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We have walked very similar paths in life, I thank you for sharing your experiences, mistakes and insights. On August 02 2013 17:11 ROOTheognis wrote:The first and most important thing I learned and trust me I learned this very quickly: No one owes you anything. It's the sad, stone-cold truth. No one. Not my parents, my girlfriend, my teammates, MLG or Blizzard. I, of course like many others out there, had some sense of entitlement. I'm not sure I can even count how many times I fantasized about some random person just handing me a blank check or a stack of sweaty cold-hard cash. Maybe even the possibility of getting a lucky donation discretely left in my Paypal crossed my mind a few times. There are extremely fortunate circumstances that can happen sometimes such as when I was helped out with getting a new computer, but these should never be demanded or expected. In the past, I felt entitled to certain things; whether that be money, player interviews, matches shown on the main stage, etc. It was a paradigm shift for me when I finally realized that if opportunity doesn't knock, you have to build yourself a door. Instead of expecting a salary, practice and try to attain results making you worthy enough. Instead of complaining about not getting those interviews which give you much needed exposure, make your own damn content in the form of replay packs, tutorials, blogs, etc. Everyone has a story right? If no one wants to narrate it for you, the responsibility is on you to do so. Instead of bitching and moaning of not getting a broad-casted main stage match, wear a banana suit on your stream or become so damn good that they have no option but to show your match. The list goes on but it was important that I got it through my head from the start when I first moved out on my own. A bird sitting on a tree is never afraid of the branch breaking, because her trust is not on the branch but on it's own wings. Corny. I know. :D Eerie, this paragraph certainly struck home. Having recently returned to eSports, very much uncertain what worth my name still held, if any... There are stages that you, too, seem to have gone through. Entitlement. Rejection. Frustration. Enlightenment. Acceptance. And finally, re-dedication - not just to the scene, the game or to competing professionally; to something beyond what you first set out to achieve. In a sense, only to yourself. I struggle to put it into words, but I believe that you´re in a somewhat unique position to understand exactly what I mean. This blog has been a great read through and through! I´m in such a weird mood today. I sat in silence for some time, feeling existential; connected to a kindred spirit in some mind-fucked way... Like our paths are intertwined though they never cross...Like your past just had an impact on my future. If nothing else, know that you´ve helped at least one lost soul - still in love with "that one RTS" and the dream of pitting his own mind and body against that of the best. I need to finish the story, write the last page of the final chapter that was left blank. Know that you played a part in guiding me in this decision (which I know now, was the right one), by sharing your own thoughts, personal and professional, in such great detail. For that, no matter the outcome of my own journey, you have my sincere thanks. Yours have truly been an inspiring one. I´m saddened that I never got a chance to meet you face to face after having spent so many hours studying your stream and listening to your thoughts on the game (dat Hellion/Banshee Meta-prediction!), I would have loved to pick your brain. Nevertheless, I wish you nothing but the best for the future. That you find something to fill the hole that so often consumes people that are so highly competative in nature, when we leave progaming behind. And that you´ll always look back fondly on your memories of years of strife and success within eSports. Regards, Alexander "Glaive" Angleby | ||
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