larra wrote: I used to listen to the sounds of rains every day or at least often. Now it has been months. I'm forgetting myself.
On April 28 2011 07:07 larra wrote: I used to listen to the sounds of rains every day or at least often. Now it has been months. I'm forgetting myself.
On April 28 2011 07:51 Dalguno wrote: Sometimes when I'm arguing with friends, I'll use a big word that they don't know just to confuse them, even if I don't know what the word means.
Perhaps if you were to cease your ventures into peppering your verbiage with a tittilatingly vain degree of pleonastic verbosity and garrulous bombasticism and acquiesce to the colloquial demands inherent within the process of engaing with a fellow interlocutor you may transcend from the realm of self satisfaction, although in the process run the risk of belaying any attempt at mellifluousness
Trixy's post is amazing investigative work, made me try and find her ex-bf's post, but there is no way to search only within one thread so it's too difficult and TL's search feature doesn't include all possible results.
On April 28 2011 07:51 Dalguno wrote: Sometimes when I'm arguing with friends, I'll use a big word that they don't know just to confuse them, even if I don't know what the word means.
Perhaps if you were to cease your ventures into peppering your verbiage with a tittilatingly vain degree of pleonastic verbosity and garrulous bombasticism and acquiesce to the colloquial demands inherent within the process of engaing with a fellow interlocutor you may transcend from the realm of self satisfaction, although in the process run the risk of belaying any attempt at mellifluousness
Didn't know you conjugated interlocutor that way.
I once stole something from a friend, and never found the courage to talk to him again. Made me feel pretty guilty.
On April 28 2011 13:39 Homework wrote: my best friend is bipolar but doesn't know it, I don't think I'll ever tell him
You should, I was diagnosed with Bipolarity and attention disorder, If I had discovered that when I was young and acted accordingly i would have saved my life a few years of mistakes
On April 28 2011 07:51 Dalguno wrote: Sometimes when I'm arguing with friends, I'll use a big word that they don't know just to confuse them, even if I don't know what the word means.
Perhaps if you were to cease your ventures into peppering your verbiage with a tittilatingly vain degree of pleonastic verbosity and garrulous bombasticism and acquiesce to the colloquial demands inherent within the process of engaing with a fellow interlocutor you may transcend from the realm of self satisfaction, although in the process run the risk of belaying any attempt at mellifluousness
Well played sir.
On-topic, I once broke a broom swinging it at the wall cause I was pissed my mom took away my computer.
I'm a very proud person, but the thing is, I haven't achieved anything I really considered worthy. Now I hate anyone who gets something that I can't get. And I've been so bottled up in rage for the past few months that I don't think I'm stable anymore.
On April 28 2011 15:08 Brutaxilos wrote: I'm a very proud person, but the thing is, I haven't achieved anything I really considered worthy. Now I hate anyone who gets something that I can't get. And I've been so bottled up in rage for the past few months that I don't think I'm stable anymore.
Brutaxilos, you are worthy in being yourself. Each person is worthy. You are a brother of me by virtue of being a human. We are brothers and sisters, mankind is one big family. Family members often fight and quarrel out of jealousy or bitterness, but no matter what we are brothers and sisters and each person deserves respect, love and justice. Whether or not you've got a PhD or play for Manchester United, does not affect your worthiness.
Personally I used to be proud in what I did, getting good marks at school, being good at music and some sports. But Jesus' has changed everything for me. Whether or not you believe in our Father who is in heaven, does not change the fact that you, in yourself, are a very important person and you should never forget this.
Last month, I went swimming with my nephew (he's only 8, and I'm 22). We had a really good time and he absolutely loves the pool. Anyway, we got out and went to the showers. I took my trunks off to wash etc as usual. After i rinsed myself down, I stood for a minute under the shower, and all of a sudden, I felt like I was about to ejaculate, which was even weirder as I was completely flaccid. And sure enough, out came several spurts of semen. This wouldn't have been so bad, except my 8 year old nephew (who has seen a mans penis before, but never one ejaculating) saw the whole thing, plus half a dozen other men in the shower at the time. I felt sick! Anyway, he never mentioned it, so I take it he forgot about it.
But then yesterday I had a similar experience. I was in a pub with my mates, and went to the toilets. The urinal was one of the trough type ones where several guys can use it at once. I had a pee, and just as I was about to go, I got the throbbing feeling at the base of my penis as though I were about to ejaculate. And again, it happened. Luckily, it was only one of my mates that saw, otherwise it would have been a bit more embarrassing!
High School Senior year, My friends gf was a succubus, drop dead sexy. My girlfriend was just as hot but, I wanted my friends gf soo bad, and she wanted my self very bad. I went and picked up 3 XTC tabs and we ate them and had crazy trance sex in my friends van for 2 hours , he dropped us off at my place we did it again for hours and hours. She had to put down the pictures of my gf in my room before we started. The cat was let out of the bag because of one of the leaks that night, I regret I hurt my girlfriend who I am still with for 7 years. It was the only time I cheated on some one. I regret what I inflicted on my friend and the rift it has caused it is a mistake that does not go away. Sometimes at night I think about it and makes me sad, then I think about how i pounded the hell out of that girl till the sun came up, and I smile and feel guilty. Later down the road 2 women begged me for a 3 some, doing all they could do to try to get me to do them. I kept on telling them no and made them leave, was the one of the hardest things to do. Say no to 2 women ready to go. I am mixed if i regret that or not if that makes sense. The biggest mistake I have never done in my life tho is hurting 2 people I care about with cheating on a friends gf. Lesson learned , still follows me today. Don't listen to your little head.
i have to finish my diploma thesis due Monday and i have nothing yet (literally).. i have an external supervisor and my only chance is to choose an external opponent because then i can somehow try to persuade him to ignore the fact that my thesis is complete garbage..
On April 28 2011 07:22 XeliN wrote: I looked at trixy's post, was briefly intriqued by the word boyfriend, skimmed to see if gay or girl and then abandoned any attempt to traverse the block of words.
A more serious conffession, i cant see myself ever getting a serious job and worry that i may end up homeless later on in life.
haha im a girl. Yes I know silly, I made an account just to type that post. It was all out of anger because he thought I would never find it or something, but I did and well it was a slap in the face.
On April 28 2011 08:35 BlackMagister wrote: Trixy's post is amazing investigative work, made me try and find her ex-bf's post, but there is no way to search only within one thread so it's too difficult and TL's search feature doesn't include all possible results.
Also thanks for the rain site Cthsazsa.
Oh why thank you <3. Makes me feel like Nancy Drew. Jkz! Although, someone has called me that before haha. Honestly this wasn't something I was snooping around for, I know noticed it on accident. I can show you his original post, but I am kind of trying to forget about it. Tbh, now that I think of it the second half of what he said, I suppose did make me happy because its kind of one of those things where you talk to your friends and tell them how much you care about someone and then you think does this person even talk about how much they care for me? So I suppose it was nice to see that he really did care, but as for other things he said not so much. Some stuff I let slide by, but others it was just a big no no in my book.
I feel like a lot of people only want to know more about me so they can compare themselves to me or they are trying to make me feel bad about myself.
For example, when I ask someone what they do at their work, they'll say something complex sounding and then say "Oh it's really hard" as if I wouldn't be able to understand them.
Then when people ask me for my grades, they have to say what they got after it, but only when their grade is higher.
Then when people ask me about my life, they don't really seem very enthusiastic about my answers, as if to say that they're not impressed by me.
I'm wary of these people and I don't know if they would make good friends in the future or if I'm reading too much into their actions.
Too many faggots try to put others down to feel better about themselves.
Yesterday I was sitting on a bus, and a special needs adult and his handler were directly in front of me.
The disabled guy kept screaming with his tongue hanging out and flapping his arms. I couldn't stop laughing for a good five minutes. I was like 'I'm such a terrible person.'
The handler was all like 'Hey Joey! Everyone's having fun!'. Handled it like a bawss.
When I was in 8th grade I was pissed off at my school so I thought I'd take revenge by stealing a baseball base. I was walking by one of the baseball fields right after school and someone had left it out and impulsively I ran over and put it in my backpack.
When I was working at a ski resort, this kid smacked his hot chocolate cup at me, because his parents didn't want to let him go skiing alone as it was getting dark. Well, he didn't aim for me intentionally, but it did hit me. So the next day when they were skiing, I was outside and threw a barrage of snowballs at him and his dad from behind a snow wall. Luckily, they didn't know who it was that did it, because apparantly they pissed off other people as well for stalling the ski lift earlier.
On April 28 2011 15:08 Brutaxilos wrote: I'm a very proud person, but the thing is, I haven't achieved anything I really considered worthy. Now I hate anyone who gets something that I can't get. And I've been so bottled up in rage for the past few months that I don't think I'm stable anymore.
Brutaxilos, you are worthy in being yourself. Each person is worthy. You are a brother of me by virtue of being a human. We are brothers and sisters, mankind is one big family. Family members often fight and quarrel out of jealousy or bitterness, but no matter what we are brothers and sisters and each person deserves respect, love and justice. Whether or not you've got a PhD or play for Manchester United, does not affect your worthiness.
Personally I used to be proud in what I did, getting good marks at school, being good at music and some sports. But Jesus' has changed everything for me. Whether or not you believe in our Father who is in heaven, does not change the fact that you, in yourself, are a very important person and you should never forget this.
personally I can't stand this attitude I find people that haven't achieved anything nor not aim to drab and boring
I also hate religion vehemently, half of the reason being I went to a catholic primary school and the classes just seemed to waste hours of the day to no good end
On May 27 2011 04:57 obesechicken13 wrote: I feel like a lot of people only want to know more about me so they can compare themselves to me or they are trying to make me feel bad about myself.
For example, when I ask someone what they do at their work, they'll say something complex sounding and then say "Oh it's really hard" as if I wouldn't be able to understand them.
Then when people ask me for my grades, they have to say what they got after it, but only when their grade is higher.
Then when people ask me about my life, they don't really seem very enthusiastic about my answers, as if to say that they're not impressed by me.
I'm wary of these people and I don't know if they would make good friends in the future or if I'm reading too much into their actions.
Too many faggots try to put others down to feel better about themselves.
Just laugh at how concerned they are about their social status. Those people are so predictable.
Also I don't really understand your reasoning. You weren't dating him at the moment so I don't see how you get to be upset about anything he did during that time. If he want's to rebound to get over you that's his business. Hes not your property.
Omg, that's so awesome. I love rain. I especially like the sound the rain made when I was in a tent camping. I probably like rain more than the summer.
Nearly everyone I have ever known has at one point asked me if I was gay, since I show little interest in actually dating girls (though I am straight).
I've been avoiding getting my license for 5 years, mainly because when I get behind the wheel I don't trust myself to not get carried away and start speeding/joy riding.
I used to over-analyze people when I talked to them when I was younger, as such I noticed they rarely actually cared about me and were more into talking about themselves so I tended to not talk about myself and in the end never got too close to anyone. Later in life now I just genuinely can't trust that people actually care about me and so am pretty distanced from everyone.
Sometimes when I listen to music I hear my name being called (it's faint but I notice it), but whenever I stop the music to see if someone is calling me no one is.
I have plenty of dreams and ambitions, yet I can't find the confidence to start most projects or tell anyone about any of them. My most achievable one is to go to Japan (I'm teaching myself Japanese right now) for about a year, and even though the university I'm going to go to in Sept offers Japanese courses (without it I doubt I'll actually learn enough to speak it properly) I find myself too embarrassed to admit I actually wanted to learn it and I fear I might get scared and miss the chance.
I always feel judged, as such I rarely express my true feelings/interests.
And now after reading all my confessions (and sadly this isn't all) I feel depressed at how pathetic I seem...
On May 27 2011 05:00 AutomatonOmega wrote: Yesterday I was sitting on a bus, and a special needs adult and his handler were directly in front of me.
The disabled guy kept screaming with his tongue hanging out and flapping his arms. I couldn't stop laughing for a good five minutes. I was like 'I'm such a terrible person.'
The handler was all like 'Hey Joey! Everyone's having fun!'. Handled it like a bawss.
But yeah I'm going to hell.
The handler really was boss, and yes you are in fact going to burn for eternity (don't worry I'll be there with you)
On a related note my friend and I after seeing Hotel Rwanda in our world class (after finals so nothing left to do) just kept saying "Hutu power!" in a bad accent and talking about how we're both going to hell for it.
[QUOTE]On May 29 2011 09:25 DisneylandSC wrote: [QUOTE]On April 25 2011 16:06 Trixy wrote: tl;dr [/QUOTE]
That m'am, is really creepy.
Also I don't really understand your reasoning. You weren't dating him at the moment so I don't see how you get to be upset about anything he did during that time. If he want's to rebound to get over you that's his business. Hes not your property.
Okay, I've wrote a few comments back on some responses I got towards my post so I don't know if I mentioned it in them or it was in my original post, I did say we weren't dating at the moment so it was not my business. The whole point to my post was the concept of it all. A few days before my post on here, he told me he's never had a gf before and then I found that post. Obviously hes been lying. So therefore, it was questioning whether or not he was still with that person when we got back together considering it was less than a month from the time we broke up to the time we got back together and seeing that person 'was in love with him' and knowing him hes quick on saying I love you back and what not. Anyways I am completely over this whole thing. Its childish, I wrote on here out of anger. I randomly came on here to see if anyone has said anything to me and yeah thats why im writing back to you.
I can't actually see how many stars a blog gets rated. At one point I could after voting, but I don't know whether TL changed or my browser did. So when I go into any blog, no matter how many votes have been cast for it, I only see blank stars.
This has always been my little secret, the thing that made me special on TL. + Show Spoiler +
Nah, I just use chrome. Seriously, there should be a "point out what you'd liked fixed or improved on TL" day or thread but I'm afraid to make one.
On May 29 2011 10:10 killa_robot wrote: Nearly everyone I have ever known has at one point asked me if I was gay, since I show little interest in actually dating girls (though I am straight).
I've been avoiding getting my license for 5 years, mainly because when I get behind the wheel I don't trust myself to not get carried away and start speeding/joy riding.
I used to over-analyze people when I talked to them when I was younger, as such I noticed they rarely actually cared about me and were more into talking about themselves so I tended to not talk about myself and in the end never got too close to anyone. Later in life now I just genuinely can't trust that people actually care about me and so am pretty distanced from everyone.
Sometimes when I listen to music I hear my name being called (it's faint but I notice it), but whenever I stop the music to see if someone is calling me no one is.
I have plenty of dreams and ambitions, yet I can't find the confidence to start most projects or tell anyone about any of them. My most achievable one is to go to Japan (I'm teaching myself Japanese right now) for about a year, and even though the university I'm going to go to in Sept offers Japanese courses (without it I doubt I'll actually learn enough to speak it properly) I find myself too embarrassed to admit I actually wanted to learn it and I fear I might get scared and miss the chance.
I always feel judged, as such I rarely express my true feelings/interests.
And now after reading all my confessions (and sadly this isn't all) I feel depressed at how pathetic I seem...
You sound a lot like me when I was younger. I have a huge lack of interest in everyone including women, I'm really picky too which doesn't help. I over-analyze everything still to this day. My mind is just constantly thinking and playing out variables that could potentially happen with every situation I can think of dealing with little to big things. The music thing too, I don't really hear my name but I do hear people talking at times.
I always felt judged as well but I grew out of that. One day I just realized that not many people are as judgmental as I am. They're too focused on themselves to notice me. Life has been a lot easier since that revelation.
Anyway....
I'm pretty sure I have anti personality disorder. I feel like I lack the emotions that a "normal" person would have. The only reason I ever do anything for another person is if it's for self-gain. I'd like to say that bothers me but I would be lying. The only reason I ever feel any "bad" feelings as well is because that's how I should feel, but when I really reflect on it I actually don't care. I wouldn't necessarily say I'm a bad person either.
Granted it has it's darker side, but I'd rather not get into those.
On May 29 2011 10:10 killa_robot wrote: Nearly everyone I have ever known has at one point asked me if I was gay, since I show little interest in actually dating girls (though I am straight).
I've been avoiding getting my license for 5 years, mainly because when I get behind the wheel I don't trust myself to not get carried away and start speeding/joy riding.
I used to over-analyze people when I talked to them when I was younger, as such I noticed they rarely actually cared about me and were more into talking about themselves so I tended to not talk about myself and in the end never got too close to anyone. Later in life now I just genuinely can't trust that people actually care about me and so am pretty distanced from everyone.
Sometimes when I listen to music I hear my name being called (it's faint but I notice it), but whenever I stop the music to see if someone is calling me no one is.
I have plenty of dreams and ambitions, yet I can't find the confidence to start most projects or tell anyone about any of them. My most achievable one is to go to Japan (I'm teaching myself Japanese right now) for about a year, and even though the university I'm going to go to in Sept offers Japanese courses (without it I doubt I'll actually learn enough to speak it properly) I find myself too embarrassed to admit I actually wanted to learn it and I fear I might get scared and miss the chance.
I always feel judged, as such I rarely express my true feelings/interests.
And now after reading all my confessions (and sadly this isn't all) I feel depressed at how pathetic I seem...
You sound a lot like me when I was younger. I have a huge lack of interest in everyone including women, I'm really picky too which doesn't help. I over-analyze everything still to this day. My mind is just constantly thinking and playing out variables that could potentially happen with every situation I can think of dealing with little to big things. The music thing too, I don't really hear my name but I do hear people talking at times.
I always felt judged as well but I grew out of that. One day I just realized that not many people are as judgmental as I am. They're too focused on themselves to notice me. Life has been a lot easier since that revelation.
Anyway....
I'm pretty sure I have anti personality disorder. I feel like I lack the emotions that a "normal" person would have. The only reason I ever do anything for another person is if it's for self-gain. I'd like to say that bothers me but I would be lying. The only reason I ever feel any "bad" feelings as well is because that's how I should feel, but when I really reflect on it I actually don't care. I wouldn't necessarily say I'm a bad person either.
Granted it has it's darker side, but I'd rather not get into those.
Same with me :\ I can't get interested in others and always try to agree with them just to get by. I think they call that borderline personality disorder or something. But I just can't get any empathy for people if they say something everyone thinks is funny or sad. My mind's just always in a different place. Head in the clouds.
On July 19 2011 13:56 obesechicken13 wrote: I can't actually see how many stars a blog gets rated. At one point I could after voting, but I don't know whether TL changed or my browser did. So when I go into any blog, no matter how many votes have been cast for it, I only see blank stars.
This has always been my little secret, the thing that made me special on TL. + Show Spoiler +
Nah, I just use chrome. Seriously, there should be a "point out what you'd liked fixed or improved on TL" day or thread but I'm afraid to make one.
A very strange necro indeed....
How is this related to the OP at all? Confession? More like Website Feedback in an inappropriate place.
In this spirit here is my confession.
I confess that I do not understand your reasoning for the necro...I feel so ashamed
On May 29 2011 11:36 zJayy962 wrote: I'm in a three year relationship and we haven't had sexual relations. I'm worried about bringing it up.
Whip out your dick at dinner time and slap it on the dinner table hard and if possible make sure some shit like table salt/cutlery falls over. With this, your GF will be very curious and turned on and just go from there bro.
On May 29 2011 11:36 zJayy962 wrote: I'm in a three year relationship and we haven't had sexual relations. I'm worried about bringing it up.
Whip out your dick at dinner time and slap it on the dinner table hard and if possible make sure some shit like table salt/cutlery falls over. With this, your GF will be very curious and turned on and just go from there bro.
On May 29 2011 10:10 killa_robot wrote: Nearly everyone I have ever known has at one point asked me if I was gay, since I show little interest in actually dating girls (though I am straight).
I've been avoiding getting my license for 5 years, mainly because when I get behind the wheel I don't trust myself to not get carried away and start speeding/joy riding.
I used to over-analyze people when I talked to them when I was younger, as such I noticed they rarely actually cared about me and were more into talking about themselves so I tended to not talk about myself and in the end never got too close to anyone. Later in life now I just genuinely can't trust that people actually care about me and so am pretty distanced from everyone.
Sometimes when I listen to music I hear my name being called (it's faint but I notice it), but whenever I stop the music to see if someone is calling me no one is.
I have plenty of dreams and ambitions, yet I can't find the confidence to start most projects or tell anyone about any of them. My most achievable one is to go to Japan (I'm teaching myself Japanese right now) for about a year, and even though the university I'm going to go to in Sept offers Japanese courses (without it I doubt I'll actually learn enough to speak it properly) I find myself too embarrassed to admit I actually wanted to learn it and I fear I might get scared and miss the chance.
I always feel judged, as such I rarely express my true feelings/interests.
And now after reading all my confessions (and sadly this isn't all) I feel depressed at how pathetic I seem...
You sound a lot like me when I was younger. I have a huge lack of interest in everyone including women, I'm really picky too which doesn't help. I over-analyze everything still to this day. My mind is just constantly thinking and playing out variables that could potentially happen with every situation I can think of dealing with little to big things. The music thing too, I don't really hear my name but I do hear people talking at times.
I always felt judged as well but I grew out of that. One day I just realized that not many people are as judgmental as I am. They're too focused on themselves to notice me. Life has been a lot easier since that revelation.
Anyway....
I'm pretty sure I have anti personality disorder. I feel like I lack the emotions that a "normal" person would have. The only reason I ever do anything for another person is if it's for self-gain. I'd like to say that bothers me but I would be lying. The only reason I ever feel any "bad" feelings as well is because that's how I should feel, but when I really reflect on it I actually don't care. I wouldn't necessarily say I'm a bad person either.
Granted it has it's darker side, but I'd rather not get into those.
Hey, I'm pretty similar. I just don't really care about getting close to other people, and I don't think I will ever be able to trust and care about anyone as much as myself. From the times I have been in relationships, I've felt like they are just extremely tedious, and I become bored and increasingly fault-finding. I don't know what it is about my personality, but I don't get much out of human interaction; it's enervating for me, while other people--I guess--seem to benefit greatly. I don't want to be the way I am, but at the same time I just can't care enough to try to be different.
I can't stop thinking, and there's an endless dialogue in my head, which makes it hard for me to engage with other people. My greatest fear is that I will never know what someone else is truly thinking, and sometimes when I look other people in the eye, I feel like I'm peering into some kind of soulless depths; it's chilling and frightening, and I have a hard time grasping the concept of a completely distinct 'other,' to whom I might appear equally esoteric. This is not to say that I'm disconnected from the world, or some kind of sociopath; rather, I just have a very hard time being happy, and the first thing I ever notice in any thing is its most depressing qualities.
Now this might be a first world syndrome of upper middle-class suburbia, or it could be symptomatic of a larger, underlying psychological distress, but I'm afraid that I will listlessly traverse my lifetime with the same passionless and uninspired demeanor with which I regard my current situation. Oh, and another thing is that I get really caught up in my intellectualism, which is indicated by the shifts in tone evident throughout this post itself.
On May 29 2011 10:10 killa_robot wrote: Nearly everyone I have ever known has at one point asked me if I was gay, since I show little interest in actually dating girls (though I am straight).
I've been avoiding getting my license for 5 years, mainly because when I get behind the wheel I don't trust myself to not get carried away and start speeding/joy riding.
I used to over-analyze people when I talked to them when I was younger, as such I noticed they rarely actually cared about me and were more into talking about themselves so I tended to not talk about myself and in the end never got too close to anyone. Later in life now I just genuinely can't trust that people actually care about me and so am pretty distanced from everyone.
Sometimes when I listen to music I hear my name being called (it's faint but I notice it), but whenever I stop the music to see if someone is calling me no one is.
I have plenty of dreams and ambitions, yet I can't find the confidence to start most projects or tell anyone about any of them. My most achievable one is to go to Japan (I'm teaching myself Japanese right now) for about a year, and even though the university I'm going to go to in Sept offers Japanese courses (without it I doubt I'll actually learn enough to speak it properly) I find myself too embarrassed to admit I actually wanted to learn it and I fear I might get scared and miss the chance.
I always feel judged, as such I rarely express my true feelings/interests.
And now after reading all my confessions (and sadly this isn't all) I feel depressed at how pathetic I seem...
You sound a lot like me when I was younger. I have a huge lack of interest in everyone including women, I'm really picky too which doesn't help. I over-analyze everything still to this day. My mind is just constantly thinking and playing out variables that could potentially happen with every situation I can think of dealing with little to big things. The music thing too, I don't really hear my name but I do hear people talking at times.
I always felt judged as well but I grew out of that. One day I just realized that not many people are as judgmental as I am. They're too focused on themselves to notice me. Life has been a lot easier since that revelation.
Anyway....
I'm pretty sure I have anti personality disorder. I feel like I lack the emotions that a "normal" person would have. The only reason I ever do anything for another person is if it's for self-gain. I'd like to say that bothers me but I would be lying. The only reason I ever feel any "bad" feelings as well is because that's how I should feel, but when I really reflect on it I actually don't care. I wouldn't necessarily say I'm a bad person either.
Granted it has it's darker side, but I'd rather not get into those.
Hey, I'm pretty similar. I just don't really care about getting close to other people, and I don't think I will ever be able to trust and care about anyone as much as myself. From the times I have been in relationships, I've felt like they are just extremely tedious, and I become bored and increasingly fault-finding. I don't know what it is about my personality, but I don't get much out of human interaction; it's enervating for me, while other people--I guess--seem to benefit greatly. I don't want to be the way I am, but at the same time I just can't care enough to try to be different.
I can't stop thinking, and there's an endless dialogue in my head, which makes it hard for me to engage with other people. My greatest fear is that I will never know what someone else is truly thinking, and sometimes when I look other people in the eye, I feel like I'm peering into some kind of soulless depths; it's chilling and frightening, and I have a hard time grasping the concept of a completely distinct 'other,' to whom I might appear equally esoteric. This is not to say that I'm disconnected from the world, or some kind of sociopath; rather, I just have a very hard time being happy, and the first thing I ever notice in any thing is its most depressing qualities.
Now this might be a first world syndrome of upper middle-class suburbia, or it could be symptomatic of a larger, underlying psychological distress, but I'm afraid that I will listlessly traverse my lifetime with the same passionless and uninspired demeanor with which I regard my current situation. Oh, and another thing is that I get really caught up in my intellectualism, which is indicated by the shifts in tone evident throughout this post itself.
should try meditation, I use to have alot of inner dialogue....It helped. But never knowing what someone is thinking.. how do u mean.. in like a paranoia sort of way? or just in general? people really aren't that complicated, you can get a strong idea what they're thinking with their body language.
A few years ago I was in a relationship with this cute girl I met at church, we found each other after a few year's separation over Facebook, everything was going swimmingly until I tripped out on weed brownies during a phone call with her and told her to call 911 because I thought I was having a heartattack. An ambulance was actually called but thankfully they didn't take it seriously and just made a follow up call to me to confirm whether an ambulance was actually required and by that time I had calmed down. To this day I can't think back on it without cringing.
I really want to get a girlfriend and I have had many girls talk to me, I'm just too afraid to ask them out in the fear of rejection. I realize they wouldn't be talking to me if they weren't interested, but still I always go limp at the last second. Maybe someday I will overcome this.
On July 19 2011 15:08 PerkyPenguin wrote: I really want to get a girlfriend and I have had many girls talk to me, I'm just too afraid to ask them out in the fear of rejection. I realize they wouldn't be talking to me if they weren't interested, but still I always go limp at the last second. Maybe someday I will overcome this.
First of all, a girl talking to you doesn't mean anything. And to help get over your nerves don't go right for the relationships, just ask a girl to keep you company while you get coffee in the morning or go to buy some headphones or something. Even go with a group
My confession: I have a door to the outside from my room and sometimes when I'm lazy, its late at night, and nature calls I saunter out and take a leak in my front yard.
On July 19 2011 15:08 PerkyPenguin wrote: I really want to get a girlfriend and I have had many girls talk to me, I'm just too afraid to ask them out in the fear of rejection. I realize they wouldn't be talking to me if they weren't interested, but still I always go limp at the last second. Maybe someday I will overcome this.
Have no fear! The worst thing that could happen is that she says no but she'll still be willing to remain as friends more than likely. Don't have the concern to be rejected it happens to everyone it's just a part of life.
Edit: Confession: I can never make up my mind on things even if it's something important like picking classes for the next school term. T.T
On May 29 2011 10:10 killa_robot wrote: Nearly everyone I have ever known has at one point asked me if I was gay, since I show little interest in actually dating girls (though I am straight).
I've been avoiding getting my license for 5 years, mainly because when I get behind the wheel I don't trust myself to not get carried away and start speeding/joy riding.
I used to over-analyze people when I talked to them when I was younger, as such I noticed they rarely actually cared about me and were more into talking about themselves so I tended to not talk about myself and in the end never got too close to anyone. Later in life now I just genuinely can't trust that people actually care about me and so am pretty distanced from everyone.
Sometimes when I listen to music I hear my name being called (it's faint but I notice it), but whenever I stop the music to see if someone is calling me no one is.
I have plenty of dreams and ambitions, yet I can't find the confidence to start most projects or tell anyone about any of them. My most achievable one is to go to Japan (I'm teaching myself Japanese right now) for about a year, and even though the university I'm going to go to in Sept offers Japanese courses (without it I doubt I'll actually learn enough to speak it properly) I find myself too embarrassed to admit I actually wanted to learn it and I fear I might get scared and miss the chance.
I always feel judged, as such I rarely express my true feelings/interests.
And now after reading all my confessions (and sadly this isn't all) I feel depressed at how pathetic I seem...
Haha I can relate to everything U've said. Ive even had gay people hit on me, which turned realllllly awkward, though my conquest in the lady department is mostly a failure caused by incompatence rather then lack of interest. Im 28 and havent gotten my licence either, aint planning on getting it. hallucinations CHECK, failed goals CHECK.. but this is pretty shallow compared to the debts of my shame
Holy shit where should i start? forgive me father i have sinned?
Well I remember one time when i was supposed to take the buss home blackout drunk, when I instead antagonized a fight with a homeless guy, waking up in a loooong ass tunnel, outside an airport, like 2 hours opposite the direction I was supposed to go, losing my baggage and portable computer.
One time I woke up in a mall blackout drunk, inside a locked gate, with a sprained hand and no shoes. A guy locked me out in the morning, like it was the most normal thing in the world, and I had to walk to my girlfriends house in the winter and got a fever in the process.
Every single conversation with the Musicians I worship, has been such a awkward moment where I say stuff thats totally retarded. like I remember standing right next to Tom G Warrior badmouthing him while he stood right behind me, it was sort of hilarious at the time, but so fucking retarded.
Used to mix alchol with headache pills when I wasnt old enough to buy alchol in the store. Damn retarded, anything to get drunk
Shitloads of pointless damaging of property, smashing windows with my head and fist and stuff.
I once peed onto a window at a christian prayer house thing while i was drunk, not noticing that there people watching me inside, kids and stuff
I once stole a sheeps head from a mayhem concert out on the town, covered in blood and stench, getting thrown out everywhere, from bars and gass stations.
Being carried back to my quarters by a huge dude on a cruise ship, after being drunk and messing up a bingo game for old people.
