Now in this blog I will talk about how my girlfriend is pregnant. It's a crazy thought, she's pregnant, but how? why? I thought about my bestfriend being reincarnated into my unborn child, but that's not possible, or is it? I don't know what to believe. Me and her have been together for over a year now and I am truly in love. I think I would be with her no matter what and I know she feels the same way about me. There's times where we feel the opposite, but we always work them out; yesterday night, she kept complaining about her boobs hurting and the fact that she didn't have her period in over a month.
Already having two pregnancy test in the drawer from the previous scare, she took the test and it came out positive. I was shocked and amazed, but just shocked in general. She's pregnant, it feels weird. My perspective of her changed; She was my one and only. We talked about the situation, we agreed to having an abortion though. We aren't stable enough to have a kid, we aren't even done with school. I actually just applied to start taking Psychology courses. How will we be able to handle a baby if our lives aren't even set yet. I have a stable job with stable income, but I don't think I'm ready for a kid or am I? We thought about it and talked about it, but we need to do what we have to do.
My thoughts are going crazy, it's my child that she is bearing, I already feel the pain of thinking of my baby being removed. Should we go through this procedure? I won't know till tomorrow. I set up an appointment for 9am at the clinic. My girlfriend couldn't call her self because she kept crying. I took it upon myself to call. I told her "No matter what, I'm here for you. In what ever decision you decide, I am here for you." Let's see how things go and how she will feel tomorrow. To be honest, I would love to have the child, but realistically speaking, I don't think we'll be able to handle it. I just needed to vent out a bit and let's hope everything goes well tomorrow. Either we have the child, or we don't. I'll update what happens tomorrow.