But I keep making content whenever I have free time, for the love of it more than anything else. I would like to make a lot more comprehensive stuff like tutorials, taking requests and such... but that's hard unless I win the lottery. There are a lot of free tutorials out there sure, but people don't seem to get that if you want the good stuff, it naturally has to come from people with a crap tons of experience, and those people are not 18 year olds living with their parents, they have real bills to pay like I do. So I have my patreon page to help me make more contents and streams for the masses. It feels ridiculous cuz it feels like I have to ask them for coffee money, and they are doing me a favor. When it is more like, I can do a lot of commissions for a lot more $, and I give a lot of them up, asking people for pizza tipping money, to give them something that I think is way more valuable.
There are billions and billions of artists who are better than me. Yet you rarely find any of them devote a lot of time doing online videos. I'm slightly better than mediocre and have a decade of commission experience and has had theater released stuff and officials of states as clientele. But I'm a dumb-ass that still spends a lot of time making youtube videos because I love my boo boo (viewers who do enjoy the artwork)