Walking over to a table with lots of chicks to try and pick them up, only to sit down with them and fall asleep
Carving my arm pretty bad and deep with a bread knife in a party one time
Almost drove over an old couple on my moped, in a quick decision to do a jump
I've lost interest in girls(im a guy) who aren't on my computer screen. I think it might have to do with my last relationship: + Show Spoiler +
I'm 17 just now, gonna turn 18 in Sept 2011 this fall while in college. I have been in an on and off relationship with a girl for 3 years. It's been over for 6 months thankfully, and i've gotten over the pain(unlike a close friend who is going through the same thing now, but that's unrelated). about halfway throgh the 3 years in one of our longer on-stints, she came out and told me she was bi, and liked girls. I didn't really care, so long as it didnt affect teh relationship between her and myself. Fast forward through a few mini-breakups and back-togethers, she tells me that she's a lesbian, and that i'm basically keeping her from being her own girl. We still 'love' each other at this point, but since it's a long-distance thing, we finally agree to to have her talk to her dad about it, to see about a potential visit. no meant no, apparently, even though we had hid our relationship(s) for 3 years, so we had to break up. Later that night, she has sex with some girl, which is technically fine, but she wanted me to know for some reason. a few weeks later, she's slept with two other girls and is having relationship problems, and wants me to help. 'i still want to be friends' my ass. Now, she and i don't talk to each other at all, but, i'm kind of glad for it. I just feel so fucking useless and unwanted, and in general, i dont want to fucking go through that shit again. I dont want to be back on antidepressants like i have been since middle of junior year in high school up until a few months ago(makes me feel somewhat better that i dont need them anymore, but w/e). I just feel so fucking disinterested in dating chicks, or even (real)sex. Because then i would have to deal with feelings again.
BRB, reposting this in the 'letting off steam' thread.
I'm finally starting to enjoy Kpop due to the ridiculous amount of it around the ESPORTS scene. I don't know how to feel about this. My past self would slap myself in the face.
On July 19 2011 15:08 PerkyPenguin wrote: I really want to get a girlfriend and I have had many girls talk to me, I'm just too afraid to ask them out in the fear of rejection. I realize they wouldn't be talking to me if they weren't interested, but still I always go limp at the last second. Maybe someday I will overcome this.
Have no fear! The worst thing that could happen is that she says no but she'll still be willing to remain as friends more than likely. Don't have the concern to be rejected it happens to everyone it's just a part of life.
Edit: Confession: I can never make up my mind on things even if it's something important like picking classes for the next school term. T.T
This is a zero loss scenario. You had no dates with these girls before you asked and if you get rejected nothing is lost. You have absolutely nothing to lose and everything to gain. Don't think that right now you have potential dates you are losing because you asked incorrectly or at the incorrect time. The fact of the matter is that if you hold girls in your head waiting to ask them out you lose potential with other girls because you wont be noticing them as much. Just move on if you get rejected and ask more girls out. It is about massing not efficiency. (the ratio of rejection to acceptance is unimportant, if I asked out 50 girls and got 10 dates that's still better than if you asked out three and got 1)
I have an inner monologue and my head often feels overwhelmed and cluttered. I plan to begin meditating using combat breathing techniques. (breathe in for 4 seconds. hold for 4 seconds. breathe out for 4 seconds. wait for 4 seconds.)
When I was 10yr old I stole one of my best friend's pokemon card. It was a holographic 1st edition Blastoise. I still have that card to the day. He never once brought it up or asked me if I knew where his card was. Still to this day thats the only thing I've ever stolen and it still bothers me, I'm now almost 21.
I would've gave it back to him since then but I've moved away and now I'm like 1400miles away and I don't know how to get in contact with him or where he lives anymore.
Maybe this is the right time to mail it to him randomly with a "I'm sorry" letter.
On a related note my friend and I after seeing Hotel Rwanda in our world class (after finals so nothing left to do) just kept saying "Hutu power!" in a bad accent and talking about how we're both going to hell for it.
On a related note, I watched American History X together with a friend in a bar back when it just came out. Everyone else in the bar was black, and we especially enjoyed the racist parts, giggling like little girls. Afterwards I drew a swastika on my chest with a black marker for laughs.
I bought my ex a Rabbit Vibrator for Valentines day (she and I talked about it), and then a week later she broke up with me and I never got to see it get used. (It was long distance)
On July 19 2011 17:46 Syben wrote: I bought my ex a Rabbit Vibrator for Valentines day (she and I talked about it), and then a week later she broke up with me and I never got to see it get used. (It was long distance)
you should call her up and ask for it back, then you'll know
My wife betrayed me and I had her back, but now I want to leave her and start over with my life.
Still, I don't have the balls to do it, because I still love her and I just don't want to face her familly and the shitstorm that will occur if I ever leave her.
I once had a dream that I dropped multiple Nuclear Bombs on the Human Race. The look, colors, and feel of the dream seemed so real. After we dropped these bombs we went back with a Helicopter and did a fly overs. The site of the people scattering, panicking, and destruction was unbelievable. I however did not feel bad about what happened but the dream ended with me outing myself with a 9mm. I also have HPV(born with it I have a slut mother and an idiot father) and have spread that virus to a few people. I regret even making friends and wish I was never born. Everyday I contemplate suicide, but I'm too much of a pussy to do it. And that's a wrap.
After reading all the posts before I'm compelled to also give a confession (Stupid peer pressure):
A few weeks ago, while hanging out at my bestfriends house, she randomly asked if i wanted to have sex with her. I couldn't tell if she was being sarcastic or serious.I played if off as if she was trying to be funny. If she was being serious that I will never know because im too scared to ask her about it.
I can make anybody laugh, but often at the expense of me making fun of them in the process, which i REALLY hate. Makes me feel bad (im a nice guy and that eariler post about nice guys = single because of it is 100% correct)
I purposely broke my dual-boot gaming computer because i can't stand how the illegal copy of w7 makes the computer lag alot (i can't play sc on it anymore because i'm pretty sure the comp was overclocked when i got it...my brother insisted of putting zillions of fans it in, so im thinking playing sc like 12hr a day made it overheat and killed it...)
I dropped out of highschool in 9th grade because I got tired of being smarter than the teachers (my iq is 138), and trying soo hard to get a girl, but her always seeming to be right out of arms grasp. now when i see her, i see she hangs out with all the stoners and im soo disappointed in myself because i didn't try hard enough. I wish now i hadn't dropped out. staying at home doing nothing is alot less fun than doing school work, however soporific it might seem.
On July 19 2011 19:24 iTzSnypah wrote: I purposely broke my dual-boot gaming computer because i can't stand how the illegal copy of w7 makes the computer lag alot (i can't play sc on it anymore because i'm pretty sure the comp was overclocked when i got it...my brother insisted of putting zillions of fans it in, so im thinking playing sc like 12hr a day made it overheat and killed it...)
You should realize an illegal copy of w7 won't make your computer lag. What you installed after w7 probably does tho.... If you had killed it it wouldn't lag, it just wouldn't work. If there was lots of fans how could it overheat?
Look at your tentacle pron collection and the zillion of virus/botnet you installed while downloading it. Or if you can't figure it out, format c:
On July 19 2011 18:09 WhiteDog wrote: My wife betrayed me and I had her back, but now I want to leave her and start over with my life.
Still, I don't have the balls to do it, because I still love her and I just don't want to face her familly and the shitstorm that will occur if I ever leave her.
Don't leave her man, just be happy with her and have a few kids, everything will be so much easier
On July 19 2011 17:17 Zooper31 wrote: When I was 10yr old I stole one of my best friend's pokemon card. It was a holographic 1st edition Blastoise. I still have that card to the day. He never once brought it up or asked me if I knew where his card was. Still to this day thats the only thing I've ever stolen and it still bothers me, I'm now almost 21.
I would've gave it back to him since then but I've moved away and now I'm like 1400miles away and I don't know how to get in contact with him or where he lives anymore.
Maybe this is the right time to mail it to him randomly with a "I'm sorry" letter.
You should really do it and post it on reddit for unfinite Karma !
On July 19 2011 18:09 WhiteDog wrote: My wife betrayed me and I had her back, but now I want to leave her and start over with my life.
Still, I don't have the balls to do it, because I still love her and I just don't want to face her familly and the shitstorm that will occur if I ever leave her.
Don't leave her man, just be happy with her and have a few kids, everything will be so much easier
That's what I tell myself when I'm normal. But the rest of the time... You know when you've been betrayed, things are different.
i had amnesia at age 20 and forget most of my life
That's sick, do you tried to do anything to understand your own situation ? I remember almost nothing about mychildhood, I've heard it is common for some people but never tried to understand why.
I hate the human race, I secretly want to remove 50% of this population. The "political" and "financial" system we are in make me want to puke everytime I think about it. I hate money and don't want to become a money-whore like anyone else. I love animals and want universal JUSTICE. I hate life here, but I'm never gonna commit suicide. I want to have meaningfull life and I want the earth to not look like the same when I'll die. I made a plan for the 30 next years to come. I'm gonna to fuck this world so hard.
On July 19 2011 23:14 Thereisnosaurus wrote: I would totally turn gay for felix riebl. not sure about others. Maybe MKP, but I'm not sure that makes me gay...
What about NPH
I for some reason spit in the sink before I wash my hands.
I don't know why and its not really dirty because we don't use the sink for anything other then washing our hands and dumping dishes, I still look around if people saw when there is anywhere near though.
I don't think I feel very strongly about anything politically or religiously. edit: maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I feel pretty strongly against totalitarianism.
On July 19 2011 23:34 Diks wrote: I hate the human race, I secretly want to remove 50% of this population. The "political" and "financial" system we are in make me want to puke everytime I think about it. I hate money and don't want to become a money-whore like anyone else. I love animals and want universal JUSTICE. I hate life here, but I'm never gonna commit suicide. I want to have meaningfull life and I want the earth to not look like the same when I'll die. I made a plan for the 30 next years to come. I'm gonna to fuck this world so hard.
same here some how I always secretly desired to break into a jail to kill all the criminals
I am basically crazy about a girl who has never wanted anything but a friendship from me. She got into a tight spot moneywise, so I offered to let her to stay with me. She's moving in right now. Pretty much a deathtrap for anything other than the friendship.
I've been a total slacker for years. If I don't get my act together and start working I will be kicked out of uni with a massive debt and no degree. For some reason though, I cannot get motivated. I'm kinda scared.
I wish I wasn't so ignorant and conceded sometimes.
I always try to keep the fact that there is always someone bigger and better than you at something, yet I seem to hold on to the idea that I am unstoppable in some things...
On August 14 2011 08:35 Cloud9157 wrote: I wish I wasn't so ignorant and conceded sometimes.
I always try to keep the fact that there is always someone bigger and better than you at something, yet I seem to hold on to the idea that I am unstoppable in some things...
Bleh, I hate when I act like that.
When people make spelling mistakes on the internet I immediately ignore what they're saying. It's a problem.
I've been in love with a Korean girl in my school for the past 6 months , I've admired her from afar and never got the courage to ask her out or even have a normal conversation. Last week in class I went to go talk to another Korean girl for a little bit , and from the corner of my eye I saw that she kept glancing at me . I feel horrible but I'm too less of a man to go and actually go talk to her.
In the end I know she could be mine but I just cant do it
I get sad, anxious and insecure just like everyone else. I am depressed sometimes but thank god there is someone there for me. My greatest fear is that he is going to leave me soon just as everyone else before in my life.
On July 19 2011 23:34 Diks wrote: I hate the human race, I secretly want to remove 50% of this population. The "political" and "financial" system we are in make me want to puke everytime I think about it. I hate money and don't want to become a money-whore like anyone else. I love animals and want universal JUSTICE. I hate life here, but I'm never gonna commit suicide. I want to have meaningfull life and I want the earth to not look like the same when I'll die. I made a plan for the 30 next years to come. I'm gonna to fuck this world so hard.
On July 19 2011 23:34 Diks wrote: I hate the human race, I secretly want to remove 50% of this population. The "political" and "financial" system we are in make me want to puke everytime I think about it. I hate money and don't want to become a money-whore like anyone else. I love animals and want universal JUSTICE. I hate life here, but I'm never gonna commit suicide. I want to have meaningfull life and I want the earth to not look like the same when I'll die. I made a plan for the 30 next years to come. I'm gonna to fuck this world so hard.
You spoke everything that goes through my mind at least twice a day. Well said.
On August 14 2011 10:22 JingleHell wrote: I'm an asshole. Ask anyone. But I'm fairly proficient at it, and don't consider it a bad thing. It's just a fact.
Cheers to that! Nothing wrong with it I always say !
On August 14 2011 08:26 2stra wrote: I've been a total slacker for years. If I don't get my act together and start working I will be kicked out of uni with a massive debt and no degree. For some reason though, I cannot get motivated. I'm kinda scared.
On August 14 2011 08:26 2stra wrote: I've been a total slacker for years. If I don't get my act together and start working I will be kicked out of uni with a massive debt and no degree. For some reason though, I cannot get motivated. I'm kinda scared.
seconded
this is what i might have written 8 years ago. life doesnt get any better and you dont get any more motivated for a long long time. you will be stuck at a dead end job and feel like shit for the next 8 years and onwards, leaving you with little self confidence and lacking any sort of personal or enviable skill.
On August 16 2011 11:09 leperphilliac wrote: I work in SF, every day I think of walking a few minutes north to the golden gate bridge to kill myself. Also, i'm completely incompetent at everything and anything I do.
Some people don't die when they jump off the golden gate bridge. Often their survival instincts kick in and they try to land feet first. This results in them shattering every bone in their legs but still surviving. Then the tides are what kill them... that is if the coast guard doesn't rescue them.
Sometimes people gain a newfound respect for living, though there was a guy that jumped off again.
When I was a kid, I killed a baby goose, by throwing it into a river over and over until it didn't have the energy to swim back (I didn't realize that this might happen, it was so much fun watching him swim to shore... I didn't have any pets in America so I felt like he was my little pet...). I cried for days and have never forgiven myself, and I still get teary when I see baby geese (which are common as dirt in my area). If I could choose one moment in my life to start over from, it would be that day, just so I could NOT do what I did. I'm sorry baby goose, I'm so so sorry...
All I care about is money, sex, and myself. I do not like other people. I do not like friends unless they get me what I want or entertain me. I do not care that others are starving while I over eat and complain about being full. I still complain that I don't have enough money or can't buy something despite knowing the truth about third world countries.
I am a loser and I know it. I wish it wasn't true but I won't let myself change.
On August 16 2011 11:45 Fortis wrote: When I was a kid, I killed a baby goose, by throwing it into a river over and over until it didn't have the energy to swim back (I didn't realize that this might happen, it was so much fun watching him swim to shore... I didn't have any pets in America so I felt like he was my little pet...). I cried for days and have never forgiven myself, and I still get teary when I see baby geese (which are common as dirt in my area). If I could choose one moment in my life to start over from, it would be that day, just so I could NOT do what I did. I'm sorry baby goose, I'm so so sorry...
On August 16 2011 11:45 Fortis wrote: When I was a kid, I killed a baby goose, by throwing it into a river over and over until it didn't have the energy to swim back (I didn't realize that this might happen, it was so much fun watching him swim to shore... I didn't have any pets in America so I felt like he was my little pet...). I cried for days and have never forgiven myself, and I still get teary when I see baby geese (which are common as dirt in my area). If I could choose one moment in my life to start over from, it would be that day, just so I could NOT do what I did. I'm sorry baby goose, I'm so so sorry...
;-;
Awwwwww. LOOOOOL.
I didn't have any pets growing up, but one day I found a turtle wandering in the back yard. I named him Sammy and kept him in one of those plastic milk crates. He never ate his food (which was just fruit scraps or something), so my parents decided to release him back into the "wild". We released him in some pond in a park, and I don't think I ever cried so much as a kid. I have a corgi now, so things are better
On August 16 2011 11:45 Fortis wrote: When I was a kid, I killed a baby goose, by throwing it into a river over and over until it didn't have the energy to swim back (I didn't realize that this might happen, it was so much fun watching him swim to shore... I didn't have any pets in America so I felt like he was my little pet...). I cried for days and have never forgiven myself, and I still get teary when I see baby geese (which are common as dirt in my area). If I could choose one moment in my life to start over from, it would be that day, just so I could NOT do what I did. I'm sorry baby goose, I'm so so sorry...
;-;
Awwwwww. LOOOOOL.
It's not funny ): ... I sat for a minute or two crying before I hit post because I was too ashamed to post it, and that's why I wrote the ;-; at the end. That baby goose is the only reason I have cried in the past 2 years at the very least. I now treat all non-parasitic animals with utmost respect, and take good care of my pets ^^; This is how I try to atone....
As a kid I did a lot of things without thinking at all about what would happen when I did them. I think the best example of that is when I was 12 years old I picked up the little toy bow I used all the time to shoot rubber arrows at windows and targets and stuff. The only arrow I could find to play with was one that had the rubber suction cup broken off so it was just a sharp broken plastic tip. Thinking that I wasn't going to even have a chance of hitting him I sent my little brother who was 7 at the time to run around in the backyard like a deer at a distance of about 30 feet. Well... I hit him. Hard enough to impale his back with the arrow and fall face down on the grass motionless. I was so stunned all I could think to do was drop the bow and run across the street to hide. I feel kinda bad.. but it we laugh about it now.
I worked as a painter painting houses all last summer. I was 20 at the time... I'm in school studying physics currently and like to pride myself on my maturity on various subjects pertaining to current events, politics, science and all things worldly.
It was a monday, and my sleep schedule was a tad screwed up resulting in me only getting about 3 hours of sleep before work.
My good friend and I decided to head to walgreens to pick up some drinks before we painted.
While we were standing in line, this 70 year old midget woman walked up behind my friend waiting in line. My friend is 6'4, and this woman was maybe 4 feet tall. She looked like chucky. Just seeing these two stand next to each other... I don't know what got into my head, or what caused this intense feeling inside, but I had the most intense urge to laugh I've had in a while. I played it off like I was coughing pretty well in the store..
As soon as we got outside I was in tears laughing until I wanted to throw up. My friend had no clue why I was laughing because he never even saw her, but when I told him what I had just seen, he started laughing until the tears came too.
It's weird, those real laughs, the ones where you start crying... are contagious.
I really dont think im going anywhere in life, i work 4-5 days a week for 3 hrs, im 19 and still live with my parents, i failed social 30-2 and gym-20, ( even tho i was really fit in highschool) all i do is sit in my room.. read forums.. work.. sleep... good life eh?... fuck
On August 16 2011 11:45 Fortis wrote: When I was a kid, I killed a baby goose, by throwing it into a river over and over until it didn't have the energy to swim back (I didn't realize that this might happen, it was so much fun watching him swim to shore... I didn't have any pets in America so I felt like he was my little pet...). I cried for days and have never forgiven myself, and I still get teary when I see baby geese (which are common as dirt in my area). If I could choose one moment in my life to start over from, it would be that day, just so I could NOT do what I did. I'm sorry baby goose, I'm so so sorry...
;-;
That's so fucking sad man.. I feel like im going to cry
On August 16 2011 14:38 OscarN wrote: I really dont think im going anywhere in life, i work 4-5 days a week for 3 hrs, im 19 and still live with my parents, i failed social 30-2 and gym-20, ( even tho i was really fit in highschool) all i do is sit in my room.. read forums.. work.. sleep... good life eh?... fuck
I suggest finding someone that needs help and serving them. Maybe volunteer somewhere? Helping others always makes you happy.
Whenever I am vacuuming, I get a huge thrill when I get a messy area and feel the trash go up into the vacuum. It is almost like an addiction now...I have never been so happy when it came to vacuuming a messy house.
I'm 22. I broke up with my gf (love of my life) of 4 years so that I could go to graduate school and focus solely on science. It would have been ok, except I did it in the worst way possible. I wanted to talk to her in person and tell her how important this was to me but I was on vacation when she finally emailed me. Instead of being honest, I told her I cheated on her and that we should break up because I was a terrible guy. Lost my best friend and my greatest love forever. At least I still have my science.
On February 25 2011 02:37 Vore210 wrote: People bore me. They just do. I barely bother to reply to texts, any schools/placed i've been for long periods of time once I leave I almost never speak to any of them ever again. Same goes for games i've played in the past and people i've known in them.
I seem to be liked (I tend to get somewhat popular if I put an effort into hanging around people), but I don't feel I get as much out of other people as they do of me. Long list of people i've thrown by the wayside without a moments regret.
Wonder sometimes if i'm losing my humanity, but I don't particularly care. And i'm not depressed, i'm actually quite happy. Don't know if im unique or not but I know i'm pretty strange.
I feel the same way sometimes, bro.
same thing. the fucking conversations people have are just so fucking stupid i cant deal with it. guess were anti social or something? was real popular in high school though/
On August 16 2011 14:50 Hoban wrote: I'm 22. I broke up with my gf (love of my life) of 4 years so that I could go to graduate school and focus solely on science. It would have been ok, except I did it in the worst way possible. I wanted to talk to her in person and tell her how important this was to me but I was on vacation when she finally emailed me. Instead of being honest, I told her I cheated on her and that we should break up because I was a terrible guy. Lost my best friend and my greatest love forever. At least I still have my science.
lol man that is fucked up and shitty. I'm sure you could probably get her back if you wanted to... if you're willing to share science. ;p
1) I read all posts on this thread. Conclusion, few people had to talk about being gay, alot of people cheat, one girl came here to tell this guy to fuck off... How romantic. And the rest of the poeple have some kind of shame about their personality of something they did.
2) It's my turn bitches, I've been single for 4 years. Since then my life has degraded on a personal level. I left all my friends and move away. Ever since then i've been a hardcore gamer, i use it as a form of escapism. I had sex with 5 girls since, all of them were far less attractive then my ex, making me feel like i've downgraded.
3) I smoke weed everyday, I smoke tabacco. I can't stand it when I go to bed. When I wake up, I feel the need to smoke and do it. I bought a gym membership for the second time this year, and have gone for a grand total of 4 times. 6 months paid all together... The sad part is I used to be in great shape, but WoW has ruined my diet and fitness I lost over 20 pounds since 2007. The most sad part is I have a body designed to be top of the line, I have so much motivation but I bury it with weed.. I stopped smoking for 3 months and coudn't stand the life I was in.. So I Started smoking again to feel less motivated and satisfied with my lazy lifestyle.
My room is rarely clean, it's so bad last week-end I had to clean it because fruit flies were landing on my face while I was sitting in front of my monitor. I leave cans lying around for months, I have had ash all over my desk with cigarette butts scattered around the ashtray. Everytime I stop to look at my life I feel this urge to change. This overwhelming urge, but I never had discipline so one distraction and I go back into my routine.
The worst part, is I'm almost happy. I'm not sad, I feel like there is always reason to remain positive. I tell myself the future will satisfy my inner desire to be fullfilled and fully proud of myself. But I don't act on it, and haven't for a decade.
I've always been the type of person where 1 piece of the puzzle leads to more pieces more rapidly. But in this scenario I feel like the first piece of the puzzle is not being a smoker anymore. Smoking makes me want to buy weed, weed kills all my time and motivation...
4) I actually wish I had a girlfriend sometimes. All the things I tell myself I need to do I neglect. I tell myself, work out, eat properly, stop fucking staying up too late. The bags under my eyes are a syndrome of gaming. The worst part is I'm actually a great gamer I was doing infestor play in beta times. I've accomplished things in games because of my talent at understanding, reacting, and creativity. For example, in 3v3 arena WoW I defeated most of the top 10 teams on the ladder when I played. I play this java browser game, it's considered the most popular web browser game for several years in a row. (Ogame.fr) by gameforge Last summer I registered for a new account randomly, I told myself I would play a few months. Lose all my ships because I woudn't fleet save while I sleep. As things progressed, I was in the best "alliance" in universe Io. After 11 months of playing, raiding frenchies, I built my account to rank 2. I decided finally to stop playing, I activated Vacation mode and account deletion. It takes 7 days for the account to delete itself. During those seven days, rank 1 player was backstabbed with false information and turned into a 1v5 combat... Leaving me as the new rank1... So I decided to continue playing casually. I really like this game, but I'm afraid that If I keep playing, a few years down the line I will want to quit, and will regret not quitting earlier. Playing games that take up time really impact you're productivity, it's clear that in my life games are my priority. When I get bored of playing Starcraft, I log in to Global Agenda a newer game I just picked up, then I alternate with anno1404 dawn of discovery, and off course while having ogame open on my web browser.
The thing is, even If I had more time during the day. Between work, video games. It feels like I'm failling at giving myself attention. I don't even care that much about my virtual accounts, but I can't help but maintain them properly because of the way I am. In life, I always felt like you have to manage you're time properly. Invest time where it will pay off. My last relationship was actually ruined because I spent too much time on my virtual accounts... For years these games were the sources of my torture but my device for avoiding them. The irony I create is astounding. I want to evolve myself, but I feel stuck in my routine.
The day my ex-Girlfriend dumped me. Was the first time since I had been with her, where I actually stopped 100% what I was doing in WoW. And payed attention to our conversation.
I'm kind of afraid that I can't control myself around video game. I don't think badly of video games, I just wish I had more self control overall as a person. It would greatly help me in life, moderating the things I enjoy with the things that make me happy but are tasking.
5) I wish I was in university right now. I have a job, but it's grown stale. My company is international, we hosted the tele-conference for the NFLPA the day they brokered a deal. Apparently they were yelling alot.(Global Crossing) I wish I was in university because everyday I pass by Metro-McGill and I see a few straight hotties. The last time I went in a social situation where I met people, I ended up in bed with a girl drunk as hell. She came to my place, took her clothes off before anything and just violated me. Too be honest, i'm pretty good looking so I hope no one sees me as complaining about not having a girl in my life. I'm actually extremely fortunate when it comes to sex life, but I don't think of sex. Too me sex is just plain without feelings. I'm looking for a relationship, but my lifestyle makes me feel shaky about it. As a younger kid, you know. Girls don't pay much attention to anything but you're looks and how you talk. But at my age (23) I feel like I should be more then I am right now to have the type of girl I want.
Anyways. I've been building these feelings up for quite sometime. Everyday is the potential break-out i've been looking for. I just gotta mentaly win over myself to change!
If anyone read this post here's my last comment. (I only post on t-liquid during work hours, I just killed my whole downtime this afternoon on this thread) That's right corporate America. Thanks for sponsering my team liquid posts!
The room I used to have a while ago is the dirtiest you'll ever see.
I had it for two years, and it was a tiny room in Northern Seoul -- literally just a bed and a desk, and a clothes hanger in the corner. For the first year or so, it wasn't that dirty, but then it just spiraled out of control when I stopped caring.
It got so bad the only space not covered in trash, clothes, and random purchases was a small space on the bed I could sleep in curled up. The trash, clothes, etc. built a huge mountain on top of the bed, and the small bit of distance between the door and the bed was an obstacle course. The only things I ever managed to keep in top shape and easily findable in there were my laptop and my cell phone, and only because they're the only two items I really gave a fuck about.
When I went back home over the summer vacation, I ditched the room, and left my old land lady to clean up the mess. When I told her I would leave, I even lied to her and told her I would leave much later than I really did so she wouldn't make me clean it. So I pretty much stranded her with a room that was this dirty and messy so I wouldn't have to clean it on purpose, and when I go back to Korea next week I'm moving into a new room in a district 45 minutes away.
If that sounds messed-up, well it is. I cannot even begin to explain what it was with me and that room. I wanted to clean, and yet I couldn't (it was like I just couldn't get over my extreme unwillingness to get up and do it). And that's even though, I shit you not, I regularly had nightmares about someone else walking into my room, seeing the mess, and judging me for it. I felt dirty living there, I hated the room with a passion, I felt like less of a valuable human being for living in filth -- and yet I never changed it.
The funniest thing is that I kept my clothes relatively neat, showered regularly, and kept up a GPA of 3.8. I also don't drink or do drugs, except for caffeine. For all intents and purposes, I am not someone you would expect to live like that. Yet I did.
I feel deeply ashamed of it. To this day, I sometimes have nightmares about people I love and respect breaking into my room and judging me as a sloth. ;___; And yet, this complete revulsion for actually fucking cleaning for once. I do not understand it.
Edit: And just to make this all sound worse, I am actually a girl. I'd never hear the end of it if my Korean-born mother knew about any of this (along with a pity fest for the poor sob who'll marry me).
When people help out a mentally challenged kid or someone they think is socially awkward, I generally think that they are being insincere and only do it to look good in front of others or for selfish reasons.
1. I think confession threads in TL are the best thing I have read in this forum... so much emotional stuff ( Too bad they closed the one-line confessions thread ) I enjoy reading these threads and read every single one of the posts.
dont read the following text if you dont like reading retarded shit...
2. I fear that I will never fall in love again in my life. Still stuck having feelings for a girl for 7 years now, and I will probably never see her again. The only time I see her is in my dreams and on facebook. I had a feeling I could be able to forget her if I don't think about her for 6 months, and I tried my best, didn't open her profile at all and tried to lie to myself that I didn't care. It is obvious that the best course of action is to forget about her, but man it is very hard. I guess she will always be the one, just like the one girl that almost every man has in his life. The one girl that he can't have. Man I try to be a perfect person in every way, but she is my weakness. I've been debating a couple of times to delete her from facebook and block her so I cant see her, but man I know that If I do that there is no turning back and I will probably throw myself out the window. Man I can't believe I'm writing this shit in this forum... but I guess im not the only one, many people come here to confess their souls haha. The sad part really is that I will probably not see her again ... When she was in high school with me, man I acted retarded and really did have no clue on what women want, now a couple of years later I know how foolish and stupid I was..... I reject every single women that comes near me, always thinking about the "love of my life". I really dont like to brag, but objectively speaking im very close to a perfect man right now. Whatever, but I always beg for one more chance. Even though she lives in a different country and comes back for a couple of days an year and I know I wont get to see her, I dream of a life together with her. In my eyes, she is the perfect woman, even though objectively many of my friends always make fun of me and ask me "Why did you choose one of the ugliest girls to fall in love with"... Every day I remember a different story with her and try to recall all the mistakes that I did, so I can never repeat them again. Anyways I can't have her, and maybe that's why I want her. Smart people go for the hard stuff, go for the challenge. I am also afraid that if in the 0,00000001% chance that something happens between us in the upcoming years, when I finally understand that she is mine, then I will suddenly lose interest in her... Im a very competitive person and I always look for a challenge. There are some good points about my feelings for her. Being "in love" gives me a great motivation for living, for success. It gives me a spark in my soul that helps me move on, and doing everything for a purpose, even though ultimately that purpose is stupid( It's her) ... Maybe it will be cool if I fall in love again with another woman, so atleast there is some sense in all my actions reasons and motivations. I hope so.... But im telling you all, she is the one... the one that is always the woman that you think about when you hear the word love, the one that you hear about in many movies and books. Damn what did I just write.. Im half-drunk, but I just need a friend to share this all to. Im not sharing this with my friends because this shit is fucking retarded and I dont want to burden them with listening to this. I dont know man, but she is all I think about... Im not sure if i want to forget her...
P.S. Im a very high masters random player and I play very little... for the small amount of games I have i consider myself very good... my friends think im god when they see me playing with 160-170 apm I know that If i wanted to I can become really good, but honestly it's not worth it do waste 7-8 hours of my life per day just to become a pro-gamer. Im 21 years old and I think im too old for this shit .. =) ... Man this post has gotten long maybe someone should delete it if you guys think its really stupid.. Sorry to the one person that reads my post because i have probably wasted his time. Sorry TL community
I wasn't attracted to my last girlfriend at all. I hooked up with her one day because I got bored, she became attached and I ended up dating her because I felt like I had to.
I'm in love with a girl at my job, and have been for 2 years. I've had a GF for 3 years who I love too. I don't know if I'll ever do anything with the girl, but my fear of being cheated on makes me wanna keep her as a backup plan. Because I'm super jealous of everything about my GF and can never put it to rest.
