Okay anyways I have just turned 18 about 2 months ago and graduated highschool with good grades.. things were going well up until about march or april of last year.
Overall through highschool I had probably only skipped say around 10 days per year and it was much the same in grade 12 until I hit the last quarter of the year. I knew I just had to get certain grades to get into a good university so I pretty much just aimed at attaining those and finishing up. So I ended up skipping probably about 30-40% of the days left in that ~2.5month period. Which I know is definetely not a smart thing to do but whatever I got accepted into a good university and family was happy etc.
For some reason from that period up until now I have lost all academic motivation.
I was never a person who found school interesting in the least but I forced myself to get good grades so that I could keep my options open as much as possible. This was so that I could do what I wanted when I found out what that was. I still don't know what the hell that is.
I found out zero friends are attending this university, and like 90% of them are taking time off school to work.. most wouldn't have a shot at getting to it anyways but intend to go to another post secondary at some time.
So I started uni at the beginning of september just taking Physics, Calculus, and Chemistry. Chem is an interesting subject to me but can be extremely dry, math and physics are okay some times but I find those boring as well. I told myself before I began that I wasn't going to be able to motivate myself to do this much work if I didn't like the subjects. Well now about 3 weeks in I find I don't like the classes, I have no friends in the school and don't even know anyone, and I'm stuck with my parents on my back to get a higher level education.
What the fuck do I do here? If I drop my classes and get a job with some friends my parents are going to be pissed, I'll lose around $500. Not a big deal since I will be working but at least I'll be doing something with friends and making some money.
I have the intention of going back to university as soon as I feel I am ready (ie. find what I would like to do.) The major problem is lack of motivation to put the effort in to something I don't like... I have no idea what I want to do for a living but I know it involving science isn't it.
Can anyone suggest how I go about bringing this up with my parents, alternative solutions or magical sources of motivation, what would you do?