For anyone who has known me personally the fact that Starcraft hasn't always given me the greatest returns for the amount of effort I put into it will come as no surprise, and I think it's time to officially set myself free from it. I'm done hiding, it’s time I came [F]orward before you again.
It's been quite the rollercoaster ride with you. Starting from my small local beginnings with my first big team owner forgetting to remember to add me before the live draft of our first announcement just about seven years ago, to my time to WCS to the occasional stints I had thereafter... all the way to today.
For those who are unaware: A group known as The Banshees which has grown and added on new elements as it grows started a community accepting of all women and eventually, a place for them to compete. I came back once again to get to be a part of this, it was something I never had during my entire career.
There have been thirteen Banshee tournaments since that date. I won ten in a row, QB won two, and the most recent tournament ended with no winner. I’m beginning to get busier and busier with the breakneck speed my life is taking off and it’s becoming increasingly harder for me to justify putting the time and effort required into Starcraft to keep up – the game won’t stop changing and in many good ways, I am a relic of this time.
I don’t think I could have made it to fifteen wins in a row if I tried, and I wouldn’t want my spree to have ended on an unpoetic number. This is in a strange twist of fate the best outcome I could have envisioned; I get to be humbled and may bow out of the ring without exactly losing in the most technical sense of the word. I’m done competing, it’s time to [R]eign.
Don’t think this is entirely the end for me in the Starcraft world. I intend to cocast the fifteenth tournament with ZombieGrub, who has graciously agreed to have me despite my lack of experience. Afterwards I may show up very few tournaments, depending on what my scheduling looks like – I’ll probably only play [r]andom or [t]erran though and hopefully you’ll see significantly less of me on the ladder than you already do. If I’m lucky, the other Banshees will make me develop a habit of losing so I never break my streak – I’ll do my best to enable them for you.
With the responsibility of Starcraft disappearing behind me, I have a lot more time and energy to dive down and explore some of the many doors opening ahead of me. If you’re lucky and our interests align you may even be able to see more of me than you used to as I intend to continue streaming and will hopefully be more accessible than I have been in the past. I’m done cracking, it’s time to [E]xist.
I’m sorry for waiting so long to come before you like this. Those of you who know me will have known I’ve been hurt and scared, but that is no longer an obstacle for me. I would like to request that those who know the stories behind some of my darkest scars remain silent about them – this is about moving on, not lingering in the past.
I think it’s finally time to say goodbye, Starcraft. I would like to thank you all for watching and supporting me, and for all of you who have given me inspiring experiences, but my spark has long since come and gone… and I hope to never see it again. I’m done waiting, thank you all for warming yourselves with me by the fire – but it’s my turn to [E]xit.
I’ll be in touch.