I also lie constantly even in this post lol, she's not a girl at my job at all actually. I try to get out of trouble due to lying but I just get deeper and deeper into it by doing so. And I don't learn shit.
Also I once strangled a guy in 8th grade, cause we were fighting "for fun" he passed out and fell on a TV stand on wheels which my teacher was moving. He hit the back of his head and it cracked open and blood gushed out. He had to get to the hospital and was eventually ok. I thought I killed him and felt like shit. I said I'm sorry and stopped hanging out with him.
On August 16 2011 14:38 OscarN wrote: I really dont think im going anywhere in life, i work 4-5 days a week for 3 hrs i'm pretending to write my thesis, im 19 25 and still live with my parents, i failed social 30-2 and gym-20, ( even tho i was really fit in highschool) all i do is sit in my room.. read forums.. pretend to work.. sleep... good life eh?... fuck
I seem to have first world problems, I am down and pessimistic for no real reason. :\ Don't really have motivation for stuff.
On August 16 2011 14:38 OscarN wrote: I really dont think im going anywhere in life, i work 4-5 days a week for 3 hrs, im 19 and still live with my parents, i failed social 30-2 and gym-20, ( even tho i was really fit in highschool) all i do is sit in my room.. read forums.. work.. sleep... good life eh?... fuck
Imo you should start by moving out from your parents. Own apartment(/or with other roommates) brings certain responsibilities and ALOT of new stuff.
Whenever I vote for a politician, I vote for whoever I think will add the most material for comedians. + Show Spoiler +
I have a few friends who make a living through stand-up. Since I have almost always thought all the choices were bad, I try to make the best of a terrible situation. Although I voted for Arnold Schwarzenegger because I actually like/trust him. Too many fond memories of him on Nickelodeon award and game shows.
I cry not only at sad parts of movies, but at sad parts of books too. + Show Spoiler +
I just finished The Hunger Games series, and could barely see the pages towards the end of the third one.
A long time ago me and 3 other friends pranked our other friend, One of us pissed in a Pepsi bottle and tricked our other friend into taking a sip. I felt SO bad after... It wasn't my idea and I wasn't the one who pissed in it but I felt so freaking bad cause he cried after, it was more Pepsi than pee but still we took a prank way too far.
We all swore never to tell anyone that we made him drink piss.
I fear that I won't ever do anything good. That I'll be too lazy and wallow in my own filth playing video games and surfing youtube whenever I have free time for the rest of my life.
I love my best friend's crush. I don't want to do because I'm sure she likes me in return. Also, it's my last few months and I promised myself I would get a girlfriend before I graduated. Needless to say, Im still failing that at this point.
I feel like I'm too lazy and I need to get off my ass more and focus more on work. I just don't know where to begin tho.
On August 19 2011 18:00 nihoh wrote: Anyone here gonna admit to visiting call girls? I wanna have a laugh...
ugh ok I'll bite. It was a long time ago, walking home with some friends after a night of drinking in the city centre.It was about 7am. We walked through one of the red light districts when one of my friends went in with a girl. Some other whore chatted me up using all her charms. So I decided to bite instead of waiting in the cold. 30 bucks for a blowjob. Inside I asked if she could take her top of, only if I payed for a combo, fuck and suck, she told me. So I forked over another 20 bucks, she puts a condom on and starts doing her thing. She was really good at it, I was afraid I was going to finish before the fucking part so I told her to move on to the next part. This is where she got kinda bitchy, she let me dick go soft again, concluded that we cannot have sex like this and kicked me out. That was the first and last time :D
so is this thread a honeypot for nuking people? and who would admit to illegal acts on here? I got a doozey of one thats apparently worse than murder, even thiough noone was actually harmed, but I'll only state it if asked.
I was once addicted to extacy to the point where I did it on a daily basis. I even lost my job and somehow scrounged any money I had to continue getting it. When I had room mates who would owe me money for hydro and rent, I'd pay with my credit card and get more because it was cash in my hand.
On March 06 2012 16:16 DeadCell wrote: I was once addicted to extacy to the point where I did it on a daily basis. I even lost my job and somehow scrounged any money I had to continue getting it. When I had room mates who would owe me money for hydro and rent, I'd pay with my credit card and get more because it was cash in my hand.
Cool story right...
Except the part where E isn't addictive so your story seems totally bogus
On March 06 2012 16:16 DeadCell wrote: I was once addicted to extacy to the point where I did it on a daily basis. I even lost my job and somehow scrounged any money I had to continue getting it. When I had room mates who would owe me money for hydro and rent, I'd pay with my credit card and get more because it was cash in my hand.
Cool story right...
Except the part where E isn't addictive so your story seems totally bogus
And the fact that it is a rather cheap drug.
Almost impossible to lose your money over. The average person could probably afford to keep himself high on XTC 24/7.
On March 06 2012 16:16 DeadCell wrote: I was once addicted to extacy to the point where I did it on a daily basis. I even lost my job and somehow scrounged any money I had to continue getting it. When I had room mates who would owe me money for hydro and rent, I'd pay with my credit card and get more because it was cash in my hand.
Cool story right...
Except the part where E isn't addictive so your story seems totally bogus
And the fact that it is a rather cheap drug.
Almost impossible to lose your money over. The average person could probably afford to keep himself high on XTC 24/7.
i'm not sure how much you know about what you're talking about but for sure you don't know much about mdma pricing in canada? where i'm from it costs 90-110€/g in crystal form (in user pricing, not wholesale obv) and obviously it's more expensive in "ecstacy" form eg. pills of uncertain content and quality.
what comes to mdma abuse it's the same as any other drug without physical addiction - there's no reason you couldn't get psychologically addicted to it. what also steps into the picture is mdma tolerance growing extremely quick because of the drug depleting your brain's serotonin reserves quite quickly and it taking unreasonably large doses to abuse what's remaining after even a short binge. that gets expensive.
drugs generally aren't hella dangerous, but few of them are safe if you're uneducated and naive about doing them
On March 06 2012 16:16 DeadCell wrote: I was once addicted to extacy to the point where I did it on a daily basis. I even lost my job and somehow scrounged any money I had to continue getting it. When I had room mates who would owe me money for hydro and rent, I'd pay with my credit card and get more because it was cash in my hand.
Cool story right...
Except the part where E isn't addictive so your story seems totally bogus
Sica is my main bias but I feel like that's not really true anymore sometimes and I am sorta holding onto that out of habit. I mean, Yuri is so cool and whenever I find myself hunting for her in perfs I feel like I am cheating on Sica. Is it possible for ones bias to change? I don't know, I just feel awful.
I sometimes wish to become a criminal. Crime pays, they say , at least in Italy
[Serious mode on, now] First thought: I'm addicted to computer. I don't know to who I should say that, because after all my parents are always out for work. I don't study much. I study law at university, and I like and enjoy it a lot, but I feel like I wanna get fun all the time.
I can't leave starcraft. I mean, everyday, my first thought is if some pro I like is streaming, and I will go watch it for countless hours.
I try to study but every time I try to do it, even a white wall will catch my attention; bah..
Second thought: Everytime I look at my friends I see how they are realized. I mean , they did something worth they are pride of. I'm proud of nothing, because actually I feel like a parasite in my family.
All the people around me, study, have a great social life. I do have one social life, but I feel sad sometimes because I don't have a girl. Nor that I never kissed one, I'm not in that abyss, luckily, but I was never able to concretize something with girls. I was said that ,my last "story" ,if so can be called, can be compared to one of these described by O.C, though I never watched the series.
Third thought: Sometimes I look around and I see people that enjoy the life like it is. Am I the only one that pretends his life to be better? I was said that being happy sometimes means that you are happy of what you have... But I seem not to be able to do so.
Fourth thought: Looking around me, when I leave home, I realise that people care nothing about other peoples. I saw more than once, brawl fights, accidents, and so on, and they never ended well. Sometimes I feel really vulnerable. In Italy justice doesn't work If someone will never murder me, he will never get the punishment he deserves. People with countless murders live in Italy without having any problems at all, and a citizen like me feel powerless towards the attitude of judges that do like they want.
Last thought: I'm 19 and sometimes I think I will never be complete in my life. I know only few people worth living for (family, some friends), but I don't think I'll never be realized in my life, and sometimes this thought makes me sad..
On March 06 2012 21:13 Sergio1992 wrote: I sometimes wish to become a criminal. Crime pays, they say , at least in Italy
[Serious mode on, now] First thought: I'm addicted to computer. I don't know to who I should say that, because after all my parents are always out for work. I don't study much. I study law at university, and I like and enjoy it a lot, but I feel like I wanna get fun all the time.
I can't leave starcraft. I mean, everyday, my first thought is if some pro I like is streaming, and I will go watch it for countless hours.
I try to study but every time I try to do it, even a white wall will catch my attention; bah..
Second thought: Everytime I look at my friends I see how they are realized. I mean , they did something worth they are pride of. I'm proud of nothing, because actually I feel like a parasite in my family.
All the people around me, study, have a great social life. I do have one social life, but I feel sad sometimes because I don't have a girl. Nor that I never kissed one, I'm not in that abyss, luckily, but I was never able to concretize something with girls. I was said that ,my last "story" ,if so can be called, can be compared to one of these described by O.C, though I never watched the series.
Third thought: Sometimes I look around and I see people that enjoy the life like it is. Am I the only one that pretends his life to be better? I was said that being happy sometimes means that you are happy of what you have... But I seem not to be able to do so.
Fourth thought: Looking around me, when I leave home, I realise that people care nothing about other peoples. I saw more than once, brawl fights, accidents, and so on, and they never ended well. Sometimes I feel really vulnerable. In Italy justice doesn't work If someone will never murder me, he will never get the punishment he deserves. People with countless murders live in Italy without having any problems at all, and a citizen like me feel powerless towards the attitude of judges that do like they want.
Last thought: I'm 19 and sometimes I think I will never be complete in my life. I know only few people worth living for (family, some friends), but I don't think I'll never be realized in my life, and sometimes this thought makes me sad..
I'm never depressed , though, just sad
You're 19? lol
dude relax xD You've got your whole life ahead of you
On March 06 2012 21:13 Sergio1992 wrote: I sometimes wish to become a criminal. Crime pays, they say , at least in Italy
[Serious mode on, now] First thought: I'm addicted to computer. I don't know to who I should say that, because after all my parents are always out for work. I don't study much. I study law at university, and I like and enjoy it a lot, but I feel like I wanna get fun all the time.
I can't leave starcraft. I mean, everyday, my first thought is if some pro I like is streaming, and I will go watch it for countless hours.
I try to study but every time I try to do it, even a white wall will catch my attention; bah..
Second thought: Everytime I look at my friends I see how they are realized. I mean , they did something worth they are pride of. I'm proud of nothing, because actually I feel like a parasite in my family.
All the people around me, study, have a great social life. I do have one social life, but I feel sad sometimes because I don't have a girl. Nor that I never kissed one, I'm not in that abyss, luckily, but I was never able to concretize something with girls. I was said that ,my last "story" ,if so can be called, can be compared to one of these described by O.C, though I never watched the series.
Third thought: Sometimes I look around and I see people that enjoy the life like it is. Am I the only one that pretends his life to be better? I was said that being happy sometimes means that you are happy of what you have... But I seem not to be able to do so.
Fourth thought: Looking around me, when I leave home, I realise that people care nothing about other peoples. I saw more than once, brawl fights, accidents, and so on, and they never ended well. Sometimes I feel really vulnerable. In Italy justice doesn't work If someone will never murder me, he will never get the punishment he deserves. People with countless murders live in Italy without having any problems at all, and a citizen like me feel powerless towards the attitude of judges that do like they want.
Last thought: I'm 19 and sometimes I think I will never be complete in my life. I know only few people worth living for (family, some friends), but I don't think I'll never be realized in my life, and sometimes this thought makes me sad..
I'm never depressed , though, just sad
You're 19? lol
dude relax xD You've got your whole life ahead of you
ahahha I don't think things are that easy, sadly , even If I'm 19
On March 06 2012 16:16 DeadCell wrote: I was once addicted to extacy to the point where I did it on a daily basis. I even lost my job and somehow scrounged any money I had to continue getting it. When I had room mates who would owe me money for hydro and rent, I'd pay with my credit card and get more because it was cash in my hand.
Cool story right...
Except the part where E isn't addictive so your story seems totally bogus
And the fact that it is a rather cheap drug.
Almost impossible to lose your money over. The average person could probably afford to keep himself high on XTC 24/7.
If you're sitting at home tripping balls all day odds are your bills/rent will eat up any savings you had, also the drug itself may not be physically addicting to most, the high or feeling you experience can be very mentally addictive.
On March 06 2012 16:16 DeadCell wrote: I was once addicted to extacy to the point where I did it on a daily basis. I even lost my job and somehow scrounged any money I had to continue getting it. When I had room mates who would owe me money for hydro and rent, I'd pay with my credit card and get more because it was cash in my hand.
Cool story right...
Except the part where E isn't addictive so your story seems totally bogus
Really don't give a shit if you don't believe me.
Just glad I have more to look forward to then rolling up powder and wasting my days away.
I get scolded by my dad quite often sometimes. And everytime he does it, he would say some really hurtful things like I made my sister lazy as well, or saying that I am not worth the money that he spent for me to study oversea, or he is disappointed in me and wished I would just go learn to be a cook than going to university.
But the worst part is that sometimes I would dream about it and I would wake up with tears in eyes and my heart pounding really hard. There was once in my dream I shouted back and I woke up because I could feel I almost shouted in reality as well.
For so many years he said he would just leave me to take care of myself and be responsible for myself and now he is putting so much expectation and pressure onto and wanting me to transform into someone else. Sometimes if my mum would intervene, my dad would say she is talking non-sense and only "Talking to the son because he is turning out to be very disappointing"
On March 08 2012 11:52 ETisME wrote: I get scolded by my dad quite often sometimes. And everytime he does it, he would say some really hurtful things like I made my sister lazy as well, or saying that I am not worth the money that he spent for me to study oversea, or he is disappointed in me and wished I would just go learn to be a cook than going to university.
But the worst part is that sometimes I would dream about it and I would wake up with tears in eyes and my heart pounding really hard. There was once in my dream I shouted back and I woke up because I could feel I almost shouted in reality as well.
For so many years he said he would just leave me to take care of myself and be responsible for myself and now he is putting so much expectation and pressure onto and wanting me to transform into someone else. Sometimes if my mum would intervene, my dad would say she is talking non-sense and only "Talking to the son because he is turning out to be very disappointing"
Wow. I know exactly your feeling. I have so much pressure from both my parents to turn out well and make it worth it to them to support me through college.
But theyre nowhere as near demanding as how you make your father seem to be.
My mom and dad think i am working hard at university, i am not even accepted into my major yet (poor grades) but every other weekend i go out drinking and just tried smoking weed a few weeks ago. Everyone except my mom and dad know i drink in college,
On March 06 2012 16:16 DeadCell wrote: I was once addicted to extacy to the point where I did it on a daily basis. I even lost my job and somehow scrounged any money I had to continue getting it. When I had room mates who would owe me money for hydro and rent, I'd pay with my credit card and get more because it was cash in my hand.
Cool story right...
Except the part where E isn't addictive so your story seems totally bogus
Really don't give a shit if you don't believe me.
Just glad I have more to look forward to then rolling up powder and wasting my days away.
When I was in school, I only worked one day a week. So my mom always sent me money for rent/food/hydro.
I'd always end up spending a lot on drinking/cigarettes/weed and end up having to ask for more. We budgeted my year our previously and my excuse was always something different. I felt really guilty later on when I went to her home for dinner over the holidays because she spent so much on me that she wasn't able to go on the vacation she was planning to go on with her co-workers in January.
I promised her I'd make it up to her once I started working again, but she said she was just glad I finally decided to go to university. I really plan on keeping that promise though.
Oh, and after watching fOrGG's stream for a while I've suddenly gotten addicted to k-pop.
This is coming from me, who used to be in a death metal band in high school. go figure..
On March 08 2012 11:52 ETisME wrote: I get scolded by my dad quite often sometimes. And everytime he does it, he would say some really hurtful things like I made my sister lazy as well, or saying that I am not worth the money that he spent for me to study oversea, or he is disappointed in me and wished I would just go learn to be a cook than going to university.
But the worst part is that sometimes I would dream about it and I would wake up with tears in eyes and my heart pounding really hard. There was once in my dream I shouted back and I woke up because I could feel I almost shouted in reality as well.
For so many years he said he would just leave me to take care of myself and be responsible for myself and now he is putting so much expectation and pressure onto and wanting me to transform into someone else. Sometimes if my mum would intervene, my dad would say she is talking non-sense and only "Talking to the son because he is turning out to be very disappointing"
this. my dad calls me stupid and retarded and says i have a disease when i'm quite clearly perfectly fine. i punch holes in the wall because i can't do that to his face.
I love the watching of animal torture and the suffering, their cries gives me a bliss feeling. I fucking yearn it and there's great selection to watch online.
[Serious mode on, now] First thought: I'm addicted to computer. I don't know to who I should say that, because after all my parents are always out for work. I don't study much. I study law at university, and I like and enjoy it a lot, but I feel like I wanna get fun all the time.
I can't leave starcraft. I mean, everyday, my first thought is if some pro I like is streaming, and I will go watch it for countless hours.
I try to study but every time I try to do it, even a white wall will catch my attention; bah..
Second thought: Everytime I look at my friends I see how they are realized. I mean , they did something worth they are pride of. I'm proud of nothing, because actually I feel like a parasite in my family.
All the people around me, study, have a great social life. I do have one social life, but I feel sad sometimes because I don't have a girl. Nor that I never kissed one, I'm not in that abyss, luckily, but I was never able to concretize something with girls. I was said that ,my last "story" ,if so can be called, can be compared to one of these described by O.C, though I never watched the series.
Third thought: Sometimes I look around and I see people that enjoy the life like it is. Am I the only one that pretends his life to be better? I was said that being happy sometimes means that you are happy of what you have... But I seem not to be able to do so.
Fourth thought: Looking around me, when I leave home, I realise that people care nothing about other peoples. I saw more than once, brawl fights, accidents, and so on, and they never ended well. Sometimes I feel really vulnerable. In Italy justice doesn't work If someone will never murder me, he will never get the punishment he deserves. People with countless murders live in Italy without having any problems at all, and a citizen like me feel powerless towards the attitude of judges that do like they want.
Last thought: I'm 19 and sometimes I think I will never be complete in my life. I know only few people worth living for (family, some friends), but I don't think I'll never be realized in my life, and sometimes this thought makes me sad..
I'm never depressed , though, just sad
Wow, you sound almost exactly like I remember myself sounding like at 19. I used to walk around amazed that people who were walking in the street actually had things they were going to do, like they were looking forward to something or at least had some direction (literally). It took me a while to find a way to a more positive, gratifying place, which I definitely have come to. I love my life now, and I don't think I thought that possible at 19.
I feel a kinship so here comes the advice: I think you have tremendous opportunities to be "complete," as you say, especially at your age. For me, it really boiled down to identifying those things in life that were essential to both a) who I was at the time and b) who I wanted to be. A friend of mine in college once asked me what single thing would I choose to be or have, if I could only choose one thing that I could be or have and everything else was randomized? I answered her so quickly that I surprised myself, but that moment actually changed my life--I said I wanted to have kids and be a loving father. Pretty simple, huh? Now my kids are the most joyous thing in my existence and I wake up every day thinking about how great it is to be their dad. Corny as hell but it makes my heart sing. Once I understood that about myself, a lot of the other crap I used to worry about fell away completely (since it was impossible to reconcile with my dream), and I finally felt comfortable enough with my humanity that many of my reflexive hang-ups (regarding self-confidence, how I interacted with people, etc.), turned into strengths: I knew myself and so was unashamed to present who I was.
I don't know if thinking about that question will help you, but hey, who knows? I'm 27 now and still enjoy catching a cast or two every few days. Wish I could play pro for life, too, but you only live once, right?
On February 29 2012 18:00 Spieltor wrote: so is this thread a honeypot for nuking people? and who would admit to illegal acts on here? I got a doozey of one thats apparently worse than murder, even thiough noone was actually harmed, but I'll only state it if asked.
go on......
i cheated on my ex..... a lot.................... (we are not broken up over cheating, she never found out)
On April 25 2012 00:49 Iankill wrote: I'm great liar and sometimes I just lie to people because explaining the truth would take longer than making up a lie.
On April 25 2012 00:49 Iankill wrote: I'm great liar and sometimes I just lie to people because explaining the truth would take longer than making up a lie.
Perhaps delusional. Nobody is good at lying, and we all do what you describe lol.
As much as I know it's naive and think it's silly, deep down I still think I love her. I know so little about her and I'm fairly certain she hates me but I can't move on.
On April 25 2012 01:26 SchonChristo wrote: I think of him when I'm with her.
Wait, what?!
But for real, I steal from grocery stores all the time. Some food just isn't worth what they are charging, so I put it in my pocket.
Sometimes I try out fruit or some of the snacks they have that you can put in bags yourself. And I've never once bought any of the snacks, only fruit. I feel it's my right as a consumer to be able to know what I'm going to buy before I spend money on it.
On April 25 2012 06:54 ticklishmusic wrote: I go to Sam's, order a pizza, then walk around for 20 minutes hitting up free samples for lunch, then I take the pizza home.
On January 31 2011 03:32 The KY wrote: It needs to be asked; what's with all the confession threads?
People like to share their experiences. You might as well ask why there are so many blogs.
As for me I've experimented with using a pee bottle... It really smells when you have to dump it even after you flush...
If I'd have my guess, it would be that the creator of the thread want's to let some steam off/see that everyone else has shit going wrong too.
Confession: When I was 15 I stole a guy's mail, but not to get the mail (which I placed back 4 hours later) but to see if I could be caught while trying to escape, ended up taking the mail, he yelled "HEY YOU" and I ran into the woods on the road and had to hike 5 km (or around 2.5 miles) home while him, and his friends, set up along the road for about 1km so I had to crawl for about 30 minutes or so. Exciting, and it worked, but I always felt bad.
I desperately want to sex my work colleague even though she has a boyfriend and has been living with him for years. If we go to a work-related event with alcohol, I'm going for it, and I'm not going to feel bad if I succeed.
On April 25 2012 07:07 TheBanana wrote: I desperately want to sex my work colleague even though she has a boyfriend and has been living with him for years. If we go to a work-related event with alcohol, I'm going for it, and I'm not going to feel bad if I succeed.
On April 25 2012 06:54 ticklishmusic wrote: I go to Sam's, order a pizza, then walk around for 20 minutes hitting up free samples for lunch, then I take the pizza home.
:D
When I was homeless (oh yeah, I guess that's a confession too, I was homeless for like 4 months) I still had my Costco card with me. So every couple of days I would clean myself up as best as I could to negate suspicion, stroll into Costco, and walk around feasting on free samples until I was no longer hungry.
When I was 12 or something, I was hanging out with a friend and we stole a bottle of Sprite from a kiosk.
Few years later with another friend, we were in this so called "forbidden place"(it had tought stone walls around it, bloodhungry dogs(not kiddingg)), we climbed on the walls, and reached this small metal hut. We found some gasoline and put it on fire. It caused the firefighters come, and if I recall correctly, was on the next day's local newspaper as well.
I have never smoked.
I like to share my music taste.
I think too much, even before posting on some forums spam threads.
I tried masturbating to My Little Pony, just to see if the reason I enjoyed the show so much was due to unknown sexual undertones.
Based on the difficulty maintaining an upright member whilst concentrating on the show at the same time, I concluded that I my original assumption was incorrect (fortunately).
Worse things I've done I won't post on a non-anon forum, even if I'm barely known (and I'm at uni atm, public place).
On March 08 2012 14:52 Kamais Ookin wrote: I love the watching of animal torture and the suffering, their cries gives me a bliss feeling. I fucking yearn it and there's great selection to watch online.
I know... I'm fucked.
My confession is that if we met I'd push you in front of a bus. It would give me a blissful feeling. You piece of shit.
when i was younger me and some friends set fire to a garbage container. Firefighters never questioned us nor was there any damage to anything else. I have stolen way to much in my life (shoplifting notthing of significant worth) I have been deeply depressed for a long time. But i have chosen to not tell anyone and rather figure it out on my own.
On February 25 2011 02:37 Vore210 wrote: People bore me. They just do. I barely bother to reply to texts, any schools/placed i've been for long periods of time once I leave I almost never speak to any of them ever again. Same goes for games i've played in the past and people i've known in them.
I seem to be liked (I tend to get somewhat popular if I put an effort into hanging around people), but I don't feel I get as much out of other people as they do of me. Long list of people i've thrown by the wayside without a moments regret.
Wonder sometimes if i'm losing my humanity, but I don't particularly care. And i'm not depressed, i'm actually quite happy. Don't know if im unique or not but I know i'm pretty strange.
What the... I don't live in Ireland.
Btw, what's wrong with finding people boring - they are boring. Going to the zoo is also boring because most humans are still too primal to be interesting. The only reason I listen to the boring crap my friends tell me is so that they take the time to listen to my boring crap. The only reason I have a girlfriend is because I cannot reproduce with pets (at least they don't talk all the time and bore me with their uninteresting life). Fortunately, my girlfriend is just as uninterested in others as I am and a hardcore gamer, so I guess I'm lucky. Any other girl would have left me by now.
I isolate myself whenever I have to go outside with loud music, because I hate the conversations other people are having "I'm in the train, I'll be there in 5 minutes" pisses me off to no end. I avoid going out as much as possible, because other people walk slow, block my way and prevent me from living my life at the pace that I want.
I guess I hate people, but I enjoy the company of friends on the internet (because there is a button to shut them up that I can press whenever I want to, I guess).
On May 01 2012 19:35 Sephy90 wrote: I can't stop downloading Japanese porn and I masturbate several times every day and I might be addicting to masturbating.
I confess that I prefer to play SC2 on a typical Friday or Saturday night as opposed to going out to a bar/party/social event of any kind.
I also confess that I no longer have any real-life friends aside from my girlfriend of 7 years and family. I completely cut off contact with my former best friend about 3 years ago (we were "friends" since 6 years old, I'm now 32) in short because the bad memories outweighed the good ones. Every once in a while he still tries calling me, but I will never answer.
Lastly, I hate talking to people more than anyone else that I've ever come across in life. It's a huge chore to even have lunch with my parents. Conversation is exhausting for me. It boggles my mind to think of how many people out there actually ENJOY talking to others. I always thought I would change at some point in this regard, but it never happened. I've never liked talking to people and sadly at 32 years old I am still the same way.
On May 01 2012 19:35 Sephy90 wrote: I can't stop downloading Japanese porn and I masturbate several times every day and I might be addicting to masturbating.
Problem being...?
I can't stop breathing oxygen, drinking water, and eating food. I think I might be addicted.
On May 02 2012 02:07 rhs408 wrote: I confess that I prefer to play SC2 on a typical Friday or Saturday night as opposed to going out to a bar/party/social event of any kind.
I also confess that I no longer have any real-life friends aside from my girlfriend of 7 years and family. I completely cut off contact with my former best friend about 3 years ago (we were "friends" since 6 years old, I'm now 32) in short because the bad memories outweighed the good ones. Every once in a while he still tries calling me, but I will never answer.
Lastly, I hate talking to people more than anyone else that I've ever come across in life. It's a huge chore to even have lunch with my parents. Conversation is exhausting for me. It boggles my mind to think of how many people out there actually ENJOY talking to others. I always thought I would change at some point in this regard, but it never happened. I've never liked talking to people and sadly at 32 years old I am still the same way.
Help me? lol
i don't see a problem with this. it's important to have people you love and care about (family) and that care about you and you can speak to (ie. friends/girlfriend, etc.). but who says you need to enjoy talking to people or that you need a lot of friends? it's important to have social support but you shouldn't try to be someone you're not. if you don't like talking to people, don't. it's who you are! embrace it.
again, at the same time do not underestimate the importance of social support or a social network in your life.
On May 02 2012 02:07 rhs408 wrote: I confess that I prefer to play SC2 on a typical Friday or Saturday night as opposed to going out to a bar/party/social event of any kind.
I also confess that I no longer have any real-life friends aside from my girlfriend of 7 years and family. I completely cut off contact with my former best friend about 3 years ago (we were "friends" since 6 years old, I'm now 32) in short because the bad memories outweighed the good ones. Every once in a while he still tries calling me, but I will never answer.
Lastly, I hate talking to people more than anyone else that I've ever come across in life. It's a huge chore to even have lunch with my parents. Conversation is exhausting for me. It boggles my mind to think of how many people out there actually ENJOY talking to others. I always thought I would change at some point in this regard, but it never happened. I've never liked talking to people and sadly at 32 years old I am still the same way.
Help me? lol
I am 30 and all those relate to me exactly, even the best friend calling ( since like 15 yrs old though) and me not answering. Weird.
i'm a 20 year old third year undergrad university student, getting a high GPA and am on full scholarship and have been since first year. Yet, despite all this I want to become a progamer; it's my dream. I can't seem to get it out of my mind. It's like a virus in me I can't get rid of; I know there are a hundred other professions that I could do financially well in out there for me, but becoming a progamer is, for some reason, still my dream. I'm embarrassed to talk about it with anyone or tell anyone.
On May 02 2012 02:20 Malstriks wrote: i'm a 20 year old third year undergrad university student, getting a high GPA and am on full scholarship and have been since first year. Yet, despite all this I want to become a progamer; it's my dream. I can't seem to get it out of my mind. It's like a virus in me I can't get rid of; I know there are a hundred other professions that I could do financially well in out there for me, but becoming a progamer is, for some reason, still my dream. I'm embarrassed to talk about it with anyone or tell anyone.
Try doing some free Playhem tournaments and see how you do? At the very least you will probably get a wake up call...
On May 02 2012 02:20 Malstriks wrote: i'm a 20 year old third year undergrad university student, getting a high GPA and am on full scholarship and have been since first year. Yet, despite all this I want to become a progamer; it's my dream. I can't seem to get it out of my mind. It's like a virus in me I can't get rid of; I know there are a hundred other professions that I could do financially well in out there for me, but becoming a progamer is, for some reason, still my dream. I'm embarrassed to talk about it with anyone or tell anyone.
Try doing some free Playhem tournaments and see how you do? At the very least you will probably get a wake up call...
I do quite well in them. Last season I finished top 50 GM on NA.
It's nowhere close to being a pro, but a step in the right direction maybe. I just can't get it out of my head. There are probably a million other things that would be better for my future.
I never smoked, did drugs, got drunk.I'm really lazy, never learn as much as i can.I also hate dancing, and having my birth day's celebrated.Also i don't know how to ride a bike. I love starcraft and pc games in general : )
I hate women, I have never had a good relationship with female in my life. Every girl I have ever met has alwasys said they same thing "I hate you leave me alone." I can;t trust a girl, because I always think they have some kind ulterior motive, and just want to use me.
On May 01 2012 19:35 Sephy90 wrote: I can't stop downloading Japanese porn and I masturbate several times every day and I might be addicting to masturbating.
Problem being...?
I can't stop breathing oxygen, drinking water, and eating food. I think I might be addicted.
(Sephy90 you have nothing to be ashamed of.)
Yes, there is nothing to be ashamed of but constant masturbation is unhealthy and not a good sign.
For my confession, I don't know. I'm really happy right now, life is looking up! :D
On May 02 2012 03:06 thane wrote: My ex and I broke up in Novmber after almost 5 years together and I still think about her every single day. I hate myself for it very badly.
