The purpose of this thread is to facilitate discussion within this great community with regards to apathy, anxiety, depression, and generally bad feelings. Hopefully, through discussion, support, and that universal problem-solver time, TL can help everybody help everybody, and we can turn that frown upside-down.
So if you had a shitty day, week, month, or year; if you were lied to, cheated on, or heart-broken; if you feel rejected, lonely, or defeated; if you got a bad grade, or stubbed your toe, or got stung by a bee; if you feel sick, or if you think you're coming down with Seasonal Affect Disorder, if you don't feel happy, post why in this thread, and, while the community may not be able to find a solution to all your problems, it can, at the very least, show the encouragement and support that you might need.
If, while reading the sad thread, you want to listen to sad music, here is a metric fuck-ton of depressing music:
I've started my second quarter of College-- first quarter I lived on campus, but I realized that I would save a lot of money by living at home instead (I live pretty close to campus), so I moved back home after a quarter. During winter break, a lot of my friends came home to visit, and now that most of them are gone, I feel totally isolated from everybody. The weird thing, though, is that even on campus, I didn't feel close to my roommates. They were friendly and outgoing, but all week I was studying and all weekend they were partying (I despise big parties-- I like small get-togethers where people can chill, shoot the shit, and get to know each other; I hate party music, dancing, and the other loud, obnoxious stuff you get with big parties). Everyone I talk to now is mostly through Skype, FaceBook, and StarCraft, so I feel like I don't really interact with human beings without facilitating it through a computer. I hate opening up too because I'm worried that if people actually get to know me they'll realize how fucking crazy I am. Maybe I'm just anti-social I guess.
EDIT: removed image maro EDIT 2: going to stop editing OP with music from comments. I don't want to break Team Liquid :/
Last edit: 2012-01-16 00:40:21
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StyLeD United States. January 15 2012 18:25. Posts 2919
Nothing like classical music for emotional times, perfectly complementing your anger, despair, sorrow, etc., and offering the prospect of healing and hope.
Many more in my list of favorites for when I'm depressed, will post more on request.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯ saving this here because I use it, don't know how to make it, and don't know it's name
Zinnwaldite Seychelles. January 15 2012 18:39. Posts 1307
hmm,, TC,, i'm in a pretty similar place right now,, funny that.. it's only for a few years though,, right?
I get along with most of the people,, they are quite nice and all.. But they like partying ALOT,, so mostly the only social stuff i do is when we have study groups or other rare happenings..
It's not all bad though,, far from it.. I get to focus on school work,, and that is the main reason i am where i am..
We promise with a view to hope, but the reason to "accomplish" what we promised would be fear.
SocialisT Sweden. January 15 2012 18:40. Posts 160
suicide note Janice Mirikitani How many notes written . . . ink smeared like birdprints in snow.
not good enough not pretty enough not smart enough
dear mother and father. I apologize for disappointing you. I've worked very hard, not good enough harder, perhaps to please you.
If only I were a son, shoulders broad as the sunset threading through pine, I would see the light in my mother's eyes, or the golden pride reflected in my father's dream of my wide, male hands worthy of work and comfort.
I would swagger through life muscled and bold and assured, drawing praises to me like currents in the bed of wind, virile with confidence.
not good enough not strong enough not good enough
I apologize. Tasks do not come easily. Each failure, a glacier. Each disapproval, a bootprint. Each disappointment, ice above my river. So I have worked hard.
not good enough. My sacrifice I will drop bone by bone, perched on the ledge of my womanhood, fragile as wings.
not strong enough It is snowing steadily surely not good weather for flying - this sparrow sillied and dizzied by the wind on the edge.
not smart enough. I make this ledge my altar to offer penance. This air will not hold me, the snow burdens my crippled wings,
my tears drop like bitter cloth softly into the gutter below.
not good enough not strong enough not smart enough
Choices thin as shaved ice. Notes shredded drift like snow on my broken body, covers me like whispers of sorries.
Perhaps when they find me they will bury my bird bones beneath a sturdy pine
and scatter my feathers like unspoken song over this white and cold and silent
breast of earth.
"My love for Jaedong is like this: when I think of him practicing for 14 hours a day, my heart hurts and I want to massage his shoulders and make hot soups for him."
Prof2 United States. January 15 2012 19:12. Posts 6
Here's something to brighten the mood a little while not denying it.
Plus a solo piano album that will get you to cry whenever you feel like you need to. So simple and extremely powerful, at least in my opinion/experience.
우정호 1988 - 언제까지나
FuzzyJAM Scotland. January 15 2012 19:30. Posts 3767
Some Eels songs are just soul destroying, and this is probably the most powerful for me. The lyrics come from one of the last diary entries of his sister, who committed suicide.
Hard lane or feed.
Caedos United States. January 15 2012 19:31. Posts 4
These are both from a Christian artist, and have strong Christian overtones, but the stories and emotions of the characters are moving.
I'm kind of a momma's boy, so this one always gets me.
Also, I had a heart defect when I was born and had to have surgery at 2 days old; this song reminds me of how much my dad cares for me, and what my parents went through during that time. The song is about a young boy who was diagnosed with leukemia.
Gamegene United States. January 15 2012 19:41. Posts 6641
... What do you hope for? What do you want? .. Don’t hate me!
What I fear is, Rejection
What I need is, Contact and approval
May I stay here? May I stay by you? Do you love me? .. Don’t you want to go back? No.
Why? I fear. I fear to be hated. Because I would disappear..! .. What do you wish for? To erase anxiety
What do you need? To erase sadness
Aren’t you happy? For that I need my value
"My love for Jaedong is like this: when I think of him practicing for 14 hours a day, my heart hurts and I want to massage his shoulders and make hot soups for him."
inamorato United States. January 15 2012 19:44. Posts 262
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Hopefully, through discussion, support, and that universal problem-solver time, TL can help everybody help everybody, and we can turn that frown upside-down.
HardMacro Canada. January 15 2012 18:37. Posts 361
