No matter how much I committed to a long term goal, it seemed like it would always slip away from me, no matter what. It seemed like I couldn't get good at anything.
Then I opened my eyes to what I was good at - and I noticed something in particular. I had somewhat of a long term goal, but there were more short term goals and more processes that were involved. But the most important part was -
I enjoyed the simplest action of whatever activity it was.
Back when I played Halo, I didn't care about winning. I just loved blaining people with snipers or getting off 4-shots. I loved teamwork and moving around. I loved calling people out and having awareness, and I loved spending time with my best friend. I got decent at the game. But I sucked when I tried to get tournament level.
When I was learning how to dance, I didn't want to become anything special - I just wanted to do it because it was hella fun. My friend challenged me to learn a dance for the 8th grade promotion - and I ended up doing way, way, way more than just that lol.
When I tried to be fit, I wasn't fit.
When I started to do parkour/freerunning/tricking + Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu because flipping over/climbing onto/jumping off of shit is really fun and so is rolling around with sweaty men, I didn't really think about it too much. I mean sure I'd like to be a black belt, but honestly at this point I don't really care. I just want to learn all of techniques, but more importantly I want to be out on the mat sparring with someone because just the fundamental action of that is so enjoyable for me.
Parkour was stressful when I held myself up to a standard. Parkour was awesome when I just had fun. Parkour was amazing if I had a loose standard and played around with it.
And parkour was the best when I played with and challenged myself.
[Speaking of parkour...well technically tricking...I LANDED MY FIRST BACKFLIP TODAY! :D:D:D]
I've decided to get back into Starcraft, and maybe it's because I'm older, but I'm having more fun than I ever had playing the game - I used to get really stressed because I cared about losing too much. But now, I honestly don't care, because the action of microing against someone, or pressing all the buttons I have to press, or microing 3 drops at the same time, making that correct decision [or a wrong one and laughing about it] is amazing to me. And I have a feeling this time I'll go a lot farther - but I don't really care I'm just here for the fun XD.
In other words, keep it playful!
EDIT: I'm not saying dgaf; I was wayyy too far on the perfectionist side and I realized I need to have fun