Have you gone out with other girls, etc? Try reading some PU stuff and maybe it'll get you out of the rut?
On May 02 2012 03:08 Retgery wrote: I hate women, I have never had a good relationship with female in my life. Every girl I have ever met has alwasys said they same thing "I hate you leave me alone." I can;t trust a girl, because I always think they have some kind ulterior motive, and just want to use me.
It could just as easily be a problem with your personality, though. You need to try to assess yourself thoroughly and decide whether it is really your fault, or the women you are talking to.
Some women(and some men) will always want to use other people, but you should keep in mind that the majority of people do not. Women are pretty similar to men in terms of personality. Think of them as you would a guy and you'll get along fine.
On May 01 2012 19:35 Sephy90 wrote: I can't stop downloading Japanese porn and I masturbate several times every day and I might be addicting to masturbating.
Problem being...?
I can't stop breathing oxygen, drinking water, and eating food. I think I might be addicted.
(Sephy90 you have nothing to be ashamed of.)
Yes, there is nothing to be ashamed of but constant masturbation is unhealthy and not a good sign.
On that note, I also confess that I try to squeeze in one masturbation session every day so that when I have actual sex with my girlfriend I last much longer than normal. Nothing unhealthy about it though.
I am not physically attracted to my fiancee. The only reason I'm still with her is that I'm in too deep now (we own a house together, I adore her family and they love me, we have pets and share finances, etc.). I'm actually ashamed to have her around with me in public, because I feel people judging me based on how I think she looks. Don't get me wrong, I love her, and we are good friends, but I get the feeling like I got too comfortable with a girl I'd normally pass on against my normal standards of beauty. But my ego is too big to let me be comfortable with someone who is probably a 4/10 in the looks department. I honestly don't even want to have sex anymore.
On May 02 2012 03:21 Rob28 wrote: I am not physically attracted to my fiancee. The only reason I'm still with her is that I'm in too deep now (we own a house together, I adore her family and they love me, we have pets and share finances, etc.). I'm actually ashamed to have her around with me in public, because I feel people judging me based on how I think she looks. Don't get me wrong, I love her, and we are good friends, but I get the feeling like I got too comfortable with a girl I'd normally pass on against my normal standards of beauty. But my ego is too big to let me be comfortable with someone who is probably a 4/10 in the looks department. I honestly don't even want to have sex anymore.
Feels good to get it out there.
That just sucks man...how did you come into the relationship to begin with?
I had a huge drug problem for the last 5 years and I've been clean for a few months now. I'm finding it hard to stay on the right path, more specifically, I'm having a problem replacing my old habits. It seems that I have no purpose or passion = /
On August 14 2011 07:54 Kevan wrote: I turned down a threesome. With two girls. Why? I don't even know.
This. Two girls came over to me, and asked me if I wanted to be part of a threesome. They were "together" but wanted something to spice it up, and I looked like a nice guy, so they asked me. I told them, that since they really liked each other, their "spice" should be able to come from themselves, "that would be enough". When i walked away I realised they we're incredibly hot and that I just blew a massive chance.
On May 02 2012 03:06 thane wrote: My ex and I broke up in Novmber after almost 5 years together and I still think about her every single day. I hate myself for it very badly.
Have you gone out with other girls, etc? Try reading some PU stuff and maybe it'll get you out of the rut?
Yes I actually dated a girl for a month or so but it was right after my ex left but things werent right. I just hate the idea that I think about her so much still.
On May 02 2012 03:06 thane wrote: My ex and I broke up in Novmber after almost 5 years together and I still think about her every single day. I hate myself for it very badly.
Have you gone out with other girls, etc? Try reading some PU stuff and maybe it'll get you out of the rut?
Yes I actually dated a girl for a month or so but it was right after my ex left but things werent right. I just hate the idea that I think about her so much still.
I guess there's no chance of reconciling either? Did she find someone else already?
On May 02 2012 03:21 Rob28 wrote: I am not physically attracted to my fiancee. The only reason I'm still with her is that I'm in too deep now (we own a house together, I adore her family and they love me, we have pets and share finances, etc.). I'm actually ashamed to have her around with me in public, because I feel people judging me based on how I think she looks. Don't get me wrong, I love her, and we are good friends, but I get the feeling like I got too comfortable with a girl I'd normally pass on against my normal standards of beauty. But my ego is too big to let me be comfortable with someone who is probably a 4/10 in the looks department. I honestly don't even want to have sex anymore.
Feels good to get it out there.
That just sucks man...how did you come into the relationship to begin with?
I had a huge drug problem for the last 5 years and I've been clean for a few months now. I'm finding it hard to stay on the right path, more specifically, I'm having a problem replacing my old habits. It seems that I have no purpose or passion = /
Just gotta find that thing for you man. Try martial arts, its a great way to refine your self discipline. I have been doing Brazillian Jiu Jitsu for over a year and it has helped me alot with that.
On May 02 2012 03:06 thane wrote: My ex and I broke up in Novmber after almost 5 years together and I still think about her every single day. I hate myself for it very badly.
Have you gone out with other girls, etc? Try reading some PU stuff and maybe it'll get you out of the rut?
Yes I actually dated a girl for a month or so but it was right after my ex left but things werent right. I just hate the idea that I think about her so much still.
I guess there's no chance of reconciling either? Did she find someone else already?
I have not talked to her since about a week after she left. Is it wrong to miss her still? I do not know that I want to get back with her after having time apart to see what our relationship had become but I do miss her and thinking about her really makes me upset with myself.
On May 02 2012 03:21 Rob28 wrote: I am not physically attracted to my fiancee. The only reason I'm still with her is that I'm in too deep now (we own a house together, I adore her family and they love me, we have pets and share finances, etc.). I'm actually ashamed to have her around with me in public, because I feel people judging me based on how I think she looks. Don't get me wrong, I love her, and we are good friends, but I get the feeling like I got too comfortable with a girl I'd normally pass on against my normal standards of beauty. But my ego is too big to let me be comfortable with someone who is probably a 4/10 in the looks department. I honestly don't even want to have sex anymore.
Feels good to get it out there.
That just sucks man...how did you come into the relationship to begin with?
Drunk hookup at a bar. Just kinda stayed around after that. It's not too bad for me though. I had lots of sex with a whole bunch of really hot girls in the past... to the point where sex doesn't really register on my list of priorities anymore. I mean, I did everything: threesomes, foursomes, orgies, BD/SM, anal, swinger shit... even some much darker shit I won't get into here. So I kinda got all the sex stuff out of my system and I can be glad that my girl and I bond on a friendly, lovey level. But the looks thing always bugged me.
On May 02 2012 03:21 Rob28 wrote: I am not physically attracted to my fiancee. The only reason I'm still with her is that I'm in too deep now (we own a house together, I adore her family and they love me, we have pets and share finances, etc.). I'm actually ashamed to have her around with me in public, because I feel people judging me based on how I think she looks. Don't get me wrong, I love her, and we are good friends, but I get the feeling like I got too comfortable with a girl I'd normally pass on against my normal standards of beauty. But my ego is too big to let me be comfortable with someone who is probably a 4/10 in the looks department. I honestly don't even want to have sex anymore.
Feels good to get it out there.
You shouldn't have asked her to marry you. Could her looks be improved upon at all (i.e. by losing weight)? If she was a 6 or 7 out of 10, would there really be no issue at all?
On May 02 2012 03:21 Rob28 wrote: I am not physically attracted to my fiancee. The only reason I'm still with her is that I'm in too deep now (we own a house together, I adore her family and they love me, we have pets and share finances, etc.). I'm actually ashamed to have her around with me in public, because I feel people judging me based on how I think she looks. Don't get me wrong, I love her, and we are good friends, but I get the feeling like I got too comfortable with a girl I'd normally pass on against my normal standards of beauty. But my ego is too big to let me be comfortable with someone who is probably a 4/10 in the looks department. I honestly don't even want to have sex anymore.
Feels good to get it out there.
That just sucks man...how did you come into the relationship to begin with?
Drunk hookup at a bar. Just kinda stayed around after that. It's not too bad for me though. I had lots of sex with a whole bunch of really hot girls in the past... to the point where sex doesn't really register on my list of priorities anymore. I mean, I did everything: threesomes, foursomes, orgies, BD/SM, anal, swinger shit... even some much darker shit I won't get into here. So I kinda got all the sex stuff out of my system and I can be glad that my girl and I bond on a friendly, lovey level. But the looks thing always bugged me.
I cant really question her looks but is she really that bad or are you just used to her and everything else just looks like something new and exciting?
I've been skating through my classes on my genius IQ for my whole life without doing any real work or studying. This semester I tried that in my calculus III class and I have a strong feeling I'm going to fail my final on Friday. The funny thing is that I've always known that I would learn the hard way eventually, and that was the only way I could ever change my terrible study habits.
On May 02 2012 03:06 thane wrote: My ex and I broke up in Novmber after almost 5 years together and I still think about her every single day. I hate myself for it very badly.
Have you gone out with other girls, etc? Try reading some PU stuff and maybe it'll get you out of the rut?
Yes I actually dated a girl for a month or so but it was right after my ex left but things werent right. I just hate the idea that I think about her so much still.
I guess there's no chance of reconciling either? Did she find someone else already?
I have not talked to her since about a week after she left. Is it wrong to miss her still? I do not know that I want to get back with her after having time apart to see what our relationship had become but I do miss her and thinking about her really makes me upset with myself.
I see. I think you should give her a call and just casually ask how she's doing, see where the conversation goes. Maybe she'll say she's been seeing someone else and you'll at least get some closure, better yet maybe she'll say she's been thinking about you too? No harm in giving her a call, it's been frickin 6 months. If you don't reach out you'll probably still be in the same boat in another 6 months.
On May 02 2012 03:21 Rob28 wrote: I am not physically attracted to my fiancee. The only reason I'm still with her is that I'm in too deep now (we own a house together, I adore her family and they love me, we have pets and share finances, etc.). I'm actually ashamed to have her around with me in public, because I feel people judging me based on how I think she looks. Don't get me wrong, I love her, and we are good friends, but I get the feeling like I got too comfortable with a girl I'd normally pass on against my normal standards of beauty. But my ego is too big to let me be comfortable with someone who is probably a 4/10 in the looks department. I honestly don't even want to have sex anymore.
Feels good to get it out there.
That just sucks man...how did you come into the relationship to begin with?
Drunk hookup at a bar. Just kinda stayed around after that. It's not too bad for me though. I had lots of sex with a whole bunch of really hot girls in the past... to the point where sex doesn't really register on my list of priorities anymore. I mean, I did everything: threesomes, foursomes, orgies, BD/SM, anal, swinger shit... even some much darker shit I won't get into here. So I kinda got all the sex stuff out of my system and I can be glad that my girl and I bond on a friendly, lovey level. But the looks thing always bugged me.
Well, it sounds like you have the ideal marriage, to be honest. If you truly like her as a person, like you said, and have a deep friendship with her (can confide in her, can express anything that troubles you, etc), you're set. Not to mention everything else seems to be fine (good family relations, and I'd guess that you have a stable financial situation). This sort of bond lasts much longer than physical beauty, which is why a marriage based on this is superior. I suppose the two main problems are that you may not want to have children with her if she's really that unattractive (but there's always adoption), or worse, you may feel tempted to cheat on her (but if you really got all that out of your system, you should be fine).
I met this girl again, we were friends in junior high school and I had a crush on her. After junior high we didnt keep in touch so i thought that she was not into me at all. well, nine years after we met randomly and boom, love. she was home for christmas' holiday and I found out that she was in the middle of an erasmus project and she was living in spain (august-june), so 5 more months to go. We tried to be together and it worked: we met each others every month or so and now I just moved here (with my parents calling me crazy) to spend this last two months together. we rented a house together and we live there..its quite a big decision after 4 months of being together!
Problem is that i'm scared to death she may leave again for more studies: in june we will return home together, then for sure we will remain in the same town until september 2013. then i'm really scared...what about if she decides to study abroad other 6 months? i fear that all we've built and we are building will fall upon us if she leaves also if i get a real job i would not be able to follow her (
its stupid to worry about what will happen in september 2013, i know...but we love each other so much. I want to believe that Love will win everything and we will not separate again, no matter what
p.s. this thread is miracolous...i feel so much better after having explained my situation
On May 02 2012 03:55 SoSexy wrote: I met this girl again, we were friends in junior high school and I had a crush on her. After junior high we didnt keep in touch so i thought that she was not into me at all. well, nine years after we met randomly and boom, love. she was home for christmas' holiday and I found out that she was in the middle of an erasmus project and she was living in spain (august-june), so 5 more months to go. We tried to be together and it worked: we met each others every month or so and now I just moved here (with my parents calling me crazy) to spend this last two months together. we rented a house together and we live there..its quite a big decision after 4 months of being together!
Problem is that i'm scared to death she may leave again for more studies: in june we will return home together, then for sure we will remain in the same town until september 2013. then i'm really scared...what about if she decides to study abroad other 6 months? i fear that all we've built and we are building will fall upon us if she leaves also if i get a real job i would not be able to follow her (
its stupid to worry about what will happen in september 2013, i know...but we love each other so much. I want to believe that Love will win everything and we will not separate again, no matter what
p.s. this thread is miracolous...i feel so much better after having explained my situation
Communicate with your girlfriend. Tell her what you said here and see what she has to say about it.
On May 02 2012 03:21 Rob28 wrote: I am not physically attracted to my fiancee. The only reason I'm still with her is that I'm in too deep now (we own a house together, I adore her family and they love me, we have pets and share finances, etc.). I'm actually ashamed to have her around with me in public, because I feel people judging me based on how I think she looks. Don't get me wrong, I love her, and we are good friends, but I get the feeling like I got too comfortable with a girl I'd normally pass on against my normal standards of beauty. But my ego is too big to let me be comfortable with someone who is probably a 4/10 in the looks department. I honestly don't even want to have sex anymore.
Feels good to get it out there.
You shouldn't have asked her to marry you. Could her looks be improved upon at all (i.e. by losing weight)? If she was a 6 or 7 out of 10, would there really be no issue at all?
Well, if I had to list some faults, some can be fixed, some can't. She's not some super hideous troll or anything, but she is probably about 30 lbs. over an ideal weight, her complexion is always bad, her hair never looks good to me (maybe to others, but not me) and she doesn't look good naked. I feel kinda awful for even pointing it out... I mean I still love this woman, I just feel embarassed about being with her.
The absolute worst part of it is that she thinks she is hot... and I'd point out that she isn't but it's just mean. I guess aside from the complexion, she'd at least have a pretty face, but still...
The guy earlier may have had a point about me being used to her too, and others seeming more appealing because of it, but I suspect that's not the whole story.
On May 02 2012 03:51 MichaelDonovan wrote: I've been skating through my classes on my genius IQ for my whole life without doing any real work or studying. This semester I tried that in my calculus III class and I have a strong feeling I'm going to fail my final on Friday. The funny thing is that I've always known that I would learn the hard way eventually, and that was the only way I could ever change my terrible study habits.
Story of my life. I failed to get the motivation to finish higher education because I was never used to doing any work at all.
-Everyday I go to grocery and take 3 bananas but pay just for 1. because they are too expensive. -I hope that others will fail in life and die slowly (but dont worry Im not doing anything to help it happened, sometimes i even help people.) -I lie a lot. not to hurt anybody but sometimes telling a lie is more fun.... well its always more fun.
On May 02 2012 03:55 SoSexy wrote: I met this girl again, we were friends in junior high school and I had a crush on her. After junior high we didnt keep in touch so i thought that she was not into me at all. well, nine years after we met randomly and boom, love. she was home for christmas' holiday and I found out that she was in the middle of an erasmus project and she was living in spain (august-june), so 5 more months to go. We tried to be together and it worked: we met each others every month or so and now I just moved here (with my parents calling me crazy) to spend this last two months together. we rented a house together and we live there..its quite a big decision after 4 months of being together!
Problem is that i'm scared to death she may leave again for more studies: in june we will return home together, then for sure we will remain in the same town until september 2013. then i'm really scared...what about if she decides to study abroad other 6 months? i fear that all we've built and we are building will fall upon us if she leaves also if i get a real job i would not be able to follow her (
its stupid to worry about what will happen in september 2013, i know...but we love each other so much. I want to believe that Love will win everything and we will not separate again, no matter what
p.s. this thread is miracolous...i feel so much better after having explained my situation
Communicate with your girlfriend. Tell her what you said here and see what she has to say about it.
she says the same, that its too far in the future to worry about it now, that she just wants to think about me now. I guess it will all come down to how much she really cares...
On May 02 2012 03:51 MichaelDonovan wrote: I've been skating through my classes on my genius IQ for my whole life without doing any real work or studying. This semester I tried that in my calculus III class and I have a strong feeling I'm going to fail my final on Friday. The funny thing is that I've always known that I would learn the hard way eventually, and that was the only way I could ever change my terrible study habits.
I did the same thing, all through University too. I'd show up only for the classes where I'd submit the term paper and the exam, and still get an A- without even reading any of the course material or even going to school. And I turned out just fine, I guess.
Calculus was harder to cruise through in high school though, since it builds on previous math teachings from years prior that I'd ignored. The problem with coasting on intelliegence is that life becomes a game where you balanace how much benefit you can get out of the least amount of work. It breeds laziness, so be careful. The problem with being smart is the malaise that comes with knowing you're wasting your mind on lazy, mundane activities and that you both want and don't want to live to your full potential.
On May 02 2012 03:51 MichaelDonovan wrote: I've been skating through my classes on my genius IQ for my whole life without doing any real work or studying. This semester I tried that in my calculus III class and I have a strong feeling I'm going to fail my final on Friday. The funny thing is that I've always known that I would learn the hard way eventually, and that was the only way I could ever change my terrible study habits.
Dude, i have the exact same problem right now, I'm recently always planning on studying like a madman, but it's always 'tomorrow'. Fuck my life
On May 02 2012 03:55 SoSexy wrote: I met this girl again, we were friends in junior high school and I had a crush on her. After junior high we didnt keep in touch so i thought that she was not into me at all. well, nine years after we met randomly and boom, love. she was home for christmas' holiday and I found out that she was in the middle of an erasmus project and she was living in spain (august-june), so 5 more months to go. We tried to be together and it worked: we met each others every month or so and now I just moved here (with my parents calling me crazy) to spend this last two months together. we rented a house together and we live there..its quite a big decision after 4 months of being together!
Problem is that i'm scared to death she may leave again for more studies: in june we will return home together, then for sure we will remain in the same town until september 2013. then i'm really scared...what about if she decides to study abroad other 6 months? i fear that all we've built and we are building will fall upon us if she leaves also if i get a real job i would not be able to follow her (
its stupid to worry about what will happen in september 2013, i know...but we love each other so much. I want to believe that Love will win everything and we will not separate again, no matter what
p.s. this thread is miracolous...i feel so much better after having explained my situation
Communicate with your girlfriend. Tell her what you said here and see what she has to say about it.
she says the same, that its too far in the future to worry about it now, that she just wants to think about me now. I guess it will all come down to how much she really cares...
The worst thing you can do is cling on to a girl. You will 100% lose her if you do so.
On May 02 2012 03:51 MichaelDonovan wrote: I've been skating through my classes on my genius IQ for my whole life without doing any real work or studying. This semester I tried that in my calculus III class and I have a strong feeling I'm going to fail my final on Friday. The funny thing is that I've always known that I would learn the hard way eventually, and that was the only way I could ever change my terrible study habits.
Story of my life. I failed to get the motivation to finish higher education because I was never used to doing any work at all.
Welcome to the club. I can't say I've been skating through though, I've had alot of incidents in school - there are alot of complete assholes in the world.
To confess something - here's a post I made a while back which is still as relevant as it was back then. It sucks but it really is difficult to change one's life. Don't know if it's really a confession as in your definitions but I would guess so.
Basically, I don't enjoy my life as it is now. why? i dont really know.. i feel shallow and that im just walking through a life not doing anything meaningful. i try to keep a smiling face on the outside but its too hard when you dont enjoy anything you do. i hate it. I think the reason why I do not enjoy my life anymore is because im so insecure. Insecure about everything. Pretty much the Internet is the only place where I'm not scared to tell people about my opinions about things. That's one of the big reasons to why I love TL so much.
Ive been this insecure all my life. A little piss that noone cares about. im that invisible guy noone notices. however, i want to change this - im just too much of a kid. im scared. i often dont even dare wearing new clothes because then everyone will just laugh at me and say "Hey got new clothes man? stop trying so hard with the ladies hahahaha" etc.
my family is poor. my mother works really hard as a teacher and basically she earns basically nothing. she has studied i think 4 years at university here in sweden and still people at my school make more money than her. my dad also works for a shit salary (compared to most in sweden) but atleast its a bit bigger (higher?) than my moms. to conclude i can say that both my parents work really hard to get money for this family and this is one of the reasons to why i dont want to tell them that i feel like my life is shit. itd destroy everything they built for me. itd make them feel worthless. i dont want that for them since they are my heroes. im just too spoiled to not realize that this is a good life compared to the ones most people in this world have.
why am i telling you about my family? well i think that also has to do with me being so insecure. through all my life ive been ashamed of not having rich parents. when my friends have asked me what i got for christmas id often exaggerate and tell them id got loads of things which i of course didnt. i guess most of you think this is pathetic behaviour and i agree. i am pathetic and i need to work with that.
i had some friends when i was younger and it was back then i told one of them that i liked a girl in our class. he started laughing hysterically at me and telling me that i was way too short and way too weak for her. that she was in another league (she was). the reason to why i thought she might be interested in me was that she once told me she thought i had a cool eye - when i was 5 years old i was in an accident with my right eye got almost blind and my pupil got fucked up so now my right eye looks like a cat-eye. when she told me she thought it looked cool i got really happy and thought maybe something could happen between us. however that was really naive lol. then my friend decided it was nice to tell everyone in our class that i had a crush for this girl. i called in sick (im sorry i dont know if this is correct) for a whole week in school because i was too ashamed. what im ashamed of nowadays though is that i lied to my parents that week. i told them i was feeling sick and it made my mother stay home from work several days. we lost even more money because of the fact that i cant stand up for my opinions and because of the fact that im pathetic.
and i earn my parents alot of money. during my childhood ive spent alot of time at hospitals - i had to spend almost a month in a hospital bed because of my eye (although back then i had super mario to play so it was fine for me : ) ) and also my right ear is almost completely fucked up. ive had 2 pärlcystor (ive no idea what this word is in english and google translate wont translate it) and for some reason my right ear is just getting worse. so because of all my mistakes and shit my parents lost alot of money (they got money but not nearly as much as they should have done if theyd have worked all the time) so i feel like i owe them, big time. this is also one of the reasons to why i need to get a good job.
when i was like 14-16 years old i came to realize a bit more about what big difference money makes. people dont want to hang out with a poor kid. people want to be with rich kids with big TVs and video games. this made me angry because i knew my parents worked so much more and harder than these kids' parents. still, they got to have all this fancy stuff in their house. so when i started talking about things like this i immediately got called "communist" and "stalin" etc. im really far from being a communist but alot of people really cant handle peoples opinions. when they hear something they dont agree with they shout at it with aggressive words. thats what everyone i spoke to did to me. i even got beat up once in school for saying that i think girls should be allowed to play football (soccer) with the boys too. i got called faggot, pussy and i was by most of the pupils (even the girls of course) seen as a "girl inside a boy". so i shut up. i didnt dare talking to anyone about what i thought about anything anymore. of course also this made me as insecure as i am today.
when i was younger i had some friends whom according to me were pretty rich. one of them was at my home once (i guess i was around 13-14 then aswell) - we were supposed to 'hang out' at my place. when he got in my house he immediately said "wow this was an uncleaned home". i almost started crying because i know my mom wouldntve wanted him to look at our home as that. she wouldve wanted to fix the place before he came but she didnt have time - she had work to do. anyway, this friend of mine broke my heart when he said that. i even more realized how different my family was to these other families. i still socialized (?) with this guy though because he for some reason still wanted to be my friend. however, ever since hed been to my house he was this obnoxious little prick always speaking about my family as monkeys, parasites, retards and what else. i on the other hand always saw his dad as the devil - he made shitloads of money, was the biggest sexist ive ever met and always, when i was at their house, asking me how my parents were doing; he often asked questions like this "So how's your mother? She works at the school here right? Yeah, too bad she couldn't become anything else than a teacher but I'm sure she enjoys it though. I really love my job, just came home from Australia"
i was so mad because i knew my parents deserved more than this. they were so much nicer to everyone and so much more intelligent than this asshole and his barbie wife. ever since my childhood ive decided to prove them wrong. prove to them that people from poor families also can become "something good". i spoke to this ex-friend not so long ago and he said he wanted to study Industrial Engineering and Management but that he probably wouldnt have the grades. i got really happy when he said that because ive always wanted this idiot to suffer atleast from something. a little bit. since ill have almost full grades when i apply to university ive actually been thinking about applying for that very programme he wanted to get into. just to show him im better than him in some aspects. to show him that me and my family arent inferior to his in any way. however since that programme probably would bore me to death i decided to not apply for it. although i am going to study either eng. mathematics, biomed. engineering or biotech so i guess he will be somewhat jealous. atleast i hope he will.
but i dont want to be like this. this might sound weird but i dont want to want him to suffer. i cant stop thinking about how good itd feel to just shove it up his face that im getting better education than him. shove it up his face like he had done with all my opinions everytime i opened my mouth, like he did when i i dont want to think like this. i dont want to think about wanting people to suffer but i dont know how to stop. i really need to work with this.
I don't really see why people hate on these threads, I think it can be really helpful to get things out of your system even if it's just to random people who just shares your love for a game.
[EDIT]: It isn't really as bad as it was back then though. I've come to talk to alot of nice people and in general I feel happier.
When I was much younger I sold a joint to my friend's girlfriend who I didn't know was a couple months pregnant. She lost the baby during birth, and I feel partly responsible... From what I had heard she was also hooked on prescription painkillers
On May 02 2012 03:55 SoSexy wrote: I met this girl again, we were friends in junior high school and I had a crush on her. After junior high we didnt keep in touch so i thought that she was not into me at all. well, nine years after we met randomly and boom, love. she was home for christmas' holiday and I found out that she was in the middle of an erasmus project and she was living in spain (august-june), so 5 more months to go. We tried to be together and it worked: we met each others every month or so and now I just moved here (with my parents calling me crazy) to spend this last two months together. we rented a house together and we live there..its quite a big decision after 4 months of being together!
Problem is that i'm scared to death she may leave again for more studies: in june we will return home together, then for sure we will remain in the same town until september 2013. then i'm really scared...what about if she decides to study abroad other 6 months? i fear that all we've built and we are building will fall upon us if she leaves also if i get a real job i would not be able to follow her (
its stupid to worry about what will happen in september 2013, i know...but we love each other so much. I want to believe that Love will win everything and we will not separate again, no matter what
p.s. this thread is miracolous...i feel so much better after having explained my situation
Communicate with your girlfriend. Tell her what you said here and see what she has to say about it.
she says the same, that its too far in the future to worry about it now, that she just wants to think about me now. I guess it will all come down to how much she really cares...
The worst thing you can do is cling on to a girl. You will 100% lose her if you do so.
On May 02 2012 04:20 IntoTheBush wrote: When I was much younger I sold a joint to my friend's girlfriend who I didn't know was a couple months pregnant. She lost the baby during birth, and I feel partly responsible... From what I had heard she was also hooked on prescription painkillers
wow, I'm so sorry. Even if it's obviously not your fault I can understand if it was quite hard to deal with it...
there's a really pretty chick that waitered my table last week, I was dining with my cousin and my mother, but I really wanted to get to know her. But I'm not the type of person to go ask for someone's number. I think the main thing that I was attracted to her was not only because of her 9/10 looks, but also because she works for her money. I've dated girls before but none that had actually done any work in their lives, more like they say they worked in the yard for a day or something or like worked as a secretary( which you just sit on your ass for a couple of hours) I really want to go back to the restaurant and ask for her number or at least go like "hi, would you like to grab a cup of coffee with me?" But I've been second guessing myself since I'm the type of person that does not only hate failing, but rather I'm afraid of it..." I know people say that how would you fail or succeed without trying...ugh I dont know. And on top of that It is finals week here at my college but now I feel like I'm making excuses for myself (haha).
I guess my past failed relationships have a factor in all of this as well since the 2 previous times that I had a girlfriend, I've been dumped both for really dumb reasons like once it was because I was being immature to one of her friends, and another was because I didn't go talk with her face to face at her house(because I never win an arguement partly because english is my 2nd language)
But after both of these relationships, the one that lasted 8 months, that girl a month after we broke up asked out 1 of my best friends (and being an idiot he accepted) while the other girl I heard is now checking out 2 guys after like a week of dumping me...
I've asked my really close friends that if I was doing something wrong but they told me that I'm not at fault at all...but now I'm doubting that fact...
So I guess now I'm just scared that what if this waitress has a boyfriend already or if she agrees to go on a date that we somehow end up like my other failed relationships...
The room I used to have a while ago is the dirtiest you'll ever see.
I had it for two years, and it was a tiny room in Northern Seoul -- literally just a bed and a desk, and a clothes hanger in the corner. For the first year or so, it wasn't that dirty, but then it just spiraled out of control when I stopped caring.
It got so bad the only space not covered in trash, clothes, and random purchases was a small space on the bed I could sleep in curled up. The trash, clothes, etc. built a huge mountain on top of the bed, and the small bit of distance between the door and the bed was an obstacle course. The only things I ever managed to keep in top shape and easily findable in there were my laptop and my cell phone, and only because they're the only two items I really gave a fuck about.
When I went back home over the summer vacation, I ditched the room, and left my old land lady to clean up the mess. When I told her I would leave, I even lied to her and told her I would leave much later than I really did so she wouldn't make me clean it. So I pretty much stranded her with a room that was this dirty and messy so I wouldn't have to clean it on purpose, and when I go back to Korea next week I'm moving into a new room in a district 45 minutes away.
If that sounds messed-up, well it is. I cannot even begin to explain what it was with me and that room. I wanted to clean, and yet I couldn't (it was like I just couldn't get over my extreme unwillingness to get up and do it). And that's even though, I shit you not, I regularly had nightmares about someone else walking into my room, seeing the mess, and judging me for it. I felt dirty living there, I hated the room with a passion, I felt like less of a valuable human being for living in filth -- and yet I never changed it.
The funniest thing is that I kept my clothes relatively neat, showered regularly, and kept up a GPA of 3.8. I also don't drink or do drugs, except for caffeine. For all intents and purposes, I am not someone you would expect to live like that. Yet I did.
I feel deeply ashamed of it. To this day, I sometimes have nightmares about people I love and respect breaking into my room and judging me as a sloth. ;___; And yet, this complete revulsion for actually fucking cleaning for once. I do not understand it.
Edit: And just to make this all sound worse, I am actually a girl. I'd never hear the end of it if my Korean-born mother knew about any of this (along with a pity fest for the poor sob who'll marry me).
Same thing for me right now (Though this person I quoted posted this a year ago). Exact same fear of being walked in on. And I hate it because I have been walked in on in the past. Also there was one time a pipe leak on my ceiling and I had to bring my landlord to fix it.
The only thing clean is my bath towel and clothes. What doesn't make sense is that I have OCD and get extremely annoyed when something's out of place. But when it's my room, it just doesn't happen. Every night before garbage day, I swear to clean up this shit but I don't. I don't know if moving will get rid of this digusting life style. But I can't. Unlike you, I'm too self conscious even with people I'll never see again. I can't leave my landlord with this hell of a mess.
I'm also paranoid about my appearance and body odor that it might randomly attach something from my room with me when i'm out. Like one time I found my wallet covered in chocolate when I was trying to pay for my groceries.
I wish I would carry through with cleaning my room and moving elsewhere. No matter how much motivation I have, it's all gone at the final moment.
On May 02 2012 04:20 IntoTheBush wrote: When I was much younger I sold a joint to my friend's girlfriend who I didn't know was a couple months pregnant. She lost the baby during birth, and I feel partly responsible... From what I had heard she was also hooked on prescription painkillers
Damn, that's just terrible, I feel so sorry for you :/
My personal life suffers because I am too involved in video games. I've always thought to blame this on things out of my power (because almost NONE of my friends play video games, They all have different interests than me, I am separated from my friends in all of my school classes EVERY single year, etc.). I just wish I had some real-life friends who also played video games and would come and hang out with me or w/e.
On May 02 2012 04:33 Epishade wrote: My personal life suffers because I am too involved in video games. I've always thought to blame this on things out of my power (because almost NONE of my friends play video games, They all have different interests than me, I am separated from my friends in all of my school classes EVERY single year, etc.). I just wish I had some real-life friends who also played video games and would come and hang out with me or w/e.
I don't know if this helps but you're most definitely not alone. And Bnet2.0 isn't really helping either.
Anyway I've been for a long time and still kind of am in that situation. I have friends and they like video games but noone would care a single bit if I told them how far NaNiwa has come in the GSL this year, how amazingly awesome the IdrA vs HuK matches were back in the days, how a swede is the top ranked foreigner on TLPD or how there are thousands of people actually willing to match matches between progamers in this game... It's just sad. I have noone to share this really awesome part of my life with. I REALLY REALLY hope I can find some nerd friends when I go to university.
Any TL:ers coming to Lund (LTH) next year?
EDIT: Oh and I don't really know if we have the same view on this situation, but we are in the same, surely. However I don't look at it as it's hurting my personal life -- sure, that may be the opinion of the masses but hell yeah I'd rather watch MLG than get drunk meeting shallow, stupid people who I will never ever like talking to. Any day.
Although it sucks that I'm really too shy to "come out of the closet" as the true me. Noone really knows about my addiction lol. It sucks.
On May 02 2012 04:33 Epishade wrote: My personal life suffers because I am too involved in video games. I've always thought to blame this on things out of my power (because almost NONE of my friends play video games, They all have different interests than me, I am separated from my friends in all of my school classes EVERY single year, etc.). I just wish I had some real-life friends who also played video games and would come and hang out with me or w/e.
I don't know if this helps but you're most definitely not alone. And Bnet2.0 isn't really helping either.
Anyway I've been for a long time and still kind of am in that situation. I have friends and they like video games but noone would care a single bit if I told them how far NaNiwa has come in the GSL this year, how amazingly awesome the IdrA vs HuK matches were back in the days, how a swede is the top ranked foreigner on TLPD or how there are thousands of people actually willing to match matches between progamers in this game... It's just sad. I have noone to share this really awesome part of my life with. I REALLY REALLY hope I can find some nerd friends when I go to university.
Any TL:ers coming to Lund (LTH) next year?
EDIT: Oh and I don't really know if we have the same view on this situation, but we are in the same, surely. However I don't look at it as it's hurting my personal life -- sure, that may be the opinion of the masses but hell yeah I'd rather watch MLG than get drunk meeting shallow, stupid people who I will never ever like talking to. Any day.
Although it sucks that I'm really too shy to "come out of the closet" as the true me. Noone really knows about my addiction lol. It sucks.
What are you studying? Gamers tend to lean more to certain educations than others, so it might be because of that. Personally I study mathematics/computer science etc up here in Stockholm, and about half my class play/watch SC2, albeit to varying degrees.
On May 02 2012 04:33 Epishade wrote: My personal life suffers because I am too involved in video games. I've always thought to blame this on things out of my power (because almost NONE of my friends play video games, They all have different interests than me, I am separated from my friends in all of my school classes EVERY single year, etc.). I just wish I had some real-life friends who also played video games and would come and hang out with me or w/e.
I don't know if this helps but you're most definitely not alone. And Bnet2.0 isn't really helping either.
Anyway I've been for a long time and still kind of am in that situation. I have friends and they like video games but noone would care a single bit if I told them how far NaNiwa has come in the GSL this year, how amazingly awesome the IdrA vs HuK matches were back in the days, how a swede is the top ranked foreigner on TLPD or how there are thousands of people actually willing to match matches between progamers in this game... It's just sad. I have noone to share this really awesome part of my life with. I REALLY REALLY hope I can find some nerd friends when I go to university.
Any TL:ers coming to Lund (LTH) next year?
EDIT: Oh and I don't really know if we have the same view on this situation, but we are in the same, surely. However I don't look at it as it's hurting my personal life -- sure, that may be the opinion of the masses but hell yeah I'd rather watch MLG than get drunk meeting shallow, stupid people who I will never ever like talking to. Any day.
Although it sucks that I'm really too shy to "come out of the closet" as the true me. Noone really knows about my addiction lol. It sucks.
What are you studying? Gamers tend to lean more to certain educations than others, so it might be because of that. Personally I study mathematics/computer science etc up here in Stockholm, and about half my class play/watch SC2, albeit to varying degrees.
I haven't began studying at uni yet but I've actually been thinking about math aswell although right now it's leaning towards either physics in Lund or some fun engineering programme. Although I secretly think that people on civ.ing. are more boring than the people at Nat.fak, so maybe physics or math is the right choice lol. What would you say about that? You're the one with experience.
On May 02 2012 04:33 Epishade wrote: My personal life suffers because I am too involved in video games. I've always thought to blame this on things out of my power (because almost NONE of my friends play video games, They all have different interests than me, I am separated from my friends in all of my school classes EVERY single year, etc.). I just wish I had some real-life friends who also played video games and would come and hang out with me or w/e.
I don't know if this helps but you're most definitely not alone. And Bnet2.0 isn't really helping either.
Anyway I've been for a long time and still kind of am in that situation. I have friends and they like video games but noone would care a single bit if I told them how far NaNiwa has come in the GSL this year, how amazingly awesome the IdrA vs HuK matches were back in the days, how a swede is the top ranked foreigner on TLPD or how there are thousands of people actually willing to match matches between progamers in this game... It's just sad. I have noone to share this really awesome part of my life with. I REALLY REALLY hope I can find some nerd friends when I go to university.
Any TL:ers coming to Lund (LTH) next year?
EDIT: Oh and I don't really know if we have the same view on this situation, but we are in the same, surely. However I don't look at it as it's hurting my personal life -- sure, that may be the opinion of the masses but hell yeah I'd rather watch MLG than get drunk meeting shallow, stupid people who I will never ever like talking to. Any day.
Although it sucks that I'm really too shy to "come out of the closet" as the true me. Noone really knows about my addiction lol. It sucks.
What are you studying? Gamers tend to lean more to certain educations than others, so it might be because of that. Personally I study mathematics/computer science etc up here in Stockholm, and about half my class play/watch SC2, albeit to varying degrees.
I haven't began studying at uni yet but I've actually been thinking about math aswell although right now it's leaning towards either physics in Lund or some fun engineering programme. Although I secretly think that people on civ.ing. are more boring than the people at Nat.fak, so maybe physics or math is the right choice lol. What would you say about that? You're the one with experience.
Students are generally fucked up (not boring). Usually, a couple of each class are 'fun' and active.
On May 02 2012 04:15 Rob28 wrote: The problem with coasting on intelliegence is that life becomes a game where you balanace how much benefit you can get out of the least amount of work. It breeds laziness, so be careful. The problem with being smart is the malaise that comes with knowing you're wasting your mind on lazy, mundane activities and that you both want and don't want to live to your full potential.
On May 02 2012 05:10 INFDexter wrote: I look down on people who major in technical fields like business, hard sciences, etc.
What do you major in? I'm gonna guess some form of Biology/medicine? Humanities wouldn't make sense because they don't look down on anyone IIRC, commerce clearly is out, same with hard science, engineering, and languages. Which pretty much leaves Bio/med?
On May 02 2012 03:51 MichaelDonovan wrote: I've been skating through my classes on my genius IQ for my whole life without doing any real work or studying. This semester I tried that in my calculus III class and I have a strong feeling I'm going to fail my final on Friday. The funny thing is that I've always known that I would learn the hard way eventually, and that was the only way I could ever change my terrible study habits.
Dude, i have the exact same problem right now, I'm recently always planning on studying like a madman, but it's always 'tomorrow'. Fuck my life
OK, I have to say one thing right now. This is something I am superior to almost everyone I know in. I am VERY good at getting shit done when needed. As in I can study for 12 hours a day for 3 days straight without killing time with Facebook or something like that. It is simply something you NEED to force yourself to develop a habit for. Being lazy is a habit, and getting shit done is one too. The reason people are lazy is because they dread what they are faced with, but you have to realize that you will be forced to do it eventually.
If you put it off and play video games or something you will have the thought of it nagging the back of your mind, and worrying about whether you have enough time to complete it properly. If you do it right away you are able to relieve all of that worry and you will notice it was not as bad as you anticipated. It's like when you got spanked as a kid, the anticipation of it was way worse than the actual spanking was. For example, when cleaning my room, I could sit there and worry about doing it for 3 hours. OR I could simply do it and be done in 5 minutes and have peace of mind, and move on to whatever else I was doing.
On May 02 2012 05:10 INFDexter wrote: I look down on people who major in technical fields like business, hard sciences, etc.
What do you major in? I'm gonna guess some form of Biology/medicine? Humanities wouldn't make sense because they don't look down on anyone IIRC, commerce clearly is out, same with hard science, engineering, and languages. Which pretty much leaves Bio/med?
Doesn't hard science include both bio and medicine?
On May 02 2012 05:10 INFDexter wrote: I look down on people who major in technical fields like business, hard sciences, etc.
What do you major in? I'm gonna guess some form of Biology/medicine? Humanities wouldn't make sense because they don't look down on anyone IIRC, commerce clearly is out, same with hard science, engineering, and languages. Which pretty much leaves Bio/med?
Doesn't hard science include both bio and medicine?
Hmm, I was thinking Hard Science as in Physics, Electric Engineering, Computer Science. Wiki says that it also includes Bio, whereas soft is humanities et al., so you are right.
On July 19 2011 20:09 IamaGrapeMan wrote: i had amnesia at age 20 and forget most of my life
What would I give to forget most of my life... (necro quote oh yes)
I wasted 99 % of time I should spend studying, I think that I'm somehow intelligent while it turns out I'm not if I made shit of my life, made some promises that were terribly annoying, blindly trying to pursue my dream of progaming (trying to pursue, but all of the attempts fail), having problems with starting to do things... all because of that I'm an unmotivated idiot. Oh, and I'm failing all the people I love.
And I'm lying to myself that's everything gonna be alright.
On May 02 2012 05:10 INFDexter wrote: I look down on people who major in technical fields like business, hard sciences, etc.
What do you major in? I'm gonna guess some form of Biology/medicine? Humanities wouldn't make sense because they don't look down on anyone IIRC, commerce clearly is out, same with hard science, engineering, and languages. Which pretty much leaves Bio/med?
Let me say first that I don't like that I look down on people and that I am trying to change my attitudes. I look down on people in technical fields because when they take classes in my discipline, they treat the class/teacher with utter disrespect. This opinion is just based off of my own experience and I know that not all people who get a technical education are like that. But the people I have encountered seem to have such a limited and unreflective view of the subject and its relation to their own lives it fills me with contempt. Once again, I don't like that i feel this way. I just don't like when people think that a discipline has nothing to offer the world just because it doesn't produce something that is easily quantifiable.
On May 02 2012 05:10 INFDexter wrote: I look down on people who major in technical fields like business, hard sciences, etc.
What do you major in? I'm gonna guess some form of Biology/medicine? Humanities wouldn't make sense because they don't look down on anyone IIRC, commerce clearly is out, same with hard science, engineering, and languages. Which pretty much leaves Bio/med?
Let me say first that I don't like that I look down on people and that I am trying to change my attitudes. I look down on people in technical fields because when they take classes in my discipline, they treat the class/teacher with utter disrespect. This opinion is just based off of my own experience and I know that not all people who get a technical education are like that. But the people I have encountered seem to have such a limited and unreflective view of the subject and its relation to their own lives it fills me with contempt. Once again, I don't like that i feel this way. I just don't like when people think that a discipline has nothing to offer the world just because it doesn't produce something that is easily quantifiable.
I have crippling abandonment issues that cause even the smallest of rejections to send me into a spiral of loneliness and self hatred.
I was sexually abused as a child but didn't really care very much and still don't.
I used to, every so often, sleep with girls who were in relationships, sometimes even engaged or, once, married, and thought nothing of it. I wasn't cheating, they were, right? And I never engineered these situations, it always just sorted of happened around me and I didn't object. But then when I was with my recent gf imagining what it would be like if she cheated on me I suddenly felt a deep sense of shame imagining the agony I helped put those men through. I don't know how I could have been so selfish.
On May 02 2012 05:10 INFDexter wrote: I look down on people who major in technical fields like business, hard sciences, etc.
What do you major in? I'm gonna guess some form of Biology/medicine? Humanities wouldn't make sense because they don't look down on anyone IIRC, commerce clearly is out, same with hard science, engineering, and languages. Which pretty much leaves Bio/med?
Let me say first that I don't like that I look down on people and that I am trying to change my attitudes. I look down on people in technical fields because when they take classes in my discipline, they treat the class/teacher with utter disrespect. This opinion is just based off of my own experience and I know that not all people who get a technical education are like that. But the people I have encountered seem to have such a limited and unreflective view of the subject and its relation to their own lives it fills me with contempt. Once again, I don't like that i feel this way. I just don't like when people think that a discipline has nothing to offer the world just because it doesn't produce something that is easily quantifiable.
Sounds like you might be in art, philosophy, or religion I'm guessing?
On May 02 2012 05:10 INFDexter wrote: I look down on people who major in technical fields like business, hard sciences, etc.
What do you major in? I'm gonna guess some form of Biology/medicine? Humanities wouldn't make sense because they don't look down on anyone IIRC, commerce clearly is out, same with hard science, engineering, and languages. Which pretty much leaves Bio/med?
Let me say first that I don't like that I look down on people and that I am trying to change my attitudes. I look down on people in technical fields because when they take classes in my discipline, they treat the class/teacher with utter disrespect. This opinion is just based off of my own experience and I know that not all people who get a technical education are like that. But the people I have encountered seem to have such a limited and unreflective view of the subject and its relation to their own lives it fills me with contempt. Once again, I don't like that i feel this way. I just don't like when people think that a discipline has nothing to offer the world just because it doesn't produce something that is easily quantifiable.
Sounds like you might be in art, philosophy, or religion I'm guessing?
On May 02 2012 05:10 INFDexter wrote: I look down on people who major in technical fields like business, hard sciences, etc.
What do you major in? I'm gonna guess some form of Biology/medicine? Humanities wouldn't make sense because they don't look down on anyone IIRC, commerce clearly is out, same with hard science, engineering, and languages. Which pretty much leaves Bio/med?
Let me say first that I don't like that I look down on people and that I am trying to change my attitudes. I look down on people in technical fields because when they take classes in my discipline, they treat the class/teacher with utter disrespect. This opinion is just based off of my own experience and I know that not all people who get a technical education are like that. But the people I have encountered seem to have such a limited and unreflective view of the subject and its relation to their own lives it fills me with contempt. Once again, I don't like that i feel this way. I just don't like when people think that a discipline has nothing to offer the world just because it doesn't produce something that is easily quantifiable.
Sounds like you might be in art, philosophy, or religion I'm guessing?
Would prefer not to say.
Conversely, do you also hate people in liberal arts who take it because they need a degree from college but don't really care because they want to just goof off for four years but need an "easy" degree? It's kind of a loaded question, but I don't know how to phrase it better.
On May 02 2012 05:10 INFDexter wrote: I look down on people who major in technical fields like business, hard sciences, etc.
What do you major in? I'm gonna guess some form of Biology/medicine? Humanities wouldn't make sense because they don't look down on anyone IIRC, commerce clearly is out, same with hard science, engineering, and languages. Which pretty much leaves Bio/med?
Let me say first that I don't like that I look down on people and that I am trying to change my attitudes. I look down on people in technical fields because when they take classes in my discipline, they treat the class/teacher with utter disrespect. This opinion is just based off of my own experience and I know that not all people who get a technical education are like that. But the people I have encountered seem to have such a limited and unreflective view of the subject and its relation to their own lives it fills me with contempt. Once again, I don't like that i feel this way. I just don't like when people think that a discipline has nothing to offer the world just because it doesn't produce something that is easily quantifiable.
Sounds like you might be in art, philosophy, or religion I'm guessing?
Would prefer not to say.
Conversely, do you also hate people in liberal arts who take it because they need a degree from college but don't really care because they want to just goof off for four years but need an "easy" degree? It's kind of a loaded question, but I don't know how to phrase it better.
I laughed a little when I read that question because I know so many people who do/have done that. I would say yes, I don't like anyone who doesn't take their education seriously.
On May 02 2012 05:10 INFDexter wrote: I look down on people who major in technical fields like business, hard sciences, etc.
What do you major in? I'm gonna guess some form of Biology/medicine? Humanities wouldn't make sense because they don't look down on anyone IIRC, commerce clearly is out, same with hard science, engineering, and languages. Which pretty much leaves Bio/med?
Let me say first that I don't like that I look down on people and that I am trying to change my attitudes. I look down on people in technical fields because when they take classes in my discipline, they treat the class/teacher with utter disrespect. This opinion is just based off of my own experience and I know that not all people who get a technical education are like that. But the people I have encountered seem to have such a limited and unreflective view of the subject and its relation to their own lives it fills me with contempt. Once again, I don't like that i feel this way. I just don't like when people think that a discipline has nothing to offer the world just because it doesn't produce something that is easily quantifiable.
Sounds like you might be in art, philosophy, or religion I'm guessing?
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
discuss?
think about it, ill never do anything great, i wont go down in the history books, whats the point? You can say people will miss you, who cares you're dead what about all the things you have yet to do, who cares you're dead blah blah blah, who cares you're dead
really i don't get why everyone doesn't kill themselves once they found out the failed to make this history books
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
discuss?
think about it, ill never do anything great, i wont go down in the history books, whats the point? You can say people will miss you, who cares you're dead what about all the things you have yet to do, who cares you're dead blah blah blah, who cares you're dead
really i don't get why everyone doesn't kill themselves once they found out the failed to make this history books
I enjoy living, and I've never had a care about making history. A desire to make history is for those who have a waste of a life, those without anything else to live for. If the only reason you do something is for everyone else to know that you did it then there is something seriously wrong with you. That is an absolutely terrible way to live. Live the way you want to live, not the way the way that you think others want you to live.
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
discuss?
think about it, ill never do anything great, i wont go down in the history books, whats the point? You can say people will miss you, who cares you're dead what about all the things you have yet to do, who cares you're dead blah blah blah, who cares you're dead
really i don't get why everyone doesn't kill themselves once they found out the failed to make this history books
I enjoy living, and I've never had a care about making history. A desire to make history is for those who have a waste of a life, those without anything else to live for. If the only reason you do something is for everyone else to know that you did it then there is something seriously wrong with you. That is an absolutely terrible way to live. Live the way you want to live, not the way the way that you think others want you to live.
and when you are dead you will be gone, you will never be remembered.... it will be like you were never there at all, really, in the end, did you live? will anyone care?
also if the way i want to live is for people to remember me when im gone why is that a terrible way to live? if i want to live that way that seems like the best way to live to me. How you live is one of the dumbest things in the world to me, we will just have to disagree
Oh I always loved reading this thread for some reason .
I guess I have nothing huge expect that I have a huuuge crush on my best friend,we hadn't talk for a while,both got in relationships,then both ended about the same time and now we kinda have a romance,but our old relationships went really bad so she dosen't wants another one and so its really hard for me accept because even she says stuff like "we both fit perfectly" "I think we come together at some point" .oh and we told already each us other "I love you" which is just fucking stupid.Got friendzoned hard!
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
discuss?
think about it, ill never do anything great, i wont go down in the history books, whats the point? You can say people will miss you, who cares you're dead what about all the things you have yet to do, who cares you're dead blah blah blah, who cares you're dead
really i don't get why everyone doesn't kill themselves once they found out the failed to make this history books
Hey, maybe everyone IS killing themselves. They're just doing it the long way and waiting for nature to do its thing sooner or later.
Perhaps the fact that your composed of simple elements constructed in incredibly complex ways that we are not fully able to understand. And that those elements are constructed in a way in which we are able to achieve consciousness and be aware of our surrounds and be able to move, think, feel ect. And we exist on a small speck that is suitable for life and everywhere else in the universe that we know of so far is inhabitable for humans.
To kill yourself would be to take all these things for granted and that I feel is a shame.
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
discuss?
think about it, ill never do anything great, i wont go down in the history books, whats the point? You can say people will miss you, who cares you're dead what about all the things you have yet to do, who cares you're dead blah blah blah, who cares you're dead
really i don't get why everyone doesn't kill themselves once they found out the failed to make this history books
Hey, maybe everyone IS killing themselves. They're just doing it the long way and waiting for nature to do its thing sooner or later.
could be, maybe you could argue that if you are not actively looking for immortality you are killing yourself slowly.... it would be a thin argument
On May 02 2012 04:20 IntoTheBush wrote: When I was much younger I sold a joint to my friend's girlfriend who I didn't know was a couple months pregnant. She lost the baby during birth, and I feel partly responsible... From what I had heard she was also hooked on prescription painkillers
Damn, that's just terrible, I feel so sorry for you :/
Umm don't worry, the joint didn't do anything to the baby. Seriously.
On May 02 2012 07:22 Arathore wrote: Perhaps the fact that your composed of simple elements constructed in incredibly complex ways that we are not fully able to understand. And that those elements are constructed in a way in which we are able to achieve consciousness and be aware of our surrounds and be able to move, think, feel ect. And we exist on a small speck that is suitable for life and everywhere else in the universe that we know of so far is inhabitable for humans.
To kill yourself would be to take all these things for granted and that I feel is a shame.
but you never asked for it, it was thrust onto you. I guess you can argue for the pure randomness that happened to spawn you shouldnt be wasted but then you can also argue because it is pure randomness why should you keep it.
to make it clear, i am never going to kill myself, I rather like living and the life i lead. It is just that i can not really think of a GOOD reason that is logical to not kill myself. I guess its the same as me believing in god, sure all logic points to it being dumb but damn it i still believe
On May 02 2012 03:51 MichaelDonovan wrote: I've been skating through my classes on my genius IQ for my whole life without doing any real work or studying. This semester I tried that in my calculus III class and I have a strong feeling I'm going to fail my final on Friday. The funny thing is that I've always known that I would learn the hard way eventually, and that was the only way I could ever change my terrible study habits.
Dude, i have the exact same problem right now, I'm recently always planning on studying like a madman, but it's always 'tomorrow'. Fuck my life
Same, I'm on my finals week, yesterday I just melt ahaha. In two weeks i played 200hours of dota. I remark more cute guys than cute girls. Dunno if I'm gay.
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
discuss?
think about it, ill never do anything great, i wont go down in the history books, whats the point? You can say people will miss you, who cares you're dead what about all the things you have yet to do, who cares you're dead blah blah blah, who cares you're dead
really i don't get why everyone doesn't kill themselves once they found out the failed to make this history books
Hey, maybe everyone IS killing themselves. They're just doing it the long way and waiting for nature to do its thing sooner or later.
could be, maybe you could argue that if you are not actively looking for immortality you are killing yourself slowly.... it would be a thin argument
You're certainly a second closer to dying with each passing second. You don't need to hurry it along. Why not find something to do to pass the time? A little SC2, perhaps? =p
This is probably the strangest thing I've read on the internet. It got everything from people having sex with their mentally ill cousins to people killing their father.
On May 02 2012 07:22 Arathore wrote: Perhaps the fact that your composed of simple elements constructed in incredibly complex ways that we are not fully able to understand. And that those elements are constructed in a way in which we are able to achieve consciousness and be aware of our surrounds and be able to move, think, feel ect. And we exist on a small speck that is suitable for life and everywhere else in the universe that we know of so far is inhabitable for humans.
To kill yourself would be to take all these things for granted and that I feel is a shame.
but you never asked for it, it was thrust onto you. I guess you can argue for the pure randomness that happened to spawn you shouldnt be wasted but then you can also argue because it is pure randomness why should you keep it.
to make it clear, i am never going to kill myself, I rather like living and the life i lead. It is just that i can not really think of a GOOD reason that is logical to not kill myself. I guess its the same as me believing in god, sure all logic points to it being dumb but damn it i still believe
I don't believe in god either. And I wasn't going to argue the things you mentioned, rather what peterblue mentioned.
When we called out your argument you must have felt something. Maybe anger that we had such stupid opinions and were arguing with you. In that instance of time you acted like a human being: emotionally. When you try to look at things from the perspective of the cosmos, you're not following existentialism. When you look at things from the perspective of a human (your only real perspective) then you can see the significance of the things you do, towards yourself. If you eat, you can live. If you sleep you aren't tired. Read up on existentialism. For me that was the aha moment that made it so I never asked if life had significance again.
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
discuss?
think about it, ill never do anything great, i wont go down in the history books, whats the point? You can say people will miss you, who cares you're dead what about all the things you have yet to do, who cares you're dead blah blah blah, who cares you're dead
really i don't get why everyone doesn't kill themselves once they found out the failed to make this history books
I enjoy living, and I've never had a care about making history. A desire to make history is for those who have a waste of a life, those without anything else to live for. If the only reason you do something is for everyone else to know that you did it then there is something seriously wrong with you. That is an absolutely terrible way to live. Live the way you want to live, not the way the way that you think others want you to live.
and when you are dead you will be gone, you will never be remembered.... it will be like you were never there at all, really, in the end, did you live? will anyone care?
also if the way i want to live is for people to remember me when im gone why is that a terrible way to live? if i want to live that way that seems like the best way to live to me. How you live is one of the dumbest things in the world to me, we will just have to disagree
If I want to win in SC by 6pooling, who are you to tell me it's a terrible way to go about it??? Do you get me? If you told a newbie 6pool sucks, he could easily reply that. But if you're good, it's obvious to you 6pool sucks. The same way your approach to live is so obviously flawed in the eyes of the people who know better.
The purpose of life is joy, doing what you enjoy, what makes you excited - anything else is missing the point.
I cannot tolerate children or elderly people. I know kids don't usually know better, and I act nice around them because that is what is expected of me, but inside i want to take each individual kid and throw them through a window. I don't know where this anger comes from, but its there. For Elderly people, its more the fact that they ask the same things over and over again every single day like a broken record. I know your memory is going, but it gets annoying being asked what school classes I have (or equally annoying questions) Every day.
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
discuss?
think about it, ill never do anything great, i wont go down in the history books, whats the point? You can say people will miss you, who cares you're dead what about all the things you have yet to do, who cares you're dead blah blah blah, who cares you're dead
really i don't get why everyone doesn't kill themselves once they found out the failed to make this history books
I enjoy living, and I've never had a care about making history. A desire to make history is for those who have a waste of a life, those without anything else to live for. If the only reason you do something is for everyone else to know that you did it then there is something seriously wrong with you. That is an absolutely terrible way to live. Live the way you want to live, not the way the way that you think others want you to live.
and when you are dead you will be gone, you will never be remembered.... it will be like you were never there at all, really, in the end, did you live? will anyone care?
also if the way i want to live is for people to remember me when im gone why is that a terrible way to live? if i want to live that way that seems like the best way to live to me. How you live is one of the dumbest things in the world to me, we will just have to disagree
If I want to win in SC by 6pooling, who are you to tell me it's a terrible way to go about it??? Do you get me? If you told a newbie 6pool sucks, he could easily reply that. But if you're good, it's obvious to you 6pool sucks. The same way your approach to live is so obviously flawed in the eyes of the people who know better.
The purpose of life is joy, doing what you enjoy, what makes you excited - anything else is missing the point.
6 pool wins games all the way up to GM, that argument does not work. To you doing what you enjoy is living life, to others doing something important is the point, To me you are missing the point, not the other way around
On May 02 2012 07:22 Arathore wrote: Perhaps the fact that your composed of simple elements constructed in incredibly complex ways that we are not fully able to understand. And that those elements are constructed in a way in which we are able to achieve consciousness and be aware of our surrounds and be able to move, think, feel ect. And we exist on a small speck that is suitable for life and everywhere else in the universe that we know of so far is inhabitable for humans.
To kill yourself would be to take all these things for granted and that I feel is a shame.
but you never asked for it, it was thrust onto you. I guess you can argue for the pure randomness that happened to spawn you shouldnt be wasted but then you can also argue because it is pure randomness why should you keep it.
to make it clear, i am never going to kill myself, I rather like living and the life i lead. It is just that i can not really think of a GOOD reason that is logical to not kill myself. I guess its the same as me believing in god, sure all logic points to it being dumb but damn it i still believe
I don't believe in god either. And I wasn't going to argue the things you mentioned, rather what peterblue mentioned.
When we called out your argument you must have felt something. Maybe anger that we had such stupid opinions and were arguing with you. In that instance of time you acted like a human being: emotionally. When you try to look at things from the perspective of the cosmos, you're not following existentialism. When you look at things from the perspective of a human (your only real perspective) then you can see the significance of the things you do, towards yourself. If you eat, you can live. If you sleep you aren't tired. Read up on existentialism. For me that was the aha moment that made it so I never asked if life had significance again.
i could be wrong but your argument is for the small picture (small in the idea that our lifetimes are small in the scale of man kind) and i am arguing for the big picture (i see this as being remembered as important) What you say all makes sense for the small picture, but in the end none of it matters.
My argument is if you look at the big picture, none of us matter
On May 02 2012 04:33 Epishade wrote: My personal life suffers because I am too involved in video games. I've always thought to blame this on things out of my power (because almost NONE of my friends play video games, They all have different interests than me, I am separated from my friends in all of my school classes EVERY single year, etc.). I just wish I had some real-life friends who also played video games and would come and hang out with me or w/e.
I don't know if this helps but you're most definitely not alone. And Bnet2.0 isn't really helping either.
Anyway I've been for a long time and still kind of am in that situation. I have friends and they like video games but noone would care a single bit if I told them how far NaNiwa has come in the GSL this year, how amazingly awesome the IdrA vs HuK matches were back in the days, how a swede is the top ranked foreigner on TLPD or how there are thousands of people actually willing to match matches between progamers in this game... It's just sad. I have noone to share this really awesome part of my life with. I REALLY REALLY hope I can find some nerd friends when I go to university.
Any TL:ers coming to Lund (LTH) next year?
EDIT: Oh and I don't really know if we have the same view on this situation, but we are in the same, surely. However I don't look at it as it's hurting my personal life -- sure, that may be the opinion of the masses but hell yeah I'd rather watch MLG than get drunk meeting shallow, stupid people who I will never ever like talking to. Any day.
Although it sucks that I'm really too shy to "come out of the closet" as the true me. Noone really knows about my addiction lol. It sucks.
Well at least I'm not alone haha. Misery loves company. Really though, even though I feel like I don't have much of a personal life, video games are such a large influence on my life that even if I could change, I wouldn't want to. I like my life, its just disappointing that there aren't people with similar interests that i am in frequent contact with. But thanks for the reply. I'm also hoping to meet some other gamers when I go to college.
This is probably the strangest thing I've read on the internet. It got everything from people having sex with their mentally ill cousins to people killing their father.
Holy crap I've read and watched some crazy internet things but the things on that page tie me in knots............... X_X
I feel strangely satisfied with myself, knowing I've gotten to the point where I can't be bothered to think about the past or about some sort of regret or secret I have to get off my chest.
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
discuss?
think about it, ill never do anything great, i wont go down in the history books, whats the point? You can say people will miss you, who cares you're dead what about all the things you have yet to do, who cares you're dead blah blah blah, who cares you're dead
really i don't get why everyone doesn't kill themselves once they found out the failed to make this history books
Maybe try from the other side, can you think of any good reason TO kill yourself? From your description of life, there doesn't seem to be any good reason to take your life either!
On May 02 2012 07:22 Arathore wrote: Perhaps the fact that your composed of simple elements constructed in incredibly complex ways that we are not fully able to understand. And that those elements are constructed in a way in which we are able to achieve consciousness and be aware of our surrounds and be able to move, think, feel ect. And we exist on a small speck that is suitable for life and everywhere else in the universe that we know of so far is inhabitable for humans.
To kill yourself would be to take all these things for granted and that I feel is a shame.
but you never asked for it, it was thrust onto you. I guess you can argue for the pure randomness that happened to spawn you shouldnt be wasted but then you can also argue because it is pure randomness why should you keep it.
to make it clear, i am never going to kill myself, I rather like living and the life i lead. It is just that i can not really think of a GOOD reason that is logical to not kill myself. I guess its the same as me believing in god, sure all logic points to it being dumb but damn it i still believe
I don't believe in god either. And I wasn't going to argue the things you mentioned, rather what peterblue mentioned.
When we called out your argument you must have felt something. Maybe anger that we had such stupid opinions and were arguing with you. In that instance of time you acted like a human being: emotionally. When you try to look at things from the perspective of the cosmos, you're not following existentialism. When you look at things from the perspective of a human (your only real perspective) then you can see the significance of the things you do, towards yourself. If you eat, you can live. If you sleep you aren't tired. Read up on existentialism. For me that was the aha moment that made it so I never asked if life had significance again.
i could be wrong but your argument is for the small picture (small in the idea that our lifetimes are small in the scale of man kind) and i am arguing for the big picture (i see this as being remembered as important) What you say all makes sense for the small picture, but in the end none of it matters.
My argument is if you look at the big picture, none of us matter
I think wanting yourself to be remembered is a part of wanting to be significant in this world. In that sense I thought it had more in common with what I was saying.
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
discuss?
think about it, ill never do anything great, i wont go down in the history books, whats the point? You can say people will miss you, who cares you're dead what about all the things you have yet to do, who cares you're dead blah blah blah, who cares you're dead
really i don't get why everyone doesn't kill themselves once they found out the failed to make this history books
I enjoy living, and I've never had a care about making history. A desire to make history is for those who have a waste of a life, those without anything else to live for. If the only reason you do something is for everyone else to know that you did it then there is something seriously wrong with you. That is an absolutely terrible way to live. Live the way you want to live, not the way the way that you think others want you to live.
and when you are dead you will be gone, you will never be remembered.... it will be like you were never there at all, really, in the end, did you live? will anyone care?
also if the way i want to live is for people to remember me when im gone why is that a terrible way to live? if i want to live that way that seems like the best way to live to me. How you live is one of the dumbest things in the world to me, we will just have to disagree
If I want to win in SC by 6pooling, who are you to tell me it's a terrible way to go about it??? Do you get me? If you told a newbie 6pool sucks, he could easily reply that. But if you're good, it's obvious to you 6pool sucks. The same way your approach to live is so obviously flawed in the eyes of the people who know better.
The purpose of life is joy, doing what you enjoy, what makes you excited - anything else is missing the point.
6 pool wins games all the way up to GM, that argument does not work. To you doing what you enjoy is living life, to others doing something important is the point, To me you are missing the point, not the other way around
Okay, if you're playing the semantics card, replace winning at SC with winning a GSL with only practicing 6pool. The point was that it's an inferior strategy, that a dumb player may think is 'legit'.
Don't you see that you're doing the important things because you believe it ultimately brings you a good feeling? But it goes the longer route, because somebody has to praise you for doing it (even if it's the conditioned voice in your head you think it's yours). It's much easier to simply do what makes you happy directly.
Another confession... definitely never told this to anyone
When I was in 6th grade I kicked this cute little asian girl (same class as me) in the leg and made her cry. I have no idea why I did it. I think she liked me too. I had her in another class when I was a junior in high school but she never said a word to me, and I unfortunately didn't have the balls to ever go up to her and say "hey, I'm sorry I kicked you in elementary school, I have no idea why I did it but I am so, so sorry."
I think that is my biggest regret from my life during the first 15 years... She was such a nice, cute girl. Probably could have been my first girlfriend if I wasn't such a fucking weirdo.
I hope I see her again at some point in the future so that I can apologize.
On May 02 2012 09:03 rhs408 wrote: Another confession... definitely never told this to anyone
When I was in 6th grade I kicked this cute little asian girl (same class as me) in the leg and made her cry. I have no idea why I did it. I think she liked me too. I had her in another class when I was a junior in high school but she never said a word to me, and I unfortunately didn't have the balls to ever go up to her and say "hey, I'm sorry I kicked you in elementary school, I have no idea why I did it but I am so, so sorry."
I think that is my biggest regret from my life during the first 15 years... She was such a nice, cute girl. Probably could have been my first girlfriend if I wasn't such a fucking weirdo.
That happens to everyone, but don't make the same mistake again by thinking so much about that girl instead of paying attention to new ones!
On May 02 2012 09:03 rhs408 wrote: Another confession... definitely never told this to anyone
When I was in 6th grade I kicked this cute little asian girl (same class as me) in the leg and made her cry. I have no idea why I did it. I think she liked me too. I had her in another class when I was a junior in high school but she never said a word to me, and I unfortunately didn't have the balls to ever go up to her and say "hey, I'm sorry I kicked you in elementary school, I have no idea why I did it but I am so, so sorry."
I think that is my biggest regret from my life during the first 15 years... She was such a nice, cute girl. Probably could have been my first girlfriend if I wasn't such a fucking weirdo.
That happens to everyone, but don't make the same mistake again by thinking so much about that girl instead of paying attention to new ones!
I've had a girlfriend for 7 years now (I'm 32 years old) so that's not an issue, but even after all this time I still get pissed at myself when I think about it. Why on earth would I kick a girl... I think on that day I bought myself a fuckload of bad karma.
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
discuss?
think about it, ill never do anything great, i wont go down in the history books, whats the point? You can say people will miss you, who cares you're dead what about all the things you have yet to do, who cares you're dead blah blah blah, who cares you're dead
really i don't get why everyone doesn't kill themselves once they found out the failed to make this history books
Maybe try from the other side, can you think of any good reason TO kill yourself? From your description of life, there doesn't seem to be any good reason to take your life either!
Why do you define your life as successful only if you get into a history book? Your goal shouldn't be to get into a history book, that should just be something that happens along the way if you live a good life and it happens to happen, You can't really control it except by taking super extreme measures. Just live life. Go through school, make friends, get a job, have a family and live. They'll remember you, and the respect and love of a few you know is worth more than the admiration of millions who you will never see or know of.
On May 02 2012 09:03 rhs408 wrote: Another confession... definitely never told this to anyone
When I was in 6th grade I kicked this cute little asian girl (same class as me) in the leg and made her cry. I have no idea why I did it. I think she liked me too. I had her in another class when I was a junior in high school but she never said a word to me, and I unfortunately didn't have the balls to ever go up to her and say "hey, I'm sorry I kicked you in elementary school, I have no idea why I did it but I am so, so sorry."
I think that is my biggest regret from my life during the first 15 years... She was such a nice, cute girl. Probably could have been my first girlfriend if I wasn't such a fucking weirdo.
That happens to everyone, but don't make the same mistake again by thinking so much about that girl instead of paying attention to new ones!
wait... kicking girls happen to everyone?? :/ is that what i've been doing wrong all these years?
On May 02 2012 09:03 rhs408 wrote: Another confession... definitely never told this to anyone
When I was in 6th grade I kicked this cute little asian girl (same class as me) in the leg and made her cry. I have no idea why I did it. I think she liked me too. I had her in another class when I was a junior in high school but she never said a word to me, and I unfortunately didn't have the balls to ever go up to her and say "hey, I'm sorry I kicked you in elementary school, I have no idea why I did it but I am so, so sorry."
I think that is my biggest regret from my life during the first 15 years... She was such a nice, cute girl. Probably could have been my first girlfriend if I wasn't such a fucking weirdo.
That happens to everyone, but don't make the same mistake again by thinking so much about that girl instead of paying attention to new ones!
wait... kicking girls happen to everyone?? :/ is that what i've been doing wrong all these years?
Wow I can actually remember that I kicked a girl in kindergarden or something and made her cry but it was because she stole a toy from me. I can't really recall clearly but I do remember that I was a complete asshole back then...lol
I recently got poison ivy two days ago. I am VERY prone to it, having it twice already, so bad that I was confined to a couch for 2 weeks because my knees were so swelled up. I have a small amount of it on my ballsack. God damnit it sucks. Also have it on my face and neck pretty badly. It's brutal.
I can't go riding on my supermoto because my cheekpad in my helmet would rub on the ivy.
On May 02 2012 07:22 Arathore wrote: Perhaps the fact that your composed of simple elements constructed in incredibly complex ways that we are not fully able to understand. And that those elements are constructed in a way in which we are able to achieve consciousness and be aware of our surrounds and be able to move, think, feel ect. And we exist on a small speck that is suitable for life and everywhere else in the universe that we know of so far is inhabitable for humans.
To kill yourself would be to take all these things for granted and that I feel is a shame.
but you never asked for it, it was thrust onto you. I guess you can argue for the pure randomness that happened to spawn you shouldnt be wasted but then you can also argue because it is pure randomness why should you keep it.
to make it clear, i am never going to kill myself, I rather like living and the life i lead. It is just that i can not really think of a GOOD reason that is logical to not kill myself. I guess its the same as me believing in god, sure all logic points to it being dumb but damn it i still believe
I don't believe in god either. And I wasn't going to argue the things you mentioned, rather what peterblue mentioned.
When we called out your argument you must have felt something. Maybe anger that we had such stupid opinions and were arguing with you. In that instance of time you acted like a human being: emotionally. When you try to look at things from the perspective of the cosmos, you're not following existentialism. When you look at things from the perspective of a human (your only real perspective) then you can see the significance of the things you do, towards yourself. If you eat, you can live. If you sleep you aren't tired. Read up on existentialism. For me that was the aha moment that made it so I never asked if life had significance again.
i could be wrong but your argument is for the small picture (small in the idea that our lifetimes are small in the scale of man kind) and i am arguing for the big picture (i see this as being remembered as important) What you say all makes sense for the small picture, but in the end none of it matters.
My argument is if you look at the big picture, none of us matter
Deathbob, you should read some Socrates. You know what being immortal means?
It either means: bringing knowledge to the world i. e. make works and books like Socrates, Plato, Aristotles, Homer etc. Or, it can mean having a child with someone, and through them become immortal. Make them a great person. Yes, YOU might not do something directly to change the world, but the people you change, the people you "make" might be the ones who as you say "mattered" for the bigger picture.
You think Obamas grandfather did anything? I mean, he is not immortal, in the way you would use the word. He didn't write books, bring knowledge, do anything big. But you know what, through his offspring he IS immortal and through that, if he hadn't existed, we wouldn't have Obama.
That's kinda what Socrates says, anyway.
You mean both more and less than you and I know, I think. Don't give up on life just cause "it wont amount to anything". That's up for you to decide, and it isn't. Who's to say, that by writing this message you didn't change someones life, and they'll attain greatness. Every day can be something, if you chose.
I don't have enough confidence to tell my crush about my feelings. What also bothers me is she changes her opinion about things frequently, so I don't know if I should experiment with shaky mood, lol. Or it might be just me trying to find reasons to justify not revealing myself. F*ck.
On May 02 2012 06:47 ampson wrote: Out of all the girls who come on to me, about 70% are black, 20% asian, and 10% white. I'm white. It's quite uncanny. Not complaining though.
girls come on to you yet you play sc2? i call bs!! jk jk
if i really think about it, use logic and all that great stuff, i cant think of one good reason not to kill myself
discuss?
think about it, ill never do anything great, i wont go down in the history books, whats the point? You can say people will miss you, who cares you're dead what about all the things you have yet to do, who cares you're dead blah blah blah, who cares you're dead
really i don't get why everyone doesn't kill themselves once they found out the failed to make this history books
Maybe try from the other side, can you think of any good reason TO kill yourself? From your description of life, there doesn't seem to be any good reason to take your life either!
the only reason i could think of would be that in the end life does not matter, or the small impact we have as a person on the whole does not matter is what i mean to say. I really have no intention of killing myself and i really feel sad when people do kill themselves. Just in the end do any of our lives REALLY matter? look at yourself, in 300 years is what you are doing now going to matter? if it doesnt why did you even live?
its a weird way to look at it but it is a valid question
I just read a that reddit thread about personal confessions, and I nearly fell out of my chair laughing about the cum box story that others have been talking about in that thread. There are some really good stories in that thread though.
On May 02 2012 03:06 thane wrote: My ex and I broke up in Novmber after almost 5 years together and I still think about her every single day. I hate myself for it very badly.
Have you gone out with other girls, etc? Try reading some PU stuff and maybe it'll get you out of the rut?
Yes I actually dated a girl for a month or so but it was right after my ex left but things werent right. I just hate the idea that I think about her so much still.
I guess there's no chance of reconciling either? Did she find someone else already?
I have not talked to her since about a week after she left. Is it wrong to miss her still? I do not know that I want to get back with her after having time apart to see what our relationship had become but I do miss her and thinking about her really makes me upset with myself.
I see. I think you should give her a call and just casually ask how she's doing, see where the conversation goes. Maybe she'll say she's been seeing someone else and you'll at least get some closure, better yet maybe she'll say she's been thinking about you too? No harm in giving her a call, it's been frickin 6 months. If you don't reach out you'll probably still be in the same boat in another 6 months.
Not sure if any of the people originally talking will see this but she left me. I do not know if I should do anything because it wasnt my idea/decision. I hope that makes sense.
Sometimes I feel that living is like a never ending dream. The story continues from the day before, and I realize how bored I am of life sometimes. It's always feel like each day repeats itself and the same story repeats. I feel that my life is worthless. There is no purpose to pursue after and there is no motivation for me to try. I wish to be more carefree but feel like I am chained down by expectations of others such as parents. Every thing felt like an illusion to me. I feel that I have no personal motivations, nothing I truly want hard enough that I would work so hard to obtain.
I'm open about being a furry, but because I am so open about it I feel like I have a large judgemental shadow hanging over my head everywhere I go, causing me to be terribly shy.
On May 02 2012 13:53 Pokemonxoxo wrote: Sometimes I feel that living is like a never ending dream. The story continues from the day before, and I realize how bored I am of life sometimes. It's always feel like each day repeats itself and the same story repeats. I feel that my life is worthless. There is no purpose to pursue after and there is no motivation for me to try. I wish to be more carefree but feel like I am chained down by expectations of others such as parents. Every thing felt like an illusion to me. I feel that I have no personal motivations, nothing I truly want hard enough that I would work so hard to obtain.
Try doing as much stuff as you can, you may find something you enjoy and go with it. Should be open to new stuff.
On April 25 2012 07:07 TheBanana wrote: I desperately want to sex my work colleague even though she has a boyfriend and has been living with him for years. If we go to a work-related event with alcohol, I'm going for it, and I'm not going to feel bad if I succeed.
LOL could you tell us here what happens when you attempt it, succeed or fail.
I asked someone out on a date today. They said yes. Later, I went out and grabbed a beer after finishing my 12 hour work day. They texted me saying they take it back and that they absolutely do not want to go on a date. I actually thought it was pretty hilarious. Mostly because I hate indecisive people. I guess it all worked out.
On May 02 2012 18:13 IcedteaSC2 wrote: My best friend is going to afgan in the summer and 99% of the time i think about it i cry. not even embarrassed i love him (i am straight and have a g/f)
I have two friends that I have this kind of connection with (the 3 of us grew up really close). A couple months ago, one of them told me he was suicidal and wanted to kill himself. I told him that I would never that him kill himself and that if he really had a desire to die, that he would let me be there to do it so he wouldnt die alone. I spent the next week crying myself to sleep thinking about it. Since then things have gotten better but I know for a fact I truly love my two best friends. I really feel for you. Having a connection like that is imo the most amazing thing I have ever felt on this planet. Stay strong man, your best friend needs you.
Last night I was cooking naked and splashed some hot oil onto myself. It didnt hurt to bad at the time, but when I woke up today I found it had turned into a big blister.
On May 03 2012 01:23 Soloside wrote: I'm still not over my ex. It's been more than 3 years.
although mine has only been ended for 7 months, yes, me too. Terribly miss her. If I think about it too much, I can probably stumble back into tears, and I hate admitting that. I can relate to you, man..
I'm a bit lazy as well. Strange, considering this drive I always have to succeed - get far in life, education, contribute to society, etc. At the same time, though, for most of my life, i've been fighting this lingering depression/cynicism/nihilism looming over me, for as long as I can remember. I've had one too many suicidal thoughts. I don't and probably won't do anything, though, because i've also figured it's a burden on my family, "friends," and the taxpayer dollar. So I stick around for the "maybes" and "what ifs." I've some-what grown out of this kind of phase.. I can easily fall back in, but for the most part, it's manageable now. But now I face this kind of problem where I never really thought of living in the future, and well, the future is coming now. I'm at a near gridlock of stress, confusion, and more at-the-end-of-the-day depression. And, at that end of the day, I feel alone. Myself only. People, I feel, don't nearly need me as much as I seem to need them. Because of this, some of the closest people I have, I feel willing to cut off with no problem or whims.
On May 03 2012 01:23 Soloside wrote: I'm still not over my ex. It's been more than 3 years.
It has been since last October for me. I was planning on proposing this past new years(would've been 7 year anniversary) and I am currently dating another person and find myself saying the same things to my new girlfriend that I did my old.
Sometimes I find myself thinking about her or creeping her facebook and just wish I could get over her :/
On May 03 2012 01:23 Soloside wrote: I'm still not over my ex. It's been more than 3 years.
Sometimes I find myself thinking about her or creeping her facebook and just wish I could get over her :/
Neat trick: wrap an elastic band around your wrist and snap it each time you think of her. Give it about a week and your brain will associate thinking of her with bad pain, and will avoid it. Also works for getting over a crush that you know isn't going to happen.
On May 03 2012 01:23 Soloside wrote: I'm still not over my ex. It's been more than 3 years.
Sometimes I find myself thinking about her or creeping her facebook and just wish I could get over her :/
Neat trick: wrap an elastic band around your wrist and snap it each time you think of her. Give it about a week and your brain will associate thinking of her with bad pain, and will avoid it. Also works for getting over a crush that you know isn't going to happen.
Please. As if thinking about her isn't a "bad" pain enough as is.
Never felt the warmth of love from a woman. Wish for experience before my death. Jealous of all those that have experienced it. Hate those who talk about the pain and fear love.
On May 03 2012 09:00 Ashakyre wrote: Sometimes I give my seat on the train to a really fat person so s/he can crush the people I had been sitting next to.
If this is true...you're my new hero.
I would post a confession or two...but the ones I am thinking about most right now I would rather not post on here...If I could make a smurf I would just to do so, though.
My best friend was murdered nearly a year ago, I still think about him. The murder was never found, I don't have a lot of friends and I'm still torn up about it. I can't talk to anyone about it though because I'll break down.
My best friend was murdered nearly a year ago, I still think about him. The murder was never found, I don't have a lot of friends and I'm still torn up about it. I can't talk to anyone about it though because I'll break down.
That's terrible. The only possible consolation I can think of when stuff like that happens is that it was just his time to go. I personally believe there are other planes of existence and in the grand scheme, everything is made right somehow.
Confession: I am in my late 20's, I got married almost 3 years ago, I wish I hadn't. Before I got married I would also lose interest in my girlfriends after about 6-9 months. I got enaged after dating my now wife for a year and got married 4 months after. She does terribly in school, can't pass most classes so she dropped out leaving us with a lot of student loans. She put on a lot of weight when we got married. She works like 20 hours a week for minimum wage and has no ambitions to be anything else. She has very few interests and always expects me to entertain her (which is usually just watching the very few TV shows she's willing to watch with her). I have nothing in common with her. I really feel like I'm wasting my youth and there's other people at my school I would rather be with (platonically and otherwise). But I worry that if I get divorced it will exacerbate the complex she got because her parents got divorced when she was 9 and felt abandoned all her life by her dad. I also worry that any relationship I ever have will result in the same fizzling out anyway. I know men are basically genetically coded to try to sleep with as many women as possible, so that's why I'm wondering if I'll never get over this. Even if my wife were the smartest, hottest, most emotionally stable woman in existence, 6 months later, I'd just grow tired of her too.
Edit: I have anxiety attacks when she is "late". Not a good sign?
Here's a whole bunch for you guys, I need to clear my conscience and maybe tell a few funnies. Most of these aren't one line, more like 3-4, but I still want to get them off my chest:
Twice I've had to guest commentate on my friend's stream because he was busy getting laid at the time.
In the second grade I farted really loud and blamed it on a fat kid.
When I was in third grade I was playing soldiers with a friend of mine, and that day we were being Romans, so I chucked a stick like a spear and it ended up cutting the electric wire and our whole apartment building (maybe 10 rooms) lost power for the night. To this day nobody knows we were responsible.
Back in third grade my teacher hated me. Whenever we'd do math, arithmetic, etc. I always tried to find shortcuts or use things we hadn't learned yet and taught the other kids how to do it, and she hated my ass for it. So to piss her off in revenge I'd always steal her pencils or chalk. It would piss her off more but she never knew it was me.
I didn't actually have friends until maybe the fourth or fifth grade. I was known for maybe three things - knowing trigonometry at the age of 9, having the biggest head in the grade (figuratively and literally), and utterly failing at being funny. I'd make the most jokes, but nobody laughed at them... except me.
In the fifth grade I learned that an orgasm is something adults have and white stuff is supposed to shoot out your dick. I got really excited and told my friends that I was having orgasms already. (I was just peeing and learned this in the counselor's office two weeks later)
Sixth grade was my first year where I got to experience the friendzone. My balls dropped pretty early on, but almost every girl in my grade wasn't attractive in my eyes (at least at the time) so I took my horny ass to the seventh grade. I've been looking at older women ever since. I got as close as you can get when you're friggin' 11 years old, which isn't much.
Fast forward a few years and I'm looking at a pretty attractive girl. We hit it off really great, but it kinda petered out after a while. I just started losing interest after a few months and it ended pretty soon after that. About six months later, I realized that holy shit I still loved this girl. Went back after her, no dice. She moved on, I didn't. No big whup, this happened before, give it a few months, get a rebound girl, everything goes swimmingly, life goes on.
A short while later I was diagnosed with clinical depression. They gave me some pills to help deal with it, but I stopped taking them because I realized that I liked the feeling, it gave me an inferiority complex where I would do anything, anything at all in my power to elevate myself in life, strive to reach new heights, only stopped every night just before I go to sleep by the little voice in my head telling me that I would never get there, only if I went back after that girl...
I ended up coming out of that depression myself, after five long months of headaches and overachieving. I'm still a psycho, and judging by some of the gentlemen who posted above me I won't get over her for a long time as well.
All of my relationships since then have been getting less and less intimate.
But there's a happy ending to it. Yesterday was exactly one year since that whole clusterfuck happened. And at the exact time it happened, I stood exactly where I was a year ago. And I smiled. Because I realized that I'm far too young to be losing the fun of life over a single problem. Because I realized that there will be others who I can love more, and love me more. And because I realized that all my overachieving, every single badass/impossible/brave/stupid thing I have done to make me forget her and the depression I was going through, wasn't because of her after all.
Sometimes when everyone's out doing stuff (I don't party much), I walk into my dorm and pretend to greet my roommate. Then have short fake conversations with him/by myself.
I have a confession. I'm not a fan of tipping. I do tip because I'm forced to. I don't want you spitting in my food the next time around. The thing is your boss should be paying for you. I hate the world. I don't know if i should feel bad for feeling this way. Kind of conflicting.
It's hard for me to be generous with money. If someone calls me out on it, I may go along with helping/paying through monetary contributions in an effort to appear generous with money :X.
I really don't like makeup on girls. Like a little mascara here and there sure, but I don't like it when girls use it to MAKE themselves look prettier. Unless its super artsy. But I just don't find it pretty. At all. It actually is kind of a turn off. Then again, I could just be noticing all the girls who do it wrong and make it noticeable, while the ones who are good at it do it in a way that doesn't make it show. Girls :/
For upwards of 3 years, I have spent progressively less and less effort in school, to the point that today I have spent no more than 30 minutes working when I have a test for which I'm screwed approximately next Thursday, as well as 2 final in my 2 worst classes. The neglect in my studies has been at this level for about three weeks, though generally I've spent very little effort the entire year. I can't find it in myself to motivate myself and "bs" everything :/
Also sometimes I feel like I don't have a single true friend in my life, even though I have plenty in general and am outgoing when I feel like it (usually do feel like it), and do have several very close friends...but even then I don't really feel like they're true friends, I guess.
On May 03 2012 01:23 Soloside wrote: I'm still not over my ex. It's been more than 3 years.
although mine has only been ended for 7 months, yes, me too. Terribly miss her. If I think about it too much, I can probably stumble back into tears, and I hate admitting that. I can relate to you, man..
I'm a bit lazy as well. Strange, considering this drive I always have to succeed - get far in life, education, contribute to society, etc. At the same time, though, for most of my life, i've been fighting this lingering depression/cynicism/nihilism looming over me, for as long as I can remember. I've had one too many suicidal thoughts. I don't and probably won't do anything, though, because i've also figured it's a burden on my family, "friends," and the taxpayer dollar. So I stick around for the "maybes" and "what ifs." I've some-what grown out of this kind of phase.. I can easily fall back in, but for the most part, it's manageable now. But now I face this kind of problem where I never really thought of living in the future, and well, the future is coming now. I'm at a near gridlock of stress, confusion, and more at-the-end-of-the-day depression. And, at that end of the day, I feel alone. Myself only. People, I feel, don't nearly need me as much as I seem to need them. Because of this, some of the closest people I have, I feel willing to cut off with no problem or whims.
i had about 6 beers, thats the most i have ever had, and i was really drunk. I dont really remember, but i think i kept feeling a girls tits, but she didnt stop me? i cant even remember it that well, and at the end when we were all packing up (first you have to understand there is a tent area where the food/music was playing) well everyone was out of the tent area in the main house saying goodbye, and i took a piss in one corner, and then someone was coming so i stopped and pulled it back in. when they left i finished in the other corner...shhhhhhhhhhhhhh dont tell!
On May 18 2012 17:01 Endymion wrote: i act like a dick to troll, but i'm really a nice guy and it sucks..
lol this is a lie! i know you...
EDIT: oh god i have a big confession now. my mum just walked in and i said i will be swimming at the party i am going to tonight and she said no....then i argued with her and said everyone else would and she said 'well be the different one and say no' when she left i actually said 'you're a fucking idiot' out loud. I mean, i have thought that a lot of times, but this is the first time i have said it out loud.... ah well
On May 06 2012 21:36 Schaudenfraud wrote: I have a confession. I'm not a fan of tipping. I do tip because I'm forced to. I don't want you spitting in my food the next time around. The thing is your boss should be paying for you. I hate the world. I don't know if i should feel bad for feeling this way. Kind of conflicting.
I'm in the same boat. The restaurant industry shits on the waiters and we have to bail them out. It got so ingrained in our culture that you're the dick if you don't tip. Well mr. manager, how about standing up for your employees and getting them a decent wage. And some restaurants even take a percentage of the tip you leave the waiter screwing them over even more. And no, you shouldn't feel bad that you don't like to tip, feel bad for a screwed up system.
I used to cook a lot so I would buy meat or chicken in bulk like pork chops and cut off the bones etc. I'd boil all this with herbs and vegetables, bacon fat etc into this thick brown sauce and keep it in the freezer. Used it for flavoring pasta sauces, soups, stir fry etc. Anyway my vegetarian friends invited me to a vegetarian party since I'm "so good at cooking". I made a green veggie curry with coconut milk and added lots of that meat reduction sauce. Everyone was saying it was the most delicious veggie curry they ever had.
On May 03 2012 01:23 Soloside wrote: I'm still not over my ex. It's been more than 3 years.
that's really bad man could you do something like talking to her? or did your story end in a bad way?
Dated for 4 years. Ended because I was jealous that she was hanging out with another guy (I didn't know the was gay until we broke up)
It's k you can date me ♥
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I still have dreams about once a month about a girl. It's been about 3 years, we were "together" for about 3 months. I use quotes because we never even dated
1. its really hard for me to confess.. 2. i have never told someone i liked them 3. im going to do it the next time i get the chance ^ soon. wish me luck guys, im ecstatic and nervous. its a plethora of emotion tbh and its preventing me from sleeping so here i am. i need to confess to calm myself since i have too much of a hard time telling people i know ;;
edit 2: i dunno guys, im still not feeling calm lawl
Good luck kenpachi!! >< I will probably end up with the same problem as I grow older even though I haven't yet met a girl whom I really do want to ask out, but do anticipate this problem :x gogo, make a blog on it if you have to
I'm really really lazy and will hit only short periods of motivation; sometimes they last for several days but I never really nut up and just start working and focusing. A lot of the time I'll begin the day ready to kick ass, and by nighttime I'm looking back on a day's worth of wasted time, and at that time resolve to work but by then it's too late. I just can't bring myself to conquer it despite wanting it badly (but not badly enough or for enough time) ;__;
But I think I'm beginning to change for once. Maybe I'll finally be able to learn to focus and work hard, slowly but surely.
I'm a chubby chaser because i'm not sure if I can get any better. I also feel insecure that a lot of my friends will abandon me because of a lot of past experience. I hate being called young.
I love this thread a lot. Got me to log on and post.
My confession is that I feel incredibly lonely most of the time. It is really a first world problem, because I know that I have been very fortunate and have done well in school and have a great job that pays great and is fun. So I try not to let it get to me. But yeah just really lonely. I have some friends and I am close to my sister, but I really don't have THAT person in my life, be it a girlfriend or a best friends.
I've dated around, and have been successful and have failed (my most serious girl friend was amazing but then she became lesbian with her dentist... Weird I know right. And she was happy with me too for the most part. Sex was great, we tried everything from candle wax to anal).
Lately I find that I am unintentionally pushing people away too because I think it is the right thing to do. Just in the past months, two girls have more or less made booty calls on me, not just to have sex but also to get close. But I knew that these girls were just having various issues that would mean that they'd regret it later on, so I say no. And I,m staying lonely for the most part.
On May 18 2012 17:01 Endymion wrote: i act like a dick to troll, but i'm really a nice guy and it sucks..
lol this is a lie! i know you...
EDIT: oh god i have a big confession now. my mum just walked in and i said i will be swimming at the party i am going to tonight and she said no....then i argued with her and said everyone else would and she said 'well be the different one and say no' when she left i actually said 'you're a fucking idiot' out loud. I mean, i have thought that a lot of times, but this is the first time i have said it out loud.... ah well
You sound really fucking immature. Maybe in a few years you'll be able to look back on this and laugh.
On June 24 2012 16:25 intrigue wrote: it's very difficult to give a shit about anything. especially if you're sober.
Tell me about it... I rarely drink and I can't seem to without friends otherwise it's just not fun to act like an idiot alone lol. I'm a really great guy all around but my inner thoughts have become so cruel and from events that happened in the past I've been very emotionally numb.
ive already done the ground work to sleep with my ex's sister when the sale of our house goes through to finally screw her over mentally. Have to wait as at the moment shes signing everything over to me.
I always freak out when I think I have done something wrong in a relationship I'm in. I always joke that I am whipped, but when my girlfriend doesn't text back because I think she is angry, I begin to freak out and look back at the relationship and all the "shitty" things I could have done better that aren't really shitty but pretty normal for a guy lol, then she texts me back with a smiley face and I calm down. IDK if I just care about her that much cuz we are close to being 6 months in, or because I'm just a pussy .
On June 25 2012 03:09 docvoc wrote: I always freak out when I think I have done something wrong in a relationship I'm in. I always joke that I am whipped, but when my girlfriend doesn't text back because I think she is angry, I begin to freak out and look back at the relationship and all the "shitty" things I could have done better that aren't really shitty but pretty normal for a guy lol, then she texts me back with a smiley face and I calm down. IDK if I just care about her that much cuz we are close to being 6 months in, or because I'm just a pussy .
How many relationships have you been in that have lasted over a month? Because anxiety is pretty par for the course when you're new to dating and afraid of fucking something up.
I confess that I get really upset reading balance discussions... It's like little leagues arguing about the MLB, with around equal logic children would have also. Flustering.
On June 25 2012 00:01 Bluedraqy wrote: I tend to exaggerate my skills and accomplishments, because I'm afraid to feel inferior and inadequate.
Doesn't everyone do this?
Doesn't make it correct.
No but at least it means he's not alone.
How society plays out, especially with the capitalistic ideologies, you have to "be the best" in life to succeed which is actually a scary idea... If everyone's the best, what if you're the worst? So on average, I would say (without backing data, just opinion) that most people tend to, if not outright lie about accomplishments, over-exaggerate the actual accomplishment in a way to make it seem better. This isn't everyone, but I would wager it's a fair majority.
I have been guilty of this once or twice, especially on the internet where Internet anonymity is easily used.
On June 25 2012 00:01 Bluedraqy wrote: I tend to exaggerate my skills and accomplishments, because I'm afraid to feel inferior and inadequate.
Doesn't everyone do this?
Some do the opposite. You don't want the people you're talking to to feel inferior themselves, so you don't emphasize your accomplishments much. There is always a fine balance to find so that everybody can feel somewhat at ease in a social exchange.
I'm still in love with a relationship that died years ago, and lasted for years as well. I talked to her once after that and I tried to hard and probably creeped her out. We haven't talked since.
I've done way more drugs than I ever should have. The longer I'm away the better I will stay.
I don't trust anyone, ever. I also have very good reasons not to. But I need to learn to give people a chance.
On June 25 2012 03:09 docvoc wrote: I always freak out when I think I have done something wrong in a relationship I'm in. I always joke that I am whipped, but when my girlfriend doesn't text back because I think she is angry, I begin to freak out and look back at the relationship and all the "shitty" things I could have done better that aren't really shitty but pretty normal for a guy lol, then she texts me back with a smiley face and I calm down. IDK if I just care about her that much cuz we are close to being 6 months in, or because I'm just a pussy .
Must be one of your first relationships..
Take some advice from a 26 year old dude whose had a 7 year relationship.. And who started out exactly how you are starting this one out..
If you don't chill out and take a more confident, relaxed, manly role.. You will lose that relationship (or worse, lose her respect in it)!
I have vitiligo (the shit michael jackson had, though it's almost only in my face, and not a big part of it) and I'm more sad about it than I want to admit... praying it wont spread more across my face so that I don't start to look like some guy with a facepainting.
I am completely oblivious to signals and people trying to imply things. Seriously, I've had a girl try to flirt with me and a friend of mine came up to me after and was like "You realize that girl was trying to flirt with you," to which I responded with a "What? No, she wasn't? She was? Shit, you're right she was."
There were many times in the past few years I posed off as a boy on the internet. I posted pictures of my brother and said I was him simply because I was afraid of being singled out and harassed by my online friends for being a girl. Those times are long past, and it makes me feel silly that I had so little faith in the people who are still my friends to this day.
On June 25 2012 09:40 Lovedoll wrote: There were many times in the past few years I posed off as a boy on the internet. I posted pictures of my brother and said I was him simply because I was afraid of being singled out and harassed by my online friends for being a girl. Those times are long past, and it makes me feel silly that I had so little faith in the people who are still my friends to this day.
I uh...how u say? Had a sexual experience with my litte brothers gf. After the encounter I felt nothing but shame. The next few months I lived in fear that she would tell him but I was lucky. I still cringe just thinking about it to this day.
On June 25 2012 09:24 Vorgrim wrote: I've consistently sabotaged my life at every turn, in one way or another. Still here though.
I have started doing this in the last couple of years and can't seem to motivate myself to care about it. Don't want to throw away what I worked for before that, is there anything you think you could have done to prevent it?
I have this strange fear of punching old ladies. Whenever I'm talking to an old lady, I'm terrified that I'll punch her in the face for no reason, almost like a Tourettic outburst. I like old ladies, and enjoy talking to them, but when around one I keep thinking about how terrible it would be if I punched her in the face. I keep visualizing it. I'm afraid that for one moment, the idea will cross my mind that it would be a good idea to punch an old lady in the face. Right in the face. Bam. So whenever there's an old lady around, my interior monologue goes something like this: "Don't punch her in the face. Don't punch her in the face. Whatever you do, don't punch her in the face..."
On June 25 2012 10:05 Ashakyre wrote: I have this strange fear of punching old ladies. Whenever I'm talking to an old lady, I'm terrified that I'll punch her in the face for no reason, almost like a Tourettic outburst. I like old ladies, and enjoy talking to them, but when around one I keep thinking about how terrible it would be if I punched her in the face. I keep visualizing it. I'm afraid that for one moment, the idea will cross my mind that it would be a good idea to punch an old lady in the face. Right in the face. Bam. So whenever there's an old lady around, my interior monologue goes something like this: "Don't punch her in the face. Don't punch her in the face. Whatever you do, don't punch her in the face..."
Weird, I have this sort of thing too... Just for me it's the fear that I mash my ellbow in somone elses face accidentally (I am not really outstandingly tall but there are a lotta people smaller than me.) And that just among other things.
On June 25 2012 09:40 Lovedoll wrote: There were many times in the past few years I posed off as a boy on the internet. I posted pictures of my brother and said I was him simply because I was afraid of being singled out and harassed by my online friends for being a girl. Those times are long past, and it makes me feel silly that I had so little faith in the people who are still my friends to this day.
Kinda understandable, really. And afterall you did tell people so what's the matter? (Whiteknighting may or may not be because I am listening to awesome music, and I sort of had to reply to the upper one eh?)
Blah, had a really bad day on the felt yesterday. Lost $1000 Losing at poker hurts the pysche. I don't give a fuck about the money, that stuff comes and goes like the wind.
I hate how lazy I am. I don't shave for like a month because I am lazy, even though I hate how I look. I'm Socially awkward because I am lazy, I have plenty of time to socialize but I don't. I am out of shape because I am lazy, I just browse the internet aimlessly instead of getting exercise.
I have a pretty big prejudice against people that are financially stupid. My coworkers and I make essentially the same, after some unemployment my savings have gone from around 4k-12k. One of my coworkers showed me her bank account which had $7 to which she said "only that low because my tanning salon membership just posted" i just facepalmed and walked away. Other stuff similar to this happens almost daily and I dont understand them.
On June 25 2012 11:02 57 Corvette wrote: I hate how lazy I am. I don't shave for like a month because I am lazy, even though I hate how I look. I'm Socially awkward because I am lazy, I have plenty of time to socialize but I don't. I am out of shape because I am lazy, I just browse the internet aimlessly instead of getting exercise.
I hate being lazy.
You read my post and copied it ya lazy dick! Are ya too lazy to think up your own confession? ಠ_ಠ
First of all, I'm not going to confess anything, I'm going to express my opinion on this thread, that is all.
Second, This thread is controversial by its very nature: For what purpose are you willing to collect people's confessions ? This can be a very dangerous thread because confessions are a sensitive part of an individual. If you just want to hear comments like "I think I'm into guys" or of the same sort just to have a laugh, I think you can find sources of such commedy elsewhere.
Third, and therefore I conclude, teamliquid's forum managers, if you have even a grain of conscience, every second that passes which allows this thread to remain in existence is a mistake of yours. Therefore, I hope following my logic, I trust you will end this thread at the uptmost speed and first opportunity you get to do so.
On June 25 2012 11:18 spkim1 wrote: OK, this is my take on this post:
First of all, I'm not going to confess anything, I'm going to express my opinion on this thread, that is all.
Second, This thread is controversial by its very nature: For what purpose are you willing to collect people's confessions ? This can be a very dangerous thread because confessions are a sensitive part of an individual. If you just want to hear comments like "I think I'm into guys" or of the same sort just to have a laugh, I think you can find sources of such commedy elsewhere.
Third, and therefore I conclude, teamliquid's forum managers, if you have even a grain of conscience, every second that passes which allows this thread to remain in existence is a mistake of yours. Therefore, I hope following my logic, I trust you will end this thread at the uptmost speed and first opportunity you get to do so.
Sincerely,
spkim1
I have no idea what you're talking about... Foremost it's up to the user to freely place his views into this "semi" public place, perhaps as a place to find help or at least a shoulder to lean on or perhaps just to get shit off there chest... Also, it has not yet escalated into anything of a shitstorm requiring this thread to be closed, following that he isn't "collecting" anything... It's just like I said to remove tension.
So perhaps you just have no idea what this is about, would you walk into an AA meeting and say "This is pretty controversial, don't talk about or confess"
And to finally end it off, anonymity is what the internet has (specifically this forum) so you can express it without worrying what people think of you.
On June 25 2012 09:13 sereniity wrote: I have vitiligo (the shit michael jackson had, though it's almost only in my face, and not a big part of it) and I'm more sad about it than I want to admit... praying it wont spread more across my face so that I don't start to look like some guy with a facepainting.
I have vitiligo as well. I had it on my face and it was really really rough for a while. I got the narrow band light treatment and it improved on my face dramatically ( I also wear a goatee to hide it a bit). Look into getting the the narrow band light treatment. It works pretty well.
On June 25 2012 11:18 spkim1 wrote: OK, this is my take on this post:
First of all, I'm not going to confess anything, I'm going to express my opinion on this thread, that is all.
Second, This thread is controversial by its very nature: For what purpose are you willing to collect people's confessions ? This can be a very dangerous thread because confessions are a sensitive part of an individual. If you just want to hear comments like "I think I'm into guys" or of the same sort just to have a laugh, I think you can find sources of such commedy elsewhere.
Third, and therefore I conclude, teamliquid's forum managers, if you have even a grain of conscience, every second that passes which allows this thread to remain in existence is a mistake of yours. Therefore, I hope following my logic, I trust you will end this thread at the uptmost speed and first opportunity you get to do so.
Sincerely,
spkim1
That's ridiculous. People are aware that others might read their message in this thread, and still choose to "confess". So far I've yet to read something very compromising anyway, it's not like someone confessed murder or something...
From what I see, this thread is more like a friendly place where you tell weird things you've done or you think, and people can relate to it, kind of like the "Weird things I think only I do" thread, maybe in a bit deeper way.
eh, i've always found one of my cousins kind of attractive. i would never actually do anything with her but i guess the cynical thoughts would be scoffed at.
On June 25 2012 09:13 sereniity wrote: I have vitiligo (the shit michael jackson had, though it's almost only in my face, and not a big part of it) and I'm more sad about it than I want to admit... praying it wont spread more across my face so that I don't start to look like some guy with a facepainting.
I have vitiligo as well. I had it on my face and it was really really rough for a while. I got the narrow band light treatment and it improved on my face dramatically ( I also wear a goatee to hide it a bit). Look into getting the the narrow band light treatment. It works pretty well.
Sad to hear that you also have it, I will certainly look into that narrow band light treatment.
On June 25 2012 11:18 spkim1 wrote: OK, this is my take on this post:
First of all, I'm not going to confess anything, I'm going to express my opinion on this thread, that is all.
Second, This thread is controversial by its very nature: For what purpose are you willing to collect people's confessions ? This can be a very dangerous thread because confessions are a sensitive part of an individual. If you just want to hear comments like "I think I'm into guys" or of the same sort just to have a laugh, I think you can find sources of such commedy elsewhere.
Third, and therefore I conclude, teamliquid's forum managers, if you have even a grain of conscience, every second that passes which allows this thread to remain in existence is a mistake of yours. Therefore, I hope following my logic, I trust you will end this thread at the uptmost speed and first opportunity you get to do so.
Sincerely,
spkim1
That's ridiculous. People are aware that others might read their message in this thread, and still choose to "confess". So far I've yet to read something very compromising anyway, it's not like someone confessed murder or something...
From what I see, this thread is more like a friendly place where you tell weird things you've done or you think, and people can relate to it, kind of like the "Weird things I think only I do" thread, maybe in a bit deeper way.
Hmmmm. Valid point. I must admit I somehow felt danger in this thread, which may have been a too pessimistic view. I must have jumped to conclusions and overlooked the friendly aspects of the thread ,,, Must have something to do with trying to be overly cautious of sensitiveness, which is too often the source of conflicts in social circles. Meh ... Apoligies !
I visited my cabin this weekend. And after the long trek from the bus (i dont have a drivers license, even though Im 25) it was finally time to sit down on the porch enjoy the rest of white wine. There were however a shitload of gnats (? - small mosquitos) with the sole purpose of drinking my blood. It got a bit too much and i went in and got an insect repellant. I the meantime 4 gnats had drowned i my glass. My instinctive reaction was to try to fish them out but my mind just went; "Fuck it. You eat me - I eat you". So they all went down my throat. It tasted like gewürztraminer and justice!
Sometimes, when I'm on someone else's computer, I go to nytimes.com and read all 10 of the month's free articles, leaving them without any free articles for the rest of the month. I feel guity when I do it, but I can't stop myself.
I did a test for a company program, which confirmed my good grades and said I was in the top 4% with regards to speed of thought. But I still doubt my intellect on a daily basis. And I hate talking about myself, which makes both me and others uncomfortable, as I have been pretty fucking succesful in university and now work place.
I am nearly always presenting a happy face and very good at social interactions, but I am very introvert with regards to my feelings and thoughts, people just don't really notice because they are so self-obsessed and I am great at feeding that.
I lost my dad like 5 years ago and I still miss him so freaking much. But I don't feel like I can talk with anybody about this, since you have no fucking clue about how it feels before it happens to you. I should probably talk to my siblings, but I am terrible at family stuff. Actually, I am a pretty bad person in that regard, somehow I value my best friends higher than my family, it is freaking weird.
On June 26 2012 00:46 Sindriss wrote: I did a test for a company program, which confirmed my good grades and said I was in the top 4% with regards to speed of thought. But I still doubt my intellect on a daily basis. And I hate talking about myself, which makes both me and others uncomfortable, as I have been pretty fucking succesful in university and now work place.
I am nearly always presenting a happy face and very good at social interactions, but I am very introvert with regards to my feelings and thoughts, people just don't really notice because they are so self-obsessed and I am great at feeding that.
I lost my dad like 5 years ago and I still miss him so freaking much. But I don't feel like I can talk with anybody about this, since you have no fucking clue about how it feels before it happens to you. I should probably talk to my siblings, but I am terrible at family stuff. Actually, I am a pretty bad person in that regard, somehow I value my best friends higher than my family, it is freaking weird.
Def not weird man. You have spent much more time with your friends than your family. This starts to develop a much deeper emotional connection so it is completely understandable. You'll those whom you have spent more time with more than the rest of people that you know.
I hate myself because of my mother. and I hate for it. Verbal abuse by calling every single one of mu hobbies or interest stupid or a waste of time. I get good grades, I don't party, I don't drink, out of some desperate desire to get her approval, thenshe berates me for being introverted and anti-social. I`m this way because of how she treated me, I'm afraid of opening up to people or being honest in fear that they will reject me or call me a freak. My father know's what she is doing and he just turns his head and pretends it doesn't happen.
I frequent the teamliquid forums all the time, but I almost never play starcraft. I want to, but for whatever reason I never do. I tell myself I'll start tomorrow. We'll see.
Edit: I have real bad ladder anxiety. I've found it so hard to play multiplayer videogames in general, because after not playing them for like a year I'm rusty and I hate losing so much that I just choose not to play. I hate it. It's the same reason I quit basketball in highschool and pretend not to care about anything. Gotta ladder tomorrow dawgs.
I have hit a bad anti-social wall in my life. Ever since about 8th grade i have never really talked with people to much not unless i had to about something. Even friends, i dont call them to hang out or talk i just wait for them to call me. Im still pretty clueless on why i don't talk with people though. I have some reasons that may pertain to my anti-socialness.
First reason: Freshmen Year high school i lost my best friend from kindergarten to 7th grade because my brother got caught drinking beer at my best friends brothers house. So my parents blamed his parents for not watching them and well the blood got boiled on both sides.
Second reason: Well i was diagnosed with A.D.D and so since about 4th grade in school i have been in special education classes that i would join in the middle of normal school hours so im not in the same classroom as all my friends. It was like this all the way up till about 7th grade when i was pretty much only in 1 class with all my friends. Once highschool started though i was never in any of my friends classes and this is where i think i even started to realize this was pretty weird and stupid but was to anti social to say anything about it to anyone.
Third Reason: Computers have always been amazing to me. But computers sadly were used as my scape goat from the real world durning all my hard times. Which never helped my social aspect in real life to much.
All in all i really just don't know how to talk with people. I think i have one friend that i could open up to about all this but i havn't yet. I know i should open up to someone about all this social awkward ness i just don't really know who to first. Should i confess all this to my friend who still considers me a friend and calls me or should i talk with my parents about it?
sorry if this is all typed out weird and wrong. English writing/typing is bad thanks to special ed.
On June 26 2012 13:33 zen22 wrote: I have hit a bad anti-social wall in my life. Ever since about 8th grade i have never really talked with people to much not unless i had to about something. Even friends, i dont call them to hang out or talk i just wait for them to call me. Im still pretty clueless on why i don't talk with people though. I have some reasons that may pertain to my anti-socialness.
First reason: Freshmen Year high school i lost my best friend from kindergarten to 7th grade because my brother got caught drinking beer at my best friends brothers house. So my parents blamed his parents for not watching them and well the blood got boiled on both sides.
Second reason: Well i was diagnosed with A.D.D and so since about 4th grade in school i have been in special education classes that i would join in the middle of normal school hours so im not in the same classroom as all my friends. It was like this all the way up till about 7th grade when i was pretty much only in 1 class with all my friends. Once highschool started though i was never in any of my friends classes and this is where i think i even started to realize this was pretty weird and stupid but was to anti social to say anything about it to anyone.
Third Reason: Computers have always been amazing to me. But computers sadly were used as my scape goat from the real world durning all my hard times. Which never helped my social aspect in real life to much.
All in all i really just don't know how to talk with people. I think i have one friend that i could open up to about all this but i havn't yet. I know i should open up to someone about all this social awkward ness i just don't really know who to first. Should i confess all this to my friend who still considers me a friend and calls me or should i talk with my parents about it?
sorry if this is all typed out weird and wrong. English writing/typing is bad thanks to special ed.
Definitely tell your parents. I'm the exact same way, and my parents thought I was just a lazy shit before I explained how I used the internets as a way to deal with my introversion. Seriously so many people have this problem it's stupid, and once you realize that lots of people feel the exact same way you do you'll feel better. Some of your friends are the same way, and are waiting for you to call them, I guarantee it. But first steps first, tell someone. Gotta break out of that comfort zone homie. Get that stone rolling.
On June 26 2012 13:33 zen22 wrote: I have hit a bad anti-social wall in my life. Ever since about 8th grade i have never really talked with people to much not unless i had to about something. Even friends, i dont call them to hang out or talk i just wait for them to call me. Im still pretty clueless on why i don't talk with people though. I have some reasons that may pertain to my anti-socialness.
First reason: Freshmen Year high school i lost my best friend from kindergarten to 7th grade because my brother got caught drinking beer at my best friends brothers house. So my parents blamed his parents for not watching them and well the blood got boiled on both sides.
Second reason: Well i was diagnosed with A.D.D and so since about 4th grade in school i have been in special education classes that i would join in the middle of normal school hours so im not in the same classroom as all my friends. It was like this all the way up till about 7th grade when i was pretty much only in 1 class with all my friends. Once highschool started though i was never in any of my friends classes and this is where i think i even started to realize this was pretty weird and stupid but was to anti social to say anything about it to anyone.
Third Reason: Computers have always been amazing to me. But computers sadly were used as my scape goat from the real world durning all my hard times. Which never helped my social aspect in real life to much.
All in all i really just don't know how to talk with people. I think i have one friend that i could open up to about all this but i havn't yet. I know i should open up to someone about all this social awkward ness i just don't really know who to first. Should i confess all this to my friend who still considers me a friend and calls me or should i talk with my parents about it?
sorry if this is all typed out weird and wrong. English writing/typing is bad thanks to special ed.
Definitely tell your parents. I'm the exact same way, and my parents thought I was just a lazy shit before I explained how I used the internets as a way to deal with my introversion. Seriously so many people have this problem it's stupid, and once you realize that lots of people feel the exact same way you do you'll feel better. Some of your friends are the same way, and are waiting for you to call them, I guarantee it. But first steps first, tell someone. Gotta break out of that comfort zone homie. Get that stone rolling.
Thanks for the reply man and i will tell my parents and i will call my friend when i have time off work and invite him over for a bowl and have a talk with him. Gave me some motivation <3 I hope you have a great day and life after that.
The worst thing I ever done - I mixed a pot of fake puke at home and then I went to this movie theater, hid the puke in my jacket, climbed up to the balcony and then, t-t-then, I made a noise like this: hua-hua-hua-huaaaaaaa - and then I dumped it over the side, all over the people in the audience. And then, this was horrible, all the people started getting sick and throwing up all over each other. I never felt so bad in my entire life.
This is my first post. Frequent TL-er, first time post-er.
I steal from the from clothing stores and the grocery store. Some things just aren't worth the price, so I put them in my pocket or wear them out of the store. I've gotten pretty good
On May 03 2012 09:00 Ashakyre wrote: Sometimes I give my seat on the train to a really fat person so s/he can crush the people I had been sitting next to.
I love you.
Every time I reach an important moment with a friend or crush, I always say the worst possible thing.
I rarely brush my teeth. I've tried, countless times, to get into the habit of brushing my teeth every morning and every night, but eventually I always just go back. I only brush my teeth before a date with my gf(and even then not all the time) or if I'm going to a formal event.
Not some deep dark secret or anything, but I really regret not majoring in linguistics in college. It's something I only realized recently. While I still cherish the knowledge I did gain studying what I did, language is something that has always just fascinated me. However I also feel that it wouldn't have been feasible even if I had recognized it due to laziness.
Side note (since linguistics isn't simply knowing a shitton of languages), I get hella jelly at Europeans who can speak 3+ languages. Makes me wish sometimes I wasn't born in the states (despite that not being an excuse, I did grow up next the the Mexican border and my Spanish is garbage these days).
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On June 26 2012 15:21 Josealtron wrote: I rarely brush my teeth. I've tried, countless times, to get into the habit of brushing my teeth every morning and every night, but eventually I always just go back. I only brush my teeth before a date with my gf(and even then not all the time) or if I'm going to a formal event.
I'm also dealing with this myself. That, and on a less important note, trimming/grooming my beard (although with that it doesn't help my cat knocked my trimmer from its resting place and broke it, and I've just been too lazy to buy a new one).
On June 26 2012 14:37 Tachion wrote: The worst thing I ever done - I mixed a pot of fake puke at home and then I went to this movie theater, hid the puke in my jacket, climbed up to the balcony and then, t-t-then, I made a noise like this: hua-hua-hua-huaaaaaaa - and then I dumped it over the side, all over the people in the audience. And then, this was horrible, all the people started getting sick and throwing up all over each other. I never felt so bad in my entire life.
I am a folder. I always use a silencing and splash-protecting layer of paper. My reoccuring bad dream involves getting crushed between the jaws of a larg ship that resembles the crushing jaws of a garbage-truck. I never know how I even got there. I am in love with one of my best friends. We've been sleeping together and having an awesome time together but now she just wants to be friends. She also wants to visit me this weekend and I'm not sure how I feel about that.
Just to get it off my chest. I wrote a note saying I wouldn't fap/porn before I asked this girl out. Got an exam soon so I need to concentrate on that too... so hard to keep up o.o
Once I had a crush on the girl my close friend had a crush on. One side of me was trying to get the girl and the other side of me was helping my friend to get the girl while feeling like an ass. We both failed, I still feel like an ass.
I'm starting to like my best friend less and less because he constantly cheats on his girlfriends and treats them poorly and I can never get a girl even though I try my best to treat them well.
When I was 15 we used to walk around everywhere. We would walk to the store all the times for slushies and candies. On the way there, there was always this guy outside working on restoring this old MG. We watched him for months getting it pristine. The interior was mint, brand new white leather, so clean. The guy would always keep the top off the car. Anyway one day my best friend took a shit in a plastic bag. This kid had bad shits too, really fuckin stinky and gross. Anyway we preceded to go to the MG at like 3 in the morning and smear the shit all over this guys brand new interior (I didn't do any of the smearing). My friend just gave this car a complete shit rubdown.
I don't know if I feel bad about it or not, I still think its pretty fuckin funny. I wish I had a camera to record the guys reaction in the morning.
On June 25 2012 11:55 TurkeyKnight wrote: I confess that I love DTs.
You are the worst kind of person.
Confession: Im a pretty compulsive liar. When i meet new people i make up fake names/backstories/jobs etc on the spot and get them to believe thats me. I have no idea why i do it, im not embarrassed about my own life and i even make some of the made up personas less interesting than myself, so i dont do it to impress people, i just find it fun. Most of the time i steal a name from somewhere eg Chris Redfield (junior car salesman), Ramsay Bolton (bastard of bolton - game of thrones/ASOIAF, pretended i was an actuary) but if i think the person is really gullible i stretch to see how much BS i can get them to believe. I did the penguin picker upper not that long ago (folk story that penguins look at planes going overhead and fall over backwards, someone has to run round and put them back on their feet.)
On June 27 2012 01:39 LaGTTJack wrote: I'm starting to like my best friend less and less because he constantly cheats on his girlfriends and treats them poorly and I can never get a girl even though I try my best to treat them well.
It took me a long time in life to learn this important lesson about women - no matter what they may say to the contrary, they LIKE to be treated bad. They don't want a guy to be "nice" to them. I think this more goes for women in their early twenties and younger, older/more mature women have had enough relationships with "bad boys" that they are more accepting (or even looking for!) of a "nice" guy. The old saying is true though - nice guys finish last.
If you're like me though, knowing this fact doesn't help a whole lot - I can't help but treat women well, it's just who I am/the way I was raised. Women looking for a nice guy are much harder to find, but they're out there... just be patient.
I don't want to post here without posting an confession (although I've already posted twice in this thread):
In 8th grade I told my dad I was trying out for the school soccer team (he really wanted me to join, I had played club soccer for many years), but I secretly did not want to play at all... so during the week of tryouts, instead of actually trying out for the team after school, I walked to the local liquor store and played Street Fighter II for a couple hours then went home. At the end of the week, I told my dad I didn't make the team. And so began my slow decline into a life of physical inactivity.
Realized I really like a girl in September last year. Didn't work up courage to talk to her (only a little) until January. Resolved to ask her to my senior prom. She started dating someone a month before prom, didn't get to go with her. Resolved to ask her on a normal date after school ended (to avoid drama/seeing her if she said no/things didn't go well). Asked her a few days after our last day, she was busy, but we went on a date a while later. Ask for a second date, and she reveals that she didn't think she could date someone for only the summer (I am going to college in late august) (can't tell if she was being polite, and really did want to date me, if she was honestly giving it genuine thought, or if she just wants to "let me down easy"). I try to talk to her a little, but she just says no eventually. Can't stop thinking about it, literally every thought since then (about 7 or 8 waking hours) has been miserable.
One of the worst parts is that I can't even act like it "ended poorly" or was a "bad break-up", because it never even started. I don't even have the societal right to claim that I dated someone, or deserve sympathy. I think everyone will just tell me to get over it. It's sad and depressing. It's stupid.
I got the worst obsessive behavior and it is slowly killing me. At all time I need to obsess badly over something, just anything, to keep my mind from going absolutely crazy.
In a way it seems like my obsession drugs my mind, kind of like a serious crush. After some amount of time the current obsession is due to die and I get so depressed. Only way to describe it is like when you realize your newest crush won't work out.
The rejection is unbearable. Having heartache without being really heartbroken, as it has nothing to do with romance at all. The sadness and the loneliness is horrible, it is so empty and I feel stuck with my own thoughts of nothingness.
I realize this doesn't make any sense at all, which is why I haven't told anyone about it, but it is too heavy to keep by myself any longer, so writing a confession relatively anonymous will hopefully release some of my suspense.
On June 25 2012 03:09 docvoc wrote: I always freak out when I think I have done something wrong in a relationship I'm in. I always joke that I am whipped, but when my girlfriend doesn't text back because I think she is angry, I begin to freak out and look back at the relationship and all the "shitty" things I could have done better that aren't really shitty but pretty normal for a guy lol, then she texts me back with a smiley face and I calm down. IDK if I just care about her that much cuz we are close to being 6 months in, or because I'm just a pussy .
Must be one of your first relationships..
Take some advice from a 26 year old dude whose had a 7 year relationship.. And who started out exactly how you are starting this one out..
If you don't chill out and take a more confident, relaxed, manly role.. You will lose that relationship (or worse, lose her respect in it)!
Just some friendly advice.
This. I actually made this mistake not too long ago.
On June 27 2012 01:39 LaGTTJack wrote: I'm starting to like my best friend less and less because he constantly cheats on his girlfriends and treats them poorly and I can never get a girl even though I try my best to treat them well.
It took me a long time in life to learn this important lesson about women - no matter what they may say to the contrary, they LIKE to be treated bad. They don't want a guy to be "nice" to them. I think this more goes for women in their early twenties and younger, older/more mature women have had enough relationships with "bad boys" that they are more accepting (or even looking for!) of a "nice" guy. The old saying is true though - nice guys finish last.
If you're like me though, knowing this fact doesn't help a whole lot - I can't help but treat women well, it's just who I am/the way I was raised. Women looking for a nice guy are much harder to find, but they're out there... just be patient.
I don't want to post here without posting an confession (although I've already posted twice in this thread):
In 8th grade I told my dad I was trying out for the school soccer team (he really wanted me to join, I had played club soccer for many years), but I secretly did not want to play at all... so during the week of tryouts, instead of actually trying out for the team after school, I walked to the local liquor store and played Street Fighter II for a couple hours then went home. At the end of the week, I told my dad I didn't make the team. And so began my slow decline into a life of physical inactivity.
People like being challenged. You don't have to be mean about it.
On June 27 2012 02:52 rhs408 wrote: It took me a long time in life to learn this important lesson about women - no matter what they may say to the contrary, they LIKE to be treated bad. They don't want a guy to be "nice" to them. I think this more goes for women in their early twenties and younger, older/more mature women have had enough relationships with "bad boys" that they are more accepting (or even looking for!) of a "nice" guy. The old saying is true though - nice guys finish last.
If you're like me though, knowing this fact doesn't help a whole lot - I can't help but treat women well, it's just who I am/the way I was raised. Women looking for a nice guy are much harder to find, but they're out there... just be patient.
This is bullshit. It's a common misconception that many foreveralones have.
Woment don't like to be treated badly (it's pretty damn sexist to believe such things, too), they like confidence, much like we do. Most men who qualify themselves as "nice guys" are simply bland, passive, unconfident and uninteresting individuals who find their biggest quality to be kindness. But hey, many people are nice. My neighbour's grandma is very nice. Does it make you want to date her? If your only obvious quality is "being a nice guy", that means that you're simply not going to be sexually attractive. There's no excitement, there's no thrill. Would you want to date an ugly fat girl just because she's "nice"? Maybe you can fall in love with her if she has other qualities. Hell, maybe she's especially nice, she goes to Africa to help starving children, but in this case she's not just nice, she's Mother Theresa.
This whole idea about girls wanting bad boys (and some do like bad boys just like some guys like dumb sluts) comes from the fact that confident, interesting individuals will care less about hurting your feelings, because they don't need you. They don't constantly seek other's approval. This is where the "bad boy" label comes from.
Women don't like to be treated bad; women like to be treated equally. They don't need a white knight following them around - well, some do, but then again some girls do appreciate the psycho-boyfriend act.
On June 27 2012 02:52 rhs408 wrote: It took me a long time in life to learn this important lesson about women - no matter what they may say to the contrary, they LIKE to be treated bad. They don't want a guy to be "nice" to them. I think this more goes for women in their early twenties and younger, older/more mature women have had enough relationships with "bad boys" that they are more accepting (or even looking for!) of a "nice" guy. The old saying is true though - nice guys finish last.
If you're like me though, knowing this fact doesn't help a whole lot - I can't help but treat women well, it's just who I am/the way I was raised. Women looking for a nice guy are much harder to find, but they're out there... just be patient.
This is bullshit. It's a common misconception that many foreveralones have.
Woment don't like to be treated badly (it's pretty damn sexist to believe such things, too), they like confidence, much like we do. Most men who qualify themselves as "nice guys" are simply bland, passive, unconfident and uninteresting individuals who find their biggest quality to be kindness. But hey, many people are nice. My neighbour's grandma is very nice. Does it make you want to date her? If your only obvious quality is "being a nice guy", that means that you're simply not going to be sexually attractive. There's no excitement, there's no thrill. Would you want to date an ugly fat girl just because she's "nice"? Maybe you can fall in love with her if she has other qualities. Hell, maybe she's especially nice, she goes to Africa to help starving children, but in this case she's not just nice, she's Mother Theresa.
This whole idea about girls wanting bad boys (and some do like bad boys just like some guys like dumb sluts) comes from the fact that confident, interesting individuals will care less about hurting your feelings, because they don't need you. They don't constantly seek other's approval. This is where the "bad boy" label comes from.
Women don't like to be treated bad; women like to be treated equally. They don't need a white knight following them around - well, some do, but then again some girls do appreciate the psycho-boyfriend act.
I don't know if it's the best example to say that we don't want to find someone who's just nice. There's certain degrees of niceness, and I think quite a lot of people really think of that as the most important quality. Of course as long as ages are similar, genders are right, there is some physical attraction, and there are no language or large cultural/social barriers.
Confession. My boss wants me to work another year for coop. It's a great company. I just don't know if I should. My best friend is living somewhere else. My friends are living elsewhere. I want to do coop for school ALL my friends are. I just think I'll get really bored at this company when the other intern goes back to school. I'll have no one to talk to. Also I don't fully trust or like my boss because she gets angry when people are slow and is thinking of firing the consultant that is helping me get data (to be sure the consultant is slow but also skilled at what he does).
Not at all. But you will once learn that almost everyone is nice, especially to cute ladies, and that there is such a thing as "too nice". Being "a nice guy" is actually the norm. The foreveralones simply use that term to describe a submissive and obsessive behaviour.
But go on, believe whatever you want, it's women's fault because they're crazy because they have a vagina and bla bla bla...
On June 29 2012 09:13 Kukaracha wrote: Not at all. But you will once learn that almost everyone is nice, especially to cute ladies, and that there is such a thing as "too nice". Being "a nice guy" is actually the norm. The foreveralones simply use that term to describe a submissive and obsessive behaviour.
But go on, believe whatever you want, it's women's fault because they're crazy because they have a vagina and bla bla bla...
This a thousand times over.
There is overly nice guys that get friend zoned yes. There are assholes who actually treat women like shit yes.
But just because you are confident, your own person and treat women like equals (instead of putting them on a pedestal) does not put you in the second category.
Its quite interesting that men who are submissive to women in order to be "nice" put themselves in a higher standard then confident men who treat women as equals.
I'm a terrible son. My dad wanted some help with filling out some federal forms for insurance/taxes, and he didn't understand my explanations since English isn't his first language (although he does speak and understand it fairly well), and it just aggravated me more and more, until I yelled at him.
I got it done after a few minutes, and my dad gave me a sheepish grin and thanked me, and apologized that a son like me should have a "stupid" father like him. I really hate myself sometimes.
I just recently realized that I really want to go out of state to a good college, in either the Northeast or California (I live in the southern United States), but I feel like I haven't done well enough in my past 3 years of high school to be eligible for the Scholarships and grants that will allow me to afford it. My parents tell me that I am going to have to go where the money is. And it's not like I have a totally bad high school performance. I have 3 or 4 C's and the rest is mostly a lot of high B's and some A's. In Honors/AP classes too. But I'm so anxious about weather or not I will be able to afford it. I feel like the past 3 years I simply haven't taken advantage of.
This realization is very motivating but I feel like it could be too late to hit this goal. Now don't get me wrong, there are schools in state that are great and that I would be fine with attending, but I really want to leave. It is very exciting though to know that I have an entire year to make the most of even if it doesn't result in me grasping my dream.
I don't give a fuck what girls like because I already have the best girlfriend in the world. She's the sexiest, funniest girl I've ever met and when I walk around with her on my arm after a night of heavy drinking/ stoned sleeplessness and look like trash she still makes me feel like a million bucks just for being me.
My $0.02. Don't try to be nice guy/ good guy/ mean guy if you already know you're not.
On June 27 2012 02:52 rhs408 wrote: It took me a long time in life to learn this important lesson about women - no matter what they may say to the contrary, they LIKE to be treated bad. They don't want a guy to be "nice" to them. I think this more goes for women in their early twenties and younger, older/more mature women have had enough relationships with "bad boys" that they are more accepting (or even looking for!) of a "nice" guy. The old saying is true though - nice guys finish last.
If you're like me though, knowing this fact doesn't help a whole lot - I can't help but treat women well, it's just who I am/the way I was raised. Women looking for a nice guy are much harder to find, but they're out there... just be patient.
This is bullshit. It's a common misconception that many foreveralones have.
Woment don't like to be treated badly (it's pretty damn sexist to believe such things, too), they like confidence, much like we do. Most men who qualify themselves as "nice guys" are simply bland, passive, unconfident and uninteresting individuals who find their biggest quality to be kindness. But hey, many people are nice. My neighbour's grandma is very nice. Does it make you want to date her? If your only obvious quality is "being a nice guy", that means that you're simply not going to be sexually attractive. There's no excitement, there's no thrill. Would you want to date an ugly fat girl just because she's "nice"? Maybe you can fall in love with her if she has other qualities. Hell, maybe she's especially nice, she goes to Africa to help starving children, but in this case she's not just nice, she's Mother Theresa.
This whole idea about girls wanting bad boys (and some do like bad boys just like some guys like dumb sluts) comes from the fact that confident, interesting individuals will care less about hurting your feelings, because they don't need you. They don't constantly seek other's approval. This is where the "bad boy" label comes from.
Women don't like to be treated bad; women like to be treated equally. They don't need a white knight following them around - well, some do, but then again some girls do appreciate the psycho-boyfriend act.
lol so your counter argument is that nice guy are uninteresting ? I've came by a ton of interesting nice guy. It's true women like confidence... they also like to be dictated. They don't like bad guy for sure, but they like men that do for them or tell them to do, as much as they want to be feminists and be freed from their education, it's still deeply rooted in them. The breadwinner is still, in their eyes, the archetype of a man. If you want to be successful with your woman, just be, from time to time (not always), the archetype of "manliness" in the most crude sense and think egoistically.
I love how in today's world, women will always be in a situation to criticise men and at the same time glamorize themselves (yes I want to be treated "equally"... lol this does not concern the couple at all).
On June 27 2012 02:52 rhs408 wrote: It took me a long time in life to learn this important lesson about women - no matter what they may say to the contrary, they LIKE to be treated bad. They don't want a guy to be "nice" to them. I think this more goes for women in their early twenties and younger, older/more mature women have had enough relationships with "bad boys" that they are more accepting (or even looking for!) of a "nice" guy. The old saying is true though - nice guys finish last.
If you're like me though, knowing this fact doesn't help a whole lot - I can't help but treat women well, it's just who I am/the way I was raised. Women looking for a nice guy are much harder to find, but they're out there... just be patient.
This is bullshit. It's a common misconception that many foreveralones have.
Woment don't like to be treated badly (it's pretty damn sexist to believe such things, too), they like confidence, much like we do. Most men who qualify themselves as "nice guys" are simply bland, passive, unconfident and uninteresting individuals who find their biggest quality to be kindness. But hey, many people are nice. My neighbour's grandma is very nice. Does it make you want to date her? If your only obvious quality is "being a nice guy", that means that you're simply not going to be sexually attractive. There's no excitement, there's no thrill. Would you want to date an ugly fat girl just because she's "nice"? Maybe you can fall in love with her if she has other qualities. Hell, maybe she's especially nice, she goes to Africa to help starving children, but in this case she's not just nice, she's Mother Theresa.
This whole idea about girls wanting bad boys (and some do like bad boys just like some guys like dumb sluts) comes from the fact that confident, interesting individuals will care less about hurting your feelings, because they don't need you. They don't constantly seek other's approval. This is where the "bad boy" label comes from.
Women don't like to be treated bad; women like to be treated equally. They don't need a white knight following them around - well, some do, but then again some girls do appreciate the psycho-boyfriend act.
lol so your counter argument is that nice guy are uninteresting ? I've came by a ton of interesting nice guy. It's true women like confidence... they also like to be dictated. They don't like bad guy for sure, but they like men that do for them or tell them to do, as much as they want to be feminists and be freed from their education, it's still deeply rooted in them. The breadwinner is still, in their eyes, the archetype of a man. If you want to be successful with your woman, just be, from time to time (not always), the archetype of "manliness" in the most crude sense and think egoistically.
I love how in today's world, women will always be in a situation to criticise men and at the same time glamorize themselves (yes I want to be treated "equally"... lol this does not concern the couple at all).
I confess, sometimes I keep telling myself excuses that even I myself don't believe it 100% to convince others that I know what I am doing and somehow it will make me believe I know what I am doing and then completely fail at that.
On May 06 2013 22:11 ETisME wrote: I confess, sometimes I keep telling myself excuses that even I myself don't believe it 100% to convince others that I know what I am doing and somehow it will make me believe I know what I am doing and then completely fail at that.
I have code to fix, a scholarship essay to write, transcript request form to send, half-done animation homework on my desk, and I'm sitting here browsing TL. Sometimes I just don't know why I don't get shit done, once I start I finish everything quickly and I do a good job, I'll feel great afterwards.
I need to get my keys back from my ex-roommate, I hated that he smoked so much that I made him quit by hiding his cigarettes, he couldn't afford to replace them and eat, he chose food over his addiction. His only revenge was taking my keys with him when he moved out.
Time to revive this thread! It used to be one of my favorites back in '09. And the General Forum's been kinda serious lately; we need to spice it up.
1. I accidentally dropped my phone in the toilet out of my front pocket the morning after I dropped my earbuds in the toilet out my back pocket. Didn't get my hand stuck in the hole this time, though.
2. I once took a huge shit on one of the bigger streets of St. Petersburg because all the toilets in the area were pay-to-use and I didn't have any money on me.
3. Sometimes on a crowded bus where someone next to me is being a loud asshole I'll let out a huge fart, stealthily waft it in their direction, and wait for them to shut their mouth in horror.
4. Back in the BW days I'd always do that shit where you pick one race and then switch to another while the countdown timer is still ticking. That is responsible for a good 10% of my winrate from 2007 to 2011. It's one of the things I dearly miss about SC2.
Fat people make me uncomfortable. I know more about drug trafficking than about my actual job. I was in prison. I have to go back around 8-9 years to find a girlfriend I didn't cheat on. I am afraid of failing in the job world and ending in the gutter. Writing this made me feel very sad.
Nothing too scandalous really, had sex with a good friend's two sisters (on separate occasions obviously).
In terms of mental neuroses I feel awkward to resentful with some of those who admire/like me, especially if it's not entirely reciprocated on my end. I suppose I balance that out by getting pissed off if people don't like me, albeit as a caveat it only irritates me if it's due to them having a false perception such as thinking I'm a misogynist.
This thread is sweet, makes me feel a bit less of a fuckup knowing the shit other people are up to
On October 12 2014 22:28 Wombat_NI wrote: Nothing too scandalous really, had sex with a good friend's two sisters (on separate occasions obviously).
In terms of mental neuroses I feel awkward to resentful with some of those who admire/like me, especially if it's not entirely reciprocated on my end. I suppose I balance that out by getting pissed off if people don't like me, albeit as a caveat it only irritates me if it's due to them having a false perception such as thinking I'm a misogynist.
This thread is sweet, makes me feel a bit less of a fuckup knowing the shit other people are up to
I often seek the most difficult path to my goals. Almost in a twisted way of trying to prove to myself that I can do it, some kind of weird self entitlement or something
I wish I could fill my free time with more meaningful activities so that I don't have any time to visit this website and do things like posting in a confession thread.
I am scared of life and decisions. When i have a big decision to make, i just keep prolonging it and the result is that i do nothing. I am afraid i will make a wrong choice all the time. I have spoken with psychologist and i know exactly what i have to do, but still can't do it. I keep looking for the best solution in every scenario, feel like nothing is good enough to satisfy me.
In fourth grade, I stole my uncle Max's toupee and I glued it on my face when I was Moses in my Hebrew School play.
In fifth grade, I knocked my sister Edie down the stairs and I blamed it on the dog
When my mom sent me to the summer camp for fat kids and then they served lunch I got nuts and I pigged out and they kicked me out.
But the worst thing I ever done - I mixed a pot of fake puke at home and then I went to this movie theater, hid the puke in my jacket, climbed up to the balcony and then, then, I made a noise like this: hua-hua-hua-huaaaaaaa - and then I dumped it over the side, all over the people in the audience. And then, this was horrible, all the people started getting sick and throwing up all over each other. I never felt so bad in my entire life.
- I miss Michael Scott more than most real people I've lost. - I've met 43 of the 50 women I slept with on Tinder. - I worked in an office for three years, during which I maybe did 50 hours of honest work. - I'm scared of an imminent, global catastrophe every waking hour of my life. - I sometimes go four or five days at a time without talking to anyone, not a single word. - I have a decent education, go to a great uni and have a decent job, yetI would trade all that for going back to being 18, living with my first GF and playing WoW all day. - I think of quitting uni and my job to become a musician every day.
I often times wonder about how it would be like to be the opposite sex (not with an operation but with real original working body parts and hormones and statue and everything). Am I transginger? Just desperate? Curious? Bad-curious? I don't know. Mostly confused. May also just be a part of the fantasy world I'm living in since I can't handle the real world. Also I never really wanted my life. If I wouldn't feel so much obligation towards my parents and if it was easier to get rid of it I would have done so a long time ago.
It's such a cool page to read. The Darth Vader section is all about him trying and failing to oust the Emperor, and in the back of your head you know he always has to fail because Episode VI.
I'm a NEET and all I do is sit on my computer all day browsing the internet or playing online poker. My only ambition in life is to move back out to middle of nowhere, grow weed, and continue my NEET lifestyle.
On November 27 2014 08:54 relyt wrote: I'm a NEET and all I do is sit on my computer all day browsing the internet or playing online poker. My only ambition in life is to move back out to middle of nowhere, grow weed, and continue my NEET lifestyle.
Out of curiosity, how do you pay for your survival?
On November 27 2014 08:54 relyt wrote: I'm a NEET and all I do is sit on my computer all day browsing the internet or playing online poker. My only ambition in life is to move back out to middle of nowhere, grow weed, and continue my NEET lifestyle.
If you make a living off your weed, doesn't that technically make you self-employed?
the first time i ever had sex with a woman i couldn't stay hard; i was inside her for all of 5 seconds. i didn't come, just panicked. this happened 2 weeks ago. i'm 26. i am deeply in love with her.
On November 27 2014 10:38 _-NoMaN-_ wrote: the first time i ever had sex with a woman i couldn't stay hard; i was inside her for all of 5 seconds. i didn't come, just panicked. this happened 2 weeks ago. i'm 26. i am deeply in love with her.
On November 27 2014 10:38 _-NoMaN-_ wrote: the first time i ever had sex with a woman i couldn't stay hard; i was inside her for all of 5 seconds. i didn't come, just panicked. this happened 2 weeks ago. i'm 26. i am deeply in love with her.
that's 5 seconds more than i ever have T_T
last weekend we tried again. that time i stayed hard but i didn't come for over an hour. i think i masterbate too much and lost alot of sensitivity in my member :0. sex is hard work, i was fucking exhausted by the end xD.
On November 27 2014 10:38 _-NoMaN-_ wrote: the first time i ever had sex with a woman i couldn't stay hard; i was inside her for all of 5 seconds. i didn't come, just panicked. this happened 2 weeks ago. i'm 26. i am deeply in love with her.
If I am with a girl I really adore I get all kinds of nervous in the bedroom which usually results in the great softening. My advice based on experience is to either get a little drunk (not wasted) next time or take things really slow and make it less about the sex and more about foreplay. Don't need a hard dick to perform oral.
I used to make accounts on forums, become a well-known poster (at least active enough to be in every recent thread), and then change my avatar and signature to porn/gore and watch the chaos. Most forums didn't have the handy nuke feature TL has so admins would be frantically trying to delete my posts. Bonus laughs were gained if I was idling in IRC when I made the change. I miss the old internet.
I'm a disaster in the kitchen. I can cook great entrees, but I can't bake desserts to save my life. Which has actually been a problem in many ways... Sometimes I wonder what it'd be like if I could just chuck it all away (current lifestyle) and travel around the world for a year or two...
On November 27 2014 10:38 _-NoMaN-_ wrote: the first time i ever had sex with a woman i couldn't stay hard; i was inside her for all of 5 seconds. i didn't come, just panicked. this happened 2 weeks ago. i'm 26. i am deeply in love with her.
you gotta relax sex is a game and you need to enjoy it
I once accidentally smashed someone's window with an apple (I was aiming for a wasp's nest)
I once (on purpose) managed to throw a plum through a fourth storey window that was only open a tiny bit.
A friend and I once found this big roll of plastic tape stuff that was meant for cordoning places off or whatever, we rolled it out across a road and left it. When we returned about 10 minutes later a car was stuck on it, they tried reversing and it just got wound more and more round the axle. I have no idea how long it took them to untangle that or how they would have gone about it.
On November 27 2014 10:38 _-NoMaN-_ wrote: the first time i ever had sex with a woman i couldn't stay hard; i was inside her for all of 5 seconds. i didn't come, just panicked. this happened 2 weeks ago. i'm 26. i am deeply in love with her.
you gotta relax sex is a game and you need to enjoy it
its all good now, we have sex almost every night and its amazing :D
On November 27 2014 08:54 relyt wrote: I'm a NEET and all I do is sit on my computer all day browsing the internet or playing online poker. My only ambition in life is to move back out to middle of nowhere, grow weed, and continue my NEET lifestyle.
Out of curiosity, how do you pay for your survival?
I'm a lazy scumbag who still lives with his parents so I don't have many expenses. I make a little money playing micro stakes poker, but that money doesn't go towards anything productive or useful.
On November 27 2014 08:54 relyt wrote: I'm a NEET and all I do is sit on my computer all day browsing the internet or playing online poker. My only ambition in life is to move back out to middle of nowhere, grow weed, and continue my NEET lifestyle.
If you make a living off your weed, doesn't that technically make you self-employed?
I don't currently grow, it's just something I really want to do. Despite the fact that I'm a lazy scumbag as previously mentioned, I still have respect for my parents house and property. I would never do anything that puts them, their property, or their reputation at risk from any collateral damage if I were to get into legal trouble.
I can understand the importance of things I have to do in order to advance my life, but I have no way to motivate myself to do those things despite their importance.
On December 01 2014 11:34 ninazerg wrote: I think life is pointless, but I continue to live because I don't want other people to be sad.
I can't promise it gets better, but as someone who's gone down that path and keeps returning from time to time, I can promise it doesn't get any worse.
Shit, I can't post dark stuff.....uh. I stole one of those coffee stir things from harveys. .... The only reason I don't do anything is because I am lazy and I know I am lazy but am also really fucking stubborn so I refuse to change.
I'm only serious about my college now that my (parents') family's in financial trouble. I feel like I'm the worst. I'm financially nearly independent atm, but i could've supported them, if I'd actually done my best the past few years, instead of the other way around.
I have so many sex partners its hard to manage them all. Imagine urself remembering every type of word or stuff you talked about and ther names almost fucked me over sometimes.
On December 02 2014 08:05 Ashakyre wrote: I've been playing SCII since release and I still can't tell the difference between a reactor and a tech lab without clicking on it.
On November 28 2014 13:40 MysteryMeat1 wrote: I still dont know what kind of meat i am
It's a mystery.
On December 01 2014 11:34 ninazerg wrote: I think life is pointless, but I continue to live because I don't want other people to be sad.
Same here.
On December 02 2014 07:22 wmb wrote: I have so many sex partners its hard to manage them all. Imagine urself remembering every type of word or stuff you talked about and ther names almost fucked me over sometimes.
I didn't post on Teamliquid for almost two years because I had 4999 posts and I wanted my 5000th post to be important.
My life improved substantially in those two years because of all the extra free time I had.
I started posting on another message board recently and realize now that I have a serious problem. I'm addicted to posting and arguing on the internet for no good reason. Sometimes I'll go overboard and feel a deep sadness. I need to make more friends, and connect with people. I'm much better socially now than I was in my teens but I feel like I've regressed. Sharing opinions to strangers is fun but it feels like the easy way out.
On the other hand, I feel like some of the most rewarding, informative and interesting discussions I've had in the past five years has been on Team Liquid. It changed my life.
On December 02 2014 08:05 Ashakyre wrote: I've been playing SCII since release and I still can't tell the difference between a reactor and a tech lab without clicking on it.
Glasses maybe? As often as not I mistake a lone zergling with the skin added for a map critter.
On November 25 2014 21:50 KelsierSC wrote: I sometimes play vs the computer on the first WOL maps whilst listening to old episodes of SOTG
Sometimes I stream Starcraft just to fall asleep. I love watching the game but it's so repetitive it bores me to sleep, like a reading a difficult book.
First time I start getting real feeling for a girl in ages/maybe ever, and 6 months have passed without me really trying to put my feelings into forcing myself to get over my anxiety and start talking to her already. Fuck :<
On January 15 2015 07:16 Dark_Chill wrote: I have gym membership but have not gone to the gym in a few weeks now, even though I've had time over the holidays.
Same here. May not want to go now though, people are still in the New Year's resolution stage where they wanna work out and shit. Another week or two and all is good again.
On December 03 2014 09:37 Defacer wrote: I didn't post on Teamliquid for almost two years because I had 4999 posts and I wanted my 5000th post to be important.
My life improved substantially in those two years because of all the extra free time I had.
I started posting on another message board recently and realize now that I have a serious problem. I'm addicted to posting and arguing on the internet for no good reason. Sometimes I'll go overboard and feel a deep sadness. I need to make more friends, and connect with people. I'm much better socially now than I was in my teens but I feel like I've regressed. Sharing opinions to strangers is fun but it feels like the easy way out.
On the other hand, I feel like some of the most rewarding, informative and interesting discussions I've had in the past five years has been on Team Liquid. It changed my life.
I'm the least successful megalomaniac I know.
I know how you feel. I used to spend hours posting here every day. I probably spent sixty hours a week between this site and Halo 2. I stopped coming here all the time, and I quit playing video games, and overall I've been happier for it.
I've had increased success at work, got promoted to somewhat of a leadership role, and I'm getting great experience that I plan on taking a long way in my career, but I'm still not successful right now. However, I feel the need to believe I am the success I want to be, and to act like I am successful and important, or I fear I'll never get where I want to go. I have a goal in mind, and I think I'm adjusting my behavior to reach my goal. I'm afraid that I'm becoming a pretentious asshole though, and that I'll push away too many people and ultimately fail. It's a really strange place in which I find myself right now.
I'm starting to wonder if I have bipolar II disorder. I don't think I ever become hypomanic, but I definitely have pretty drastic swings from really positive and so forth to unbelievably negative and pessimistic, and there's not a logical reason for the change; at least, there's not a logical reason that I've identified.
Maybe what's happening is completely normal, though. It's like, some days I'm ready to take on the world and whatever it might throw my way, and other days I realize how far out my goals are, and they seem impossibly difficult to achieve, and then I get a bit overwhelmed by all the work that I will have to do, and the fear that I won't be good enough to do all that I need to do, leading to an unfulfilled life. I put enormous pressure on myself to succeed, and I think it gets to me sometimes. Not to mention that I'm never pleased with any of the work I produce.
To say I'm a perfectionist is probably an understatement. For instance, I'm finally finishing my bachelor's degree, and I was one of two people in a class to get an A on one of the papers we had to write. From what I could see when I peaked at other people's scores, and from the overwhelmingly positive response the class gave when the professor said he accepted revisions for additional credit, the professor is a tough grader. He said he wanted professional quality writing, and it seems like he was pretty serious about that, given what I just mentioned. In any case, I thought my writing was C material, at best, and I was beating myself up for not having gotten to it earlier to write a better paper, and even after I saw the A, I was still ridiculously disappointed in what I wrote. That follows me to work, too.
On one hand, it's something that drives me to excel at work and school, and it's part of what has created the success that I've had to this point. On the other hand, I think it's a really dangerous mindset to keep. I think that it's this mentality that drives me into the somewhat depressed state I am currently in. I'm constantly telling myself that what I'm doing isn't good enough. I work 40 hours a week (roughly, sometimes more, sometimes less), have an hour commute to school (one way), and take 12 credit hours (consisting mainly of English classes, so I have insane reading loads, and tons of writing to do), I'm upset with myself when I take a day off on the weekend and say fuck it to whatever I need to do. If I'm caught up on my work, I'm upset with myself for not making the day more productive somehow. I think what's happening is that my brain finally catches on to my motivation technique and realizes that if I'm the sum of my work, and my work is never good enough, then I'm not good enough, and then that leads to my fear of never succeeding.
I don't know what to do to make that situation better. My fear is that I'll end up going way off the reservation into a really deep depression, or that I'll change my mentality and find comfort in mediocrity. I think I'd rather kill myself from depression than live a mediocre, lower-middle class life. This post is already long enough, so I won't get into all the background reasons for that, but I've thought a lot about it, and I don't say that lightly.
On an unrelated note, I stole four Jetsteam pens from my school's bookstore today. I wouldn't normally do something like that, but they totally fucked me over on an approved class substitution last semester, and it cost me an extra $400 or $600 (I'm paying for school out of my pocket, so that kind of hurt). I figure the least they can do is give me a few pens in return. Pricks.
I hate people, or more like I just don't care about them at all. I had a girlfriend for 6 months like 6 years ago but I got bored and since then I don't even want one, I have 0 friends, just some random people who I talk to about work related things, I wish I could just live my alone in a basement with a PC, actually I have more 'friends' on the internet since I can be myself without any consequences and it's lot easier to find people with the same interests. For example I fap to hentai and watch cute girls doing cute things in anime etc and well these are not really acceptable in the current society, fortunately nobody knows these. I hate my job even though most people would be envious of it since sometimes I just browse the internet for like half the day and I get an above average salary, I just don't feel motivated. Actually I don't feel motivated to do anything at all except when playing dota or csgo, I just love the feeling of competition. I don't feel strongly about anything in life, I guess that's an advantage since I see people getting stressed over so many things and I'm like yeah right whatever, let's say my mother would die tomorrow and I would just move on, not like I can do anything about it, I'm dead inside or something. The strange thing is that when I read some literature or watch anime I can feel strong emotions but in real life I just can't connect. I always look down on people who just get a gf and/or kids because that's normal and then whine about it every day, well it was your choice so live with it, I don't give a shit about it(fuck this sounds edgy as hell). My relationship isn't bad with anybody, I act professional on the surface and in my job so it's not like I have any problems, I just sometimes feel like what's the point of all this shit. And no, I don't want to deal with kids or a gf and the problems that come with them, I want to spend my time as I want to, secluded from society etc but unfortunately that is not possible until I win the lottery or something.
Well this became a rather long incoherent rant about random things, whatever.
On January 20 2015 02:58 rwn wrote: I hate people, or more like I just don't care about them at all. I had a girlfriend for 6 months like 6 years ago but I got bored and since then I don't even want one, I have 0 friends, just some random people who I talk to about work related things, I wish I could just live my alone in a basement with a PC, actually I have more 'friends' on the internet since I can be myself without any consequences and it's lot easier to find people with the same interests. For example I fap to hentai and watch cute girls doing cute things in anime etc and well these are not really acceptable in the current society, fortunately nobody knows these. I hate my job even though most people would be envious of it since sometimes I just browse the internet for like half the day and I get an above average salary, I just don't feel motivated. Actually I don't feel motivated to do anything at all except when playing dota or csgo, I just love the feeling of competition. I don't feel strongly about anything in life, I guess that's an advantage since I see people getting stressed over so many things and I'm like yeah right whatever, let's say my mother would die tomorrow and I would just move on, not like I can do anything about it, I'm dead inside or something. The strange thing is that when I read some literature or watch anime I can feel strong emotions but in real life I just can't connect. I always look down on people who just get a gf and/or kids because that's normal and then whine about it every day, well it was your choice so live with it, I don't give a shit about it(fuck this sounds edgy as hell). My relationship isn't bad with anybody, I act professional on the surface and in my job so it's not like I have any problems, I just sometimes feel like what's the point of all this shit. And no, I don't want to deal with kids or a gf and the problems that come with them, I want to spend my time as I want to, secluded from society etc but unfortunately that is not possible until I win the lottery or something.
Well this became a rather long incoherent rant about random things, whatever.
I've played thousands of hours of SC2 multiplayer, but I'm just starting the single-player campaigns- WoL, then HotS, then LotV, etc.- today. Based on my work schedule, I assume I'll be done with all the campaigns sometime in the summer.
I feel like a fraud all the time. It's like I don't have any real skill and knowledge and when it's going to be time to actually find a job and perform, I'll be horribly inadequate. Just stumbling my way through life, hoping people won't pierce through my facade and expose me.